The cold death of the hospital, the eternal helplessness in life.
In loneliness and loneliness, Xiao Hua lay quietly on the hospital bed. She had imagined the difficulties she might face in her life, but she never imagined that she would finally say goodbye to this prosperous world in such a lonely and miserable way.
The ward was silent, except for the familiar sound of the medical equipment, as if helplessly telling the world that her life was still full of hope.
Distant memories came like a tide, Xiao Hua's eyes gradually dimmed, and tears swirled in his eyes. She recalled her youthful self more than 20 years ago and fell in love with Zhang Yimou at first sight.
At that time, she was the pearl of the family, born in a famous family, enjoying a carefree and wealthy life, however, in order to spend the rest of her life with Zhang Yimou, she resolutely put aside her family and followed him to the countryside to join the queue, and tasted the ups and downs of life.
At that moment, her heart was filled with endless regret and pain. If she hadn't given up her wealthy family background for love, would her life path be completely different? Will she still suffer such a tragic fate as she does today? These heart-wrenching questions kept lingering in Xiao Hua's mind, but he could never find the answers.
When she was young, Xiao Hua paid a huge price for Zhang Yimou, but when she entered her old age and was lonely, Zhang Yimou had already lived a luxurious life in another place, enjoying the treatment of princes and nobles.
This is undoubtedly the deepest blow and betrayal to Xiao Hua, she once devoted herself to loving someone, but in the end she got such a bleak ending and was abandoned at the end of her life.
Just when Xiao Hua was in pain, the last spark of life was quietly extinguished. When she left this world, what came to her mind was still the warm picture of facing Zhang Yimou day and night, and those beautiful promises that once seemed eternal have now come to naught.
Xiao Hua used his last strength, barely squeezed out a poignant smile, then slowly closed his eyes, and left this world quietly.
2. Giving up his family background for love, but in exchange for betrayal and abandonment.
Step back in time and take us back more than 20 years. At that time, Xiao Hua was a lady from a prominent background, who grew up in a splendid environment under the careful care of his parents since he was a child.
Gentle and elegant, she is talented, and is a high-profile figure in high society.
Xiao Hua met Zhang Yimou, a poor student who was withdrawn and silent at that time, with a poor family background and an introverted and depressed personality.
According to common sense, they would not have had anything to do with each other. However, the hand of fate carefully directed a scene for them, which attracted Xiao Hua to Zhang Yimou's deep and dignified eyes.
A shocking flame of love burns between these two young people who are very different from each other.
Zhang Yimou, who was full of inferiority complex and self-ashamedness, never expected that he would one day touch Xiao Hua, who was from a prominent background. He thought he was too humble to match her noble and elegant temperament.
Love is always so blind and impulsive, Xiao Hua actually took the initiative to show favor to Zhang Yimou, expressing his determination to follow him out of the bustling city and go to the poor countryside to cut the queue.
Zhang Yimou was deeply moved by Xiao Hua's sincere confession, he was pleasantly surprised, and finally mustered up the courage to pour out the long-suppressed emotions in his heart. In this way, the two youthful young people looked at each other and smiled, and embarked on the bumpy journey of life together.
Just when Xiao Hua was full of expectations, Zhang Yimou's heart began to struggle. With the help of Xiao Hua's family network resources, he successfully entered the Beijing Film Academy for further study, but when Xiao Hua also had the same opportunity, he repeatedly dissuaded her from giving up the opportunity for self-improvement.
Xiao Hua has always been in love with Zhang Yimou, but he has failed to gain insight into his inner calculations.
It wasn't until later that Zhang Yimou had a fiery love affair with the young and beautiful actor Gong Li during the filming of a film, which led to the eventual breakdown of their marriage. Faced with Xiao Hua's questioning, Zhang Yimou replied indifferently: Our marriage is a mistake.
This is undoubtedly the heaviest blow and betrayal to Xiao Hua.
In this way, from acquaintance to love and sweetness, and then to separation, Xiao Hua's entire life course was dragged into the abyss of destruction by Zhang Yimou. When love first blooms, it is like a bright candlelight, but after all, it can't withstand the storm of reality.
Xiao Hua gave up everything he had for Zhang Yimou, but in exchange for his treachery and abandonment.
With his world-sensational classic masterpiece "Red Sorghum", Zhang Yimou became famous overnight, promoted to the leader of the five generations of directors at that time, and the peak of his career broke through the imagination of the world. However, at this time, during the filming of the film, the talented director actually ignited a fiery flame of love with the young, beautiful and internationally renowned actress Gong Li.
This relationship is only a subtle relationship between the director and the actor, but as time goes by, the emotions between them spread like a raging flame.
This short sentence hit Xiao Hua's heart like a hammer. She felt all her thoughts go away, tears slid down like broken pearls, and her delicate body leaned weakly on the edge of the bed, letting out a deep sigh.
The warm time spent with Zhang Yimou came to mind, and the bits and pieces of the past instantly disappeared.
She earnestly hoped that Zhang Yimou would turn back and cherish their deep relationship over the years, but Zhang Yimou had fallen into a state of numbness and was indifferent. He is dedicated to pursuing a brilliant career, but he has long been indifferent and alienated from his feelings.
In order to be able to fall in love with Gong Li without scruples, he even did not hesitate to divorce Xiao Hua, abandon his children, sink willingly, and bear infamy.
The exhortations of relatives and friends passed through Zhang Yimou's ears like the wind without a trace. He turned a deaf ear to this and turned a blind eye to the evaluations of others. In his eyes, the most important pursuit is to achieve fame in life.
Compared to this, the bondage of feelings is as insignificant as dust under your feet. In the end, Xiao Hua tearfully signed the divorce agreement and accepted this cruel fact.
In stark contrast to Xiao Hua's pain and despair, with Gong Li's full support and assistance, Zhang Yimou's artistic creation is like a fish in water, and inspiration continues. Their figures are closely linked, and they have spent ten full spring and autumn together, gaining fame and fortune.
Good times are always short-lived, and feelings can't escape the arrangement of fate after all, ending in tragedy.
Maybe it's because Zhang Yimou is too involved in his career and neglects his care and love for Gong Li; It may also be that Gong Li realized that in Zhang Yimou's heart, he could only play the role of a junior and a lover, and could never become his wife.
In any case, Zhang Yimou never showed any chagrin or frustration after facing the major event of breaking up. His endless pursuit of his career and determination to be Top Gun have forged him incomparably strong in the depths of his heart.
For him, there is nothing else to love except the brilliant achievements of his career and boundless ambition.
Therefore, when the 18-year-old little flower girl Chen Ting quietly walked into Zhang Yimou's life, this once decadent middle-aged man instantly radiated new vitality. Chen Ting, who is young and beautiful and full of vitality, is exactly in line with the image of the perfect partner he yearns for.
As a result, the 10-year deep friendship with Gong Li disappeared like this, and Zhang Yimou did not hesitate to say goodbye to the past and start a new chapter of life.
Fourth, Xiao Hua died lonely and suffered heavy physical and mental damage
For Xiao Hua and Zhang Yimou, life after the divorce is like two parallel lines that are drifting apart, and it seems that there is no possibility of intersecting. Zhang Yimou married Chen Ting, who was 18 years younger than him, and his life was full of vigor and vitality, getting rid of the shackles of marriage, making his home all over the world and being free.
In stark contrast, Xiao Hua was alone in Xi'an City, gradually entering old age and being lonely.
Who would have expected that Xiao Hua would suffer such a tragic fate. Zhang Yimou's treachery and ruthless abandonment undoubtedly brought great trauma to her mind and body. A man who loves himself deeply but is ruthlessly abandoned by himself is destined to become a wound in Xiao Hua's heart that will never heal.
From the paradise of married life, he suddenly fell to the lowest point in his life, and this sudden huge gap and blow made Xiao Hua unbearable. Her mental state deteriorated day by day, and the elegance and generosity of the past were gone, replaced by confusion and heavy depression.
His physical condition also deteriorated, like an abandoned castle, which had been eroded by wind and rain and almost collapsed. Xiao Hua's relatives and friends all felt distressed when they saw her so down, but they were helpless, so they could only pay attention silently on the sidelines.
Looking at Xiao Hua, who had a prominent family background in the past, embarked on a lonely road that no one cared about, their feelings were mixed and sad. Xiao Hua's life trajectory is destined to become a painful experience that makes people sigh.
She dedicated her entire youth to Zhang Yimou, but in exchange for his betrayal and abandonment, she spent the rest of her life alone in her later years.
In the face of such a cruel mockery of fate, Xiao Hua tortured himself countless times painfully, did he make a too persistent choice in the first place? Should I give up all my ego for a man? But no matter how she traces back to the past, she can't reverse the fait accompli, so she has to wait for the end of her life to come silently.
During this long and helpless wait, Xiao Hua's physical functions gradually declined, and he finally had to undergo the final treatment given by the hospital. When Xiao Hua closed her eyes peacefully, what came to her mind was still the warm picture of her life with Zhang Yimou twenty years ago, as well as the eternal vows he had made.