Inscription: When sorting out the bookcase, I looked at my lover and I from the end of 1981 to 1994 from love to marriage for a full 12 years, except for the annual mutual visit holiday after 1986, basically every 10 days a letter, a few kilograms, looking at this heavy pile of letters, from the sweetness of love to the worries after marriage to the difficulty of having children, the scene appeared in front of me again. When cleaning up, I also found a "bitter and sweet memory of a rural youth" written more than 30 years ago (judging from the number of the letter paper should be written in 1987), an autobiographical manuscript of more than 8,000 words, which was displayed to everyone on the headline platform, and the places that were not smooth enough in the text were slightly modified and some notes were added.
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(Continued from the previous part) The most memorable thing for me was the Spring Festival in 1981, by chance, I met with this female classmate of high school, in my heart I was really happy, but I didn't say a few words when I met, but this time I was not as stupid as before, I asked her for her home address, when I left she also asked me to play at her house, this meeting aroused the good memories of my high school days. During the Spring Festival anyway, nothing happened, after a few days I called a classmate of our team to prepare to go to her house, the first time I went I still remember the scene, on the way only asked a little girl to find her home.
The purpose of my going at that time, even I did not know myself, maybe I wanted to find the good time of high school, maybe there were other purposes, after arriving at her house, her mother, my current mother-in-law, warmly received us, this "she" is my current lover, I introduced myself and said "yes ╳╳╳", so my mother-in-law immediately sent my little sister to call my lover, the first to come back was her sister, her sister said after seeing us how not to recognize ah! I hurriedly said: "Yes ╳╳╳" classmates," which made my originally nervous heart even more embarrassed, her face was red, and then she came back, the old classmates naturally had unspeakable happiness when they met, we talked a lot, talked about some of the situations of their respective graduations, and some situations about their classmates, about 3 or 4 hours, after coming back to me, I began to worry, I think she was also 17-8 years old at the time, according to the habits of our countryside at that time, a big girl like her should definitely find her in-laws. I wanted to ask, but I was embarrassed to ask. Every time I went to my uncle's house, I took a detour to pass them, and twice I actually ran into her. I remember the most vivid time is the Dragon Boat Festival, I took a detour to her house to her uncle's house, when I came back to meet her, at this time my heart does not mention how happy, after a few times of meeting the words are naturally more, and not so shy, it should be said that she is still quite good to me, after meeting, she invited me to her home, I feel that the opportunity has come, I pushed away while tentatively saying, your family has guests, right? (Note: In our local area, if there is an object, the New Year's Holiday is to visit the woman's home), when I say this, I also pay attention to her expression, she should also know what I mean by this, she said with a hippie smile: "You are a guest", which I am relieved, indicating that she has not yet found her in-laws. However, she was not at ease, and came to a tit-for-tat, and said more directly, she said: "When will you invite me to eat sugar?" So I also gave her a satisfactory short answer, I said: "If I have sugar to eat, you must be the first to know", I did not go to her house, just on the road after a while I quit. Since we first met, she also wanted to know about me, and she asked what I was doing now? Is it still in school, I said no, working at home, she still does not believe, she does not believe, I think I am a young man with ideals in her heart, so I do not believe that I will give up. At that time, there should be a desire to understand each other's situation, but always can not open the face, the two families are not far apart, but can only walk on two feet, when the weather is good to work at home, naturally there is not much chance to see each other, we spent half a year to understand each other's situation. To be honest, since we first met after graduation, I was afraid that she would be taken away by others, and I was anxious and wanted to know about her situation, but I couldn't find the right opportunity, and this time a stone finally landed. Since then, I miss her even more, I want to see her, I want to go to her house whenever I am okay, but because of my inferiority complex, I dare not go more, just by chance, I also pretend to be passing by, and I don't reveal my joy when I see her, I don't know if this is inferiority, and I don't know if she will misunderstand.
(To be continued)
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