The Path of Dance
Xu Fanxi has had a strong interest and talent in dance since he was a child. When she was only 11 years old, she mustered up the courage to ask her parents to learn dance.
Although the family was not well-off, his parents gave him full support and understanding.
As a late starter of dance, Xu Cuicui (Xu Fanxi's original name) faced unimaginable physical and mental torture in the process of learning. Her bones are not as flexible as those of a child who has been dancing since childhood, her movements are always rusty and clumsy, and she is often sprained or injured while practicing.
However, she never let this discourage and gave up, but threw herself into the hard practice with more determined perseverance.
Whenever she finishes a day of training, Xu Cuicui is always embarrassed and out of breath, but she always has a faint smile. While her peers were still playing and playing, she had already tensed her nerves and practiced the same movement over and over again until she became proficient.
During the winter and summer holidays, she devoted all her time to dancing until her old ankle and knee injuries recurred, and her family had to take her home to recuperate.
Despite the harsh conditions and humble environment, Xu Cuicui's desire and love for dance has never waned. With her dream of the stage, she gritted her teeth and persevered.
In the difficult practice career, she gradually tempered her tenacious character, which laid the foundation for stepping on the career stage in the future.
starred in "Struggle"
Just when Xu Cuicui was about to give up her dream of dancing and look for other ways out, a chance encounter opened a new chapter in her life. At that time, a TV series "Struggle" reflecting life in the 80s of the last century was holding an actor audition, although Xu Cuicui, as an unknown dance newcomer, was not outstanding, but her innocent and simple temperament unexpectedly attracted the attention of the producer.
After comprehensive consideration, the producer finally selected Xu Cuicui and asked her to play the role of "Lulu", who is greedy for material pleasures and is sophisticated and sleek in the play.
This is undoubtedly a coincidence, a dance lover who is supposed to be innocent and simple, but instead has to play a role of bohemian and vanity, and the two form a stark contrast and contradiction.
However, it is this contrast and contradiction that makes Xu Cuicui's performance in the play attract widespread attention. Her fresh and natural temperament formed an interesting contrast with the sophisticated and sleek character of "Lulu", which impressed the audience and sparked countless discussions and heated discussions.
During the filming stage of the crew, although she has been on the stage for many years, Xu Cuicui is still a fledgling rookie actor, and she is still exploring and learning the skills and know-how of acting.
The director guided her on the spot from time to time, telling her how to accurately present her inner emotions on her face and eyes. Although Xu Cuicui is shy and introverted on weekdays, she will strive to be a lively, cheerful, frank and enthusiastic "Lulu" under the earnest teachings of the director.
Surprisingly, the crew of "Struggle", which originally had a mediocre lineup behind the scenes, received unprecedented praise after its release. Many viewers saw their youth in the play, empathized with and sighed for the experiences of the characters in the play.
The main creators of the crew also became popular because of this, especially Xu Cuicui, who played the role of "Lulu", her innocent and natural performance won more people's attention, and also allowed her to regain her confidence when her career was at a low point.
The ups and downs of love life
Xu Cuicui, who is innocent and simple in appearance, unexpectedly won everyone's attention after "Struggle" became an instant hit. Who would have thought that this seemingly weak girl has already experienced vicissitudes in her love life and experienced a period of ups and downs.
It all starts with the filming of the crew. At that time, Xu Cuicui met Xu Jianing, the boyfriend of actor Li Xiaoran, and gradually fell in love. On the surface, Xu Jianing is a successful person with unlimited scenery, but in fact, he has long regarded Xu Cuicui as his "spare tire" lover.
Whenever he had conflicts and quarrels with Li Xiaoran, Xu Jianing would appear at Xu Cuicui's house in the middle of the night to tell her about the pain and loneliness in her heart.
Xu Cuicui was moved by Xu Jianing's pitiful appearance, and always tolerated and comforted him with affection, and tried to become his spiritual haven. In this way, Xu Cuicui has been Xu Jianing's "spare tire" lover silently for several years, and has paid all her sincerity and enthusiasm.
And Xu Jianing enjoyed the pampering and care of the two women with peace of mind, seemingly carefree.
This "love triangle" that lasted for many years finally came to an end. Once, Li Xiaoran received the bad news that Xu Jianing was hospitalized in a car accident, she hurried to the hospital and cried loudly in front of Xu Jianing's bed.
Xu Cuicui witnessed this scene, but she didn't dare to approach, for fear of disturbing the friendship between the two. It was at that heart-wrenching moment that she suddenly realized that she would always be only the second in Xu Jianing's mind, destined to become a "spare tire" in his eyes.
In grief-stricken, Xu Cuicui completely broke off the love thread that had been entangled with Xu Jianing for many years, and got rid of the fate of being a "spare tire". In order to get rid of the past and start a new journey in life, she changed her name from "Xu Cuicui" to "Xu Fanxi", which means starting anew.
Inner metamorphosis
Just after the news that Xu Jianing married Li Xiaoran and announced in a high-profile manner that he would give Li Xiaoran a huge amount of 500 million yuan, the outside world was in an uproar. Some people sympathize with Xu Fanxi, a "down-and-out girl", and some people ridicule her for being just Xu Jianing's "spare tire" for many years, wasting her years in vain.
However, Xu Fanxi himself was not as physically and mentally exhausted and painful as the outside world speculated. On the contrary, she seemed to have seen it and was relieved. After experiencing this emotional trauma, Xu Fanxi finally made up his mind that he would completely get rid of the superstitious psychology of "name change and transfer".
It wasn't until after breaking up with Xu Jianing that Xu Fanxi realized that this was just a useless excuse to escape from reality. She began to accept the emotional trauma calmly, and recognized the fact that she had been deceiving herself.
Although the fate of the past no longer exists, the fate has not ended, the key is how she regains her strength and starts again.
Is fate destined her to miss Xu Jianing? Or did she not fully trust Xu Jianing's affection for her from the beginning? Looking back on the past, Xu Fanxi does not seem to be completely passive, but subconsciously has doubts and reservations about this relationship.
After all this, Xu Fanxi finally realized that whether to change her name or not is not the key to transfer, and her physical and mental exhaustion was not arranged by fate, but from the paranoia and passivity of her inner world.
Only by getting rid of the blind superstition of "transshipment", only by having the courage to face reality and take the initiative to control her own life can she truly control her own destiny.