Text: Chen Yu
In the dim light, the mother was sorting out a pile of change, totaling less than 100 yuan. There is still a long way to go before the first instalment of tuition. The father sat on the kang, smoking a choking dry cigarette, and did not speak, and the grandmother sighed, saying that it costs so much money to go to school, and she will go to raise money here and there. Or don't go, and besides, the girl's family will be someone else's sooner or later, and if you read it out, the money you earn is also someone else's. After my grandmother finished speaking, she looked at me again, afraid that I would not be happy, and said, to have money, it is also a good thing to study, but our family is poor, put it in someone else's house, and the child is admitted to university, what a glorious and glorious thing, it is too late to be happy, but our family, admitted, but it is sad. Alas! I really pity my baby. As he spoke, he wiped away his tears.
I was admitted to Xianyang Medical College. Undergraduate. The tuition and miscellaneous fees for the first semester are nearly 10,000 yuan. The food fee can be paid temporarily, but the tuition and miscellaneous fees must be paid when you register. There is also a younger brother in junior high school at home, and the tuition and miscellaneous expenses are quite a lot. I was very conflicted, I might as well have been poor in school, and I couldn't get into the undergraduate exam, so I went to work. Earning four or five thousand yuan a month can help reduce a lot of burden on parents.
Looking at my parents who were helpless, I didn't bring them joy and joy, I felt like I was in trouble. and they are sorrowful.
I plucked up the courage to say to my dad, "Dad, mom, don't worry, I think about it, I'm not going to school." Our family went out to work to earn money, I calculated, the three of us can earn at least more than 10,000 yuan a month, and we can provide for my younger brother to go to school well. After you have learned, you don't have to worry about finding a job or a daughter-in-law in the future.
Dad didn't speak, and went out of the house. We didn't know what he was doing, but when my mother asked him, he left without saying a word. Mom went to the kitchen to cook dinner, and my brother came back, and I followed him to the room to help him with his homework. Leave grandma alone on the kang to worry alone.
Dinner was ready, but I didn't see my dad come back, and my mom said that you and grandma should eat first, and I went out to find your dad. With that, he left.
My grandmother and I each drank some porridge, we didn't eat any vegetables, and we didn't eat the cakes, but my brother ate very well, and he thought it was a little strange and asked, what's wrong with you today, sullen. Did something happen? I was afraid that my grandmother would talk about me, so I hurriedly said, Dad is out, let's go out to find out, or it will get darker and darker.
As soon as I went out, I saw my parents and them coming back together. It looks like you're happy, but you seem to have borrowed money, right?
I said, Mom and Dad, you should hurry home and eat, or it will be cold. Dad said, have you eaten with grandma? I said I had eaten. Mom said, after eating, go to help my brother with homework, don't run around, you see when it's over. Still running around, we are adults, you don't have to worry about it. So saying, he went into the house.
Dad called me over, took out a watch and said, I went to the village party secretary and told me that you have difficulty going to school. The branch secretary said that there happened to be another batch of student loans recently, with a loan of 6,000 yuan per person and no interest for three years. Interest accrues after three years. You fill in this form first, and I will hand it over to the branch secretary, and they will hold a meeting to study it, report it to the Bureau of Culture and Education, and fill in the contract and go through the formalities after approval. If this loan is implemented, you don't have to worry about going to school. I said that even if the loan is approved, I still have to pay it back in the end, and I still have to pay living expenses every month, and the pressure is still not small. Dad said, don't worry about this problem, you have to eat wherever you go, I'll find a way. You hurry up and fill out the form, and I'll send it to the branch secretary.
The next day, Dad contacted and sold the wheat straw to the cattle ranch and the corn again. Two items were sold for I200 yuan. There was still a difference of 2,000 yuan, so my mother added the 700 yuan she had saved by doing odd jobs, and went to my uncle's house to borrow 500 yuan. I went to my aunt's house to borrow 500 yuan, but my uncle used the excuse that there was an urgent need at home, but my aunt didn't call the shots and didn't borrow the money. Dad went to find a part-time worker to borrow, but still didn't borrow it, and everyone is like us, they are all children going to school. It's all about money.
Seeing my parents fall into depression again, I really didn't want to go to school, but I didn't dare to tell them, so I could only look at the notice in a daze.
In the end, the father asked the uncle to borrow it, and the uncle agreed to borrow it, but the aunt said lukewarmly, your family is in difficulty, just provide for the son, the girl will be someone else's sooner or later, do you have the ability? It's only the first semester and I've been borrowing money everywhere, but what about the next semester? And what about the monthly living expenses? It's a lot of money. Will my son not be able to go to school in the future? If you don't have money to do a rich thing, why bother slapping your swollen face and becoming fat? Okay, if you don't borrow more, take 300 yuan, and donate it.
Uncle said that there is no endless road, and now they are in difficulty, after this child goes to school, the two of them will not go out to work? They are all rural people, who saves their money and waits for their children to go to school? Besides, the old lady is at her brother's place, and she has a headache and brain fever, but it doesn't drag them down. As he spoke, he took 500 yuan and stuffed it to my dad.
Aunt said, you are generous, be a good person, and I will be a wicked person. The grandmother is in their house, cooking for them, doing housework, who in the end feeds whom? You don't understand? They get cheap and cry poor. He slammed the door and left.
Seeing this, Dad said, brother, you take the money, I'd better find another way, don't embarrass you for this. Create contradictions for you. Uncle said, you take it, don't go to your heart, your sister-in-law is like that, the knife is mouthful, and she ignores her.
The money was enough, and in order to save money, on the day of school, my father sent me to school alone. Mom and grandma took us to the entrance of the village.
When I arrived at school, I paid tuition, miscellaneous fees, bed linen and bedding, bought toiletries, and filled my meal card. I feel like I'm running out of money.
I said, Dad, don't do anything else, it's not early, you go back, you have to take the car. Dad said, no, my classmates all have mobile phones, you have to have a mobile phone, or how can we contact you. Besides, you are so big, the first time you go out, we are not at ease. I see that others still have bed curtains, you have to make one, what color you like, you pick it yourself, and take the time to make one. And slippers. By the way, you must buy a flashlight, in case of a power outage, use it to go to the toilet at night. Think about it, what else is needed.
I said enough, no more. Dad bought me a mobile phone, got a card, and charged my phone bill. At four o'clock in the afternoon, I took the shuttle bus back. I didn't go to see her off when Dad left, I was afraid that I wouldn't be able to control myself, I said, I want to make the bed, and Dad left. I buried my head in the quilt and secretly cried. I hated myself for being incompetent, hating that I had added so much debt to my family. I pity my parents, they have suffered so much for us. Being humiliated by others. And the pressure is even greater and the burden is heavier in the future.
I think there is only one way for me, to study hard and change my destiny on my own. Crying doesn't solve the problem. Sorrow will not get sympathy. Thinking of this, I wiped away my tears, held my head high, and walked out of the dormitory.
After four years of college, I finally graduated and got a job. In the past four years, I have been frugal and have been learning knowledge. The scene when my dad borrowed money reminded me all the time. I don't resent anyone, including my uncle-in-law, my aunt, and I have no right to resent them. No one's money is blown by the wind. On the contrary, he motivates me, spurs me on, I dare not relax, I am not qualified to relax. I haven't worn a skirt and haven't used makeup in four years. I haven't eaten hot pot barbecue or anything like that. Every Sunday, I spend it in the library. Every holiday, I worked part-time, brushed the dishes and washed the dishes, and cleaned the cafeteria. I went to the street to hand out flyers, worked as a tutor, helped in the student cafeteria, picked up cardboard boxes, mineral water bottles, and whatever could be sold for money, I picked them up. Other people's delicacies from the mountains and seas, traveling and vacationing, makeup and dressing, talking about love, all this has nothing to do with me, everyone says that I am so hard, and even some people say that I am a show, I know in my heart that I have to do this, I still have a younger brother, I want to take the money borrowed by my parents, squander it, then I am a crime, I can't get by on my conscience. The hard work paid off, and I was at the top of every class and received several bursaries. I tried my best to overcome the difficulties, try my best to reduce the burden on my parents, and prevent them from whispering for me, looking at people's eyebrows and eyes.
After I worked, I sent my salary to my parents so that they could pay off other people's loans first. Let them straighten their waists and behave in an upright manner. Let others know that I am a girl, but I am still useful, and I can still stand up for it. You can still support your parents, take care of your younger brother, and honor your grandmother.
I thought of it, said it, and I did it. It's been three years since I went to work, I haven't been in a relationship, I'm dedicated and loving. Down-to-earth work, respect for leadership, unite colleagues, positive, I know that my work is not easy to come by, I in line with the desire to repay my parents and serve the country, cherish every day's time, in addition to work, is to learn. I plan to use self-study to continue to achieve the goal of promoting the title.
Poor is not terrible, poor is changing, poor, gives me motivation, but also inspires me to move forward, I realize that poverty, is also a kind of wealth. It is a kind of spiritual wealth.
I will always maintain the character of hard work, diligence and thrift, self-encouragement, maintain the true character of a farmer's daughter, keep in mind the purpose of serving the people, keep in mind the purpose of benevolence of doctors, and dedicate my love to the society.
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