My name is Zhang Xiaoming, I am 28 years old this year, and I am an ordinary office worker. Since I was a child, I didn't have anything outstanding, my appearance was average, my grades were mediocre, and my family background was not too good. But I have a very good friend, we have been classmates since elementary school, and we still maintain a close friendship.
"Dude, you've been looking sad lately, did your girlfriend dump you again?" My friend saw what was on my mind and asked me straight to the point.
"You know the, I've never been in a relationship. I retorted a little angrily. Actually, I have been haunted by some things in my heart, but I don't want to tell my friends.
At first, I just secretly liked her, and I didn't even dare to say hello. Until one time, I accidentally spilled coffee on her clothes. I hastened to apologize and offered to pay her to wash her clothes. Unexpectedly, Li Xue smiled at me instead, saying that it didn't matter, it was a small accident. Since then, we've had some simple exchanges.
I gradually discovered that Li Xue is not only beautiful, but also very warm and friendly. Sometimes she takes the initiative to talk to me and ask me questions about work. Occasionally, she would share some interesting stories about her life. My mood is getting better and brighter day by day, and it seems that there is some kind of special connection between us.
Not long ago, I received a WeChat message from Li Xue, which read: "Xiao Ming, are you free at noon? I want to invite you to have a meal and chat." "When I saw this news, my heart was about to jump out. No girl has ever taken the initiative to ask me for dinner, let alone Li Xue, who I have loved for a long time!
As soon as noon passed, I hurried to the restaurant agreed by Li Xue. She's been waiting there for a long time. As soon as she saw me, she greeted me warmly, then pointed to the empty seat across from me and motioned for me to sit down.
"Xiao Ming, I asked you out today to thank you for your help to me the previous day. Li Xue opened her mouth first, "If it weren't for your rescue, my clothes would have been reimbursed." "
"Where, where, that's just a small matter. I hurriedly waved my hand, showing humility and courtesy.
After lunch, Li Xue had no intention of leaving, but took the initiative to lead the topic in a private direction. "Xiao Ming, do you have a girlfriend?"
I was stunned by her question, and said hesitantly: "No, no, I've always been single." "
"You're good-looking, why are you always single?" Li Xue asked with interest.
I had to tell the truth: "Maybe it's because I'm too introverted and don't take the initiative to pursue girls." "
After Li Xue heard this, she showed a clear expression. "I see, but there's nothing scary about chasing girls, the key is to be confident. She said, glancing at me inadvertently.
My heart was pounding again. Could it be that Li Xue was hinting that she was interested in me? Or was she just trying to give me some encouragement?
Just when I was confused, Li Xue suddenly leaned forward and whispered to me: "Xiao Ming, your clothes are stained with sauce." "
Her movements were so sudden that I didn't react for a while, I just felt that her face was right in front of me, and the fragrant smell came to my face. Li Xue's slender fingers gently brushed the placket of my clothes, wiping away the stains for me.
At that moment, my heart was about to jump out of my chest. Did Li Xue deliberately get so close to me? Or was she just a momentary distraction? All kinds of speculations intertwined in my mind, and my whole person fell into confusion.
Recalling my acquaintance with Li Xue, it seems that this fate between us is doomed. It was a sunny morning a year ago, and I was hurrying to work and accidentally bumped into a girl. The girl's documents and materials were scattered all over the ground, and I quickly squatted down and helped her pick them up.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I was in too much of a hurry to pay attention to the road. I apologized as I picked up the scattered items.
At that moment, I looked up at the girl and was immediately fascinated by her appearance. She is really outstanding, with fair skin, delicate facial features, and a good figure. Even her neat short hair shows her distinctive sense of fashion.
"It's okay, I'm a little negligent. The girl also squatted down and took the document in my hand, a bright smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.
We looked at each other for a few seconds, and my heart felt like it was beating with her smile. It wasn't until she got up first that I came back to my senses and hurriedly handed her the last piece of information.
"Thank you, goodbye!" The girl nodded to me and walked away without looking back.
I froze in place, looking at her back as she drifted away, with only one thought in my heart: I hope we can see each other again.
No one expected that just a month later, I would meet the girl who used to be only able to watch the flowers in my own company. It turned out that she was our newly recruited employee Li Xue.
Since then, I have begun to secretly pay attention to Li Xue's every move. As soon as I have the opportunity, I will take the initiative to approach her, hoping to communicate more. At first, Li Xue was still a little unfamiliar with me, but gradually, she seemed to be moved by my enthusiasm and began to take the initiative to talk to me.
We often discuss work issues together or gossip about interesting things in life. Whenever Li Xue laughed, I was deeply fascinated by her bright eyes. Occasionally, she would glance at me inadvertently, and it would make my heart beat faster.
I know that I really like Li Xue. Not only is she good-looking, but she is also warm and friendly, and she is simply the perfect woman of my ideals. It's a pity that our relationship has always stopped at ordinary colleagues, and there is no further development.
After work that day, I overheard several colleagues talking about Li Xue's private affairs, saying that she had often been off work with a handsome man recently. I was struck hard by the news, and I fell into an unprecedented loss.
Li Xue seemed a little surprised by my straightforwardness, but she still nodded. "yes, we've been dating for two months. He's a good person, and you'll get to know him in the future. "
It was as if my heart had been hollowed out, and it was painful. In the face of Li Xue, I couldn't say anything, I could only force a smile and wish her new boyfriend a good person.
In this way, my unrequited love was caught in a dilemma. On the one hand, I am reluctant to give up my love for Li Xue; On the other hand, I was powerless to change the fact that she already had a new love. I began to feel depressed and immersed in endless pain all day long.
Just when my love for Li Xue was about to be extinguished, a small episode rekindled the flame of hope for me.
At noon that day, I ate alone in the company's cafeteria as usual. Just when I was bored playing with my mobile phone, Li Xue suddenly appeared next to me and took the initiative to sit down opposite me.
"Xiao Ming, it's boring to eat alone, let me chat with you. Li Xue said, smiling at me kindly.
Just when I was thinking nonsense, Li Xue suddenly reached out and patted me lightly on the back of my hand, which made me feel excited.
"Xiao Ming, have you been thinking about anything lately? I found that you have no energy and don't like to talk very much. Li Xue asked me with concern.
I was speechless for a moment, not knowing how to answer. Should I be honest with her that I've always had a crush on her, but she already has a boyfriend, and I'm just going to get her in trouble.
"It's nothing, maybe I've been too tired from work lately. "I was perfunctory, trying to hide the fluctuations in my heart.
"Really, then you have to pay more attention to rest, don't try too hard. Li Xue said earnestly. As she spoke, she inadvertently patted my hand again, causing my heart to beat sharply.
At this moment, Li Xue's mobile phone suddenly rang. She glanced at the caller ID, and the expression on her face suddenly became a little serious.
"I'm sorry, my boyfriend's phone, I'll go answer the phone first. Li Xue said, then got up and walked away quickly, leaving me alone.
Looking at her back, my heart was full of mixed feelings and contradictions. On the one hand, I was excited that Li Xue took the initiative to show me favor; On the other hand, the fact that she already has a boyfriend dragged me back hard.
After work that day, I was about to pack up my things and go home, when Li Xue suddenly came to my side with a somewhat cramped look.
"Xiao Ming, are you free tonight? I want to ask you out for a drink and chat. "
"When, of course you can. I stumbled into agreement, vaguely expecting something.
We ended up stopping at a quiet tavern. Li Xue asked for two glasses of wine, and after drinking half a glass in one go, she began to talk about her hardships.
It turned out that the relationship between Li Xue and her current boyfriend had come to an end. The two of them have been quarreling a lot lately, and there are many contradictions, and they are separated and combined. Just a few days ago, Li Xue's boyfriend got angry again for no reason and gave her a hard beating.
"At that time, I was really miserable and helpless. Li Xue said as she spoke, and her eyes turned red. "If it weren't for your good friend, I wouldn't know what I would do. "
"Xiao Ming, you are very good to me, much better than my boyfriend. Li Xue muttered to herself, "If I hadn't been so obsessed at the beginning, but chose you, I wouldn't be so miserable now." "
My heart shook and I couldn't believe my ears. Could it be that Li Xue is confessing to me? Or is she just talking drunk for a while? We just looked at each other without saying a word, and the atmosphere suddenly became extremely ambiguous.
At this critical moment, Li Xue's mobile phone suddenly rang. She glanced at the caller ID, her face changed suddenly, and then she said to me with red eyes: "I'm sorry Xiao Ming, my boyfriend is calling again, I have to leave for a while." "
Since then, Li Xue has begun to distance herself from me, consciously or unconsciously. Even in the company, she rarely takes the initiative to talk to me. Every time I tried to ask her out for a chat, she excused herself.
Until one day, I finally made up my mind to ask Li Xue to meet alone again. Taking advantage of the lunch break, I found her and said solemnly, "Xuexue, we need to have a good talk." "
Li Xue didn't seem to expect me to be so straightforward, and agreed with some awkwardness. Soon, we were in a quiet corner and began a conversation that was uncertain where our friendship would take.
"Xuexue, have you been avoiding me lately?" I asked her straight to the point.
Li Xue was silent for a moment, and then sighed softly. "Xiao Ming, I probably drank too much that night and said something that bothered you. You just think I'm a temporary aberration, don't take it personally. "
My heart was shaken, and I finally understood everything. It turned out that the reason why Li Xue said such ambiguous words to me was only because she was carried away by alcohol for a while, not her true words. I couldn't help but feel a wave of sourness and loss in my heart.
"I know that we are destined to be ordinary friends, but I can't help but feel a different kind of affection for you. I smiled self-deprecatingly, "It seems like I'm crazy to daydream like this." "
At this moment, Li Xue, who had been silent, suddenly spoke: "Xiao Ming, you are a very good person, but we can really only be ordinary friends between us." It's true that my relationship is in jeopardy right now, but I still hope to give it one last chance. "
"If we're really destined to end up, then we'll start over as friends. Li Xue said, the corners of her mouth hooked up with a gentle smile, "You deserve a good marriage, I will bless you." "
I nodded, mixed feelings. Although Li Xue rejected me, our friendship seemed to rekindle the flame of hope. Let's start all over again, and maybe one day, I can meet another perfect woman besides her.
Since then, my relationship with Li Xue has returned to the pure friendship we had when we first met. Instead of being as distant as we used to, we have become more intimate and talk about everything.