01
In the movie "Tonight in the Romantic Theater", the male protagonist Kenji, who lives in the color world, is fascinated by the Miyuki Princess in the black-and-white movie.
Perhaps, this is also how we feel when we look at Ozaki Toyo today. In the still old photo, a face like a knife and axe, the eyes are full of loneliness, confusion, and tenderness. But when the quiet teenager stood on the stage, singing and singing, he suddenly became hoarse and exhausted, and his whole body was full of strength with passion.
Obviously it is a love song, and Ozaki Feng sang sweatily. Although I don't understand Japanese, I still feel the sincerity and blood of a man gushing from his chest.
Offstage, the fan sister shouted one after another, and on the stage, the teenager's face was frozen by time.
02
At the end of the last century, Nicholas Tse sang "Thank You for Your Love 1999", and threw his guitar on the stage, squinting at all beings, and falling in love was as bold as words and deeds.
But in Tse Tingfeng's heart, there is an idol-like existence, he is Ozaki Feng.
"10 years ago, I was walking on the streets of Japan with Yoshi on my back, and I was picked up by a Hong Kong fan who said that my back resembled that of japanese singer Ozaki Toyo, and he also went to the record store to buy an album to send me, which affected my future creations."
In the idol Ozaki Toyo, those rebels are self-destructive, often overexcited, rolling on the ground, and collapsing and vomiting in the background.
At an anti-nuclear concert, he jumped from a high lighting steel frame, his legs broken, and he knelt down to sing the whole scene. Asked why he did this, his answer was "fun." For a long time, he smoked, drank and used drugs, and he was extremely addicted.
The fanaticism is exposed, written into a song, and the confusion is hidden in the heart and melted into the blood. However, such a "bad boy" in the eyes of adults is the spiritual leader of a generation of Japanese teenagers.
Because listening to Ozaki Toyo's songs, you can vent the emotions that have been suppressed in your heart for a long time: the hopeless entrance examination, the urban changes in reinforced concrete, the adult world of power and hypocrisy, and the cute girl who has been in love for a long time.
A fan once expressed his gratitude to his idol: "It was his song that made me, who often had suicidal thoughts, give up suicide." ”
03
In "Slam Dunk Master", Mitsui Shou confessed to Coach Ansai that "I want to play basketball", which touched the hearts of countless rebellious teenagers.
Confrontation with the world is not the ultimate ideal, in their hearts, there is still love, there are ideals.
In the 1980s, although Japan was rich in materials, it was also constantly moving towards the trough of the bubble economy, and at the same time, the spiritual world of teenagers was lost.
Born into an ordinary working-class family, Ozaki Washito was constantly moved by his living circumstances, bullied at an unfamiliar school, and tortured by the evil system of further education. He skipped class, raced, fought... How rebellious how to come.
But God closed a door and opened another window. In his freshman year of high school, Ozaki Toyo, who liked to sing, was selected by Sony Records. A teenager who is full of confusion about the future has opened a short and brilliant musical life.
Toyotomi Ozaki, who stepped onto the music scene, found a stage to realize value. He wrote and composed music, sang with great influence, and created countless classic works in music.
The song "Death" is still a must-sing song in Japan's graduation season.
The bell rang, and when I returned to my old seat in the classroom, I couldn't help but think of what it was that I should rely on a wandering heart that was the only thing I had at the moment
And "i love you", which has been sung countless times and entered the pit as soon as he hears it, is actually a work written by Ozaki Toyo at the age of 17.
The lyrics of the original song are about an unsupported love. In order to fight against the cruel world, lovers snuggle up to each other, take refuge in empty huts, and have no way back.
This is not a worldly permissible love, and the two are like abandoned kittens. The hut is an empty cardboard box covered by fallen leaves, and you are crying like that kitten.
The melody and lyrics are perfectly integrated, and what strikes people's hearts is the pain of love in the real world. Regarding love, another song in "Fifteen Nights" also sings:
Although I didn't understand the end of love, I kept staring at her and my future in my dreams, although adults said to me, give up your heart, give up your heart, but I don't want to
Toyo Ozaki wrote about his understanding and seriousness of love as a teenager, which was straightforward and moving. Adults at first glance seem naïve, and at a young age, they think they can see through the world, but their peers cheer and applaud, because that is their voice.
Semi-adult Seveneen's map I don't know what I was born for, reach out and don't ask for your city, no matter how I live, I will not give up on myself - "Seventeen-year-old map"
"I will continue to create for people who want to listen to my music, I believe in my sensibility and inspiration, so I will continue to cheer and touch the hearts of more people."
04
Friends recall that after entering the 20-year-old, Ozaki Toyo often fell into confusion: himself in the eyes of fans, and himself shaped by the media. It should be different from the real self.
Ozaki Toyo, who is sought after by thousands of people, is actually lonely to death. As a result of the cold in the high places, it may fall to the bottom one step at a time.
In 1986, before the performance, Ozaki Yutaka fainted due to lack of physical strength, and he was subsequently arrested after being found to have violated the anti-drug law. The superstar was sentenced to prison terms by law. This kind of news can definitely occupy the forefront of hot searches for most of the month.
And it is precisely because of drug addiction that we can't help but spy on the other side of the beauty of teenagers: the Ozaki Toyo, who is both sensitive and fragile in the eyes of his friends.
It turned out that he would lie on the ground and play with it when he fell into the bottleneck of creation, emotionally venting helplessness. It turned out that he would build a wall and close himself off because of an action or unsatisfactory words from others.
In music, Ozaki Toyo touches people's hearts with the melody of words. But back to reality, he is not good at spreading his heart directly, disdainful of the communication between people.
Some people say that loneliness is due to lack of love. But Ozaki Toyo is not without love, has a family, has a wife, and has a son. However, although family and marriage are safe havens, he still feels lonely.
The scandal between him and Yuki Saito is unknown to anyone. What we can know is the loneliness of Ozaki Toyo, who is not filled by worldly happiness.
05
For more people, no matter how heroic they were, when they reached a certain age, they returned to public life, or went to work diligently, nodded to their bosses, or ran a business and made a lot of money. The paranoid teenagers who once hovered on the fringes of society and were inspired to fight against the world would one day desperately squeeze into the middle of the crowd and become a rounded middle-aged man who compromised for survival.
Growing up is much like that.
Xie Tingfeng, who smashed the guitar at the beginning of the century, put on a steady suit and hid the rebellion deeper into his heart, he said:
"Maybe now the fire has changed, into a hotter, bluer fire, maybe it doesn't burn as big as before, but it doesn't mean it's not as hot as before."
However, the teenager named Ozaki Toyo, with the belief that "the so-called living is to confess the years day after day", forever stopped at the age of 26.
Despite the comeback of drug rehabilitation, the concert album achieved commercial success. But the sudden death of the mother is like a fuse, which destroys the unhealed soul again. Ozaki, who might have been reinvigorated, picked up the spirit again.
Compared to adults who mute their grief, teenagers' vulnerability is sometimes vulnerable. They may be desperate for their ideals, or they may be devastated by injuries.
"Looking back on the short years, it is not enough to say enough about oneself. At the end of life, when you want to forgive everything, when the pain on the last road is like rain... Goodbye, I'm going to the dream. ”
One day in April 1992, he was found lying unconscious on the street and died without treatment after being taken to the hospital.
Perhaps it is that the teenager is not brave enough and too dead, and only because of the contradiction between ideal and reality has embarked on a dead end. But there are few empathies in the world, how much can we experience the love and sorrow of others?
One of the protagonists in "Passing Through Your World" is also an angry teenager. Zhang Jiajia described him this way, reminiscent of the ending of Ozaki's story:
"He was still wandering on a road, the thin teenager with tears on his face, stepping on the sycamore leaves and his own sobbing, being overtaken by countless hurried pedestrians."
－ The end －
Author | Two Yi
Edited | Ah Gung