Letter to Dad

Dad, huh! I'd like to call you that. I really miss you, but I can't see you like that yet, because I still have some problems that have not been solved. Dad, I don't think I've ever called you "Daddy" a few times! I haven't called for many years, maybe 2078 years! Do you still know me? I've always been there, and I've never changed. I turned 30 years old after my birthday this year, it was so fast, "about the matter of recognizing my mother", I know better than any of you, I did not recognize, because I did not have a memory of my mother has been 2078 years, I can't accept it at once, huh! What a grievance! I can't accept your dedication to me, I can't accept that you lost your cool because of me, and now you have become like this. I'm a mortal like you now, and I can only wait for the opportunity to make the ending a little more perfect. There is a saying called "It's not my fault, but my existence is my fault", well don't say this, Dad, I can't remember what you and your sister looked like, you have changed too much, I dare not recognize you, I really miss you, I want to go back. I really want to go back and be a normal person, and I feel like I'm suffering from schizophrenia now. Dancing between normal and abnormal is not fun, so tired! But I want to go back like this, and I'm sorry for what you said to me! I think I'm still sticking to it, I swim in my own tears every day, it's especially fun, it's just very tired! Dad, you must want to ask me, what did you say to me, I told you "as a man of the Yang family, you have to be responsible" Hehe! I always remember! It's you guys! I've been too busy to see me! I don't have much ability, but I have a heart, I hope that one day I will take my children to see my mother and you, I hope you don't say you don't know me, I am thin-skinned, I will be very sad! Dad, my biggest skill before was to pretend to be crazy and stupid. Otherwise, you wouldn't have been able to see me a long time ago, I was not a big disaster, but I was pretending to be crazy and selling stupid to help me, otherwise I would have died a long time ago, huh! My current body is estimated to be no match for your body, but it's okay, it will get better slowly, this is all a small problem. Dad, I'll be back, and I'll cry to you!