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Now, Lei Haifeng has regained the passion and color of life, and in the beautiful city of Xinyu, she has formed a family full of laughter and became the mother of two lovely babies.
However, deep in her heart, she has never forgotten the mystery of her confusing life experience, as if only by uncovering this mystery can she truly welcome a new chapter in her life.
Looking back on that past 30 years ago, her memory of her mother's abandonment of her in an unfamiliar environment is still as vivid as yesterday.
It was one day in August 1992, when Lei Haifeng, who was only 10 years old at the time, held his mother's hand tightly and stepped on the train to Xinyu. Along the way, her mother's meticulous care for her made her deeply feel that her mother's love for her was still as hot as yesterday.
As the train slowly approached Xinyu Railway Station, her mother calmly told her to wait on the platform. The young Lei Haifeng didn't think much about it, just nodded obediently, and quietly waited for his mother's return. However, the mother disappeared without a trace. Less than an hour later, she was left alone on the platform.
At first, Lei Haifeng was not frightened, but waited with great anticipation for his mother to come back at any time to reunite with her.
However, as the minutes passed and the night gradually enveloped this strange city, her mother's figure never appeared, which made her realize the seriousness of the problem.
As a 10-year-old child, alone in the bustling train station, his inner helplessness and confusion can be imagined. She kept praying in her heart that maybe her mother would be gone for a short time and would soon return to her. However, the grandmother-like night ruthlessly shattered this last glimmer of hope.
Time flies. Lei Haifeng did not live in an icy environment all the time, she used to have a warm family life.
In the welfare home, the staff cared for her meticulously, which made her deeply appreciate the warmth and kindness of human nature.
However, she was not so lucky in childhood. Born in a poor family, the living environment is poor.
The family lives in a dilapidated adobe house, with an empty home and only a small amount of contracted land, and they are barely able to make ends meet with their hardworking hands.
Despite the hardships of life, this young girl has the selfless care of her kind grandparents, who provide her with endless warmth and support.
Lei Haifeng vividly recalls her home in a deserted ravine, where the old adobe buildings still retain and the living environment is extremely simple.
However, the carefree childhood years during this time have become the deepest imprint in her heart. At home, her grandparents cared for her affectionately, and the family got along happily, so that she always maintained a warm belief in life.
Just when she was deeply intoxicated with this eternal home, fate once again played mercilessly on her. Suffering from polio, she has a permanent disability in her right leg and is unable to run freely like other children. When she was a child, whenever she saw other children playing outdoors, she would always cry and run back to that family home full of affection.
Faced with difficulties, her mother, Lei Xiaolan, had to temporarily leave home to find a livelihood to support the family's expenses.
Initially, the mother would also return home regularly to visit her daughter and give her a certain amount of living expenses. However, since her daughter's illness, the mother's figure has gradually disappeared, and her love for her has become cold and distant. In its place, there is a growing love between grandparents and grandparents.
As a rural girl who grew up in a remote mountain village, Lei Haifeng is full of endless curiosity and yearning for the outside world.
So, the mother and daughter embarked on a train journey to Xinyu. Along the way, her mother's meticulous care for Lei Haifeng made her deeply feel that her mother's love for her was still as hot as before.
Whenever the train passed by a new scenery, Lei Haifeng would always ask curiously what it was, and his mother would patiently explain, and gently hold her little hand and talk to her cordially.
At that time, her mother was extremely gentle to her, which made Lei Haifeng feel extremely dependent, and she began to wonder if she had misunderstood her mother, maybe her mother was just busy with work and couldn't be by her side all the time, but now she finally felt the long-lost maternal love again.
The train finally slowly entered Xinyu Railway Station. When Lei Haifeng stepped off the train, his mother held her hand tightly and led her into the bustling train station hall.
However, her mother did not show meticulous patience and warmth as she did on the train, she just squatted down indifferently, looked at Lei Haifeng levelly, and said in an unchanged tone: "Please wait here for a while, I have some matters that cannot be ignored and need to be solved urgently." Lei Haifeng clearly realized that her mother might really have a major problem to deal with, so she nodded obediently and waited wordlessly for her mother's return.
After a few faint glances, her mother quickly turned away and disappeared into the bustling crowd in the blink of an eye.
Lei Haifeng watched his mother's back in the distance, and his heart was full of endless longing.
Family is undoubtedly the most cherished and inseparable haven in everyone's heart. However, since the death of his father, Lei Haifeng's family has lost the warmth and laughter of the past.
For her father's memory, she only stayed in that regrettable quarrel. She vaguely remembered a time when her father came back from outside full of joy with a brand new pair of shoes in his hand, hoping to win his daughter's heart.
However, the return of his father sparked a bitter dispute. Mother Lei Xiaolan's face was gloomy as water, her breathing was short, and she was obviously extremely angry.
The father's eyes widened with rage and roared loudly. The quarrel intensified and was deafening, Lei Haifeng was terrified, and hid in his small room in a panic, trembling.
She had thought that as long as her parents stopped arguing, she would be able to get out of the room. However, when she walked out of the room, there was a dead silence outside.
She searched everywhere, but could not find any trace of her father, and only the mother was left in the whole house, sitting alone in a chair, gasping for breath.
Since then, Lei Haifeng has never seen his father again, and his father has never taken the initiative to visit her, as if he has completely disappeared from this home.
She felt extremely lost and regretful, she longed to have a complete family, and hoped that her father could hold her tight, kiss her, and accompany her to grow up.
However, this dream was shattered in the end. Her father never really existed in her life, and this emptiness will stay with her for the rest of her life and become an eternal regret in her heart. Thankfully, that deep affection was perfectly compensated for by the grandparents.
As the years passed, Lei Haifeng never stopped exploring the subtleties of his childhood hometown, eager to discover the key to unlocking the secrets of his life.
She vividly remembers the sweet potato fields, the majestic mountains, and the endless tobacco plantations.
Following these vague memories, she mustered up the courage to make her first call in the online world in 2017, asking her biological mother why she had abandoned her back then.
The news exploded on the Internet, and local volunteers joined the search for her, but in the end, they failed to find any clues.
Just when Lei Haifeng was disheartened, an enthusiastic netizen boldly guessed that she might have been born in Yunnan or Guizhou based on the style of her hometown.
This speculation was like a beacon of light that rekindled her hope, and she was determined to persevere to the end, no matter how tortuous the road ahead.
Time flies, and in the blink of an eye to 2021, Lei Haifeng once again released information on the Internet to find relatives. This time, she provided a more detailed clue.
In addition to the customs of her hometown, she also described in detail some unique characteristics of her time in the orphanage: three small scars on the top of her head, visible burn marks under her right arm and on the instep of her foot.
With these specific descriptions, the experts quickly narrowed down their search. When reviewing Lei Haifeng's admission records that year, the staff also provided some important clues.
According to them, Lei Haifeng had a visible burn scar on the instep of his right foot when he was admitted to the hospital, apparently caused by the flames.
In addition, they had no other information available. The staff also kept a photo of Lei Haifeng taken shortly after she entered the welfare home, from which we can get a glimpse of her demeanor back then.
At this moment, I believe that your attention has been deeply attracted by the girl wearing the uniform uniform of the welfare home in the photo. Her innocent smile seems to tell a difficult but extraordinary life experience.
Although the old things that belonged to her are long gone, she is still persistent in her quest for the truth and fully prepared for her future.
In this difficult and dangerous journey to find his relatives, Lei Haifeng has never retreated or compromised in the slightest.
She did not harbor hatred and revenge for her biological mother, nor did she seek the mercy and charity of others, but she was eager to solve the doubts buried in her heart, hoping to find out what kind of predicament her mother had encountered in the first place, so she resolutely abandoned her disabled daughter.
"I don't have a grudge against my mother, and I can understand her struggle. Lei Haifeng said firmly, "As the only breadwinner in the family, she must be under heavy pressure. The death of her father has undoubtedly made her burden, and she has to take on the responsibility of the whole family alone. And I, the disabled daughter, have undoubtedly become her biggest drag.
She continued: "Mothers may be looking forward to being able to build a happy family again, have a responsible husband, and have a healthy and lovely child. ”
However, Lei Haifeng still has endless regrets and confusion in his heart. More importantly, she longs to find her grandparents who have given her selfless love and understand their current living conditions. Although they have entered their prime, Lei Haifeng still hopes to visit them in person to repay them for their nurturing kindness.
After forming his own family, Lei Haifeng's desire became stronger and stronger. Her eldest daughter once lamented fondly: "At school, whenever someone mentions my grandmother, I feel endless thoughts and expectations, looking forward to seeing her as soon as possible." ”
Lei Haifeng was deeply moved by her daughter's words, and she decided to pursue the answer without hesitation.