Today I will share a story of climbing up from the abyss of depression on my own. A few months ago, I was a person who was in the quagmire of depression and couldn't help myself.
Time is in a trance, I have gone through a huge challenge, and finally come out, I am not a doctor, but I am just sharing with you the story of a man who once groped his way forward in the dark.
Depression first appearedLast winter, I first realized that I might be depressed, when my head was dizzy and my whole body was weak every day. Insomnia has become the norm at night, tossing and turning, tired and uneasy. I couldn't continue like this, so I started a series of self-help actions, such as yoga, meditation, and jogging. But it was just a little better at the time, and after a while it came back to its original shape.
I'm a little scared, it seems a bit serious. So I went to the doctor and did a lot of tests, and all the indicators showed that they were normal. Later, I searched for a depression self-test form on the Internet, and the result after the test was "moderate depression". I was stunned, I felt like my world was going to collapse, and after that, any word or symptom of depression I saw thought it was talking about myself.
My family and friends thought I was already sentimental, and it was even more out of control if I continued like this. Advise me to divert my attention from the information. I began to redeem myself, and I tried to force myself to go out for a walk, socialize, even if it was to sit outside for a while and watch others play, it was better than at home.
But all efforts seemed futile. Nausea, dizziness, irritability, loneliness, these feelings still chase me. One day, I suddenly felt that many people have depression, and there must be many self-help methods of my predecessors, so I bought a few books and came back, trying to pull myself.
Soon the books arrived, and the two main ones were "Depression Check-in Self-Help" and "Emotional Self-Help". I read about each of them, and I really couldn't read the theory-minded, so I just looked at the fool-like practical method. There is an oath in the book, and I practice it every day, although I am a little unaccustomed to it, but I will try it again. There has to be something to believe, otherwise how can this dark road move forward.
After two weeks of continuous practice, I felt a more noticeable change, as if the frequency of inexplicable emotions came up a little less. When emotions come, I can also be aware of them and alleviate a little unconscious reaction. In the process, I realized that only by facing my heart and understanding my pain can I find a way to heal.
The Power of Self-Healing Slowly I gradually learned how to live with depression and see it as part of the mind, which is also the equanimity mentioned in the book, right? This made me look at depression from a different perspective, rather than being weighed down by all kinds of emotions.
In the book "Emotional Self-Help", I see the view of psychologist Alfred · Adler: "Misfortune and adversity can be a mentor in life." This sentence made me realize that depression is not a punishment, but an opportunity that life has given me to understand myself more deeply and find inner strength.
I started reading a lot and sharing my experiences with people who also suffered from depression. It made me realize that I was not alone, that many people are going through similar difficulties, and that this support and understanding from others gave me great comfort and motivation.
I started trying to write down my stories, feelings, and thoughts, and it became a way for me to discover myself, to understand myself better, and a safe space to express myself. I have some readers, and through the delicate expression of the words, we connect with each other and become friends, which also gives me hope for the future.
Looking back, I am in the light, and now I have learned to reconcile with myself, love myself, and accept myself is an important thing in this life. Depression still visits occasionally, but I'm no longer afraid, I see it appear, and I see it drift by. I'm not a doctor, but I helped myself out of my dark depression. If you are also moving forward in the darkness, please remember: there is always a light waiting for you, as long as you are willing to believe and persevere, you can also get out of the shadow of depression and welcome your own light.