"There was once a sincere love in front of me, I did not cherish, and when I lost it, I regretted it, and the most painful thing in the world was this."
If Heaven could give me a chance to do it again, I would say three words to the girl: I love you.
If I had to add a deadline to this love, I would have liked to be ten thousand years. ”
Perhaps, the filter of "Journey to the West" is too thick.
Zixia's expression of affection that wanted to say goodbye, and the confession of the Supreme Treasure that could not be reached, are still vividly remembered to this day.
So much so that most of us think that the "white moonlight" that Zhou Xingchi remembers and loves in his heart is Zhu Yin.
In fact, Zhou Xingchi's characterization of this relationship is only, "there is no beginning, how to end".
To put it bluntly, his deep affection for Zhu Yin is far less profound than the public imagination.
So, who is the Purple Xia Fairy in Zhou Xingchi's heart?
Who is the woman who made him cry out with blood and tears, "You can't love you if you wear the golden hoop, and you can't save you if you take off the golden hoop"?
She, named Luo Huijuan, is Zhou Xingchi's first love, and she is a tragic woman whose name is extremely plain, but it has influenced the emotions of Xingye's life.
In 1988, the 26-year-old Zhou Xingchi, who had been running the dragon set for 5 years, was hit by fate and had the honor of starring in the TV series "Ade is also crazy".
Strange to say, he played a small supporting role called "Lin Xiong", but he had the opportunity to play a kissing scene with the heroine in Episode 1.
This drama is of great significance to Zhou Xingchi.
He not only gave the "first kiss on the screen", but also met the woman who made him read all his life, 22-year-old Luo Huijuan.
At that time, Luo Huijuan was a well-known TVB Hua Dan.
A round face full of collagen flashed a pair of big talking eyes, a smile, lively and generous, like a wisp of sun that could not be stopped, illuminating the heart of an introverted and shy teenager.
And Zhou Xingchi, who is despised all day long, can scold him with a "dead running dragon set".
The difference in identity cannot stop the beautiful sincerity of first love.
Luo Huijuan did not dislike Zhou Xingchi's namelessness, and she tried to introduce various performance resources to Zhou Xingchi.
They acted on the lines together, and after the play, they bought vegetables and cooked, and lived a happy life in the fireworks world.
Because of his love affair with Luo Huijuan, Zhou Xingchi, who has suffered from life since childhood, revealed the happiest smile in his life.
Although the two can only secretly fall in love and cannot be made public, everyone around them knows that they love each other warmly.
Zhang Guorong revealed with a smile: "Zhou Xingchi has a lot of love for his girlfriend. ”
It is indeed difficult to imagine that Zhou Xingchi, who is silent in the eyes of everyone, will take advantage of the opportunity to go to the United States to shoot movies and go around to buy the most popular big brother phone at that time to please Juanmei.
He also took a special leave of absence to take his girlfriend to Macau to watch fireworks to celebrate the New Year.
Perhaps, all the romance and patience of Zhou Xingchi's life were all handed over to Luo Huijuan.
I don't know whether it was Luo Huijuan Wangfu or Zhou Xingchi's years of suffering that touched the heavens.
After the two were together, Zhou Xingchi's career went all the way up, and the love affair between the two was even more intense.
Luo Huijuan bluntly told the media that if she wanted to marry someone, she would choose someone like Zhou Xingchi.
Zhou Xingchi also excitedly told his friend: "I want to get married." ”
But the people around him advised him not to worry, when a man is young, he should put his career first, and he must not be delayed by the children's love in front of him.
Zhou Xingchi, who has been running the dragon set for many years, is full of ambition, he knows the importance of career to himself, so he decided to wait for the career to become a success before getting married.
Unfortunately, not everyone will wait where they are.
In September 1992, Luo Huijuan and Zhou Xingchi broke up.
However, this breakup seems to be very unhappy.
Because Luo Huijuan once said bitterly to the media that the three years she and Zhou Xingchi spent dragging on was really unbearable.
At that time, Zhou Xingchi's career entered the fast lane and he was obsessed with work all day.
Even if the two take time to meet, Luo Huijuan wants to talk to her boyfriend about her heart, and Zhou Xingchi is full of work and can't tolerate his girlfriend in his eyes.
The relationship between Luo Huijuan and her future mother-in-law Ling Bao'er is not good, and Zhou Xingchi, who comes from a single-parent family, listens to his mother everywhere, even if he wronged his girlfriend for his mother, he does not care.
What broke Luo Huijuan's heart even more was that when she put down her reticence and revealed her heart to Zhou Xingchi that her dream since childhood was to have a home and wanted to be a good wife and mother, Zhou Xingchi replied to her fiercely: neuropathy.
After a piece of infatuation was tragically abused, Luo Huijuan, who was heartbroken, walked away without turning her head.
The encounters of life are always very different and unexpected.
After the breakup, Zhou Xingchi embarked on the peak of his career, with 7 movies released a year, word of mouth and box office, and made a lot of money.
No one will call him Star Boy at will, and after that, there is only the box office celebrity that everyone pursues: Star Ye.
And Luo Huijuan's life is like getting a bad script and going all the way down.
In 1997, a sudden financial crisis caused Luo Huijuan's assets to shrink sharply, coupled with the deception of bad friends, and she was in debt overnight.
Wave after wave, wave after wave.
Passionate about diving, she actually encountered an accident while swimming, completely deaf in one ear, and had to retire from the show business circle.
After the breakup, Zhou Xingchi, who has been silently concerned about Luo Huijuan's situation, sent greetings at the first time when he heard the news, and Luo Huijuan replied to him: "See the truth in suffering!" Goodbye is also a friend. ”
Zhou Xingchi was affectionate, trying to turn his past guilt into a little bit of care, melting the solid ice between the two.
But the phrase "You're insane!" The poking words, like a knife, pierced the emotionally delicate and sensitive Luo Huijuan, and her body was scaled.
Even though she knows that Zhou Xingchi is remorseful and has cared for herself for many years, she still uses the word "friend" to draw a rest on the relationship that is no longer compound.
When the house leaked overnight, Luo Huijuan suffered from depression again, and her life became worse and worse.
It was not until she was 41 years old that she married a Singaporean financial talent who had been in love for 10 years, 16 years older than herself, and saw that the beautiful life of a house of two people with three meals and four seasons was close at hand.
Unfortunately, fate is too merciless.
On June 22, 2010, Luo Huijuan was found to have pancreatic cancer.
It is said that the day of diagnosis happens to be Zhou Xingchi's birthday.
There is much suffering in life, and there is nothing more to create and tease people than this.
At the time of the countdown of her life, Luo Huijuan looked back on the ups and downs she had experienced over the years and was very distressed about herself.
She said that she was honest and honest in her life, but fate was too thin, giving her a road that was too bumpy.
Looking back on the past, the most cheerful day for her is probably the green years when she fell in love with Zhou Xingchi.
However, this is the end of the matter, and the emptiness and sorrow will not help.
In order not to let the people who care about her be too sad, Luo Huijuan endured severe pain and filmed a last words monologue of about 8 minutes.
In front of the camera, she frankly gave a set of statements for her departure: "This is the grace of God, my life is so complete, it is a happy departure." ”
Such tenacity and optimism is really heart-wrenching and regrettable!
Four months later, Luo Huijuan died at the age of 46.
I don't know whether it was too much grief or out of suspicion, Zhou Xingchi did not personally go to the scene to mourn, but instead sent a wreath with the name of "Mrs. Liu Luohuijuan" written on it to chat about the memorial.
Instead of writing Juan Mei, but writing so-and-so's wife, it is said that Luo Huijuan once expressed that she hoped not to be called Juan Mei again, she wanted to be called Mrs. Liu, so as to give her husband face.
You know, that was just a smooth remark she said in an interview with the media, and it was actually remembered by Zhou Xingchi.
But if when she was young, every word she said Zhou Xingchi could be taken to heart, the end might not be like this today.
Unfortunately, the soul of the Yi people will not return to heaven, and this feeling can only become a heart-wrenching and unbearable recollection for the rest of his life.
After that, Zhou Xingchi integrated his thoughts about Luo Huijuan into the movie and wrote a love letter to her.
In "The King of Comedy", Yin Tianqiu shouts to his beloved Liu Piaopiao, "I raise you".
In response to the question issued by Luo Huijuan in the acquaintance of the two people, "Ade is also crazy":
"I don't do it, are you going to raise me?"
In "Journey to the West to Descend the Devil", "Miss Duan", played by Shu Qi, enthusiastically confessed to the "Tang Monk" played by the article.
"I have a little ideal, that is, to find someone to organize a family with him to have a baby, and then a simple life, that person is you." 」
Tang Monk looked embarrassed and shocked, and couldn't help but blurt out, "Neurosis! ”
This is not only Zhou Xingchi's divine restoration of his rejection of Luo Huijuan, but it is not full of self-blame and remorse.
In the interview before the release of the movie, Zhou Xingchi, who is accustomed to expressing emotions, unabashedly and bluntly complained, "In fact, I am worried about Miss Duan, I can't let go of her, and I want her to be there." ”
Perhaps, as he grows older, when he dreams back in the middle of the night, his thoughts of the deceased become more and more unforgettable, and Zhou Xingchi is always and everywhere through the movie expression.
Luo Huijuan's ashes were buried in Dapeng Bay, Shenzhen, so Zhou Xingchi filmed the movie "The Mermaid" there;
Luo Huijuan had a wish to be a mermaid in her life, and Zhou Xingchi specially created the role of Lin Yun, a mermaid;
Luo Huijuan was called "Luo Angel" by her friends in private, and Zhou Xingchi asked Deng Chao to call out a confession of "you are an angel" to Lin Yun;
Even, Zhou Xingchi used the mouth of the male protagonist in the play to express his thoughts about Juan Mei in the air,
"I have everything now, but I'm lonely. No one in this world can understand me, except you. ”
Once the sea was shipwrecked as water, except for the Wushan Mountain is not a cloud.
Today, the 58-year-old Zhou Xingchi, who is full of hair and still alone, is still reminiscing about his young lover in his own way.
And Luo Huijuan, who is far away on the other side of the world, if she sees this scene, she does not know whether she is happy or sad.
Fate was very unfair to her, so that she suffered bad luck at a young age, and Fang Hua died early.
And fate had been kind to her, because throughout her life, there was a man who had always loved her from before to now.
The situation in this world is unclear and chaotic.
If you don't want to leave hatred empty, you can only cherish the person in front of you.
. END .
【Text| South Wind】
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