Chaos is like a dream, and the years of passing water are not confused

1: A few peanuts and rice in the mouth of the life thunderbolt

One summer evening 33 years ago, an uncle surnamed Liu from the next village came to the door with two bottles of liquor and asked his father, who was a member of the brigade, to run errands. Neighbors, since people have come to bring wine, they naturally have to get two home-cooked dishes to drink two cups. So, in the dim oil light line, two big men sat bare-chested at the small table propped up on the bamboo bed, drinking hot and chatting. At that time, I was 11 years old, between the stage of not being big or small, being sensible and not understanding things, bored and having nothing to do, and not having a TV to watch mobile phones brush vibrato, I wore a pair of big shorts, rubbing around next to the bamboo bed, and I focused on taking advantage of the fact that the two big men were not paying attention to the conversation, quickly grabbing a few peanuts and rice, and throwing them into the mouth. In that era when there were no snacks, fried peanut rice was really fragrant and tempting!

Uncle Liu's son was admitted to college and wanted to move to the city hukou, so he came to his father to open a certificate and stamp it. In the mid-1980s, families were still in a similar situation of low oil and salt and poor money, and one son was admitted to university, and after graduation, the state would assign jobs and become a city person. Then marry a city daughter-in-law, have a city baby, and then future generations become city people. This kind of son who has a great potential for the spark with lightning and lightning is the envy of everyone. Liu Bo also could not suppress the happiness in his heart, and the red light on his face was brighter than the dim butter lamp in my house.

Looking back now, at that time, I was really stupid and did not judge the situation, since talking about children, parents will naturally communicate with each other. Everyone's kids are in college, and I'm still a shrimp rice in elementary school. Once we talk about the gap between me and others, isn't this going to pick up the pressure of a flower and fruit mountain to carry? I don't know how to hide far away. And I was stupid, still thinking about stealing a few more peanuts. So, Liu Bo saw me dangling in front of his eyes, and asked his father about me, how many grades are I studying, how are my grades? To tell the truth, compared to the children of the same age at that time, I was still a smart and clever ghost. When every partner is playing with mud with snot, I like to read and learn, and occasionally I can borrow a book of extracurricular martial arts novels and the like, and I will be hungry and thirsty to see that I can almost recite it backwards. In the 5th grade of elementary school, the results have been good, and if the performance is stable, it should be able to be admitted to the key middle school in the town. Therefore, when my father talked about me, he was quite confident and pleased. So, Liu Bo touched my head and said that Uncle Nabo had a question to test you: how to add, subtract, multiply, and divide 4 3s, and the number is equal to 8 and 10. I couldn't avoid it too late, and the eyes of my father, Liu Bo and my family all looked at me. Suddenly, I let go of the hand that grabbed the peanut rice, and sat down on the edge of the bamboo bed with remorse and thought.

The question is not difficult, in fact, Liu Bo's original intention is only to hand a ladder to the podium, I answered it and praised my parents for my intelligence, is a reading material, and will definitely be able to enter the university in the future, be a city person and so on. But I don't have enough IQ or drop the line, and I don't know how to take a pen and scratch paper. Just sit there and try to solve the problem. After a few minutes, before I figured it out, my heart began to be anxious, and the more anxious I was, the more I observed the look of expectation of my father, Liu Bo and my mother and sister next to me, and I began to hang up embarrassment, and my heart was even more anxious. In the end, I still couldn't stand the pressure of time and adult eyes, and I said I couldn't do it. Liu Bo immediately took the stubble round field and said that it is all right, maybe you have not yet learned to add, subtract, multiply and divide, and also grabbed the peanut rice in my palm comfortingly. I felt that I was out of trouble, did not dare to pick up, timidly looked at my father, whose expression did not change much, and nodded with a slight hint of disappointment. Holding the peanut rice, I walked away embarrassed and relieved to the side, feeling my face burn red.

Liu Bo's arrival that night made me understand the very real vision of life after reading good books - to be a city person, to live a dream life like a flying fairy outside the sky, to think that it is really incredibly tempting! At the same time, this glorious Liu Bo, who has cultivated a college student son, the image and posture of a successful father, is like a college examiner, and I am stuck in his questions, just like a student facing the failure of the examiner. The peanuts and rice in his hand were also not fragrant, and the hope and courage of just being inspired by the temptation to study well and get ahead in college were immediately like a punctured balloon, snapping to the ground.

This frustration made me lonely for a long time, and I couldn't get out of it!

A few years later, I really didn't go to college. A few years later, he also became the city people who envied and looked up in his dreams. However, time has passed, and the people in the city at that time were eager to buy land in the countryside and live a rural life of farmers and mountain springs. After working hard, the world has a tendency to reincarnate towards my starting point.

I was dumbfounded!