We met at a friend's party. She was gentle and generous, and her manners were appropriate, which made me fall in love at first sight. We soon fell in love, and the longer we got along, the more I was attracted to her kindness and thoughtfulness.
After we got married, life was good. Xiaofang is a virtuous and good wife, and she keeps the house in good order. Every morning, she would prepare a hearty breakfast and wait for me to wake up. In the evening, she will carefully prepare bath water for me and take care of all my daily life.
I also tried my best to be filial to her and love her. But just two years after getting married, Xiaofang suddenly became estranged from me. At first, I didn't pay much attention to it, thinking it was just a temporary mood swing. However, Xiaofang's coldness towards me became more and more serious, and she even began to refuse my intimate contact.
"Honey, have you been on your minds lately? You always seem to be preoccupied. "One night, I asked Xiaofang tentatively.
Xiao Fang shook her head and said in a cold tone: "It's nothing, it's just that I'm too tired from work recently." "
I could tell that she was reluctant, but she always looked evasive. I couldn't figure out why Xiao Fang was so cold to me all of a sudden? We used to love each other so much, and now she is so distant from me, I feel very bitter and blamed.
Later, Xiaofang's condition became more and more serious. Sometimes, when I want to hug her, she will subconsciously avoid her. Once, I tried to kiss her, and she even pushed me away with force.
"Xiaofang, what's wrong with you?" I looked at her helplessly, my eyes full of confusion.
Xiao Fang turned her head away, her expression was resolute and cold: "I'm sorry, I just don't want to be intimate for the time being, can you understand me?"
I looked at her emotionless eyes and felt helpless like never before. We used to be so loving, but now we are so estranged, and my heart is full of depression that I can't get rid of.
In this way, our contradictions have deepened and escalated little by little. Xiaofang insisted on not letting me get close to her, and I couldn't understand her thoughts. The gulf between us grew wider, and finally one day, six years later, we decided to divorce.
"I'm sorry, I know this is brutal for you. However, I really can't do it anymore, we can't maintain a normal married life. Xiao Fang choked up and said to me.
Tears welled up in my eyes, and a sense of despair that had never existed before gripped me. We used to be so loving, but now we have come to this point, and my heart hurts as if it has been ruthlessly ravaged.
After the divorce, I lived alone. At first, I lived a life of the walking dead every day. I put my whole life into my work, working overtime until late every day before I came home. When I get home, I do the chores mechanically, eat a few things, and go to bed quickly.
And Xiaofang is also very miserable. She began to regret the divorce, but she couldn't speak. Once, I stumbled upon a friend of hers, who told me that Xiaofang often couldn't sleep at night and cried all night long.
She regretted it so much that she blamed herself every day. She said she was so confused that she would do something that hurt you like that. My friend said.
I looked at Xiaofang's haggard photo, she used to be so beautiful and moving. Now, she seemed so helpless, and my heart was mixed.
Just when I thought I would die alone like this, Xiaofang took the initiative to contact me, and she sincerely asked me to remarry.
"I'm sorry, I was really wrong in those years. I know I hurt you, but please give me a chance to do it all over again. Xiao Fang cried and said to me, "I swear, I will never be like that again." Shall we start over?"
I looked at Xiaofang's sincere eyes, and the pain in my heart that had been hurt by her was once again raised. I weighed the pros and cons repeatedly, and I also had 10,000 reluctances in my heart. However, I still didn't make up my mind.
"I'm sorry, Xiaofang. In the end, I made up my mind and rejected her categorically, "I know you mean it, but I don't have the courage to try again." You hurt me so much that I can no longer love you with all my heart and believe in you. "
When I say this, my eyes are so decisive and determined. Xiao Fang never seemed to have seen me like this.
"Why? You still love me, why don't you want to give me a chance?" Xiaofang cried and questioned me.
My refusal seemed to surprise Xiaofang. Her eyes widened, her eyes full of shock and disbelief. She used to be so indifferent to me, but now she took the initiative to ask for remarriage, but I refused.
Looking at Xiaofang's painful appearance, my heart also became sad. At this moment, Xiao Fang suddenly opened her mouth and sincerely told me the truth over the years.
"During those years, I was suffering from a rare disease. This disease will make me extremely afraid and disgusted with intimate contact, even if it is a hug from you, I will subconsciously avoid it. "
Xiao Fang choked up and continued: "I was afraid that I would be sad if you knew, so I chose to escape. However, what I did hurt you, I was too selfish. It wasn't until after the divorce that I realized how much I loved you, but it was too late. "
Hearing Xiao Fang's sincere confession, my heart was shocked like never before. It turned out that she had been suffering from her illness alone all these years, and I was suspicious and blaming her. Tears rolled in my eyes, and an unprecedented sense of guilt and self-reproach enveloped my soul.
"I'm sorry, I'm so selfish and never put myself in your shoes. I hugged Xiaofang tightly, tears welling up in my eyes, "But please give us a chance to start over." No matter what you have experienced, I am willing to be by your side, to love you and take care of you. "
Xiao Fang nodded, and hugged me tightly, the two of us hugged each other and cried, at this moment, each other's hearts were unprecedentedly forgiven and relieved. I know that we have hurt each other, but it is through these hurts that we can really understand each other, understand each other, and tolerate each other.
At that moment, I made up my mind that no matter what Xiaofang went through, I would continue to love her and love her. And Xiaofang also assured me that she will never run away again, but will face everything bravely.
In this way, we started a new life together. Xiaofang began to actively cooperate with the treatment, and I was by her side wholeheartedly, giving her all the love and support.
"Honey, with me here, don't be afraid. No matter how difficult the road ahead is, I will walk side by side with you. "I will encourage Xiaofang like this.
Xiao Fang would look at me with grateful eyes, and a long-lost smile bloomed on her face again: "Yes, with you by my side, I feel that I have nothing to fear." Let's let the pain of the past completely disappear, and from now on, we will live happily together. "
Every time I do this, I feel more happiness and satisfaction than I have ever felt before. Yes, the road to marriage is not always smooth, but as long as we understand and tolerate each other, we will be able to work together to overcome every bump in life.
Looking back, my heart is always full of emotion. Xiaofang and I, through countless hardships and falling apart for a while, eventually got back together and cherished each other more than ever.
I know that all of this stems from our understanding and tolerance of each other. If I had been more patient and Xiaofang hadn't been so evasive, we might not have embarked on that bloody and sad road. However, this is all in the past, and what we need to do is to learn to learn from the lessons of the past, rather than being bound by it.
Only by understanding and tolerating each other can the boat of marriage never stop in the sea of life. Of course, this requires a joint effort on both sides. If only one person is working hard and the other person rests on his laurels, the marriage will inevitably break down.
Therefore, husbands and wives should be more tolerant and understanding, and less paranoid and complacent. Only in this way can we truly live a happy and fulfilling life. And Xiaofang and I are the warriors who have gone all the way on this road, and although our story is twisted and bizarre, it is also more precious because of it.
Since then, little by little, Xiaofang has rebuilt my trust in her. She no longer runs away like she used to, but faces everything bravely. Whenever she was afraid of her illness, she would come to me and tell me about her inner struggles.
"Honey, I'm starting to get scared again. Once, Xiao Fang hugged me tightly, her voice full of fear, "I'm so afraid that I will never be able to overcome this disease, and I will never be able to become a complete woman." "
I would patiently comfort her: "It's okay, take your time." I have always been by your side, accompanying you step by step. You have to believe in yourself and believe that we can overcome all difficulties. "
Whenever this happens, Xiaofang will look at me with grateful eyes, then bury her head in my arms and cry loudly. And I will always quietly hug her, giving her all the comfort and strength.
Gradually, Xiaofang began to learn to face her inner fears, rather than run away. She would honestly confide her thoughts to me, and we would discuss solutions together. Slowly, my trust was rekindled, and the gap between us began to melt.
In addition to psychological reconstruction, Xiaofang is also regaining her responsibilities and roles as a wife little by little in life. At first, she was always clumsy in housework, but I never disliked it, but patiently guided her. Over time, she became more and more proficient in her craft, and the dishes she made became more and more delicious.
Sometimes, I would praise her: "My dear, your food is so delicious, I can't get enough of it in my life!"
Xiaofang would smile happily and say, "Then eat more, eat and drink enough, we have other things to do at night." "
As she spoke, she would wink at me, a happy look on her face. Seeing this scene, my heart will be filled with happiness and joy that I have never seen before. Yes, let's let the pain of the past be completely forgotten, and from now on, we can start a new life again.
"Look, aren't we talented?" Once, Xiaofang happily said to me, "As long as we work together, there is no problem that cannot be solved." "
I would nod my head with deep feeling, then take Xiaofang into my arms and imprint an affectionate kiss on her forehead. Yes, as long as we trust each other and work together, we will be able to go through every stage of life together.
After life and work gradually got on the right track, Xiaofang's married life with me began to heat up again. Xiaofang will take the initiative to show her kindness, and I will respond enthusiastically. We would kiss and hug passionately between the sheets, releasing the thoughts and passions we had over the years.
"My dear, it's been a long, long time since we've been so close. Xiao Fang would gasp and say to me, "From now on, we must cherish the good times in front of us." "
I would nod vigorously, and then kiss Xiaofang's delicate red lips deeply, and our bodies were tightly intertwined, as if to make up for the emptiness of these long years in one breath.
Afterwards, we always hugged each other and slept exhausted. Xiao Fang would put her head in my arms, and her face was full of happiness. And I will caress her hair, and my heart will be filled with satisfaction and happiness like never before.
Yes, let's leave all the past hurts behind. From now on, we must cherish each other and make up for all the shortcomings and regrets in this life. We will definitely be happy and healthy and grow old together, because we have sincere love, and incomparably deep understanding and tolerance.
Looking back on all the hardships in the past, I sincerely thank God for His blessings. It is precisely because of that tortuous experience that Xiaofang and I can truly learn to cherish each other, learn to understand and tolerate each other. If all went well, we might have lost our way in comfort.
With the baptism of those tribulations, we become braver, more resilient, and more aware of how to cherish the people in front of us. Whenever I look at Xiaofang's happy sleeping face, I will sincerely thank God. It was you who gave us this chance to start over, so that we could let go of our hatred and regain our love.
I know very well that the story of me and Xiaofang is not a story that can be called a "fairy tale". It's too tortuous, too cruel, and perhaps more like a ruthless tragedy of life and death. But it is precisely because of such twists and turns and tribulations that we can gain real courage and strength from them to renew the beauty of life together.
Now, Xiaofang and I have our own children. Whenever I look at my children's innocent smiles, I make up my mind that I must give them a happy family. I don't want them to go through such hard years as we do.
I will teach them to learn to cherish the people in front of them and never hurt those closest to them. Because you never know if you'll be able to get back together after the separation. I would also tell them that marriage is a campfire that needs to be cared for together, and if only one person is burning, the fire will be extinguished sooner or later.