7.
Xu Yan has long lost other relatives in this world, and I think of her best friend Lin Lu.
I said goodbye to Shen Cao and called Lin Lu.
But after several phone calls, they were all hung up.
I'm going to go to her early tomorrow morning to ask for clarification.
Xu Yan is dead, how is this possible?
It is said that the scourge will last for a thousand years.
When I arrived at Lin Lu's house, she also happened to go out.
But when she saw me, her face suddenly changed, and she was full of disgust for me.
She didn't answer anything I asked.
"Don't you want to know where she is? Then follow me."
She walked in front in silence, but went to the flower shop first.
When I saw that she bought chrysanthemums.
But there was an indescribable panic in my heart.
"What do you mean, why did you buy chrysanthemums?"
But Lin Lu still didn't answer, she drove the car.
As I drove up the hill on the outskirts, my uneasiness peaked when I saw the gravestones.
Something is coming out of my mind.
When I arrived at my destination, I suddenly didn't dare to move.
It was Lin Lu who pulled my clothes and walked to a tombstone and stopped.
"Didn't you want to find Xu Yan, she's here."
I turned my head mechanically, and the girl on the tombstone looked so vivid, but the photo was black and white.
Suddenly my legs went limp, one leg fell to the ground, and I stared at the tombstone.
"What's the point of you guys teaming up to lie to me, Shen Cao doesn't like her, and you want to toss and tease me!"
Lin Lu's tone suddenly brought sadness.
"I wish it was just a joke."
In Lin Lu's mouth, I knew things that I had never been able to know.
It turned out that the nurse aunt told me that day about the woman who suffered a car accident because of love and hatred.
The person who hated because of love turned out to be Xu Yan.
"Xu Yan seems to have expected that he would die."
"She went to the hospital early in the morning to register, and when she had an accident, she donated her kidney to you, and after I took care of her funeral, her lawyer found me, and half of her property was donated and half was left to me.
The blood on my face was gone, how could it be.
Obviously she said on the day of the breakup.
"Qin Yan, my life can't be dragged down by you."
How is it possible to donate a kidney to me just by turning around?
"Lin Lu, what's the benefit of you helping her deceive me!"
Lin Lu shook his head, as if he had thought of something sad, and tears fell on the floor.
"Although I don't know what happened between Xu Yan and Shen Ke, Xu Yan was already unconscious when he was sent to the hospital for rescue, but remember not to let me call you."
"Do you know what her last words were before she died?"
"She said that our Qin Yan will definitely live a long life, be safe and smooth, and be blessed for a lifetime."
"The last person she thought of before she died was you, how could she fall in love with someone else."
There was a sharp pain in my heart, and I clutched my heart as if I couldn't bear it.
I ran into the car like crazy and flew up 120 yards on the winding road.
When I got to the hospital, I went straight to my doctor.
She was startled when she saw me.
I think I should be in a terrible state at this time, my face is pale and my eyes are red.
"Please, tell me, is my kidney donor named Xu Yan!"
Probably because my condition was too abnormal, the doctor hesitated for a long time and chose to tell me.
She nodded slowly.
Eventually, my heart exploded and I felt someone cover my mouth and nose, and I couldn't breathe.
Something is wrong, everything is wrong!
I heard my name being called, but slowly I couldn't hear anything.
Splitting headaches.
Vast expanses of memories flooded into my mind.
I got a glimpse of the truth of the world.
8.
What is the nature of the world?
If it had been before, I would have said that the essence of the world is nothingness, and the existence of human beings is also nothingness.
But now, I'm told that the world I'm in is essentially a novel.
I'm not a male protagonist, it's a character that the author has written about but set up for a lifetime.
Xu Yan is not the heroine, she is the vicious female partner in this story.
A forgetful of profit, abandoning a sick childhood sweetheart, and chasing the vicious female second between the male and female protagonists by being a little similar to the heroine.
But in those memories, I saw Xu Yan's despair.
She scattered all her wealth for me again and again, looked for all kinds of life for me, and donated a kidney for me, but without exception, she failed every time.
She watched me die again and again in front of her, cycling through the pain of losing a loved one.
Probably the last time, she looked at me dying in the hospital bed, as if she had made up her mind.
I don't know who I'm talking to.
"If I follow the original plot, he will be better and have a happy life."
An electronic sound sounded.
"Yes, in the original book, he was cured, and he will get married and have children in the future, and have a happy family."
I saw that Xu Yan was silent for a long time, and suddenly smiled.
She leaned into my ear.
"There is only one male protagonist in my life, I have loved him for many years, many, many years, but if my love will become your life-killing scimitar, then Qin Yan, I am willing to leave you."
I heard a broken voice somewhere in myself.
I remembered the last time Xu Yan came to me.
I wanted to hug her again, but I was in such a desperate mood, and I refused her.
Tell her.
"Don't be cheap."
I wanted to hold Xu Yan, but she turned into a shadow, drifting farther and farther.
"Xu Yan!"
I woke up from my memories.
In the doctor's worried eyes, I saw my own face full of tears.
She must be thinking, how can I, a big man, cry like this.
I couldn't help but curl up, the pain spreading from my heart to my limbs.
stumbled home, the original division was too thorough, and there was no trace of Xu Yan in this room.
I suddenly covered my face, and endless sadness engulfed me.
I smashed the contents of the room, powerlessly venting my despair.
Like a trapped beast, trapped in a cage named Xu Yan.
Xu Yan, Xu Yan!
How much I hated when we broke up, how desperate I am now.
If there really is a Lord God in this world.
Can you please give me back my promises?
That's my promise, she's not a stepping stone in a love story.
I'm a complete jerk.
I began to frantically search the internet to find out what the mechanical sound I heard in my memories was.
But there was nothing, and what popped up was a whole bunch of novels.
But when people are desperate, they are willing to try anything.
In novels, suicide and self-harm usually have the potential to break the plot and a system emerge to help you.
I took out a fruit knife and slit my wrist.
Sink into a bathtub filled with water.
.......
But no, nothing.
After the last failure, I finally understood.
I'm just a passing character in the book.
Even my death, insignificant, won't cause any of the main plot to collapse.
I sat down weakly on the ground.
Shangquan Blue Falling Underworld.
Really, can't I find Xu Yan?
Xu Yan has no relatives, she is a person who is very afraid of loneliness.
Would she be afraid?
I think I'll have to stay with him.
I made up my mind and stuffed a handful of sleeping pills in my mouth.
Then I changed into Xu Yan's favorite clothes and lay on the bed, this is the clothes Xu Yan gave me, and I was reluctant to throw them away.
The irresistible drowsiness hit, I slowly closed my eyes, and then I saw Xu Yan.
She was holding the small cake she had saved up to buy, and her face was red from the cold.
Seeing the belated arrival of my smiling eyes, narrowed into a slit.
"Qin Yan, I've been waiting for you for a long time, why did you come."
May the dust and the ashes be the same.
【Xu Yanfan】
Qin Yan and Xu Yan are the only and firm choice
But it was probably the fifth time, when Qin Yan died in front of me, that I realized that no matter what I did, I couldn't change the outcome of his death.
I would love to go with Qin Yan.
When I put the knife in the aorta, I had something in my mind that called itself a system.
It told me.
"This world is a fictional novel, and it was you who deviated from the main line that led to Qin Yan's death."
He said that as long as I returned to the original track, Qin Yan would be able to avoid death.
I think it's ridiculous.
I would fall in love with other men when they all have girlfriends.
Let's not say that I have the most basic morals.
Obviously, the person I love the most is Qin Yan, the best for me in the world, I want to be with him for the rest of my life, how could I fall in love with someone else.
I asked the system one last question.
"If I follow the original plot, he will be better and have a happy life."
"Yes, in the original book, he was cured, and he will get married and have children in the future, and have a happy family."
I couldn't help but redden.
Well, it's good to be happy.
I heard my own voice in the screams of the instrument.
"I'll get back to the storyline."
When I opened my eyes again, I saw Qin Yan's vivid face.
He smiled and asked me what I wanted to eat, and he went for it.
I wanted to hold him, but this time, I was going to push him away.
There is a new colleague in the company, who is Shen Cao, the hero of this world.
When I saw him, I couldn't hide the disgust in my heart.
But I still have to lick my face to approach him and please him
I deliberately mentioned Shen Cao again and again in front of Qin Yan.
I knew that on the day Qin Yan went to check his stomach, he pestered Shen Ke to check his stomach.
It was his birthday, and I subconsciously walked to the cake shop.
I said I would accompany him for his birthday every year, but I was going to miss the appointment.
I have to be conscientious to play the bad woman.
When he got home, Qin Yan hadn't slept yet.
Fool, I know he saw it all, but he didn't ask me.
I looked at his clenched fists, and hurried to wash his face for fear of losing his temper, The sound of water muffled the cry.
This idiot was just diagnosed with kidney failure today, and he must have been terrified.
I picked up the phone in the middle of the night, and I knew he was awake.
I endured the pain and uttered one disgusting sentence after another.
I went too far, and let him drink for Shen Cao with his seriously ill body.
I really wanted to smash the bottle on Shen Cao's head.
But I still have to maintain Shen Cao.
Qin Yan finally asked me, and I was relieved.
But the mouth is still vicious.
Pierced upon him, and on my heart.
Come on, just go through the last scene.
Qin Yan will break up with me.
On the day I didn't go home, I went to the hospital and donated my kidney, which was donated to Shen Cao, and we had done matching in the previous lives, which was suitable.
I also made arrangements for the property, I can't give it to Qin Yan, he is so smart, he will definitely find out.
Qin Yan and I broke up.
Even though I know that everything is an inevitable result.
My heart still hurts so much that I can't breathe.
I watched Qin Yan dragging his suitcase and never looked back, walking out of my world from then on.
And I am determined to run towards my end.
It is true that people experience marquees when they die.
In a trance, I saw Xu Yan.
On a winter morning, he traveled all the way to buy me breakfast, and when I slept in, I could see him standing downstairs with my buns not cold at all.
When I was in college, I had a little unpleasantness with my roommate, and he sensed my unhappiness without asking anything.
I did a day and a night and the train came to my school quietly.
I hugged him, I wanted to hold the whole world.
I saw him working hard part-time in college, and then working even harder, but he never told me how hard life was.
I also saw Xu Yan when he got the first commission, holding me happily in circles.
He turned around and gave me all the money.
"Xu Yan, I have the ability to make you happy."
It's so good, he's smiling so much, please keep laughing.
"We, Qin Yan, will definitely live a long life, be safe and smooth, and be blessed for a lifetime."
[End of this story]