[This content is an adaptation of a short fictional story, please watch it rationally, and do not sit in the right seat]
My name is Li Miao, I am engaged in marketing planning, to be honest, I am living a pretty good life, living a free and easy life, plus I have a small achievement in the workplace, and my income is considerable, but the only thing I regret is the lack of the concept of home.
I didn't have my mother by my side when I was a child, but I had a younger sister who was 3 years younger than me, and we both grew up with my father until many years later, when we received an express mail that had been silent for 32 years.....
Perhaps it is this letter that can help us find the last missing piece of the puzzle of our childhood family life.
I vaguely remember that it was a sunny day, and my mother got up early in the morning, made my favorite pie, and muttered while eating it hot: "Mom is going out for a while, and she is waiting for me to come back." "She hugged us sisters and hurried out of the house, and since then it has been as if she had evaporated from the world, and there was no news from her.
In the days after my mother left home, we grew up silently, and my father worked diligently, but he rarely spoke and never took the initiative to mention my mother's affairs.
We can only speculate about his inner pain from his occasional unintentional expressions, and gradually, I began to wonder if there was something else hidden in my mother's departure, whether something happened at home that made her have to leave? But every time he opened his mouth, his father was silent, and everything seemed to be locked in the deepest part of his heart.
This ignorant curiosity and doubt continued into adolescence, when I began to rebel and become obsessed with the alcoholic and hippie smiley lifestyle, as if hoping to numb my anxiety in this way, and my sister chose to escape, burying herself in her studies all day long, and staying away from all topics about my mother.
Until one day, an inadvertent scene woke me up, that day after school, my sister came to meet her, her eyes were still red and swollen, obviously she had just secretly cried in no one's place, I realized so clearly for the first time that she had been suppressing the longing and loss of her mother.
From that day on, I secretly resolved to find out my mother's whereabouts for my sister and, more importantly, for myself, even if I could only obtain one truth, which would be enough to comfort the trauma of being abandoned as a child.
I began to spy on my father's footsteps in my spare time, tracking down the whereabouts of my mother, but every time I was frustrated, my father was as silent as he was back then, until the day my sister got married, and my mother's express mail, which had not arrived for 32 years, finally pointed me to a dawn of finding my mother.
The moment I opened the parcel, my heart almost jumped out of my chest, and the letter turned out to be our mother who had disappeared from the world when I was a child! The letter is solemn and sincere, first of all, a long-standing regret and apology to our sisters.
My mother wrote that the reason why she left in a hurry was completely out of helplessness and helplessness, and some family changes forced her to leave, but she always thought about us, and it was the guilt and helplessness that made her unable to explain.
Reading my mother's handwriting, my tears fell on the letterhead, this is the answer I have been looking forward to for 31 years about my mother's departure! It turned out that she did not leave voluntarily, but had other difficulties.
My sister's reaction was beyond my expectations, she angrily tore the letter to shreds and roared, "It's been 32 years! It's been 32 years before she's willing to give us an explanation?! Mother has indeed abandoned us! ”
I tried to reassure my sister, but she was already scarred, and my sister had been hurt by my mother's absence since childhood, and the wounds of the years had already eaten away and fermented in our hearts.
Mother's letter was like a strong medicine, finally let us burst out of years of pain, that night, we had nothing to say, each of us lay in bed for a long time, I also have indescribable resentment in my heart, but more of a longing and longing for my mother.
Let me listen to her with my own mouth, even if she did have her unspeakable secrets back then, I will forgive her, and my life will eventually ask a "why". At dawn the next day, I made up my mind, even if it was thousands of miles away, just to see my mother again and end the last knot in my heart.
First of all, I reviewed some clues left by my mother in the letter, such as the community where I lived and the place where I worked, but many of them have changed beyond recognition.
I tried to ask my father's relatives and friends to see if anyone knew my mother's whereabouts, but surprisingly, most of them said that they didn't know much about my mother's whereabouts.
Just when I was about to give up, a chance chance made me discover a new clue, it turned out that my mother had worked in a small publishing house for a period of time, and through the help of an old colleague, I finally got a suspected whereabouts of my mother.
It was a small town far away, in the valley where my mother's home used to be, and I decided to go thousands of miles to find out for myself, but my sister refused to go with me, and her knot seemed to be untied.
On the way, I imagined countless times that I would be reunited with my mother, was she old and decrepit? Will you remember our sisters? And how do we deal with her? Wrath? Disappointed? Or is it relieved to forgive?
The town is as quiet and secluded as it has been rumored, and it is more like a paradise, and under the guidance of the locals, I finally found an old house that once belonged to my mother's mother's family, and my heart beat again when I looked at the slightly old but warm cottage.
I knocked the old-fashioned wooden door, and every time I seemed to be able to break my heart, after a long wait, an old but still gentle figure appeared at the door, it was our childhood mother!
"Child, you have finally found your mother..."The mother smiled slightly, tears crossed the corners of her eyes, everything seemed to slow down, time seemed to freeze at this moment, I hugged this woman who had left us tightly, and I couldn't speak for a long time. A lot of anger, confusion, and longing surged in my heart at once.....
"Mom, why the hell did you leave us back then? Why Did It Disappear For So Long? "I finally couldn't wait to ask the question in my mind.
Mother sighed deeply and slowly said that a family had changed so much that she had to leave, but she never thought of abandoning us sisters. Her words were sincere and moving, and her kind eyes were full of apology and love.....
In this way, our mother and son finally sat together, for the first time in 32 years, regained the warmth of family affection, I forgave my mother, but also relieved my obsession, on the way back, I was determined to take this relief, forgiveness and regained family affection, to untie my sister's last heart knot.....
Although my mother's departure brought us unspeakable pain, she did not voluntarily abandon her children, but had other helplessness, and more importantly, this reunion made me feel my mother's deep love for us.
Although she has been separated for 32 years, her eyes are still full of longing and reluctance, perhaps it is this love that makes her unable to let go of the concern in her heart, prompting her to write sincere explanations and tellings at the end of the rest of her life.
But on the other hand, I also know that this regained family affection has not completely healed my sister's wounds, she has always been an introverted and withdrawn child, and her mother's departure hit her even more than me, although my mother explained the reason, but the rebellion and resentment in her heart may need more time to forgive and accept.
After returning home, I sincerely told my sister what I had seen and heard along the way, and after listening to my mother's story, her expression was gloomy and silent for a long time, and she finally spoke: "Sister, I know that you have good intentions and want to untie the knot for me, but you will never be able to understand the trauma caused to me by my mother's departure for 31 years.... I need some time. ”
I held my sister's hand and choked up a little: "But sister, she does have her unspeakable secrets.... And she misses us like that, you don't see the love and apology in her eyes. ”
She hid her face and cried bitterly, I could only take her into my arms and follow her back over and over again, as an older sister, I understand my sister's mood too well at the moment, maybe she really needs some time, time will slowly heal all the scars.
And I will always be by her side, with my sister's love to heal her last wounds, as for my mother, I will look for an opportunity to bring my sister to her again, with love and patience to dissolve the last ice in her heart...
Time passed slowly, and in the third year of my sister's marriage, I finally convinced her to go with me to my mother's paradise town again.
Walking into the familiar old house, my mother was much older and haggard than she was three years ago. But when she sees our sister appear at the door, her eyes still shine brightly.
"Children, you have finally come to see your mother....." Mother smiled and beckoned to us.
My sister lowered her head, looking a little cramped and uneasy, I gently pulled her arm and comforted her with my eyes, for my sister, seeing her mother who abandoned her back then, her heart was destined to be a little struggling.
My mother was obviously aware of this, and instead of hugging us with tears in her eyes as I did when I first saw her, she slowly walked up to my sister and bowed to her reverently: "I'm sorry for the pain that Mom's departure caused you.... Please forgive Mom. ”
My sister's eyes widened, her lips trembled but she didn't know what to say, I watched from the sidelines, my heart was like a knife, but I couldn't do anything, my mother's sincerity and apology needless to say, this guilt she has been carrying for more than 30 years.
Gradually, my sister's face softened, and tears glistened in the corners of her eyes, "Mom..... Actually, it's not that I can't forgive you, it's just that I can't let go of the obsession in my heart..."My sister finally spoke, her tone low and choked.
She took a step forward and gently hugged her mother's old body, the two hugged each other and wept silently, I watched from the sidelines, and also burst into tears, more than 30 years of long waiting and tearing, finally waiting for this moment of relief.
In this way, an originally broken family has regained its warm atmosphere, and despite the ruthlessness of the years, we still find the family affection that we have never had in full under the kind eyes of our mother.
For our sisters, this regret lasted for 32 years, and finally waited for a happy ending in an unexpected way, and the departure of my mother may be a destined experience, so that we know how to cherish each other, cherish the current family affection, and embrace the missing part of life.
It is true that life is inevitably regretful, but as long as we forgive and do not give up searching, we will definitely be able to find the lost part of purity, just like a mother finally returned to us after 32 years and used her full love to heal the wounds of her children. [Moon]
[This story is purely fictional, the people and things in the story are fictional, the purpose is only necessary for the description of the plot, easy to read and understand, if there is any similarity, it is purely a coincidence]