A lifetime of encounters

It is said that the mother is at home, the brothers and sisters at the mother's home are all family, and the mother is not a relative. This statement is not wrong at all.

My fate is very bumpy, when I was young, my family was particularly difficult, from my memory, the family is either no rice or no noodles, but, my grandmother's family is in the countryside, every autumn harvest will leave some rice noodles for my family, when it comes to school, because the hukou is different from the place of residence, it belongs to the loan students, at that time, borrowing, you need to pay the borrowing fee, but also do not advocate nine years of compulsory education, the teacher looks at my home is really difficult, even the book fee can not be paid, the teacher at that time is very responsible, communicate with the superior, exempt me from all the costs, So I finished elementary school. When I was in junior high school, my father did not agree to let me continue to study, but my mother saw that I washed my face with tears every day, so my mother went to the middle school where I was going at that time, found the director of the teaching office, told him about the situation at home, and the director of the teaching office also exempted me from the fee, so my middle school was also finished. High school is not so easy to read, because the material fee can not be taken out, will be discriminated against by classmates, ridiculed. In the end, I couldn't read anymore and had to drop out of school.

Finally, I found a job in this small county, when the salary was a clothing salesman in the small county, the monthly salary was two or three hundred yuan, but full of energy. Later, I thought that the clothing store was not doing well, the store was closed, and I lost my job. In the years that followed, I went to Guangzhou, to Jinan, to Beijing, and I started a real part-time career. I met my boyfriend through a friend's introduction, and he was pretty good to me at the time. Now that I think about it, my heart at that time may have wanted a stability, and when the two of us had been in contact with each other for more than a year, his family began to urge us to get married. But at that time, the people in my family disagreed. Because he spoke straight and straight, the family did not look good, and later, I ignored the family's opposition to our marriage, and the life after marriage was carefree, because living with the elderly, our days in addition to the trivial matters of some disputes, the rest is also very good. At the end of the year, my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer and had surgery. It wasn't until August 2017 that he suddenly went out of his way and asked me to quit my current job and get a divorce. At that time, I didn't know why, so I quarreled with him, and finally I went back to my mother's house and told my mother the reason for the quarrel. Finally, a friend of his told me that he had someone out there and said everything about using him as a cover to date the woman privately. When I heard this news, to be honest, my heart was particularly uncomfortable, because we had not had children in the past few years of marriage, not that we had not thought about it, but we considered making the marriage stable and wanting it again, I did not expect such a thing to happen, I listened to his friend say these things, I called him directly, explained the situation, he denied it at the time, and finally he and his family came to my parents' house to tell me about it, remembering the scene at that time, I said: "If you divorce it like this"! None of his family agreed, and finally he knelt down in front of me and spoke to me with assurances. My heart is also very soft, and I feel that as a man, I have guaranteed this, maybe his friends are talking nonsense! So, I went back to his house with them, I thought we should have a child, in January 2018 when I did the examination, I found that I was pregnant, the family was very happy, I was looking forward to the arrival of this new life, so I was pregnant for 5 months, suddenly, he said that he couldn't pass, there were people outside who wanted to divorce, at that time his parents and relatives and friends knew about this matter, they were advising him, I said to do it with the child, don't let the child become a single parent, so the childhood is too gray. His family didn't agree to me going to make the baby, and he promised not to continue with the woman. I foolishly thought it was over. But when the child was 28 weeks old, he started to not return home, did not care about anything, and went to live with the woman. This time, I really want to divorce, think about this child, before it was born, it was destined to be a single-parent family, just at that time I had to go through the divorce procedures, his family did not agree, and finally there was no way, I told my mother, at that time, my mother's body was not as good as a day, but my mother said: "I am still alive?" Mom won't leave you alone in a day, you still have a home." I went straight back to my mother's house and waited for the baby to be born, because the month was older, and the hospital would not be doing induction surgery, but could only give birth. Two months later, I was in a health care center for a pediculum delivery, and when I came out of the operation, I found that he and his parents had come, and because of the operation, I saw that he was upset and did not talk to them. The next day he urged me out of the hospital, and I was so angry that I let him go. Later, when the child was older, I said privately to him that the formalities were done, and he agreed. I finally divorced, became a single mother, and now seeing my children grow up happy and happy every day, I feel particularly uncomfortable in my heart, what is missing in the child's childhood is not the word father, but fatherly love. I stayed at home for a few months because I didn't quit my job. The leader has always taken good care of me, given me maternity leave, maternity leave expires to return to the unit to report, my mother's health is so bad, or with me back to this strange and familiar small place for me, and finally my sister showed me a year of children, originally new year home want to stay more days, but the epidemic came, there is no way, back to work. But these few days were the last days of my life with my mother.

On the fifteenth day of the first month, my mother was once again knocked down by the disease and admitted to the hospital, and finally on February 20, 2020, when everyone was fighting the epidemic and staying at home. My life changed a lot, and from this day on, I became an orphan and have been alone ever since. In this world, no one, because I'm busy, will say to me to remember to eat on time and remember to pay attention to the body. What happened in these two days? Why didn't I call my mother. When I was sad and sad, there was no one to talk about, it was all held in my heart, and I enlightened myself.