My name is Xiaofang, I am 28 years old and I am from an ordinary small city. The family conditions are average, but my parents love me very much, and I have lived a simple and happy life since I was a child. After graduating from college, I got a job at a large company and started my career.
My boyfriend Xiao Li and I met when we were both young and full of hope and anticipation for the future. After graduating, we decided to stay in the city together and hope to create a better future together.
However, life is always full of uncertainties. In our fifth year of relationship, I unexpectedly became pregnant. The news caught us all off guard, but considering that our relationship was stable and both families were more traditional, we decided to get married.
In the process of preparing for the wedding, I thought it would be a good memory, but the reality was a big disappointment. Xiao Li and his family promised a lot of things, such as giving me an unforgettable wedding, preparing a warm wedding room for me, and giving my mother's family a generous bride price. However, on the day of the wedding, I realized that these promises were nothing more than words.
On my wedding day, I was wearing a custom-made wedding dress and my belly was already visibly bulging. As hard as I tried to keep smiling, my heart was filled with loss and helplessness. Looking at the busy people around me, I felt like an outsider, unable to fit in with this festive atmosphere.
The wedding scene was set up quite well, but it was far from what I expected. The original promises of flowers, balloons, light shows, etc., have not been fulfilled. The wedding room was only simply renovated, and even the furniture was old. As for the bride price, it is even more pitiful, only enough to buy some decent dowry for the mother's family.
I tried to understand their difficulties, after all, preparing for a wedding is also a big expense. But when I saw Xiao Li and his family as if nothing happened, I couldn't help but feel a sour feeling in my heart. They don't seem to care about my feelings, they only care about their own face and interests.
After the wedding, I went back to my new home. Looking at this humble and unfamiliar place, my heart was filled with confusion and uneasiness. I don't know why I've come to this point, and I don't know what the future holds.
I began to doubt my choice, and I also began to doubt Xiao Li's feelings for me. I tried to communicate with him, hoping that he would understand my feelings, but he always prevaricated me for various reasons. He said he was busy, said he was tired, said he had done his best. However, I really need his understanding and support, not these empty excuses.
Gradually, I began to distance myself from Xiao Li and his family. I don't want to quarrel and dwell on these things anymore, I just want to get through this special time in peace. I began to put more energy into my work, trying to fill the emptiness and loss in my heart with work.
However, life doesn't get any better because of my escape. As time went on, my belly got bigger and my movements became more and more difficult. I began to feel lonely and helpless, as if the whole world had abandoned me.
At this time, I met a kind person - my colleague Sister Zhang. She saw that something was wrong with me and took the initiative to care for me and take care of me. She often chatted, went shopping, and ate with me, which made me feel the warmth and care that I had not felt for a long time.
With the help of Sister Zhang, I gradually got out of the haze and regained my confidence in life. I began to learn to face reality and accept imperfections in life. I also began to re-examine my marriage and relationships, and think about how to make my life more fulfilling and happy.