In the morning, I saw the news that the Internet celebrity died of drinking pesticides in the live broadcast room, and I was sad. Netizens who shouted "drink quickly" on the side became the last straw that crushed her, and she was heartbroken.
The world is so beautiful, why can't you give others a little more patience and love?
We often ignore the people and things around us, and a kind smile and enthusiastic directions on the side of the road may save a fragile heart.
Now many people and programs are also committed to letting everyone see the details around them, releasing our vulnerability for others to see, many people may be strong and independent representatives before people, but the story of people we do not know, know more people's vulnerability and loneliness, in order to better appreciate themselves.
Recently watched a variety show: 7 young people who were wandering and working in Shanghai stayed in the homes of 3 elderly people living alone in Shanghai and lived together for 21 days.
At first, I thought it was a short, touching program for young people, but after watching it, I was silent.
The first thing that hit me was: Liu Xuehua.
Liu Xuehua, who was born in 1959, is 62 years old, and before the show was broadcast, I did not expect that she would be classified as an "old man living alone" who had been popular all over the country.
Liu Xuehua once had countless followers on the screen, and after her husband fell from the building in 2011, she became an "old man", an "old man who lived alone" who would not even change the TV, thinking that 10 years ago she was only 52 years old, and all this was also related to her experience in the first half of her life.
Liu Xuehua was born in Beijing to a wealthy family, the youngest child in the family, because she was born in winter, so her name has "snow".
Father Liu is very strict with the children, and if the children make mistakes, they need to kneel in front of him and admit their mistakes. Liu's father, who graduated from a famous school, also insisted that his children learn some noble and elegant culture, whether the children are willing to learn or not, Liu Xuehua has learned Chinese painting since childhood. However, Liu Xuehua has been rebellious since childhood and likes to walk according to his own ideas. At one point, she quietly took part in a shot put game. In order to avoid her father finding out about this, she also deliberately put her sneakers at school.
For the matter of being an actor, it is also Liu Xuehua's own idea.
At the age of 5, the Liu family moved to Hong Kong, where she saw a more prosperous world and more unique personality. When she went to school, the school uniform was a blue cheongsam, and she didn't like to wear it, so she wore a pair of shorts inside the cheongsam, tucked the skirt into the shorts, and then ran to the playground to play wildly.
Liu Xuehua also has a lot of inner drama, likes to "self-direct and self-act", once she pretended to have a stomachache on the bus, there was really someone to care about her, she felt very happy, because this shows that she acted well.
At the age of fifteen or sixteen, Liu Xuehua has already fallen out of Chuchu moving, Liu Father's business is doing well, and there are many friends in the film and television industry. Once the red star Lin Chuchu (Li Zi's grandmother) came to the house as a guest, saw Liu Xuehua's beautiful appearance and generous temperament, and casually suggested that his father might as well let Xuehua try the show business circle.
Lin Chuchu may just say it casually, but Liu Xuehua is in his heart, and the dream of stardom is becoming clearer and clearer. Liu's father originally did not agree to his daughter entering this circle, but Liu Xuehua found Lin Chuchu as a lobbyist, and Liu's father finally agreed to let his daughter enter the show business circle.
In 1978, Liu Xuehua was admitted to the Great Wall Film Company, and with his excellent appearance, Liu Xuehua soon received a play.
Participated in films such as "Can't Help It", "The Tale of the Heavenly Pro", "The Legend of the White-Haired Witch", but at that time, hong Kong martial arts films were popular, so at that time, Liu Xuehua played most of the roles of some chivalrous women, and these roles without exception did not splash any splash. However, at that time, TVB was very optimistic about her, hoping to sign her, and even took the cooperation opportunity of Zhou Runfa to tempt her to sign a brokerage contract, but Liu Xuehua had a small idea, she felt that whether the future of the Great Wall was unknown, and TVB's signing conditions were too harsh, so she switched to Shaw's main film.
In Shaw's, Liu Xuehua still walks the path of playing women (because she walks quickly with the wind and is considered very good at fighting by Dillon), and seeing that she seems to be hopeless, she is assigned to play the role of "elder", such as the main villain "Mute Shitai" in "Wulin Sacred Fire Order", or "Huang Rong" in "Yang Guo and the Little Dragon Girl".
In 1983, Liu Xuehua cooperated with ATV to star in the court drama "Young Girl Cixi", which was called "the first drama of Saying Cixi", which mainly told the story of the first half of Empress Dowager Cixi's life, because of the novel theme, it hit a high rating when it was broadcast in Hong Kong, and created a precedent for ATV to produce historical figure dramas, and Liu Xuehua also became popular.
After becoming famous, Liu Xuehua received an invitation from Wanwan and starred in two dramas that were heroines. And this trip to the bay also let Qiong Yao see her.
In 1985, Liu Xuehua wanted to meet with Qiong Yao, before meeting, Liu Xuehua was very nervous and worried that he was old, smoking big brand walking with the wind would be disliked by Qiong Yao, did not expect that after meeting, she and Qiong Yao quickly identified each other. At that time, The Bay Of Literature and Art Film became the mainstream, Liu Xuehua followed Qiong Yao to move to the Bay Bay, and Qiong Yao did not treat her badly, in a period of five years, as long as there is Qiong Yao's play, the heroine must be Liu Xuehua.
In early 1986, her TV series "Several Degrees of Sunset Red" with Qin Han was broadcast, and Liu Xuehua became a hit, and in the same year, Liu Xuehua played Lu Yiping in "Smoke and Rain".
In 1987, Liu Xuehua starred in "Courtyard Deep", which successfully won the ratings championship with a high rating of more than 50%, and created a viewing miracle of Qiong Yao drama in the 80s. In the selection of the Golden Bell Awards in the same year, Liu Xuehua was nominated for the best actress of the "Taiwan Television Golden Bell Awards" for her two works, "Several Degrees of Sunset Red" and "Smoke and Rain". In a poll held in Taiwan, she topped the "Most Popular Artists" list.
In 1988, Liu Xuehua won the Best Actress Award at the First Golden Lion Award for Chinese Film and Television in Paris, France for "Deep in the Courtyard".
In 1989, Liu Xuehua played two characters with very different personalities in the TV series "Seagull Flying in the Clouds".
From 1990 to 1992, Liu Xuehua starred in Qiong Yao's "Six Dreams" series of TV series - "Dumb Wife", "Three Flowers", "Xueke", "Qingqing Riverside Grass", of which "Dumb Wife" won the 1991 "Taiwan Television Golden Bell Award" Best Drama Series Award.
Liu Xuehua's most characteristic performance is her crying, she cries softly with strength, tears roll down like beads, one tear in her left eye, and two tears on the right have become classics.
Liu Xuehua once said that she is easy to enter the play, and does not use much to cultivate emotions, the director shouted "open wheat la", she immediately cried sadly, and Liu Xuehua is also the most crying, crying best actress recognized by Qiong Yao.
If I want to say that I see pity, Liu Xuehua should be the first. Liu Xuehua once said: "If you cry out all the pain in the play, you will be happy in life." "But is that really the case?
There is never a shortage of beauty in the show business, and as you get older, the highlight moments that belong to Liu Xuehua will eventually pass.
After 1992, Liu Xuehua received far less plays than before, and even if they were the same bitter love dramas, there were many fewer people watching them.
However, Liu Xuehua did not take her career as seriously as much in those years, so a girl who can perform romantic dramas naturally yearns for love in her heart, and as a beautiful female star, she naturally does not lack flower protectors around her.
At the age of 21, Liu Xuehua fell in love with a businessman surnamed Tao, who was 13 years older than her, which was also the confidence that she would think that the TVB signing conditions were too harsh to turn around and leave. At the beginning, businessmen surnamed Tao liked to play mahjong, and once they played mahjong, they would forget Liu Xuehua, which made Liu Xuehua very angry. But the businessman surnamed Tao had a way, so he taught Liu Xuehua to play mahjong by hand, and as a result, Liu Xuehua fell in love with mahjong, even more than his boyfriend.
However, later, because of the disagreement of the Liu family or the more and more majong played by the merchant surnamed Tao or Liu Xuehua wanted to run a career, the two broke up.
In 1989, Qiong Yao's "Six Dreams" series began filming, and Liu Xuehua found that zhang Peihua, the male partner of this time, seemed to be a little different.
At that time, 35-year-old Zhang Peihua was enabled to play the male lead in the series of "Wan Jun" and "Three Flowers", when the crew was filmed in Beijing, it was winter, the cold was extremely cold, the actors were not satisfied with the soil and water and could not find a restaurant that suited their tastes, this Zhang Peihua began to change the pattern, cooking all kinds of food every day for everyone to eat, all kinds of thoughtfulness and differences, so that Liu Xuehua, who was already 30 years old, was moved.
Three months ago, after the scene was filmed, Liu Xuehua and Zhang Peihua lived together. But not long after living together, Liu Xuehua discovered her boyfriend's "special hobbies".
It turned out that in 1979, Zhang Peihua became fascinated with this dog after accidentally seeing a Tibetan mastiff and decided to buy it to cultivate himself. After Liu Xuehua arrived, he found that Zhang Peihua was still cooking and considerate, but this thought was used on the dog. Liu Xuehua painstakingly arranged red wine and tableware at home, lit a romantic candle, and as a result, Zhang Peihua went home to take a look and shouted what are you going to do...
It didn't take long for the two to break up, Qiong Yao was in a hurry, and I wrote a "Xueke" specifically for the two of you! But Liu Xuehua's eyes narrowed: break up or friends, filming is no problem!
In fact, to tell the truth, if Liu Xuehua was with Zhang Peihua in those years, there would not be so many tribulations later, and men who like dogs to study dogs at least don't bother.
In 1990, Liu Xuehua and Liu Dekai came together because of a play, but she did not know that Liu Dekai was married, and Liu Dekai did not tell her.
And Liu Dekai also held an engagement party, so that Liu Xuehua never suspected his boyfriend.
When Liu Xuehua showed love in a high profile, the media pulled out the fact that Liu Dekai was married and already had three children, and for a time Liu Xuehua became the "little three" in the crowd. Liu Dekai comforted Liu Xuehua, saying that he and his wife had long since lost their feelings and were going through divorce.
In 1997, Liu Xuehua became pregnant, and Liu Dekai, who could no longer drag on, promised to hold a wedding when he returned from filming in France.
Who thought, Liu Dekai did come back from France, and indeed prepared to hold a wedding, but the bride was a 20-year-old French girl Angel.
Liu Xuehua could not bear it, she was more than 6 months pregnant, because she was in a trance, she fell down in the bath, the child did not save, and was forced to remove the uterus. And the 30 million yuan she funded Liu Dekai has also been adrift, and has not been recovered so far. "At that time, Xuehua was very popular, the income was good, Andy Lau always wanted to be a producer, director, and start his own business, and Xuehua successively funded him with nearly 30 million (NT$)."
In the following years, Liu Xuehua healed his wounds alone and then went to the mainland to develop.
In 1999, at a party, 40-year-old Liu Xuehua met 53-year-old screenwriter Deng Yukun, and after several months of love, the two lightning married.
Do not doubt the feelings and stability of this marriage, after marriage, Deng Yukun took care of all the housework, but also often wrote love poems to coax his wife, although the two did not have children, but Deng Yukun treated Liu Xuehua as a child to pet, every day to get up to coax, before going to bed, he would touch her back, like when the mother coaxed the child to coax her to sleep, Liu Xuehua also laughed at himself by Deng Yukun to take care of life can not take care of himself.
"Thank you For Liu Dekai's grace of not marrying, otherwise you would not have met your later husband."
This was probably the sweetest period of Liu Xuehua's adult life, but such a sweet day came to an abrupt end on July 4, 2011.
On July 5, 2011, the media broke the news of Liu Xuehua's husband's death, when the outside world speculated that Deng Yukun could not withstand the torture of heart disease and chose to commit suicide, but this statement was denied by Liu Xuehua: "I do not believe that he committed suicide, he has no reason to commit suicide." ”
"No one commits suicide and takes that flowerpot down and goes down on the little bench, and that's the feeling that he's going to kick something, and when he comes back, he won't kick the flowerpot." Liu Xuehua believes that Deng Yukun accidentally fell while adjusting the outdoor satellite TV receiver.
Because of the unnatural death, the police did not allow Liu Xuehua to see the body, and she could only kneel and prostrate herself. Oh, even if you see it, it will only increase sadness.
The cause of Deng Yukun's death remains a mystery to this day.
In order not to worry his family, Liu Xuehua hid his sadness in his heart and told himself that he had just gone to a "distant place" and would one day be together. After the death of Liu Xuehua's husband, Qiong Yao wrote a letter to Liu Xuehua, in which Qiong Yao wrote: "Dear Xuehua, go to filming! At this moment, in the world of playing someone else, it may be a little better than in your own world. "So shortly after the death of her husband, Liu Xuehua entered the crew again, wanting to use her work to relieve her injuries, and once lost weight into a paper person." I don't know how long it will take me to recover, when I was still in a completely unacceptable situation and had to numb myself by work."
On the first day of filming in the crew, Liu Xuehua found that the dressing room was so quiet, and everyone did not speak. She knew that everyone didn't know how to comfort themselves, and she didn't know what to say, so Liu Xuehua took the initiative to make jokes to enliven the atmosphere. During those days, she kept working, constantly keeping herself busy and numbing herself.
Over the years, Liu Xuehua has not stopped filming, and every year she can always be seen in one or two plays, and the role of the empress dowager and the like is lively and gorgeous.
But when she returned home, she had to stay in an empty house and live alone, "The TV was on 24 hours, but it was only on and off." ”
I didn't intend to accept new things.
With her husband's two dogs before she died became her "relatives", she went to a distant place to shoot a movie, because the dog did not dare to take a plane, the driving distance was as long as 3 days and 2 nights, she found 2 drivers to take turns to drive, and spent the night in a different hotel every night. "I'm older, and now I'm very picky, except for the role fit, my 2 dogs have to go to the places I can go to shoot", and gradually became a "lonely old man".
Some people have said that she lives in a large house of more than 200 square meters in Shanghai, has a nanny at home, has a driver for travel, and even walks the dog to be assisted by others.
But think about how enthusiastic and unrestrained she was at that time, and how free she was. In the past, she would also bring new people, such as Fan Bingbing when she signed Qiong Yao, which was recommended by Liu Xuehua, and Yuan Shanshan was also pushed by Liu Xuehua to Yu Zheng.
Now she seems to have lost her spirit and counted a day. Work will still work, but what else is there but work?
Think about how many 60-year-old people around us, still contributing residual heat in the square, but like a dying old lady, she only worries about which nursing home she will go to when she is old, and what should she do if she falls at home?
The world is impermanent and meaninglessly eternal. Look at the flowers blooming red, and watch the flowers fall in the twilight tree is empty.
On the day when everything disappears, she will live back to that happy her with that person.