[This content is an adaptation of a long fictional short story, please watch it rationally, do not sit in the opposite seat]
I hated my father for a long time, and I couldn't figure out why he didn't pass on the ancestral craft to me, and insisted on passing it on to my cousin, and even for a while, I went to learn it secretly, but he didn't want to.
It wasn't until my father's deathbed that I finally understood his good intentions and finally let go of the mustard in my heart, but now it's too late to regret it.
My cousin and I are two years apart, and we have had a good relationship since we were children, and my uncle was still there at that time, and our two families were also very close.
My father is a well-known old Chinese medicine doctor in the village, as long as someone in someone's family is sick, he will come to the house to let my father see, every time I watch my father take the pulse, prescribe a few medicines, and within a few days the person's illness will be cured.
Moreover, these herbs were dried by my father himself, and his job every day was to dry the herbs and treat people.
I have always liked to follow my father since I was a child, and I would always ask him what he was doing with herbs every day, but at first my father would not tell me, thinking that I was too young to remember.
But one time there were too many people to see the doctor, and my father couldn't keep busy, so I went to help, and who knows what medicine he just said that this patient needed, I took it directly.
This made my father feel very strange, I did not expect that I had such a high talent at such a young age, and from this time on, I would study with my father every day.
Sometimes my cousin would come to play with me, and I would take him along to watch it, because it seemed to me that it was a very interesting thing, and I could recognize a lot of strange medicinal herbs.
But sometimes my cousin thought it was boring, so he would drag me to play, and my father would laugh when he saw me and told us not to disturb their work.
Soon I was old enough to go to school, and my father sent me to school without hesitation, and I was still in school with my cousin, but after school, I would still follow my father and watch him work.
Originally, our life was like this, but I didn't expect that my uncle had an accident when he was working on the construction site.
The uncle had already gone home that day, but suddenly remembered that there seemed to be something that had not been put away, so he wanted to go to the construction site to take a look.
Who knew that this time I went, the uncle never came back, and when we arrived, the uncle had been smashed into a blur of flesh and blood, and my cousin was just 10 years old at that time.
The uncle's funeral was held soon, and our family could only comfort my aunt and let her mourn the change, and my cousin became silent because of this incident.
In addition, my cousin's study was not very good, so my aunt planned to take my cousin out to work, but this matter was stopped by my father, who said that he could teach his cousin Chinese medicine.
After all, after learning this craft, at least he has the ability to earn money later, but during this period, my cousin still has to continue to go to school.
My father even asked for my cousin's tuition, but my aunt had to hurriedly refuse when she heard it, and agreed to this request.
At that time, I also felt very sorry for my cousin, and I would try to make him happy every day, but he didn't seem to like learning Chinese medicine from my father.
Because every time we both listened to my father, my cousin was always absent-minded, but even if I deserted with him, every time I faced my father's questions, I was always able to answer them.
Sometimes I always feel like my cousin has some opinions about me, but I don't dare to ask, so I can only pretend not to know.
One night, my cousin was supposed to go home with me, but when he was out of school, he suddenly walked in the opposite direction, and I hurriedly chased after him and asked, "Didn't you say you were going to my house today?"
Who knew that my cousin turned around and said very angrily: "I won't go in the future, and I won't be able to learn, even if I learn it, I will pass it on to you, I can only give you a hand." ”
After saying that, my cousin turned around and left, I was stunned for a long time and didn't recover, I didn't expect him to say such a thing.
When I walked home, my father didn't see my cousin coming, so he hurriedly asked what was going on, and I didn't say anything when I entered the house, but said that I was too tired to study today.
After lying on the bed, I was still thinking about what my cousin had just told me, and I couldn't figure out why he thought so, because in my opinion, Chinese medicine has always relied on ability.
When I went to school the next day, I took the initiative to talk to my cousin, but he ignored me completely, and I had to not bother in the face of such a situation, but I really didn't understand why my cousin became like this.
Later, my father also noticed this situation, one day after school, he took the initiative to pick us up at the school gate, I also felt very surprised when I saw my father, my cousin wanted to go directly, but my father came up to stop him.
Let him come to the house for dinner in the evening, stay here for one night, after all, my father is an elder, and my cousin is not easy to refuse, so he had to follow us home.
But from the time he entered the house to the time he ate, his cousin didn't say a word, no matter what his father asked him, he always said that it was okay, he just didn't want to study.
I had to stay silent, and after eating, my father asked me to stay in the house, and he and my cousin went out to talk about something, so that we could know what was going on without even thinking about it.
But I also wanted to know why my cousin suddenly said such things to me, so I opened the door and listened quietly to the two of them.
But I couldn't hear clearly, so I wondered if I could open some more cracks to listen, but who knew that my father found out, so I hurried into the house.
Although I don't know what the two of them said, my cousin's attitude has changed a lot since this time, and he is not only more active than me every day, but even sometimes lives directly in my house.
It seems that my father has untied the knot in my cousin's heart, and I am happy to see it, so that I can study with my cousin again.
It wasn't until I went to high school that there was a big difference in our grades, and I became a veritable good student in my class, while my cousin's grades kept dropping.
But he never seemed to worry, because the two of us were not in the same class, and once I learned from the mouth that the reason why my cousin didn't study was because he had a job right after graduation.
Hearing this, I was also curious, when did he secretly find a job when the two of us stayed together every day?
In order to solve this question in my heart, I took the initiative to find my cousin after school and asked him what kind of good job he had found, and I also wanted to follow along.
Who knew that after he saw me, he laughed directly: "What is a good job, don't you know, your father wants to pass on his skills to me, right?"
When I heard it, I thought my cousin was joking, because everyone could see that my talent was much higher than my cousin's, but how could my father pass this on to my cousin?
Maybe I didn't believe it, so my cousin asked me to go home and ask myself, and I had to go home in disbelief after hearing it, and my father saw that I was back, and hurried out to greet me.
But I didn't go into the house, I just looked at my father and asked, "You're going to pass on your craft to my cousin, right?"
When my father heard what I said, he hesitated for a moment and hurriedly asked me where I knew, and said directly that my cousin told me today.
His father was also stunned when he heard it, but he quickly explained: "Your cousin's academic performance is not good, and it will be difficult for him to be admitted to university in the future. ”
But I didn't believe my father's words at all, and since then, I have never studied Chinese medicine with my father, even if he told me, I would not go.
I always thought that I could graduate quickly and then I would be able to escape from this house, and my cousin and I didn't talk at all, and sometimes when he came to the house, I hid in the house and didn't come out.
When my father saw this, he wanted to call me out, but when he saw that I didn't pay attention to anyone, he just gave up, and from then on, I was like a borrower living at home.
It wasn't until a few days before the college entrance examination that my father found me again and told me to cheer for the exam, don't be nervous, just play normally, I still didn't say anything after hearing it.
I played very well in this college entrance examination, and after the exam, I heard the news that my father was going to pass on his skills to my cousin, after all, my family's reputation is still not small.
Many people are very curious about why they don't pass on the craft to their own son, and some people even began to say that it was because I was too stupid to learn it so I passed it on to my cousin.
At first I was angry with them, but no matter how I explained, no one believed me, and in the end I didn't say anything, anyway, I was about to leave this house, and everything here had nothing to do with me.
After the admission letter came down, I was admitted to the school of my choice, and the day I left for school was also the day my father officially handed over the store to my cousin.
I didn't attend the so-called handover ceremony, but went to the train station by myself, and I made up my mind that I would not come back again.
Perhaps because I was unwilling, I chose medicine when I applied for the exam, and I just wanted to prove to my father that I could test my own efforts and become an excellent doctor.
Maybe it's because I studied with my father when I was a kid and I know a little bit about it, so when I go to university, I always feel that it's not that difficult.
It was very easy to learn the knowledge points taught by the teacher, and even ranked among the best in every exam, so he was naturally loved by the teacher.
Moreover, the teacher said that I would definitely be able to work in a big hospital after graduation, and I did not disappoint the teacher's expectations and went to work in a big hospital in the city.
I became a very good doctor here, but after all these years, I have not had any contact with my family, and my mother has written me a few times before, but I have always said it simply.
Once, the hospital sent some doctors to the village to help the elderly who could not afford to come to the hospital, I didn't want to go, but when I saw that the village I went to was actually my home.
I'm very curious, after all, there is a doctor's hospital in the village, how can this happen?
With such curiosity, I applied to go with me, and after so many years, I set foot in this familiar place again, and a colleague asked me if my home was here, and I nodded.
When I arrived, I followed them into the village, and sure enough, there were some old people left in the village, and all the young people had gone out to work.
I went to other people's homes for treatment first, and they were very surprised to see me come back and told me to go home and have a look.
When I heard this, I was stunned for a moment, and then I said, "I won't go, after all, I don't want to see my cousin in my family's medical center." ”
But those aunts and uncles insisted that I go home to see it, and I really couldn't resist them, so I promised that I would go back after reading it.
I returned home with my memory, but I didn't expect to see only my mother sweeping the floor in the yard, not my father, and my mother was stunned when she saw me coming back.
She hurriedly stepped forward to grab me and asked me if I was working hard outside, why I came back so suddenly, and I didn't say hello in advance.
I thought he was going to the hospital to help, who knew that after I entered the house, I saw my father lying sick on the bed, I hurriedly went up to check, my mother just stood aside and said that the cancer was terminal, and it didn't take long.
I didn't expect to be such a big "surprise" when I went home, and I hurriedly asked what was going on.
It turned out that my cousin had taken over the hospital since I left, but he hadn't learned anything since he was a child, and his father always went to clean up the mess for him after he took over.
After a long time, he became ill from hard work, and finally he couldn't afford to get sick, and finally the hospital also closed down, and my father's body was exhausted.
After I heard it, I still asked my question, why did I pass on the craft to my cousin back then, and when my father heard it, he sighed and said, "Actually, your uncle's death had something to do with me." ”
Before the uncle left the construction site that day, his father went to find the uncle, and if his father hadn't talked to him, the uncle would not have forgotten to put things away, and he would not have returned to the construction site.
So this matter has always been a pimple in his heart, in order to make up for the mistakes he made, he had to choose to pass on the craft to his cousin, plus my academic performance is good, and I don't have to worry that I don't have a good future in the future.
In fact, he discussed this matter with his mother for a long time, because she was worried that I would be unhappy, but in the end, she couldn't resist my father and agreed.
After hearing this, the knot in my heart that I had been feeling finally unraveled, and it turned out that my father didn't want to pass it on to me, but because he felt sorry for my uncle's family.
At the same time, he was worried that I would not be happy, so he had to hide it from me, I didn't expect such a big misunderstanding, but it was too late to make up for it now.
After going to the countryside this time, I asked the leader for a few days off, and I wanted to spend more time with my father in this last time, and I even wanted to resign and reopen my father's medical center.
After all, this is my father's life's work, but my father stopped me, he wanted me to save more people in the big hospital, instead of staying in this village forever.
I didn't stay at home long before my father died, and I wasn't very sad, but I regretted that I didn't know the truth earlier.
After the funeral, I took my mother to live in the city, and although she said several times that she wanted to go back and that there was no one to talk to in the city, I promised her that I would take her back whenever I had time.
Now that I think about it, if I had gone to my father earlier and made it clear, there would have been no such thing.
[This content is an adaptation of a long fictional short story, please watch it rationally, do not sit in the opposite seat]