1. The Grassland Girl's Musical Dream Journey
In the yurt on the steppe, at the end of the sixties of the last century, a vigorous little life was born. Her name is Siqingerile. Sadly, however, when Sqingerile's cries rang out, her father was imprisoned in the cowshed on trumped-up charges and was unable to witness the birth of his daughter.
It wasn't until half a year later that his father was given a brief opportunity to visit, which was the first time he saw his father.
Soon after, a new member was added to the family, her sister. The already impoverished families are even worse off. However, these difficulties did not extinguish the burning dream in the heart of Siqingerile - she aspired to become a brilliant dancer.
With his outstanding talent and unremitting efforts, Siqingerile was successfully admitted to the local folk dance troupe with excellent results. However, fate seems to have played tricks on her, and she is always seen as a substitute because she is "not tactful enough to handle interpersonal relationships as well as she should".
At one point, the company was about to prepare a new dance program, and although there was no doubt about Siqingerile's strength, she was still on the bench. This was undoubtedly a heavy blow to her, and she felt that her dream of dancing was gradually shattered.
At this moment, Yang Kun appeared like a ray of light in Siqingerile's life, bringing her new hope. Under the guidance of Yang Kun, Siqingerile began to get in touch with bass instruments, and the two formed their own band - "Goshawk Band".
In order to realize their musical dreams, they resolutely decided to go to Shenzhen and perform in a dance hall, thus earning a lot of money. Siqingerile secretly vowed that as long as he saved enough funds, he would devote himself to the "Beipiao family" and go to Beijing, a city with a broader stage, to develop.
In 1994, full of dreams, Siqingerile and Yang Kun embarked on a journey to Beijing, and the first thing they did was to change the name of the band to "Knight Band".
Second, Beijing's difficult years
When they first arrived in Beijing, Siqingerile and Yang Kun ran around in order to get more performance opportunities for the "Knight Band". However, in this city full of talents, the glory they once enjoyed in Shenzhen seems so insignificant at this moment.
For a long time, they have not been able to find stable jobs, and their financial situation is extremely poor, and their income is almost zero. Faced with the high rent of the guest house, they could not afford it, so they had to reluctantly take shelter in a dilapidated warehouse.
Their lives have been reduced to the limit, and they are unable to even enjoy the sumptuous food, and often can only survive on dry and tasteless steamed buns.
Just when they were on the verge of facing an existential dilemma, a family finally reached out to them and gave the "Knight Band" a slim chance. However, the boss only needed one lead singer, so Yang Kun was left alone, and the other members were all ruthlessly eliminated.
Siqingerile was deeply disappointed and indignant about this, and she and Yang Kun had a cold war for nearly a month. However, soon after, even Yang Kun was fired, and the entire band's career was completely declared a failure.
What's even more unfortunate is that under the successive blows, Yang Kun gradually became addicted to gambling and drugs, and Siqingerile had to come up with a huge sum of 6,000 yuan to send him to a drug rehabilitation center for treatment.
This undoubtedly put a heavy burden on her and plunged her into the quagmire of a "debt crisis".
The straw that broke the camel's back was when Yang Kun mortgaged Siqingerile's beloved guitar to the bar in exchange for a paltry amount of money. For a musician, the guitar is not only a weapon, but also a symbol of a dream that has now been so coldly mortgaged.
Siqingerile fell into despair completely, and she sent Yang Kun back to her hometown, and the 13-year relationship came to an end. A month later, a friend came with the good news that she was about to enter the palace of marriage, which finally broke her, and her youth and fiery love came to naught.
Third, the fate of master and apprentice, the teacher is in love
Just when Siqingerile fell into a trough and decadence, musician Zang Tianshuo was like a beam of light, illuminating her life path and bringing her new hopes and opportunities.
In 1995, Zang Tianshuo became famous with the album "My Decade", which topped the music charts for 8 consecutive weeks, and its sales exceeded hundreds of thousands. This album is an important milestone for Zang Tianshuo to usher in a new era of music.
By chance, Zang Tianshuo learned of the existence of Siqingerile. He had a unique eye and admired the talent of Siqingerile, so he did not hesitate to invite her to join his band as a bassist.
With the careful guidance and generous support of outstanding mentors such as the famous singer Zang Tianshuo, Siqingerile was also able to successfully publish his own solo album. There is no doubt that this hot album has won her high popularity and wide popularity, and she was honored to appear on the bright stage of the Spring Festival Gala for five consecutive years, and her life has finally ushered in earth-shaking changes! .
However, fame and fortune did not come without a price, and the popular Siqingerile had to make sacrifices in the last of his private space. Every time she went out, she would be chased and intercepted by the paparazzi, asking all kinds of gossip about her relationship with Zang Tianshuo, which made her feel extremely ashamed and embarrassed.
At first, Siqingerile was full of admiration and respect for Zang Tianshuo, just like a student's deep respect for his teacher. However, as time passed, the relationship between master and apprentice gradually changed subtly.
Half a year later, the two finally bravely expressed their feelings to each other and officially established their relationship. Since then, Zang Tianshuo has become the most important support and spiritual sustenance in Siqingerile's life, and is the guiding light on her life path.
In the face of Zang Tianshuo's sweet words of "they are not my girlfriends, only you are my only one", Siqingerile was convinced. When Zang Tianshuo proposed to live with her, Siqingerile was thrilled, her long-awaited dream was about to come true, but she never expected that this decision would bury all her youth.
Fourth, love and hate
One day, Siqingerile opened the door of the house with joy, looking forward to the arrival of her lover Zang Tianshuo, but she didn't expect that what was waiting for her was a heavy slap. Standing outside the door was a strange pregnant woman, Zang Tianshuo's wife, Li Mei.
At this moment, Siqingerile was completely stunned. It turned out that she had become a third party in someone else's marriage, and Li Mei was already six months pregnant. In the face of the doubts of the two women, the mouth that once fascinated Siqingerile became incoherent and overwhelmed.
Suffering a blow to the head, Siqingerile fell into endless psychological trauma. She is determined to end this erroneous relationship, leave her hometown, and start a new life in a foreign land. However, Zang Tianshuo followed closely and struggled like an appendage, and finally Siqingerile was once again moved by his tears and pleading, and retracted his steps to leave.
Who could have predicted that this would turn out to be just a prelude to her nightmarish unhappy life. The violence and cruelty hidden beneath Zang Tianshuo's gentle exterior gradually revealed.
Whenever Siqingerile asked him if he was having an affair, he would be furious, beat her even more terrifyingly, and whenever he was drunk, he would take different women home and behave in front of Siqingerile without scruples.
Day after day, Siqingerile is so enveloped in abuse and betrayal that she even wants to end her life by taking deadly drugs or wandering the streets with the intention of contracting the deadly SARS virus.
However, at a certain moment, she found out that she was pregnant.
As a noble Mongolian people, because of the belief that they should not harm their relatives, Siqingerile could only choose to raise this child as an adult. She had hoped with great anticipation that this child would awaken Zang Tianshuo's deep conscience so that they could start over and live an ordinary and happy life.
However, when she mustered up the courage to propose to Zang Tianshuo, he flickered, using the excuse that she needed to wait for Li Mei's child to grow up.
After learning the news of Siqingerile's pregnancy, Zang Tianshuo became extremely manic. He insisted that she have an abortion, and made it clear that he would never marry her, let alone allow her to threaten him with the child.
In the midst of endless despair, Siqingerile swallowed a large amount of sleeping pills, wandered aimlessly through the streets, and even had suicidal thoughts. Eventually, in a deep coma, she suddenly came to her senses and decided to get rid of this painful life once and for all.
However, whenever she tried to leave, Zang Tianshuo would always show great care and love, touching her again and again with affectionate words and gentle eyes, making her resolve begin to waver.
It wasn't until she heard the rumors that Zang Tianshuo and Xiao San were entangled again that Siqingerile really gave up.
After all, human nature is difficult to resist the law that the country is easy to change and the nature is difficult to change!
Fifth, the love is hard to rest
Although Siqingerile had made up his mind to break with Zang Tianshuo, that purgatory-like emotion remained with him until the moment of Zang Tianshuo's death.
In 2017, Zang Tianshuo was admitted to the hospital because of cancer, and his physical condition deteriorated. When Siqingerile went to visit, the once heroic and mighty man was now so thin that he was only skinny and bone-lining, and his movements were completely dependent on infusions, which made her feel extremely sad and regretful.
Facing Zang Tianshuo, who was full of remorse and guilt in front of her, the scars in Siqingerile's heart seemed to be uncovered again, and the pain in her heart could not dissipate for a long time. The past events that once made her miserable flashed back in her mind like a marquee: Zang Tianshuo's extreme self-blame after persuading her to kill the child, the cover-up and denial of every affair, and the countless violent beatings against her...... These deep wounds remain deep in the heart and become eternal scars that are difficult to erase.
However, when Zang Tianshuo's life was dying, Siqingerile, who had gone through vicissitudes, was still unable to be ruthless after all, and she chose to forgive. Tears welled up in her eyes, and she choked up and said, "May you rest in peace all the way."
In 2018, Zang Tianshuo passed away. On social media, Siqingerile fondly remembered and wished the man who had brought her endless pain. She knows very well that the grievances and hatreds of the past will turn into dust and be buried in the depths of her heart forever.
The music career she had pursued with all her might came to an end. Although her heart is still full of enthusiasm for a career in music, she can't afford to start again because she has already paid too much.
Staring at the blue sky and white clouds outside the window, Siqingerile fell into deep thought. She remembered the self who once had a musical dream, but now she could only watch her dream shattered, her youth gone, and she almost cried for it all.