My name is Zhou Yun and my wife Xiaowei and I have been married for many years. Once upon a time, we had a sweet time, however, everything changed after I betrayed her.
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That day, I met Xuanxuan at a party, and her appearance made my heart flutter, and I couldn't control myself and fell into the whirlpool of extramarital affairs. Since then, I have enjoyed the passion with my lover while returning home to maintain a superficial relationship with my wife.
One day, I came home as usual and my wife was busy preparing dinner in the kitchen. I looked at her back, and a trace of guilt welled up in my heart. But this guilt was soon overwhelmed by the desire in my heart.
After dinner, I looked at my wife's gentle eyes and suddenly felt the urge to make out with her. I approached her and gently put my arm around her waist, and she didn't resist, just looked at me silently.
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"What's wrong with you today?" asked the wife softly.
I was silent for a moment and said, "I just want to be close to you." ”
My wife seemed to notice something, and she looked at me with a hint of doubt in her eyes: "Are you hiding something from me?"
I looked away from her eyes and said, "It's nothing, don't think about it." ”
I know that my actions are contradictory, but in my heart, there are actually three true thoughts.
The first thought was that I still have feelings for my wife. Although I betrayed her, our relationship as husband and wife for many years was not something that could be broken by saying it. I know that she is a good wife and has always been good to me, so I still think of her kindness at some point and want to be close to her.
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The second thought was that I wanted to cover up my mistake in front of my wife. I knew my betrayal was unforgivable, but I didn't want her to find out the truth, and I was afraid of losing this home and losing her love. So I used this way to numb myself and make myself feel like everything wasn't so bad yet.
And the last thought, indeed, is very dirty. That is, I use my wife as a tool, a tool to satisfy my desires. I know that's an exaggeration, but at some point, I really think so. I used her love for me to satisfy my own selfish desires, completely ignoring her feelings.
Looking back now, I really regret what I did. I hurt my nearest and dearest, and I hurt myself. I knew that I had to take responsibility for my mistakes, try to make amends for the damage I had done to my wife, and regain the happiness we had lost.