Some time ago I saw a documentary, Miss Venus, which is a 2000 documentary, only 30 minutes, but it gave me a more comprehensive understanding of Venus.
Her open-mindedness, determination, courage, and daring to speak and do it hit me once again.
She recounts an encounter she had with a man on a plane who was overwhelmed by her charm and decided to go to her after learning the story of Venus. After an unforgettable 3 days of the two, Venus broke up with him, because it was an immoral relationship, the man had a wife, as Venus said, this is a special environment, a special feeling.
Feelings cannot be controlled, and it is a blessing to meet the right person at the wrong time, because you have truly felt love and will remember it with a lifetime, just like in "The Dream of the Covered Bridge", Kinkai and Francesca both spend the second half of their lives nostalgic for the short romance. But at the same time, it is also a kind of misfortune, because the love between you will hurt the third person, Venus is indeed a strange woman, when love comes, it will not be stagnant because of the eyes of others, self-pity, but when she feels that this relationship is immoral, she will not hurt others in order to complete her own happiness.
She said that before she did not go to the operation, because she worked in the army, a place that admired the beauty of masculinity, she had hoped to be a little more hairy, a little more masculine, but deep down she thought that she was a pure woman, this kind of career needs, I hope it is so, but I reject this, this contradictory psychological state.
In her narrative, from this very small detail, I learned about the first half of her contradictory life, and in the first 28 years of her life, this contradictory psychology must have always existed, and she has always coexisted with this contradiction, and during this period, it is by no means something that we ordinary people can empathize with. He persevered until he was 28 and succeeded in his career before fulfilling her 6-year-old dream of becoming a woman. Because only as a successful person can the world accept that you are different. It is precisely because of this extremely calm thinking that Venus looks luckier than the average transgender.
It's a great documentary that gave me a different kind of Venus than I'd seen before, and let me see a more flesh-and-blood Venus, full of my own thinking, brave and fearless, daring to take responsibility for my own choices.