I'm like a spider,
Fate is my bottom net.
I knotted the net,
Still living in the center.
Ah, my bottom net was damaged at some time!
How does this bad teach me to grow?
The living djinn said, "Mend and mend,"
There is no such thing as an unbreakable net.
When I close the net again,
To tie the knot in the tortoiseshell beams
beaded curtains;
or knotted in a broken well
What about the smoke and grass?
The djinn laid his hands on my head and said,
"If you choose to go,
Where you are, there is prosperity and prosperity. ”
Although, the net I knot again is still as fragile as before,
The enemy is not able to collide with external forces;
The form of my net bottom is still as neat as before-
Are the parallel threads connected into octagonal and twelve-angular shapes?
He handed me the "kaleidoscope of rawness" and said:
"Look in,
As you love, you will be formed. ”
Ah, the kaleidoscope and so on in shapes and colors
It's still the same as it used to be!
Give me the second one,
I chose carefully.
"Duh! Greedy and unwise worms!
Since then, back to Xuhong,
No one has ever said that there is a form in it that is the same as before.
Let's go, the structure of life is made of these dozens of 'colored glass crumbs'.
You don't have to look at the second raw kaleidoscope anymore. ”
That night, the moon was very bright, but from time to time a breeze came to move the shadows of the flowers in the garden. Su Guang came down from the coconut leaf and shot directly at Shang Jie and her guest Mrs. Shi. The two of them naturally couldn't recognize each other very clearly at this time, but the sound of their conversation echoed like the bottom of a valley, without a little blur.
Everything around them was silent, as if to make them talk: the birds at the bottom of the trees put their beaks under their wings; The insects in the grass did not dare to make a sound; Even the jade civet beside Shang Jie, when the voice of the master was a hypnotic song, he just fell asleep.
She stroked the jade civet with her slender hand, looked at her guest, and said lazily: "Sister-in-law, I can't listen to the gossip outside." I don't care about it—I don't believe in fate, but I deal with it as it comes, and I don't have to plan in advance. ”
When she heard these calm words, she was very anxious and said, "You don't pay much attention to your future!" If a person does not have long-term concerns, he will inevitably encounter danger, although outsiders are not credible, but you have to show your attitude a little clearly, teach people not to doubt. ”
Shang Jie simply held the jade civet in his arms, lowered his head, and just rubbed it. After a while, she sneered and said, "Hey, sister-in-law, you are talking badly, and the danger is not something that can be avoided by worrying." We don't dare to know for sure what happened in the next hour, where can it be taken care of for as long as three or four months, three or two years? Can you keep me out of danger for a while, and can you keep me awake tonight? Even if I knew that I had been in danger tonight, I might not have time to plan now. We are all walking in the clouds, two or three feet away, who knows what the future holds? It says, 'Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not yet know what will come into being in that day.' Have you forgotten that? …… Alas, we all come from the nothing, live in the small, and look out of the nothing. If you are afraid to walk around in this cloud-sealed and foggy life journey, it is better to stop your steps; If you have an interest in roaming, you have to go, even if the future and the surrounding scenery do not make you happy. Horizontal and vertical is to move forward, what are you worried about?
"What happened to us in the past, maybe you and the people who live here don't know very much, I don't want to destroy my reputation, and I can't bear to teach him to make a fool of myself. Since you want me to show my attitude, I have to tell you a little bit about the past, but I ask you to keep this secret for the time being.
"Reasoning, I'm not his ......"
Mrs. Shi didn't wait for her to finish, she straightened up, looked very surprised, turned around and said in an anxious voice, "What? It's weird again! ”
"It's not weird, and listen to me. When you listen to this, you will know what I mean. I was originally a child daughter-in-law, and I have never been married to anyone - that is to say, the title of husband and wife is not needed in me. At that time, I didn't love him, but I had to rely on his help to save me from my cruel in-laws. Walking to this place, according to the circumstances of the times, I can't help but recognize him as a husband......"
"It turns out that their family has such a special history. …… Then, you can say that you have no spiritual relationship with Mr. Changsun, but it is just an unnatural union. ”
Shang Jie replied solemnly: "Do you mean that we have no love? Admittedly, I would never have used a little love between men and women on others; I will never tell if someone else gives it to me is true and this is false. Husband and wife, but in name only; Love or not love can only slightly affect the spiritual life, and it has nothing to do with the family organization.
Whatever he thinks of flattering me, everyone who knows me will see it. However, I didn't get his bottom line, because he never checked his own behavior.
He has a lot of hobbies and a bad temper, as you know. When I went to the synagogue, I was very ashamed to hear that I was the wife of the eldest grandson. I often think that the love given by people who never love themselves is fake.
"Although I don't love him, I am willing to do the things at home that I think should be done for him. Because family is public, love is private. The relationship between the two of us is really like this. Outsiders say that the matter between me and Mr. Tan is completely wrong. My family has become like this, how can I destroy it? ”
Mrs. Shi said: "I only see the truth about you now, and I will also go back to tell Mr. Shi and teach him not to believe in gossip." I know that you are a good man, a pure woman, and God will bless you. As he spoke, he gently patted Shang Jiedi on the shoulder with his hand, and then stood up and said goodbye.
Shang Jie walked with her under the shade of flowers, and said, "I would like you to tell Mr. Shi the truth about this matter." As for the rumors that I have a secret relationship with Mr. Tan, saying that I am an adulteress, I don't mind. Even he won't be back for days.
I reckon he was angry about it, but I didn't defend it. There is no one in the world who can show his sincerity to others; Even if I can take it out, people can't understand it, so why should I bother with it? Once people have a prejudice about a thing, it is not easy for them to observe the truth. It is no wonder that all people have prejudices, and the same thing will inevitably give rise to different judgments. I don't care how people criticize me, no matter how much they doubt me, I just want to be worthy of the stars in the sky and the ants in the ground. Don't worry, when things happen to me, I'll have my own way to deal with them. That's what I mean, if I have time, I'll talk about it another day. ”
When she sent the guests out, she carried the jade civet to her room. It was not yet early, and the moonlight came in through the window, resting on the chairs, tables, and pillows, and stained the contents of the room as if they were made of lead. She reached out and rang the bell on the side of the bed, and in a moment, the maid came up. She asked, "Is Miss Pehe asleep?" At the door, she replied, "I have already slept." The night is ready, will it be served? As she spoke, she turned on the light, and the room was lit up for a moment.
Under the light, I saw Shang Jie reclining on the bed. Flowing eyes, soft cheeks, shallot-like nose, willow-like eyebrows, peach-like lips, and unkempt hair...... All kinds of physical beauty are made up of her head. Her bottom body is also very well trimmed. The voices that came out of her mouth were all syllables, and even those who didn't understand music could get a lot of inspiration when they listened to her words. When she saw that she had turned on the lamp, she said, "Turn it out." The light is too strong and more uncomfortable. Just now, I also forgot that Mrs. Liushi is here at night. I don't feel very hungry, so I don't have to bring it, you can go as you please. Pack up your things and light me a candle. ”
Tu Niang obeyed her order, immediately put out the light, and then said, "Xianggong may not come back tonight, can you lock the door?" ”
"yes, I don't think he'll ever come back. When you have eaten, shut the door, and rest every man, for the night is deep. ”
Shang Jie sat alone in the room full of moon, the table and a foreign candle had been burned more than two-thirds of the way, and the light breeze was blowing the flames, and the little glowing thing was about to burst into tears.
So she got up and moved the candle to a small table in front of a window in the corner of the house. There is a cushion with a few scriptures and prayers on top of it. Her homework before going to bed every night was to kneel on the mat and memorize three or two verses or a few prayers. Something else, she might forget, but this sacrament was something she did not dare to ignore. She knelt there and meditated for a long time, and when she opened her eyes, she saw that the fire had escaped from the candlestick at some point.
She stood up, put her bedding in order, and lay down to sleep. But how could she fall asleep? Ah, the moon also followed the guests' bottom courtesy, did not dare to disturb each other, slowly quit her, and walked into the garden to make friends with its flowers and plants, wood and stone!
Although the moon was gone, she still looked at the sky outside the window, as if she wanted to tell her secret. She was tossing and turning in bed when she heard a loud "whoosh" in the garden. She got up, went to the window, and looked out, but saw that the shadows of the trees and the night mist covered the garden very tightly, and taught her not to see anything. So she crept downstairs, woke up her mother, and ordered her to go into the garden to see where the strange sound came from. Tuo Niang dared to go out by herself; She went to the porter to wake up Brother Tuan, and he went to the fence to take a look. Brother Tuan also got up.
After a short while, she came in and replied. She smiled and said, "Guess what?"
It turned out to be a thief who had fallen to the base of our bottom wall. His legs were broken, his head was bruised, he was bleeding all over the floor, and he couldn't move. Brother Tuan is holding a thorn and is pumping him. ”
Shang Jie listened, and all the horrors of a moment ago turned into kindness. She couldn't wait for an answer, so she ran to the root of the wall. Brother Tuan was still there, "You damn thing...... I don't know how bad it is! ......" sentence by sentence, beating and scolding very happily. As soon as Shang Jie arrived, he stopped him and ordered him and Tuo Niang to carry the wounded thief into the house. She ordered him to lie down on the chaise longue. The servants all looked reluctant, for they thought that a thief should not be treated so well.
Shang Jie saw what they meant, so she said: "It is most pitiful for a person to go to the point of being a thief, if you don't have a good opportunity, maybe you ......" She said this, feeling a little gaffe, and taught her that the servant was uncomfortable to listen to, so she changed her sentence: "If you understand his situation, maybe you will be considerate of him." I saw a wounded man, and no matter what, he had to be saved. You often hear the words 'help the afflicted,' and sometimes you blurt out the words when you are in trouble, so why don't you think of him from the aspect of 'he is a sufferer.' Do not be afraid that his blood will stain the mat, but help him to lie down. Brother Tuan had to help him lie down, and said in a deep voice: "Do we still have to ask a doctor for him?" ”
"Wait, move the light closer, and I'll take a look. I'm still doing it. Lady Tuo, you go upstairs and get our 'standing medicine box' down. Then he said to Brother Tuan, "Go and pour a basin of water." ”
And the servants did as they were commanded, and went to their own work. Although the thief closed his eyes, he could hear what Fang Shangjie said. His deep gratitude made him forget that he was a sinner, and that he was one of the most cherished young men in the world. This kind of treatment may be the first time in his life that he has received. He groaned and said in a deep voice, "Compassionate, Bodhisattva bless compassionate!" ”
The man was badly wounded by the sun, and his leg was not very bad. She gently washed the blood around the wound with a cotton wool dipped in water and wrapped it in a bandage. By the time things were clear, it was already dawn.
She was about to turn to go upstairs to change her clothes, when she heard a knock on the door in a hurry, so she stopped and asked, "Who came knocking so early?" ”
"It's the police."
When Tuo Niang mentioned these four words, she was very anxious. "Who's going to tell the police," she said. The thief was lying on the chaise longue, and when he heard that the police were coming, he immediately got up and knelt on the ground and begged for mercy. But such action was confessed by his tired eyes. Shang Jie ran to him and comforted him, saying, "I didn't call anyone to call the police......
As he spoke, the footsteps from outside the door had already stepped in.
It wasn't the police who came, but the eldest grandson of the owner of the family. He saw Shang Jie standing there talking to a lying man in a pajamas, and the anger in his heart had emanated from the 84,000 pores on his body. The first thing he asked:
"Who's that man?"
This question was not easy for Shang Jie to answer, because she had never asked the name of the injured man, and it was inconvenient to say that he was a thief.
He ...... He's the one who was wounded......"
But before he could finish speaking, he took her hand and said, "I already know what you have done." I haven't been coming back for a few days, and I'm about to scout on your movements, but I'll see you today. How have I failed you? …… Let's go up together, and we can talk slowly. I couldn't help but say, I pulled her and ran up.
Tu Niang was beside her, and when she saw it, she shouted loudly: "He's a thief!" ”
"I'm a thief, I'm a thief!" The poor man also shouted twice. Kewang only sneered at him and said, "I know you are a thief." You don't have to sign up, just take a break. ”
As soon as he arrived in the bedroom, he said, "Let me ask you, what am I sorry for you?" If you want to enter the church, I will send you there at once; When you come to the chapel to hear the sermon, I will prepare a chariot and a horse for you. Now you are learned, and you are taught; And I ask you, does the church teach you to do this, and the church teaches you to do this? ”
In the end, he wanted to ask her why she had changed her mind, because he had heard people say that Shang Jie thought he was despicable and unliterate, and wanted to abandon him to marry someone surnamed Tan. He didn't know anything about the night, and when he entered the door, he saw Shang Jiedi's expression, and always thought that what she did was a love trick. On Shang Jie's side, he thought he didn't like her treatment like this. She felt that there was no conflict between her faith and her education, and she replied, "Yes, the church taught me to do this, and the church taught me to do this." How dare you ......"
"Really?" Kewang snorted, took out the small knife in his arms and struck Shang Jiedi on the shoulder. Immediately the unfortunate woman fell to the ground, and her jade-white face was as if it had been stained with rouge.
She didn't say anything, but with a calm and non-resisting attitude, it was enough to move the foolish murderer. It is hoped that at this scene, the terrifying emotions in the heart have overcome the fierce anger. He didn't make any more moves, just stood to the side. He saw that Shang Jie didn't move, and estimated that she was dead; At that time, he felt that his guilt was pressing him down, and he was not allowed to stay there any longer, so he ran away like a smoke.
When Tu Niang saw him running away, she knew that there must be an accident upstairs, so she hurried up. When she saw Shang Jie like that, she couldn't help but say, "Ah, God! He shouted, and went up to help her up. At this time, Shang Jie's eyes opened slightly, as if she wanted to say something to her, but she couldn't say it. She gestured to her shoulder, and she saw a knife stuck in her shoulder. Tuo Niang's hands were soft, her body trembled, and she had no strength to help her. With tears in her eyes, she said to the housewife, "Let me go to the doctor." ”
"Shi ...... Shi ...... "Tuo Niang knew that she was going to invite Mrs. Shi to come, so she replied:
"Okay, I'll also go and invite Mrs. Shi to come." She taught her brother to guard the door, and hired a car to find a savior.
The doctor helped Shang Jie to the bed and slowly performed the operation; When Mrs. Shi arrived, everything was clear. The doctor said to Mrs. Shi: "Mrs. Eldest Sun's bottom injury is not very serious, and it can be recovered after a week or two of maintenance." Luckily, the knife came out of the shoulder blade and didn't hurt the lobes of the lungs—the two wounds didn't matter. ”
After the doctor resigned, Mrs. Shi sat on the edge of the bed and comforted her. At this time, Shang Jiedi's spirit recovered slightly, and he said to her bottom acquaintance: "I can't talk much, I just ask you to send the injured person to the public hospital first; I'll tell you the rest, when I'm ready. …… Alas, my sister-in-law, I can't leave you now, you have to live with me these days. ”
As soon as Mrs. Shi entered the door, she didn't understand why there was an injured man lying underneath. When Tu Niang went, she didn't say anything in detail to her. When she saw Shang Jie's appearance, she was inconvenient to ask. But Shang Jiedi Ying's understanding will never be injured by a knife, she already understood that Mrs. Shi couldn't guess this stuffy gourd, so she said: "I don't have the strength to tell you more now, you can ask Tuo Niang about it." Do it quickly, for if he returns, it will kill him. ”
Mrs. Shi did as she was told; When he came back, he accompanied her in the room and did not go home. The four-year-old girl, Pehe, didn't know what was going on, but she was still smiling and living her peaceful life.
A week, two weeks, passed in her illness. She's also recovering. She didn't want to go to the garden for a long time, so she begged Mrs. Shi to help her walk out slowly. They walked through the shade of the willows where they had talked that night, and came to a small pavilion at the edge of the garden, where they rested. The place where they sat was full of roses, and the quiet, warm and fragrant scenery could really eliminate all melancholy and sickness.
"I've forgotten that we have so many good flowers here, and after a while, I can break a few and bring them back to the house."
"Rest, I'll choose a few for you." When Mrs. Shi said, she got up and folded the flowers. Shang Jie saw a big flower at her feet, so she pointed to it and said, "Look, there is a big and beautiful flower under your feet, why don't you pick it off?" ”
Mrs. Shi looked down, lifted the flower with her hand, and sighed.
"What's wrong?"
Mrs. Shi said, "This flower is not good. "Because the flower is only half of the ground, and the other side is wounded by worms. She was afraid that if she said the word hurt, she would hurt Shangjie's heart, so she replied like this. But Shang Jie saw that it was obviously a good flower, so Zhijiao handed it over to her.
"Sister-in-law, do you think it's bad? I'm going to find the truth in that! Although this flower was half injured by insects, it bloomed so beautifully, it can be seen that the fate of the human body is the same-if you don't completely take away the life of the bottom, although it is not complete, you can also get a part of the happiness of life, what do you think? ”
Mrs. Shi knew that she didn't even think about her own affairs, so she only replied: "Of course, fate and prosperity have little to do with our lives." ”
During the conversation, Tuo Niang led Mr. Shi Duokui in. He greeted Shang Jie and his wife, and sat down on a stool across from them. Mrs. Shi didn't care what her husband had to say, but the first thing she asked was, "How can the matter be resolved?" ”
Mr. Shi said: "It is for this reason that I have come to send a letter to Mrs. Changsun, and yesterday there was a very fierce dispute in the synagogue, because some people said that Mrs. Changsun had forced her to do so, and that she should be deprived of the right to go to the Holy Feast. I and my pastor Bongjin pleaded our arguments at the banquet, but to no avail. He looked at Shang Jie and said, "It doesn't matter if you go to the Holy Feast or not. For our faith must not be bound by ritual; We only want to be worthy of our conscience. ”
"Will you punish me for not handing over the poor man to the police?"
Mr. Shi shook his head and said, "No, no, the problem now is not on that matter. The day before yesterday, I was expected to send a long letter to the meeting, talking about how you did not live with him, and how you wanted to reject him and marry someone else. He says where and when you're going to and from someone. And he will not see your bottom again; If he doesn't divorce you, he'll never come home.
There are many who believe what he says, and we cannot defend it. We know that this is not the case, but we cannot find any evidence to prove it. I'm about to tell you right now, if you want to go to court, I can do you a favor. It's not like our motherland, where there is no place for women to speak in the public court. Besides, at first you took out the capital for his bottom business; In the event of a divorce, according to the law, at least half of the property must be given to you. …… A man like this doesn't want him. ”
Shang Jie said: "There is no need to argue with that fact now, I have already explained it to my sister-in-law."
Because of the creed, the congregation forbade me to go to the Holy Feast because of my beliefs, saying that my behavior was unreasonable—what do I have to say, as he believes! When she said the last sentence, her voice lowered. Her bottom color is very similar to regretting that her peers misunderstand her and misunderstand the truth.
"Alas, the same reason, why are people of faith different?"
When she heard Mr. Shi's words, she became excited and said, "Why do you have to ask? Don't you often hear people say, 'The water is the same: when a cow drinks it it becomes milk, and when a snake drinks it it becomes venom?'
I promise that what I get can be turned into milk, but what can interfere with what others get becomes venom?
If you go to court, you don't have to. I didn't have a formal wedding with him, so I didn't have to announce my divorce in court. If he doesn't want to see me again, I can move out. Property is a tumor of life, don't do it, what are you fighting with him? …… He has given me a great favor, and I will keep it for him......"
"But as soon as you give him all your possessions, you will not be able to live at once. And what about Pehe? ”
Shang Jie groaned for a while and said, "Okay, I have accumulated a little in private, but I can't support it for a year." But no matter what, I had to struggle on my own. As for Pehe......" she pondered for a while before she continued, "Well, see what he means, and if he is willing to keep the child, I will not fight with him." I'm leaving here on my own. ”
The two of them knew Shang Jiedi's temperament very well, and knew that she had a lot of ideas and didn't need guidance from others. And she arranges everything with a religious spirit. Her attitude is often very calm and resolute, and what she does is sometimes beyond ordinary people's expectations.
Mr. Shi was convinced that she would be able to solve her future life, and as soon as he heard what she said, he didn't say anything, but frowned slightly. Mrs. Shi also took some trouble planning for her during these two or three stars. They have a separate business in Tuhua, and they have long wanted to teach Shang Jie to go there to recuperate; Only now did she speak: "Sister Shangjie, I know you must have a better idea, but your body is not yet recovering, and you can't go out immediately to do something, why don't we rest in the village and make plans in a few months?" Mr. Shi then said to his wife, "That's fine."
I'm afraid that the road is a little farther, and it will take two days to get there by sea ship at the earliest. But we are all people who are used to going out, and of course the bumps at the bottom of the sea cannot subdue us. If you want to go, you can go with you, so as to save the loneliness of Mrs. Eldest Sun. ”
Shang Jie also wanted to find a place to recuperate, not wanting the couple to be so righteous, so she agreed without hesitation. She didn't want to teach others trouble for her own sake, so she didn't let Mrs. Shi follow. She said: "The lonely life is what I am used to.
Sister-in-law Shi also has a lot of things to do at home, where can she walk with me? It's better for me to go myself. I am very grateful to you two for your friendship, but I don't know how to express my gratitude; Even if you understand, you can't say 1 in 10,000. All I had to say was 'I'm grateful'. Mr. Shi, please ask him again what he is going to do with Peihe, and when this matter is clarified, I will leave. As she spoke, she chose a beautiful one from among the roses she had just picked and handed it to Mr. Shi, and taught him to insert it on the bottom button door on her chest. Soon, Mr. Shi also stood up to take his leave and negotiated for her.
Tuhua is on the west coast of the Malay Peninsula, although the place is not large, the scenery is still quiet.
There are a lot of jewels in the sea, so most of the people who live there are treasure hunters. Shang Jie's place of residence is in a palm forest by the sea. Outside her bottom door, she saw from time to time the pearl-diving boats going back and forth between the spires of gold and the waves of silver. This pearl diving gave her many lessons. Because in the past few months, she has often thought that life is like going into the sea to dive for pearls; Venture into the sea all day long, and the pearl diver is not sure how much or what he will get. But this feeling will not hinder her life. She saw those people searching in a foggy way every day, and soon realized that her journey in the world was the same as that of pearl diving. How much she wants to get, what she gets, although it is not under her power, but she always gets a sea of people every day, because her bottom duty is like this.
Not only is she not a little discouraged about the future, but she is even more motivated. Although it is expected that they are deprived of the relationship between mother and daughter, and Peihe is not allowed to follow her, she still can't bear to abandon her responsibility, and asks someone to secretly send food to her hometown to her daughter every month.
She has now changed her status as a housewife to a pearl merchant's office. The people who lived there said that she was an abandoned woman and looked down on her, so all she was with were workers in the bead boat. When the thoughtless men were resting, they came to her because of her appearance. But she often subdues the evil thoughts of this group of people, teaching them to turn their minds and admit that she is their bottom teacher.
For three years, in addition to doing her business, she taught her friends to speak a few words of English, read a few scriptures, and know a little common sense. In her bottom group, the orders and offerings are all unsatisfactory. If you talk about a happy life, it will not be bad if you can be like her.
Still, she is flawed. social status, without her bottom points; family life, there is no bottom for her; Let's think about it, what does she really feel in her heart?
The former is of little importance to her; The latter item can confuse her bottom line!
Although Mrs. Shi often sent letters to her, she did not see the letters, and when she saw the letters, the indescribable sadness increased a thousand times.
When she thought of her family, every time she had to wander in the woods, the insects at the bottom of the trees often had to turn into her daughter's voice and say to her: "Mother Si'er? Mother Si'erye? "This is not a miracle, because the speaker is ruthless, and the listener is intentional; Not only is she like this to the sounds of the little insects, that is, all the sounds and colors, when they touch her bottom senses, they will become her bottom family.
She sat at the bottom of the forest, looking at the endless waves, and once lifted to the shore, and often felt that her daughter was stepping on the waves, and this was more than once. That day, she sat there again, holding a small photograph of Pehoty, which Madame Shi had recently sent her. She flipped over and over, and was dizzy. She looked up sharply, and she had the same vision as she had always seen. She saw a man carrying her daughter up from the sea, through the forest, until she came to her. The man said, "Mrs. Eldest Sun, I haven't seen you for a long time, you are in good health!" I have brought your daughter to you. ”
At this time, Shang Jie showed her eyes, and realized that it was indeed Mr. Shi who came to her with Peihe. She didn't wait to answer Mr. Shi's words, so she stepped forward and hugged Peihe hard; Her cry came from the depths of her love, thunderous like an earthquake. Pehe was frightened because she didn't recognize her, and she cried loudly. Mr. Shi didn't know what he was feeling, and he was also next to him, just wiping his tears.
After the crying of these three different emotions stopped, Shang Jie asked Mr. Shi with a whimper, "I really like it." I didn't expect you to come to visit me, and I didn't think Pehe would be able to come! ...... "She has a lot to ask, and she can't figure it out for a while. only hugged Peihe and watched Mr. Shi distracted.
Mr. Shi said solemnly, "Madam, I'm here to bring you good news." ”
"Good news?"
"Calm down and wait for me to tell you in detail. As soon as we got the news, my wife taught me to come to you with Pehor. We didn't know about this miracle before, and it wasn't until a dozen days ago that we heard what my pastor was saying. Since my pastor stepped down for you that year, he has lived, you already know. ”
"Yes, I know. Didn't he work as a tailor by day and a baker by night?
I can trust that God will help him, because the Son of God says, 'Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake.'" Is his career still going well?' ”
"There's nothing you can't get by. Not only did he work day and night, but he also went about preaching the gospel when it was right. He didn't have to suffer like this now, because the old church had seen his behavior and asked him to return to China and still be a pastor, and he had already left the week before. ”
"Yes! Thank God! He will not be able to suffer for a long time. ”
"It was because of my pastor's return that I was able to come here. Do you know that Mr. Changsun was also influenced by him? In detail, it was a miracle. I'm here to tell you about it.
"A few days ago, Mr. Changsun suddenly came to my house to look for me. He has always been very unfamiliar with us, and he has only visited us once in several years, so this time he came to teach us very surprised.
The first thing he said was to ask you how you were doing, and told him how he repented. He said that the repentance was sudden, and that it was my pastor who warned him. Now I'm going to tell you what he said in the same way—
"During these two or three years, my pastor often came to talk to me, and sometimes invited me to his bakery. I have been with him so many times, and I think he is my best master. Whenever I had a difficult question or a question, I went to him for advice.
Since I had an incident the year before last, after the two of them separated, every time I doubt Shang Jie's official integrity, and I often hear the words of the domestic servant who misses her, I feel very regretful in my heart. But I always think, the man talks about the general's arrow, and the thing has been done, where is there still the cheek to take back? Ben was going to give it a mistake to the end. However, the more time passed, the more I felt that something was wrong. When my pastor was about to leave and finally ordered me to receive a lesson, he gave a chapter of the scriptures and I was very touched by the teaching. After the meeting was dismissed, he told me that what he hoped I would do was to ask Shang Jieguan to come back. And he read to me the tenth chapter of the Gospel of Mark, and the more I have learned that I have been mean, and cruel, and obscene, and that I am very sorry for my servant, and now I beg thee to take Pehor to her first, that she may forgive me for my daughter's sake. You can go first, and I'll go there myself later.
"He said a lot of remorse, and I can't go into details. When he comes, let him speak to you in detail. I was surprised that my pastor had never said anything to me about it before, and only mentioned it when it was time to leave; Isn't it a miracle that he came to me? ”
Shang Jie listened to this, but did not show a particularly happy look, only said:
"I did not seek to be known, nor did I seek mercy or praise; I will suffer as others treat me, and I will never care. If someone hurts me, I will forgive, let alone him? He knew that he was reckless, which was a very gratifying thing. - Would you like to come and see my house? Let's go for a walk together. ”
They walked and talked. When Mr. Shi asked her how her career was here, she was reluctant to tell all the hardships she had experienced, but said, "I have come here for a few years, and it is not a waste of my work, because I have found many lost beads!"
Those spiritual beads are not as easy as going into the sea to find them, but I can get twenty or thirty of them. Besides, there is nothing to tell you. ”
Shang Jie put an end to her affairs, and when she couldn't wait, she planned to go back with Mr. Shi. Just as she was about to say goodbye to her friends in the bead boat, she met a local man who followed her from the opposite side on the way. She recognized it as Kewang, so she smiled and took a few steps to meet him, saying, "Kewangjun, peace!" As soon as he saw her, he saluted deeply and said, "Honorable woman, everything I have done has hurt my body, and I have a deep relationship with you and me, and I will not dare to do it again." I know how much I have sinned against you, and I really don't deserve to see you again, and I hope you don't take my mistakes to heart. I have come here today to show that I have repented of my deeds. And please go back and manage everything. Where are you going now? I think you and Mr. Shi can move first, and I'll come back later. ”
Shang Jie saw that his sincere attitude, compared to before, was simply two people, and his heart was naturally full of happiness, and secretly thanked her for the miracle that God had shown on him. She said, "Ah! The past is like smoke in a dream, it has long dissipated in the illusion, so why bother to bring it up again? Let no man gather up the resentment of the day, nor anger, nor all the sorrowful things of the day, nor shall it be in the night, let alone the events which have been separated by years. Please put those things behind you.
I would have liked to go into the boat and say goodbye to my co-workers. Why don't you go back with us, is there anything else you need to do? Mr. Shi is now in his bottom business, which is where I live, and let's go there together, and wait a while, and then come out and leave. ”
"No, no. You can go to yours, I'll go to him myself. Because I have some legitimate things to do. I am afraid that I will not be able to go back with you; I'll tell you what to do later. ”
"Then teach this native to lead you, and you won't be far from here. I'll go to the boat first, and I'll talk to you later. Goodbye! ”
When she came back from Tuhua, she first lived in Mr. Shi's house, meaning that she would wait for Kewang to come and move back to her old house together. Who knew that after waiting for several days, he didn't see his background. Only then did she realize that what she said in Tuhua had a subtle meaning. But where did he go? What are you going to do? She was thinking about it when Mr. Shi came in with a letter and said to her, "Madam, you don't have to wait, just move back tomorrow and the day after tomorrow." He sent me this letter saying that he has many things to be sorry for you, all because of intense love, because he loves you, so he hurts you. Now he has to leave you for a while to change his wicked deeds and temper temper, and to pay for the suffering you have suffered all these years. He has already arrived in Penang. He did not write to you directly, because he was afraid that you would be sad, so he wrote to me and taught me to comfort you. He also said that all the former inheritance was yours, and that he should not have it alone for a long time, and asked you to enjoy as much as you could until he returned.
"In this case, why don't you move back first, and I'll send someone here to find him back? Alas, I didn't think he would be able to repent of this step in a moment! ”
She was originally very quiet, but when Mr. Shi said it, she never showed any perversion in her bottom color, but said: "Is it for love?" Leave me for love? Of course, love is like a sharp axe, and it is often used to exploit fate more than to sort it out. If he has set his own agenda, why bother to find him? I have no prejudices, how things come to be, how I deal with them. ”
On the day Shang Jie moved back, it happened to rain a little, as if the flowers and trees in the Angel Garden had been specially bathed to welcome their old owners. When she entered the door, Tuo Niang was tidying up the hall, and when she saw her coming, she shouted, "Grandma, you're back!" We miss you so much! Your room is in a mess, wait until I have everything in order. Let's go to the garden first, and all the flowers and trees you have planted have grown. The Shakya head in the back looks like a Luo umbrella, and there are a lot of results, let's take a look. Mrs. Shi and Miss Pehe had already arrived, and they were still in the garden. ”
She said a few words to her mother, and then went to the garden. As soon as I turned the corner, I saw Mrs. Shi and Peihe sitting on a stool under the shade of a tree—that was the place where she and Mrs. Shi sat and talked on the night she was going to be stabbed a few years ago. She walked and sat there side by side with Mrs. Shi. Mrs. Shi said that it was nothing more than words of comfort to her. She didn't believe that her fate was not very good, and she didn't believe that Mrs. Shi's explanation of fate to comfort her could make her satisfied. However, she could not say the right words for a while, and Madame Shishi knew that there was no melancholy in her heart. She inadvertently looked up and saw Pehe holding a branch and breaking a large part of a spider's web on the rose. She focused on it for a long time, and then came up with a meaning.
She said, "Ah, if I give this parable, you will understand what I mean."
"I'm like a spider, and fate is my web. The spider eats all the poisonous and non-poisonous insects in the human stomach, and turns back to organize the web. The gossamer it released for the first time did not know how far it would be blown by the wind; But when something else sticks to it, it's a bottom net.
"It doesn't know when or how the net will break. Once broken, it is still hidden in peace for the time being; Wait for the opportunity to get another good one.
"It is still a net left in the treetops. The sun shines down from above, and reflects the filaments into seven colors; Sometimes there are a few water droplets sticking to it, which makes it look even more brilliant and lovely.
"How is this not the fate of man and his end? All the nets are self-organized, complete or lacking, and can only be left to nature. ”
When Mrs. Shi was about to speak, Tuo Niang came to say that the house had been cleaned up and asked them to come in and have a look. So, they talked and left there.
There was no one in the garden, and it was silent for a long time. The spider quietly came out from the bottom of the leaf, towards the crack at the bottom of the web, step by step, slowly patching up. What does it do with this?
Because it's a spider, it has to be!
Originally published in Fiction Monthly, Vol. 13, No. 2, 1922
Xu Dishan (February 3, 1893 - August 4, 1941), known as Zankun, the word Dishan, and the pen name Luo Huasheng (also called Luo Peanut), was born in Jieyang, Guangdong. Born in Taiwan to a family of patriots. Most of the literary works he created during his life are set in Fujian, Taiwan, Guangdong, Southeast Asia, and India, and his main works include "Dangerous Nest Falling Jane", "Falling Peanuts", "Empty Mountain Spiritual Rain", and "Spider with Webs"; His translated works include "Twenty Nights", "The Sun Descends", "Bengali Folk Tales", etc.