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01
"Alas, this monthly examination of mathematics is difficult to reach a new realm, and the last two big questions have not even been made the first small question!"
"It just is."
Luo Xiaowei slowly moved with the flow of people in the crowded corridor, and when he heard the complaining voices of the people around him, the original low mood instantly improved. It turned out that she was not alone in finding it difficult, at least she had done the third question.
She calculated happily in her heart, and turned a corner at the corner of the stairs, and a tall familiar figure came into view.
Lo bai!
Luo Xiaowei's breathing began to be disordered, his heart beat faster, and the feeling of being uncomfortable returned.
Luo Bai and his good friend Lin Tian were just a few steps away from her. Luo Xiaowei felt that he could see himself as soon as he turned back, and he was even more nervous. Or should she go back and take the stairs on the other side?
But the stairs were so crowded that she couldn't turn around, so Luo Xiaowei had to continue to move forward, praying in his heart that Luo Bai wouldn't turn back.
He really didn't look back. However, when passing a corner again, Luo Bai walked to the lower staircase, inadvertently looked up, or saw an expressionless Luo Xiaowei.
Luo Xiaowei, who was originally staring at him, immediately looked away.
"Huh? Xiao Wei? The teenager's black and white eyes were full of doubt.
Luo Xiaowei pretended to have just seen him, and his eyes lit up: "Hey! ”
This acting skill must be lame! It's okay, it's just a hello, and they'll keep going.
However, Luo Bai said something to Lin Tian and stopped around the corner. Luo Xiaowei walked down with a stiff scalp: "Don't you eat with Lin Tian?" ”
Luo Bai went down the stairs side by side with her, and there was no expression on his face: "He can eat it himself." How did the math test go? ”
"It's okay, only the third question of the last two questions won't count."
"Hmm."
Luo Xiaowei wanted to find other topics to talk about, but he didn't know what to say, so he had to walk with his head down. Luo Bai, who usually said a lot of words, did not say anything.
Time seemed to slow down, the noise of the outside world was all drifting away, and the whole world was only left with these two silent people, only Luo Xiaowei's heartbeat was rattling.
It took only three or four minutes to descend the stairs, but she felt like a century had passed.
"I'm not feeling well tonight and don't really want to eat." She tried to finish speaking calmly, not daring to look at Luo Bai's more surprised eyes, so she turned and walked on another road back to the dormitory.
02
Luo Xiaowei knew that she must be extremely strange in Luo Bai's eyes now.
Although she is not as good as her girlfriend Julie of the opposite sex, she is not nervous as soon as she sees a boy like Xia He. She can communicate normally with other boys, not restrained, not shy, generous and natural. It's just that few people know this, because she is quiet and will only take the initiative to talk to acquaintances.
But Lo bai was aware that last semester they were front and back tables. The familiar Luo Bai often turned his head to talk to her. As soon as they came and went, they became acquainted.
Luo Bai has good grades, looks tall and handsome, plays basketball well, talks funny and funny, so he is very popular with the girls in the class.
Luo Xiaowei was very happy that he, who did not have many friends of the opposite sex, could make friends with Luo Bai. Together, they complained that the Chinese teacher had assigned many endorsement tasks and recommended books to each other. But most of the time it was she who was listening, and Lo bai was talking.
Luo Bai talked about the troubles of being chased and bitten by pigs when he was a child, the hundreds of love letters he received from childhood to adulthood, the behavior of girls who pursued him that made him hate, and occasionally talked about his worries about his sick grandfather. Luo Xiaowei looked at him intently and seriously, listening quietly, sometimes laughing, sometimes contemplating.
Luo Bai said: "It's very comfortable to talk to you, unlike many people who will only talk about their own things and will not listen." ”
Luo Xiaowei's small eyes narrowed into a crescent moon: "Is it? Probably because I like to listen to other people. ”
03
Luo Xiaowei thought since she was a child that she would like a gentle and elegant white boy with the aroma of books, so when her girlfriend asked her if she liked Luo Bai, she shook her head at the moment: "Luo Bai just sounds quiet and elegant in name, although he is very handsome and has a good personality, but it is not the type I like." ”
Unexpectedly, one day when the girls were chatting around Luo Bai, she was suddenly and inexplicably unhappy in her heart, and she had the feeling that her own things had been robbed. Having read many young adult novels, she knew she was in love with him.
When did you fall in love with him?
Luo Xiaowei didn't know, maybe the first time Luo Bai turned around to talk to her, maybe when Luo Bai said that it was comfortable to chat with her.
Liking someone never requires any reason.
04
When she found out that she liked Luo Bai, she had a strong sense of foreboding in her heart.
Luo Xiaowei has had a crush on several boys from childhood to adulthood. When she likes someone, instead of approaching, she wants to escape.
Sure enough, she was even more so for Lo Bai—she wanted to see him when she didn't see him, and she was happy to see him, but she was afraid to get close to him.
What's even more terrifying is that she gradually loses the ability to communicate with Luo Bai as usual. When Luo Bai turned to talk to her, she no longer dared to look at his black and white eyes, his eyes were evasive, and his head was as slow as if it was frozen, and she did not know how to react.
Luo Bai wondered, "Luo Xiaowei, why are you much more than before?" ”
Because now I like you. Luo Xiaowei stared at his back and answered in his heart.
05
A crush is a beautiful and painful thing.
The beauty is that when we like a person, our hearts beat faster, we miss him day and night, and we can't help but bend the corners of our mouths when we think of him.
The pain is not daring to tell him that I like him.
Every time Luo Bai asked, "Luo Xiaowei, how did you become a little strange," "Luo Xiaowei, why did you see me like a mouse sees a cat lately," "Luo Xiaowei, why are you so good to me?", she wanted to pluck up the courage to tell him out loud: "Because I like you, bastard!" ”
But, she couldn't. She had also fantasized about confessing to him, even if he didn't like himself, he would feel much better when he said it.
Until one night, when Luo Bai came over to borrow books from her, he said coldly: "Luo Xiaowei, recently another person liked me." ”
"Huh?" Luo Xiaowei tried his best to control his facial expression, "Really? ”
Luo Gave her a blank look: "I'm pretty sure she likes me, otherwise how could she care so much about me." ”
No way? Could it be that his acting skills were too poor to be seen by him? Luo Xiaowei was excited and scared, and his heart was about to jump out of his throat.
She finally didn't have to hold her heart anymore! But will he alienate her when he knows he likes him?
"Who?"
"I don't say." Luo Bai glanced at her triumphantly.
"I know who it is." Luo Xiaowei felt that he was about to suffocate.
"You know?" Luo Bai looked incredulous, "Do you know XXX in the next class?" ”
Gao's heart landed heavily, and Luo Xiao only eased up for a while: "No, I don't know." ”
"Who did you think you were?"
"Me, I'm teasing you."
Luo Bai skimmed his lips: "Just say it." I was a junior high school classmate with her, and I had a good time. Yesterday she actually confessed to me, I want to keep my distance from her and have less contact. ”
Luo Xiao asked, "Why?" ”
"Because I don't like her." If you don't like her, keep your distance from her, lest she misunderstand anything. ”
It turned out that he really thought so. Luo Xiaowei was glad that he had not yet discovered the secret in his heart, and sympathized with the girl who had hastily confessed.
Don't confess.
Once Lo Bai knew, there was a good chance that he would alienate her like the girls who liked him.
She knew that Luo Bai liked a girl like Ban Hua Yunchu, a tall and slender child, with a melon face and big eyes, a fine skin and tender skin, and a voice as good as a yellow oriole. More than once she found Luo Bai staring at Yun Chu out of his mind, his eyes emitting a soft light.
Luo Xiaowei looked at the girl in the mirror with a round face and ordinary facial features that could only be described as cute, and silently said to himself: "Just quietly like him, otherwise even friends will not have to do it." ”
06
However, Luo Bai most likely knew that he liked him.
Her behavior became more and more unusual, and several times she was found by Lo bai that she was peeking at him; she was talking and laughing in front of the other boys, except for him. Met on the stairs this afternoon, she couldn't even talk to him at all.
Thinking of the strange atmosphere in which the two were walking silently on the stairs, and the strange look in Luo Bai's eyes as if he had seen through something at the end, Luo Xiaowei's heart was chaotic and sad.
Must have been discovered.
Saturday's evening self-study was voluntarily attended by the students, but Luo Xiaowei, who had been there every time before, did not go this time. She did not dare to face Luo Bai's indifferent eyes and the fact that she was about to alienate her.
Luo Xiaowei hid in the dormitory and secretly cried. That night, she didn't fall asleep.
07
The next day, Luo Xiaowei came to the classroom and looked at Luo Bai's position as usual. He was chatting with the boy next to him.
What else to see? He wouldn't talk to her again.
Luo Xiaowei's eyes dimmed, and he numbly opened the textbook.
"Why did you suddenly get lazy and not come to study last night?" A familiar, hearty voice echoed overhead.
She looked up in amazement, and the teenager's smiling eyes were the same as usual, as if nothing had happened.
How come? He's so smart, he must have known...
"I'm in a daze again, and it seems that Ben Shao's charm is really not bad." Luo smeared his hair in white.
Luo Xiaowei couldn't stand the "poof" smile, and felt that the gray world suddenly lit up.
"It's most important to study well now, don't let other things affect your learning." Luo Bai looked out the window and inexplicably uttered such a sentence.
But Luo Xiaowei knew that his words contained deep meaning: "Good. ”
08
A year later, the third year of high school broke up.
After the feast, the cups and plates were in disarray. The classmates left crying and crying, and a very small number of people were still blowing each other the last water of high school.
Luo Xiaowei stood in the corner, thinking back to the exam papers he had done in the three years of high school, the heart he had talked to his girlfriend, and the teenager he liked, and he was in a trance like a dream.
After that time, Luo Bai still talked to her as usual. She no longer worries all day about Luo Bai alienating herself, and returns to the state of studying with peace of mind before. The results of the third year of high school remained at the top twenty of the grade, and the college entrance examination that had just passed also felt relaxed.
So soon, the girlhood will pass.
There should be a lot of people confessing to the object of the crush tonight, should she also say it? Anyway, in the future, don't worry about whether he is alienated from himself.
Someone patted her on the back, and she looked back, and it was a teenager who was one head taller than her.
Luo Bai's eyes were black and white: "I'm leaving." ”
"Well," Luo Xiaowei nodded, "where to go?" ”
"Go sing to Lin Tian and they k."
She knew that she was not a particularly good friend of Luo Bai, and he had always had a group of friends who were more open to him and were also open to him.
"Well, goodbye." Luo Xiaowei felt that the eye sockets were gradually moistening.
Luo Bai looked at her with an insightful look.
She lowered her head, not wanting Luo Bai to see the ugly look of her crying.
Luo Bai sighed, touched her mushroom head with his large hand, stuffed her with a note, and then turned away.
She opened the note, and the crooked handwriting on it was very familiar: "Thank you for liking me." ”
Luo Xiaowei began to shed tears in large drops.
Thank you too for pretending not to know I like you.