Lin Sha:
Hello, I have received the letter for many days, and I should have replied a long time ago.
This semester's five elective courses plus three compulsory courses take up a lot of time, foreign language classes are stopped, I have to learn, and I take up some time, I have a lot of books to read, and I can't always calm down and think about it.
When I entered the third grade, it didn't seem to be the same as the first two years, and in less than two months, there were already four cases where I was introduced to "subjects". My family has always not advised me to think about such issues too early, but now it is because I am old, so not only do I not object, but also constantly remind me not to be picky. Actually, I know that I'm not picky, but it's about the same. Chinese customs, making a friend is almost half of the life, if the first friendship is not accurate, although it can be parted ways in the future, after all, it will involve a lot of energy, and it will bring a lot of trouble, so I have been very cautious about this issue.
What's more, the third year is a critical year, and if you have any ideas after graduation, you really have to hurry up this year. So I basically don't think much about it. But the only thing that worries me is my seriously ill mother, whose life may only be measured in months, and who is very concerned about it, and who always wants to see my happy life. I understand this very well, most people in their fifties and sixties can see their grandchildren, and our children don't even have a partner. Thinking of this, I feel a little guilty, Confucius said: "There are three unfilial pieties, and no queen is great", I am not a "filial son", but I have considered this recently, the mood is very conflicted, painful, and the only way to get rid of it is to read and write......
Writing this to you is also to casually talk about my situation, and there is no other intention. I fully understand what you are talking about in your letter. If my presumptuous thoughts do not add to the annoyance of the memories you bring in the future, I am very satisfied. I hope you and I can find our own happiness, and I believe that, and then we will tell each other to comfort our innocent friendship, okay?
It's time to go to dinner, so I'll stop writing.
Best wishes.
It snowed heavily, the temperature dropped again, and many people wore cotton clothes, what is the climate like in Beijing?
Ji Xiaodong
1981. 10. 22 p.m. at 5 p.m
Ji Xiaodong:
Happy New Year!It's been a long time since I've been in touch, how are you doing at home?
It's approaching the end of the semester, and the school is starting to get nervous, and I'm sure you'll still get excellent grades this semester. Presumably, the vacation will be longer than ours, but it is not yet known whether the military arts will be on holiday. Recently, the military has been in turmoil, in the midst of reorganization and downsizing, and it is difficult to estimate the prospects of military art; in short, the situation in all respects is not very stable due to it, and the people's hearts are unpredictable.
It's important to rely on relationships, but it's helpless for me, so I don't bother at all, and it's hard to say how objective it is. I just have to do my own thing, maybe I went out to school, and it was a big mistake to talk about military art in itself, and now it seems that there is no way to do it. This semester, our teaching content is all military dramas, and most of us have no enthusiasm for creation, so I am the same, but I read more books than before, so I can comfort myself.
It is said that the next semester may be a foreign drama. The only thing that everyone felt some enthusiasm for this semester was the physical class, learning court dance, ballroom dance, etc. What made me unhappy in 1981 was that I further saw that the real skill in many things was personnel relations, such as the fact that everyone was reluctant to act in military dramas this semester, and many of my classmates were loaned out to make movies, and some of them were the worst in the class. This is really a stimulus for some students in the class who are willing to study hard to act, who makes us not know people, if I can't think about it, I really can't do it, it's just a normal job.
I know very well that a film actor, including a star, has to pay a price for making a good film and getting a good role! I love the theater career, but I hate the environment and atmosphere of this career, to be honest, I am a relatively strong-willed person, of course, among lesbians, but every time a classmate goes out to shoot a film, it will affect my emotions for a few days. I was a little uncomfortable with the new director this semester, and we began to have a big difference in the idea of the role, he was not right with my original director, and it also caused me to have never been in a state and treatment in my acting class. To be honest, I don't like the so-called heroes, but I can't fall here, I can't imagine that I have to work harder than "Thunderstorm", the current progress is better, it is still not an ideal state, everything is helpless, I only feel that it has never been unspeakable! I hope that a new state will appear in 82! Okay, let's talk about it later.
I wish you all the best!
Linsha
1981.12.28
(Lin Sha sent a small photo of a one-inch military uniform in this letter)