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My name is Liang Xiangmin, in 1983, I was 19 years old, just graduated from the Provincial Silk Secondary Professional and Technical School, was assigned to the county's state-owned factory, the county silk reeling factory, became an intern technician, and later became a reserve cadre.
At that time, the wages were very low, but the food and accommodation were in the factory, and the workers were quite united and friendly, although the conditions were difficult, everyone helped each other, so they always got along very warmly.
There is almost no entertainment in the factory, but we still organize some entertainment singing and dancing programs in the evening, which is completely spontaneous.
Therefore, although the work is tiring, on the whole, it is very fulfilling and happy.
I was also gradually favored by my superiors, who were interested in training me, first let me stay in various workshops, and then transferred to the equipment department as a maintenance officer, obviously to familiarize me with various production equipment and processes, according to my co-workers, I may be entrusted with important responsibilities in the future.
Because of the encouragement and training of my leaders, I work very hard, even if it is just as a maintenance worker, I do all my work as well as possible.
Gradually, I became an officer, and the section chief was also familiar with me and trusted me, and there were several deputy factory directors above me, who also established a good relationship with me, they called me Xiaoliang, and they also smiled and nodded to greet me when they met.
Before I knew it, I was twenty-three years old.
Most of the male workers of the same age as me in the factory have found a partner, but because I have been short of food since I was a child, and after work, I don't have many opportunities to eat meat, and it is impossible to eat meat in the canteen, and it is good to have one or two pieces of meat in the meal.
So although I am very tall, I am on the thin side.
It can even be said that my face is yellow and thin, compared with those powerful male workers, I am like a scholar, I don't seem to have much strength, and in such years, I really suffer.
I guess it's because of this that it's not so easy for me to find a partner.
Although I am not married at the age of twenty-three, I am not in a hurry at all, and the age of marriage for men at that age is not too early, usually around the age of twenty-two to twenty-five, and twenty-six is a little late, so I still have two years to find a partner.
But I soon felt that it was too difficult for me to find the right person at my factory.
Most of the female managers in the factory office are married, and the female workers in the workshop, as long as they are beautiful, there are also many male workers who pursue them.
For this reason, I often feel depressed, and the only thing that can dispel this feeling is to read books.
At that time, there was no entertainment, and watching an open-air movie was a luxury, so I regarded reading books as the greatest entertainment and could enrich the spiritual world.
Gradually, I had read all the books I needed to read, and I thought that I would go to the big bookstore to buy some books to read, so on Sundays, when I was off, I would take the bus outside and go to the bookstore in the city to buy books.
At that time, the wages were low, but the price of books was also cheap, so I was willing to pay for it.
One day, when I bought several books in my arms and took a bus back to the county, I had no seats and had to stand, which was quite laborious, because the books were heavy enough and I was carrying a bag.
At this time, I unexpectedly found that although there were countless pairs of eyes in the complicated and chaotic carriage, there was a pair of eyes looking at me, this was a beautiful girl, who looked about the same age as me, and her eyes were full of concern and pity for me.
And when I looked at her, she beckoned me to go over to her, and I had to slowly squeeze through the crowd and come to her, just to ask her what she was looking for me.
She said to me, "Comrade, I'll give you your seat, it's strange that you're holding so many books." ”
When I heard it, I only felt that there was warmth in her voice.
But I shook my head with a wry smile, and said to her, I understand her kindness, as a gay man, how can I be embarrassed to let her lesbian give up her seat for me, I guess the whole car will think that I am wrong.
When she got my answer, she said to me, "Then she can help me hold the books."
I felt her sincerity and kindness, and finally nodded and put all my books on her side.
These are most famous works, like the Romance of the Three Kingdoms and Dream of Red Mansions, which weigh a few pounds, so they weigh more than 20 pounds together, which is not light at all.
I asked her if it was too heavy, and she shook her head.
Eventually, I started talking to her, and I saw that her pants were army green, and her body was capable, and I immediately thought that she should have come out of the army, maybe a female soldier.
But later I learned that to say that she was a female soldier was also underestimating her, she was actually a female officer with the rank of lieutenant, and I really didn't know what position she held in the army.
And this time, she is changing jobs and going to work in a state-owned factory.
When I heard her say this, I was skeptical, and immediately asked her, which state-run unit was she going to?
She actually said that it was the silk reeling factory in this county, that is, the county-owned unit enterprise where I worked.
I was immediately dumbfounded and told her that I was working there.
She smiled and said that this was just right, so that we could get out of the car together and walk into the factory, and I could show her the way, so that her report would be easier and not too long.
When I got to the station, I got off the train with her, and she had a few luggage, and I helped her carry the bucket and carry her bag.
She helped me carry my books, and in the end we were able to share the burden evenly, and it became quite easy.
Because I am an employee of the factory and have a work card, I took her in, and I didn't need her to register, and I could show her the way, and I also took her to the logistics office to report.
She sighed, fortunately she met me on the road.
Otherwise, she estimated that the registration was very cumbersome, but now it is time-saving and convenient, so she is really grateful to me.
I just said that since I am a co-worker with her in the future, it is also very appropriate for me to help her.
After she learned that the staff of the logistics office could arrange a dormitory for her, she told me that I could do my own thing and not need to stay by her side to continue to help her, and she told me that her name was Ding Xuemei and hoped that I could remember her name.
I told her that I would remember her name, and I also wanted her to remember my name, my name was Liang Xiangmin.
In the next few days, I have been thinking about this Ding Xuemei in my heart, just thinking, she feels so wonderful to me, she is the perfect object of my fantasy, if I can become a couple with her, then for me, how lucky it should be.
Her voice and smile have always lingered in my mind, and in the process of my work, she appeared from time to time, stirring my soul.
I thought to myself, I had to meet her as soon as possible to find out which department she was in and which dormitory she was living in, and I would have to pursue her at all costs, even if I ended up with a rejection.
But for some reason, I couldn't meet her in the factory for several days, even in the largest canteen, and I looked around, just looking around to find the face I had been longing to see among the countless female workers.
However, in the end, all I got was disappointment.
And one day the next day, when I was talking nonsense with a few workers, one of the workers actually said to me that recently, there was a female soldier who had been transferred to our factory, and this female soldier used to have two stars on her shoulder, that is, the rank of lieutenant, which is not simple at all.
When I heard that this was the case, I couldn't help but be dumbfounded.
And this worker said that he knew which department the demobilized female soldier was in the factory, and it turned out to be in the personnel department of the factory department, and she was already at the level of deputy section chief.
I thought to myself, this must be Ding Xuemei, because I have never heard of any demobilized female soldiers coming to our factory, who would she be?
And when she met me, she didn't tell me that she was such a high-ranking person, and now she was the deputy head of the personnel section, so I had to be in awe of her, and I couldn't have any illusions about her.
After all, I, a graduate of a secondary school, am tall and thin, and I have no position in the factory, so how can I be worthy of Ding Xuemei, a female soldier who has been transferred.
What's more, the equipment department where I am located is far away from the factory building, and it is estimated that Ding Xuemei and I have no intersection at all.
She is at the deputy department level, and she is so beautiful, how many gay men pursue in the factory, this is also what I can imagine, it is estimated that there is a long queue.
Thinking of this, I couldn't help but smile in my heart, just thinking that I had such a dream in the past days, it was really naïve.
In the end, I just want to dispel all my fantasies about Ding Xuemei and some of the secret feelings I have had, and I don't think about her anymore, because I know that it is impossible to be with her.
Slowly, I didn't think about her anymore, and I only had work in mind.
However, one day, when I was busy in the equipment department, a worker suddenly told me that a female leader was looking for me outside.
I was immediately stunned, just thinking that it was almost the time to get off work, what kind of female leader would look for me? I guess I didn't make any mistakes at work, right?
As a result, I ran outside and found that this was Ding Xuemei in a factory uniform, she was very different from when I first met her, she used to be able to be seen as a female soldier, and now she is completely a civilian manager in the factory.
When she saw me appear, she looked surprised, smiled, and told me that she had come to me to thank me.
Because I helped her on the day she reported for duty, she didn't forget me, so she asked me which department my name was in, and knowing that I was in the equipment department, I found here.
I said I don't need her to thank me, she is a female leader, I didn't know when I first started, and if I knew, I wouldn't dare to talk to her more.
But she said that she didn't think she was a female leader at all, so I couldn't make friends with her.
Moreover, she saw that my face was yellow and thin, and knew that I usually ate too little meat, so she wanted me to get a chance to eat meat to replenish my body.
When I heard this, I thought to myself, it is not easy to eat meat these days, she makes me greedy when she talks about it, but now even in the canteen, there is not much meat, it is a small portion per person, and no one can get more.
Even if you buy meat outside, you have to buy it with a ticket, and there are few small restaurants, let alone big fish and meat.
But she told me that she had a way to give me a good meal and eat meat every day in the future, so that my body could be nourished and strengthened as soon as possible.
"Let's go! Come with me to the outside of the factory! Ding Xuemei said to me.
I pushed it but I just thought that she was really a female leader, and now she asked me to go outside with her, and I had to go.
Eventually, she and I each pedaled a bicycle, pedaling one after the other towards the factory gate, and finally ran to the outside of the factory, and she led the way in front of me, allowing me to follow her behind.
I asked her where she was taking me.
She told me that she was going to take me to a place where there was a field, a field in the countryside, where there were many voles, and to fight voles would not damage the farmers' food crops on the one hand, and also make the ecology of the fields better.
I was stunned, and thought that she was really good enough to come up with such an idea that I could eat meat, and although I had never eaten vole meat, it was probably quite delicious.
But I thought to myself, can she really beat this vole?
I used to be from the countryside, and when I was a child, I heard from adults that voles were quite cunning because they would dig a lot of tunnels and countless cave exits, so that the villagers could not catch them at all, and they had a headache.
When I expressed my concern, Ding Xuemei said to me with a smile that she would let me see if she could really fight voles, and in batches, so that I could really feast on it.
As a result, she really brought out her quality in the army.
First, she inspected the terrain and studied how many voles were infested near the mountains on the edge of the field, and then she observed various locations in the mountains, and finally saw the general direction of the tunnels of voles.
She is going to smoke all the voles out and catch them alive one by one with a long bamboo net.
In this process, I assisted her, and continued to study countermeasures with her, and finally started to act, and I needed to have a good cooperation with her.
A lot of voles were smoked out, and she and I caught a handful, about twenty of them, all wrapped in mud and stewed, so that the hot soil could be dismantled and the process of dehairing was eliminated.
She had prepared all the seasonings, so she could cook them straight and make them all fragrant.
It's been a long time since I've eaten fatty meat like this, and the voles she cooked, seasoned and cooked, were really delicious, so I enjoyed this meal, and I could even say that I had never eaten such a delicious meal in my life.
By the time we finished eating the vole meat, it was already past eight o'clock in the evening, so we had to rush back to the factory.
On the way back, I said thank you to Ding Xuemei, but she told me that although I have eaten vole meat now, my thin body cannot become strong all of a sudden.
Therefore, if I want to be physically strong, I have to accept her military training, and she wants to use the same training in the barracks to make me strong, for fear that I will not be able to suffer, and then the meat will be eaten in vain, and her efforts will be in vain.
I couldn't believe it, and I just wondered, was she telling the truth or not?
After all, I'm not related to her, and I'm not her object, but she wants to train me to make my body stronger, what is she trying to do?
I finally spoke up about my doubts.
She said, I don't want anything, just because she can feel the goodness in my heart, and see that my body has no muscles, very thin, strange and pitiful, so she wants me to be really strong, and develop the habit of exercising, which is good for the future of my life.
When I heard this, I immediately nodded.
I just think that if I can really train a strong body, then I won't be such a failure in the matter of finding a partner in the factory, and it is estimated that there are many women who will be impressed by me, and my male attraction may increase greatly.
I don't know, when Ding Xuemei, a demobilized female soldier and the deputy section chief of the factory, will she think that I am more masculine because my body is stronger?
Thinking of this, I actually ignited a sense of ambition in my heart, even if I suffered the most great pain and endured the most intense pain, I would also train my body to be strong.
In the days that followed, every few days, Ding Xuemei would come to me and go outside with me, still hunting voles in the same way, so as to burn them into meat to eat, and she trained me on the spot, allowing me to practice a series of movements in the barracks.
Such a workout process is quite bitter, I only feel muscle soreness, and Ding Xuemei asked me if I can endure it, if not, she will not force me, she will stop everything.
I shook my head vigorously and said that as long as she was willing to train me, I would be able to endure it.
As a result, after a month, I only felt that I was full of strength, and muscle after muscle appeared everywhere in my body, and even my roommates in the dormitory sighed at these muscles of mine.
When I found a place where I could shine on my whole body, I saw that my body was really much stronger, even if I was wearing a factory uniform, I could see that I was much thicker and more handsome than before.
I also felt that the female workers in the factory looked at me differently, maybe in their eyes, I used to be thin, but now I am strong and powerful, and I have a good figure.
I am very grateful to Ding Xuemei in my heart, because she let me eat meat every few days, and also let me get exercise, which has improved my physical fitness a lot.
I reckon she'll like me now.
If I am brave enough to confess to her, will she accept me and fall in love with me, and talk about the point where I can get married?
Eventually, I waited, thinking that one day she might come back to me and go outside with me.
As a result, when the day really came, we went to a clearing outside, and opposite each other, we did not speak.
I told her that I didn't have to hunt voles together that day, because my parents in my hometown sent me some pork jerky, and I could share them with her and even give her all these pork jerkys.
She kept looking at me with touching eyes, although there was a smile on the corner of her mouth, but there was a sigh and sigh in her eyes, as if I was a work of art created by her, reaching the level of perfection, but she could not have it.
I saw her expression like this, and thought to myself, what the hell is going on, there must be something wrong, I wanted to show my love to her, but she was like this, I didn't dare to say anything more.
Eventually, I asked her if there was anything she wanted to say to me, but she couldn't, for fear of hitting me, because her expression seemed to be indescribable.
As a result, she really told me that she was leaving the factory, so it was a pity that she might not be able to see me again for a long time.
She came here to take up her post, but only temporarily, what she really wants to report to is the county party committee, that is, she wants to become the leader over there, and she can't stay in the factory,,,。
When I learned of such a situation, I couldn't stand on my feet even if I was on my feet, and I just felt like a bolt from the blue.
Because I had a lot of longings and fantasies, all of them were to be with her, forever, for a lifetime, but now, she is leaving, and she can't see me again.
My voice became choppy and choked, and I trembled and asked her, is it true?
She nodded helplessly, saying it was true.
I noticed that she was looking at me all the time, and her eyes were full of tears. I know she's reluctant to let me go, but she seems to have to obey the arrangement.
And then, she opened her mouth again and said to me: "Xiaoliang, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have been associated with you in the first place, but I admit that from the moment I saw you, I felt it, so I just want you to be better, but there are some things that are really helpless." ”
After saying this, she said that although she also likes me and loves me now, she is actually impossible with me, and she has been engaged to the son of her father's friend under her father's arrangement, so she will have to go back to this marriage sooner or later, even if she doesn't like this fiancé very much.
She only hopes that I can find the right match, and she believes that I will find it, because I am now strong and handsome, and she will like it very much when she sees it.
Suddenly, she choked up and turned around, her body rising and falling.
I knew she was crying. She was crying bitterly for the end of me and her.
I endured the pain in my heart strongly, thinking that as a seven-foot man, I couldn't cry anymore, but in the end, like her, I turned around and cried, and after a while, I adjusted my emotions and eased up.
I told her that I wish her a bright future, a happy marriage and family, and I will always be grateful to her and miss her, because she created the perfect me, I not only have a strong body, but also mental strength, which she gave me.
And I asked her when she would leave the factory, and she said tomorrow, and I said that I would send her tomorrow.
That night, when I returned to my dormitory, I hid under the quilt and wept bitterly, as if I wanted to dry all my tears.
I also know from this moment that I love Ding Xuemei, how much I love her, and it is estimated that I can't forget those days with her for a long time.
The next day, my terrible mood recovered a little, and I thought that I had to send Ding Xuemei out of the factory, so I had to pretend to laugh and not be sad.
What I didn't expect was that when I walked out of the dormitory, there was a figure standing in front of me, which was Ding Xuemei.
I couldn't help but be surprised, and immediately walked up to her and asked her, didn't she leave the factory at noon?
She told me that she had been thinking about it all night last night, and had been in a great mental struggle, and finally she figured it out, and she just felt that she could no longer deceive herself, that she could feel my sincere love for her, and how deeply she loved me, and that she couldn't help but fall in love with me.
So she made a very difficult decision, she was going back and telling her father that she was going to break off her fiancé, and what I needed to do was go back with her and see her father.
When she said all this, her dark circles were full of tears.
Apparently she hadn't slept all night, and after a long period of thought, she had to make this extremely difficult decision, which meant that she had to confront her father, and that she had to get her fiancé to accept her decision.
I was stunned, looked at her motionlessly, and found that she was serious and affectionate, knowing that she was not coaxing me, I asked her, isn't she going to work in the county party committee, so I am in this factory, can I be with her?
She said, this is no problem, she went over there, and if she can arrange me there, she will definitely give me a job.
I ended up crying with joy and hugged her tightly, and I whispered in her ear that I would go back with her to her house, to her father, and to face everything.
I told her that no matter what happens, I will fight for our love with her, and I will be strong enough to withstand all kinds of pressure with her.
The next day, I asked for leave from the factory and went on the road with her.
When I came to her home, I found that it was a house in a military compound, and it was a small three-story building with a garden in front and back.
Only then did I know that her father turned out to be a cadre at the deputy division level.
I was taken by the hand by her, walked into her house, and when I sat down, I was extremely nervous.
After a while, her father returned, and when he learned that she didn't want to marry her fiancé and wanted to be with me, he immediately snorted heavily and looked at me.
I have never faced so much pressure in my life, although I love Ding Xuemei deeply in my heart, but I didn't expect that her family background is so good, and I am just a young man born in the countryside, and I have no position in the factory, technical secondary school education, where can I be worthy of her?
As a result, Ding Xuemei showed her persistence and determination, she said to her father that since she had made a decision to be with me, she hoped that her father would accept this fact, because her marriage was decided by herself.
Ding Xuemei's father looked very embarrassed, he did not show his father's majesty, but said to Ding Xuemei in distress that Ding Xuemei made such a decision, how did he explain it to Ding Xuemei's fiancé.
And then, Ding Xuemei's father begged me, hoping that I could understand his family's difficulties and cut off the love thread, although he knew that I loved Ding Xuemei very much, but because Ding Xuemei was engaged, I was destroying Ding Xuemei's happiness.
But Ding Xuemei interrupted her father's words, saying that this is her freedom to love, she made such a decision for love, and if I quit, it would make her unhappy.
I felt extremely embarrassed and stressed.
What I didn't expect was that Ding Xuemei's father notified her fiancé, and people from her fiancé's side also came, including her fiancé himself.
Only then did I know that Ding Xuemei and her fiancé were a good match, and her fiancé's father was not simple.
I am facing so much pressure, I just feel that since I am not a good match with Ding Xuemei, then I still don't want to get involved in it, so that Ding Xuemei can't marry into a family that is right with her family.
In the end, I burst into tears next to Ding Xuemei and told her that she was still suitable to marry a husband who was in the right household, and I was born in the countryside and was not suitable for her.
But Ding Xuemei hugged me and told me that she and I were spiritually matched, so she must marry me and be with me forever.
Eventually, she took my hand and, in the presence of so many people, left her house and ran all the way outside, staying with me in a nearby hotel.
Of course she and I didn't live together, we stayed in two different rooms in this hostel.
After a full month and half of hard work, her father finally compromised, and her fiancé gave up.
Her fiancé knew that she had chosen the person she loved for the sake of true love, so he no longer forced her to repeat the engagement and agreed to break the engagement with her.
Her father came to the hotel himself, apologized to her, and invited her back to his home, and she asked me to go back with me.
In the end, her father asked me a lot of questions, communicated with me for a long time, talked for several hours, and after getting to know me, he only felt that I was also a good young man with both ability and political integrity, so he agreed to my marriage with Ding Xuemei.
Ding Xuemei and I can finally get married, which is something that she and I can't imagine, we hugged each other and cried, just thinking that this is the hard-won love we are striving for, and we must cherish it.
Later, I was transferred to the county party committee, and Ding Xuemei and I could go home together after work every day, and lived a happy and simple life.
We have been husband and wife for decades, and we have been in love with each other until we are old, even if we are both gray-haired, we are still in love.
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