1. At present, Feng Baobao has entered the age of sixtieth, but when she stares at herself in the mirror, she does not hesitate to decide to write a personal biography!
The pace of time has stepped into May 1, 2024, in the bustling city of Hong Kong, Feng Baobao lives alone in a warm apartment. At that time, the bright sunlight poured through the window of her bedroom, and the 60-year-old stopped in front of the dressing mirror, gazing deeply at the weathered self in the mirror.
The years have carved deep marks on her face, the wrinkles under her eyes have become more pronounced, and her cheeks have gradually lost their former brilliance. However, her gaze remained steadfast, and the corners of her eyes and eyebrows revealed a resolute and unyielding strength.
In the past, she was known as a "genius child star", and her earning power even surpassed that of the bank president, becoming a hot star in the film industry. However, those bright moments were short-lived, fleeting, overwhelmed by the troughs and upheavals of life.
Today, although she still has an excellent performance in front of the screen, what really makes her burn herself is the hard work behind the scenes.
She made up her mind to use this autobiography to show the world her true face in front of and behind the scenes, revealing the mental journey of "Petrina who has worked countless times to support Feng Baobao".
She is convinced that only in this way can people see her true side.
2. Looking back on the past, Feng Baobao recalled his childhood experience full of ups and downs.
Feng Baobao's memories seem to have traveled back to time and space, back to Hong Kong in 1986. In order to break free from the shackles of the family, her mother Chen Huiyu had no choice but to pay Feng Feng 9,000 yuan as a divorce fee, and since then Feng Baobao, who is still less than three months old, has been ruthlessly abandoned.
Since then, Feng Baobao has lost the warmth of maternal love. Her father, Feng Feng, is a selfish and indifferent person, he has been married three times in his life, and he has no family affection for his daughter except for asking for money.
He regarded the young Feng Baobao as a cash cow and let her devote herself to acting at the age of five to support the family.
Busy on the set until late at night, Feng Baobao never had the opportunity to receive a formal education, nor could he enjoy the happy hours that belonged to the children. Her big confused and helpless eyes always revealed a trace of panic and uneasiness.
Deep down, she longs for her father's recognition and love, but Feng Feng's only expectation for her is to make money, make money, and make money again.
3. After becoming famous at a young age, Feng Baobao's two marriages ended in divorce, and one of them was forced to sign an agreement of "voluntarily giving up custody due to mental illness", and he and his son were separated.
Feng Baobao, who became famous at a young age, has made remarkable achievements in the journey of his career, won the love of the audience, and successfully became one of the popular film and television stars.
However, on the road of love, she has suffered repeated setbacks, and has experienced two failed marriages, each of which ended in divorce.
Her first marriage was with a man named Zhao Zaiqiang. The birth of this marriage was really unavoidable. Feng Baobao gave birth to two lovely sons for him, but in exchange for her husband's betrayal and debts.
In the end, when Feng Baobao decided to divorce, Zhao Zaiqiang forced her to sign a divorce agreement that "voluntarily gave up custody due to mental illness".
Faced with such a predicament, Feng Baobao's heart was full of struggle. She longs to get out of this failed marriage, but has to face the painful choice of being separated from her own flesh and blood. She painfully signed that agreement, and since then she has been separated from her two sons.
The second marriage was equally short and unhappy, as her husband could not bear Feng Baobao's ability to devote all his energy to the growth of the children. The pain of divorce once again pierced her soul deeply, and her eyes gradually lost their former brilliance.
The tribulations of life are like the waves of the sea, layer after layer, Feng Baobao has fallen on the verge of suicide several times, repeatedly experienced the nightmare of "fragmented self", and has long relied on antidepressant drugs to relieve the pain in his heart.
Fate never seemed to show even the slightest mercy to Feng Baobao. The failure of her marriage and the lack of family affection made her inner world like a dark night, as if she was imprisoned in an endless cage.
Whenever the "fragmented self" appeared in the dream, Feng Baobao felt extremely confused and helpless. Trapped between the darkness of the night sky and the silent starlight, a voice always echoing in her ears: "Jump, jump......" In this desperate situation, she stood on the edge of the balcony many times, almost on the edge of suicide.
After the breakdown of her first marriage, Feng Baobao lived in a friend's house and often couldn't sleep at night. She had thought countless times about jumping from a tall building and ending this miserable life.
However, at the thought of causing trouble to her friend, and even causing her friend's apartment to become a murderous house, she could only hold back the grief in her heart and barely persevere.
Since then, Feng has been relying on antidepressants for a long time, a habit that has lasted for 18 years. The haze of her heart wrapped around her like a black ghost, obscuring all hope and sunshine from her vision, and she could not break free from the shackles of loneliness and despair.
Fifth, after ups and downs, Feng Baobao has always adhered to unswerving beliefs, moved forward bravely, and faced difficulties. After a setback in her career, she rose to prominence in the film industry with her outstanding performances, winning numerous awards and finally recognizing her as an outstanding mother who deserves her heart.
She has encountered the ruthless tricks of fate and the ups and downs of life, but she has never wavered in her love and pursuit of life. She chose to strive for self-improvement and re-examine the value and meaning of life with her career achievements.
Now, the film "Death at Dusk" co-created by her and the film legend Xie Xian has attracted rave reviews on the big screen, and the old man who is dying played by Feng Baobao profoundly interprets the classic line of "Life is in a hurry, just waiting for the last death knell to sound".
She was almost desperate back then, but now she finally understands the true meaning of life. Along the way, Feng Baobao has overcome the blows of fate with the spirit of tenacious struggle, reaped fruitful results in his career, and won the admiration and love of his children.
6. By writing a personal autobiography, Feng Baobao hopes to reveal his true self in front of and behind the scenes to the audience, and show the mental journey of "Petrina has devoted countless efforts to fully support Feng Baobao".
In front of the public, Feng Baobao is known as a "genius child star" and a bright star in the film industry with his outstanding talent. However, behind the glamorous scenes, she was traumatized and even on the verge of suicide at one point.
As she herself said: "Feng Baobao in front of people is always sticking to their dignity in hardships and hardships, and the real self is behind them, and in the silence of the night, they tightly embrace the self who struggles."
Through the creation of this autobiography, Feng Baobao hopes to face the past honestly, show the mental process of self-transformation, and let the world know about Petrina, who did her best to support "Feng Baobao". Although her life was full of ups and downs, in the end, she still overcame the challenges of fate with perseverance and lived a wonderful chapter of her own.