01
It was late at night, and the moonlight outside the window shone through the gaps in the curtains and dappled on the bedroom floor, just like my thoughts, disorganized.
When I think back to the cold scene of that night, I still feel my heart ache.
"Wife, my mother lost five hundred yuan, if you took it, return it." This is a sudden sentence from my husband at the dinner table, like a boulder being thrown into a calm lake, which stirred up waves in my heart.
I looked at him, the eyes that once made my heart flutter, but now they were full of doubt and indifference.
I was stunned, and I didn't know how to respond for a moment.
Five hundred bucks? I've never seen those five hundred dollars, so how could I steal them? An inexplicable grievance and anger surged in my heart, but more than that, there was disappointment and sadness.
"How can you say that about me?" I tried to defend myself in a trembling voice, but as soon as I spoke, I felt a little powerless.
In this family, I have always tried to play the role of a good wife and mother-in-law, taking care of my husband and mother-in-law with all my heart, and I never thought that I would be questioned like this.
02
"I just said don't get excited if."
The husband's tone was understated, as if what he had just said was just a casual remark and did not have any substantive meaning. But for me, this sentence was like a sharp knife that pierced deep into my heart.
"What if? If it's just if, then why would you doubt me? Am I such a person in your eyes? ”
I couldn't hold back any longer, and tears welled up in my eyes. I felt like I had been abandoned by the whole world, lonely and helpless.
My husband looked at me, was silent for a while, and then said lightly: "I just think you should have this awareness, after all, I usually go to work, and there are only two people in the family, you and my mother." ”
His words sent a complete chill down my heart. It turned out that in his heart, I turned out to be such an untrustworthy person. I felt that I had no status or value in this family, as if I was just a pawn that could be discarded at any time.
"Let's get a divorce." I wiped away my tears and said this calmly. I know that this decision may cost me a lot, but I can't live with this life of being misunderstood and doubted anymore because it's not the first time something like this has happened.
03
My husband also seemed to be taken aback by my words, and he looked at me with a flash of surprise and panic in his eyes. But soon, he regained his composure and said lightly: "Are you talking nonsense with a fever?" I'm just asking you, you're going to divorce me? ”
I looked at him without a ripple in my heart. I know it wasn't an easy decision for me, but I also knew it was a step I had to take. Only by leaving this home of doubt and indifference can I regain my dignity and worth.
"yes, I figured it out." I said this firmly, and then turned away.
That night, I dragged my suitcase on the way back to my mother's house, and the night breeze gently blew across my face, taking away my tiredness and sadness.
I looked up at the sky, and the bright moon seemed to tell me: no matter how many ups and downs I go through, as long as I have light in my heart, I can light the way forward.
Yes, because of a word, I am divorced, maybe many people will think that I am too hypocritical, but I feel that I am not wrong in my choice, because I also have my own dignity.
04
Ba Jin said:
"The feeling of not being trusted is that you are trying to do something for him, but he feels that you are doing something sorry for him behind his back."
In this world, many people are respected by others, but some people don't trust their other half in their married life, which eventually leads to the breakdown of this relationship.
Therefore, men must have their own bearing, have their own determination to distinguish between right and wrong, and at the same time have their own position, so that if something happens, they will doubt their pillow person with a prejudiced eye.
Otherwise, you will not find your true love at any time.