My name is Li Xiaolin, I am thirty-five years old Chinese New Year's Eve, and I am an ordinary woman. I live in a small town and live an uneventful life. My family background is not prominent, my parents are ordinary workers, and I grew up with their hard work.
I have an ordinary family, a husband who loves me and me, and a lovely son. I do an ordinary job, busy with housework and work every day, and live an ordinary but fulfilling life.
However, my heart was not at peace. At thirty-five, I still feel lost and confused in my life. I didn't know what I really wanted or what I should work towards. It was as if I was trapped under a seemingly unattainable wall, unable to extricate myself.
I often hide under the wall by myself, silently thinking about the meaning of life. I remembered my childhood dreams and aspirations, but I found that I seemed to have been lost in the fog of life.
Until one day, I met him. A man who makes my heart flutter, a man who makes me rediscover the direction of my life. His name is Wang Yu, and he is a colleague of mine. The encounter between us, as if it was fate, rekindled my hope for life.
Wang Yu is a humorous and gentle man, and his appearance made me feel an unprecedented happiness and joy. We embark on a sweet romance where every day is filled with laughter and happiness.
However, the happy times did not last long. I found myself in a dilemma. I love my husband and my son, but at the same time I can't let go of my feelings for Wang Yu. I felt like I was in a predicament from which I couldn't help myself, and I had mixed feelings.
That night at the base of the wall, I sat there alone, tears streaming down my face. I knew I had to make a choice, but I didn't know what to choose. I am afraid of losing my family, but I am also afraid of losing my beloved Wang Yu.
Just when I was hesitating, my husband suddenly appeared in front of me. He looked at me, his eyes full of concern and worry, "Xiaolin, what's wrong with you, why are you hiding here alone and crying?"
I didn't know how to answer him, I just bowed my head silently. I knew I couldn't confess my heart to him, and I was afraid he would get hurt because of it. I knew I had to make a decision, but I didn't know what to do.
At this moment, Wang Yu also appeared in front of me. He looked at me, his eyes full of love and expectation, "Xiaolin, what's wrong with you? ”
I felt like I was in a predicament from which I could not extricate myself. I knew I had to make a decision, but I didn't know what to choose. I am afraid of losing my family, but I am also afraid of losing my beloved Wang Yu.
Eventually, I chose to stay with my family. I know that family is where I really belong, and my happiness is also built on family. I let go of my feelings for Wang Yu and chose to continue with my husband.
Even though I knew that this experience would be an eternal pain in my heart, I was willing to give up everything for the sake of my family. I believe that only family is my true harbor, and only family can bring me true happiness.
Now, I have understood the meaning of life and found my direction in life. I am no longer lost under the wall, but bravely face the challenges of life and strive to create my own happiness.
This is me, a woman who is looking for meaning in life under the wall. I am willing to give up everything for the sake of my family, because only family is where my true happiness lies.