Although she has entered her prime, Ms. Ding Jiali still maintains a high degree of activity in the entertainment industry, and her star-studded and glamorous beauty is overwhelming! Last year, with her outstanding performance in the hit TV series "The Daughter Who Came Back", she successfully created a traditional mother figure who was deeply trapped in the concept of patriarchy, and her inner world full of contradictions and struggles was vividly portrayed by her, which won warm praise from the audience.
What's more eye-catching is that at the Beijing TV Spring Festival Gala last month, Ms. Ding Jiali sang the Peking Opera "Mother's Taste" affectionately in an embroidered gown.
When Ms. Ding Jiali looked around and saw the crowded audience, her eyes involuntarily fell on the middle-aged woman in the middle of the row of seats - her baby daughter Hu Lina. The 35-year-old Hu Lina has now made a name for herself in the entertainment industry, but she has not yet found her own home, which makes Ms. Ding Jiali very worried.
She knows that her daughter has a deep fear of love and marriage due to the trauma she suffered in her childhood, and she longs for her daughter to come out of the shadows as soon as possible and live a happy life.
Recalling the past, Ms. Ding Jiali's heart is full of endless regret and self-blame. Indeed, if we want to get to the root of the problem, we must return to the superficial understanding of "freedom" in her youth.
In 1959, Ms. Ding Jiali was born in an ordinary family in Jiamusi City, Heilongjiang Province. Fate seemed to be too harsh on her, and soon after she was born, she unfortunately suffered from a serious skin disease, and her poor parents could not afford the high medical bills, so they had to give her to a pair of kind adoptive parents for adoption.
Ms. Ding Jiali's adoptive parents are excellent opera actors, and although they already have a biological daughter, they treat Ding Jiali as if they were their own flesh and blood. It was in such a loving and caring environment that Ding Jiali had a carefree and wonderful time.
"Mom, when I grow up, I want to be an outstanding actor like you!" The young Ding Jiali often expressed her ideals to her adoptive mother in a childish voice, but her adoptive mother always admonished her earnestly.
As a veteran opera actor, she knows the hardships and difficulties of this road, and does not want Ding Jiali to follow the same path.
However, the brave and fearless Ding Jiali has always maintained that sincerity and firmness for her dreams, and despite the strong opposition of her adoptive mother, she resolutely graduated from high school and was successfully admitted to the famous Shanghai Theater Academy with excellent results. She thought that she could finally fly freely, but her understanding of "freedom" seemed so shallow and ignorant.
In the 60s of the 20th century, in the context of the open-minded era, Ding Jiali gradually fell into the endless discussion of the emotional problems between men and women among her classmates, and even had a relationship with a male classmate she had liked for a long time, and unfortunately, she became pregnant unexpectedly.
A small clinic near the university became a shelter for her miscarriage, the pain of the procedure was indescribable, and the female doctor's cynicism about the young girl made Ding Jiali realize for the first time in deep pain the true meaning of "freedom" - only self-restraint can achieve true freedom, not follow the crowd.
Since then, Ding Jiali has devoted herself to her studies, and with her outstanding talent and unremitting efforts, she quickly launched her acting career. However, her private life was chaotic, with two failed marriages and multiple miscarriages in between.
Every time she recalls that past, Ding Jiali feels deep regret and regrets her superficial understanding of "freedom", which is the root cause of her current predicament.
Ding Jiali's first marriage in her life was concluded with a man named Hu Guangchuan. They met at the Chinese Theatre, and they were passionate and passionate at that time.
Soon after marriage, Ding Jiali became pregnant with a child and gave birth to her lovely daughter Hu Lina in 1987. The young couple's life seems to be on track and embarking on a new chapter of happiness.
However, the sweet period of this love did not last long. Whether it was because of the other party's jealousy or their own impulsive behavior, in short, Ding Jiali and Hu Guangchuan began to wonder if they were having an affair with each other.
The conflict snowballed bigger and bigger, and finally the two chose to separate and ended this seemingly beautiful marriage. "I want you to taste betrayal!" On the occasion of parting, Hu Guangchuan said angrily to Ding Jiali, his tone was full of sadness and unwillingness.
After the separation, Ding Jiali lived alone with her young daughter Hu Linna, but as the focus of her career shifted, her work became more and more busy, and she missed many precious moments of her daughter's growth.
One day, Ding Jiali made a shocking decision - to entrust her baby daughter to the care of distant relatives, embark on a distant journey alone, and devote herself to a vast career!
In the days that followed, Ding Jiali got married to a benevolent and erudite college teacher, and then gave birth to a lovely baby boy. However, happiness is not eternal, this relationship, like the previous love, could not escape the fate of falling apart, and the couple chose to end the marriage because of the man's infidelity.
Since then, Ding Jiali has devoted herself wholeheartedly to the responsibility of raising this son, and her heart seems to have gradually forgotten about her daughter Hu Linna, who was fostered far away.
"Have Mom and Dad abandoned me?" The young Hu Lina often asked her relatives in confusion, but received the same perfunctory response. As she grew older, she hated her mother's abandonment more and more, and her innocent heart was deeply hurt.
"Mom, when will you pick me up?"
This is Hu Lina's countless eager calls in the face of the woman on the TV screen, her biological mother Ding Jiali, since she was sensible.
For as long as she can remember, Hu Lina has been living in her uncle's house. For the uncle's family, raising a niece is undoubtedly an unexpected burden. As a foster child, Hu Lina experienced all kinds of cold treatment and abuse in this family environment.
Her uncle often punched and kicked her, spoke ill of her, and even confined her in a dark and damp room for so-called "reflection".
The lonely little girl can only endure in silence, watching her biological mother shine on TV, and deep down longing for the day when she can escape this nightmarish environment and return to her mother's arms.
Occasionally, Ding Jiali would come back to "visit" her daughter, and whenever that happened, Hu Lina would always be excited. However, after a brief period of pleasure, her dearest mother would leave again, leaving her where she was.
In a harsh winter in 1999, 12-year-old Hu Lina was in the emotional flowering season, and Ding Jiali rarely found time to visit her, and specially prepared some pocket money for her, telling her to go to the neighborhood to buy her favorite snacks.
Hu Lina was overjoyed and hurried to buy the items she wanted, only to find that her mother had long since disappeared, leaving her alone in the same place.
The loss and despair at that moment became an indelible scar in Hu Linna's heart! She began to complain deeply about the mother who brought her into this world, but abandoned her again and again.
Growing up, Hu Lina was full of longing for her mother and looking forward to embarking on the acting path she loved. However, when she turned to her mother Ding Jiali with trepidation, she received a cold and ruthless response: "Since it is the path you choose independently, then all the consequences need to be borne by yourself." I will never come to your aid. These words were like an incomparably sharp dagger, piercing deep into Hu Lina's heart.
Time flies, and in 2015, Hu Linna participated in the much-watched talent show "I'm Not a Star". Unlike many of the contestants who are full of aspirations, she is purely trying to get enough money to cover her family's living expenses, especially heating.
On the stage of this fierce competition, the other contestants are surrounded by celebrity friends from the entertainment industry, but only Hu Lina stands alone in the center of the stage, alone. She clenched the microphone in her hand and affectionately told the audience about her endless "resentment" towards her mother over the years.