It's night, I know. Tonight, that scene, I ...... My headache was splitting, as if it was swelling from the inside of my scalp, and it was clenched like a rattan basket. There is also pain in the temples and eye sockets. I don't know when the two of them will leave...... Later, Xiaomei picked up the dumplings on the ground, stepped on the broken plate, and was swept up by me.
I wanted to sleep for a while, and I always woke up, and the brutal awakening grabbed the whole nerves! It was about early in the morning, but my mind was always chaotic and numb, as if the nylon thread of the old sock was being dismantled, and it was sticky, and it was always broken, and it stuck to my hand, and it came back when I threw it, and I couldn't control it. Or it doesn't move even if it hurts, and then, when it doesn't get angry, damn it...... How did Wang Feng do it? His famous shot was about to be used on me! Xiaomei was frightened......
If I choose to forget a time of recollection, forget that evening, and time becomes something that I allow, something I can manage, broken down among many times, once (too many times before and after) or many times.
Finally in the morning, "get up and go open the letter." I shouted. Wang Feng was able to get up, and Xiaomei was still sleeping. I walked in my head and covered my face with my hands.
The people in the factory office had just come to work, and they all looked at me with amazement, "Open the letter, divorce." I said. "You're not children anymore, what's not to ......" I don't remember who said this. "Don't say so much, don't persuade us, if you continue like this, will you be responsible for your life? I interrupted them, impatient.
My tough attitude coupled with my face, although I can't see how deformed my face is, according to the vision of my right eye, it is affected, it may be swollen, and the whole face is hot, this look, of course, there is nothing to say.
I went to the street office in the town as fast as I could.
The three men were chatting, and when they saw me and Wang Feng, they immediately calmed down and stared at us. Needless to say, their first thought was that the two men had been beaten before they came, and the house had been demolished after the beating...... They conjure up that scene from what they see. Rather, such divorces are rare.
I put the letter of introduction on my desk (there was only one table), a middle-aged man, whom I did not know, and the other two men seemed to have seen, both from the town, and the two of them stood aside and watched greedily.
The man moved slowly to the table, glanced up at us, picked up the newspaper in one hand, and took the letter of introduction in the other, "Hurry up and get us a divorce?" I said. He looked at me again, "Is the divorce all negotiated?"
"Alright. ”
He then looked at the newspaper:
"Hurry up and do it for us, it's already been negotiated. "I said it again.
"How old is the child, and how is the property divided?"
"The child belongs to me, and I don't need him to pay child support. Property, not a penny of savings, he can take whatever he wants from the daily necessities of the house, his debts have nothing to do with me, that's all. ”
The man glanced at me, and then at Wang Feng:
"Is that so? You have no objection? Don't think about it anymore? You two are angry now, don't think about it anymore?"
"What's the rambling? If you want to do it quickly, you can do it quickly, where is there so much nonsense. ”
The two men standing on the side swished and turned and went out.
I clearly saw that the man's hand was shaking slightly, and he pulled open the drawer and took out the official seal, a notebook. He hung his head and repeated my words while writing, as if he were afraid of making a mistake, and then read it again, stamped it with the official seal, and handed it to us, "Here, you are not husband and wife anymore, and the relationship between husband and wife has been legally dissolved and is not protected by law." ”
Wang Feng took the note and turned around and left, I looked at it, and I felt that it was very similar to an IOU from someone else when opening a restaurant, as if it didn't count anything, it was extremely simple.
"Oh......"
My heart was pounding, like I was hungry.
Actually, I didn't read anything written on the note at all, like it was unnecessary, just a dozen words.
Does that mean it's over? Why didn't I do it earlier? In less than half an hour before we came in, we got married before the meal was ready, and if we lived on the eighth floor, it would be easier than going upstairs! Or more calmly than folding a paper airplane.
Just about to leave, a person came in, it was my classmate, I didn't usually say hello, I knew who it was, "Oh! How can you marry him, that person has a bad temperament, and he is good to leave." A kind of relief on his expression, like mine, "What does it matter to you, how do you know he's bad?" I asked as I looked at him and walked away. I have always disliked other people's fingers in my own affairs, and I know whether Wang Feng is good or bad, and I am extremely sensitive to what others say about us. The classmate grinned, his skin dark, revealing blood-red gums. On the way, I thought, what's wrong with me? I've never talked to anyone like this before, and I feel a little ignorant, and I don't want to do it, so I say it unconsciously, like the back foot and the front foot.
Accomplished a big thing, it was a sunny morning. There seems to be an acquaintance around me who greets me, I think she just happened to pass by me, and I happened to pass by her, everyone knows that there is no need to stop, and there are often many such useless greetings in life.
Walking to the railway crossing, I met Wang Li shopping for vegetables, she stared at what I wanted to say and stopped, "It's over, it's really a departure now......" I told her, but immediately couldn't control her crying, choked up, laughed, tears flowed into her mouth, unable to speak but still said; "It's okay now, it's relieved, it doesn't matter to me what he does, and he finally left him." ”
When I got home, Xiaomei was next door and picked her up. - Just by carrying the divorce note in my pocket, the room suddenly became empty, and the freedom I felt began to grow, bigger and bigger. Aunt Zhang came to tell me about Xiaomei, and my sister came by in middle class to bring me the food she brought, and she often did this, she didn't eat it herself and gave it to me or her brother, and she came home hungry to eat at night.
"If only I didn't give you beef and turnips......" said my sister, crying.
And I kept saying, "It's okay now, it's okay now, it's okay now, it's okay now, I really want to celebrate, I want to set off firecrackers, I really want to ......" and then I went to the outhouse and got chopsticks and bowls, and put them on the table to knock, what am I knocking? I don't knock anything. Xiaomei raised her face, giggled, and then climbed into the chair, I picked her up and walked in the house, only two steps to the window, two more steps to the mirror, and then to the wall, my tears were secretly wiped away, and when they flowed, they were secretly wiped away.
"It's okay now......" I repeated it a few times, but after each time I said it, my heart was empty, and my whole body was weak and sloppy, and there seemed to be a kind of caution injected into my heart. Why should I cry? I choked up with emotion, I know, but I don't talk about it, people are undoubtedly secretive about divorce.
My sister and Aunt Zhang both went back, and I kept smiling, afraid to stop, afraid that all this was an illusion. Someone passed by in the back window, "Dad?" Xiaomei whispered. It is Xiaoqiang of the Guo family in the backyard, wearing a dark blue suit, with black and shiny hair, similar to Wang Feng. I picked her up and put tears down my face, and said to myself, "Once life is our habit, and another person occupies his place, even the slightest change will surprise the child! ”
"It's okay now...... It's good now......"
Yes, there is still beef, and there are almost four catties left in five catties. Yes, I have more than a dozen turnips in my mind.
to be continued
2024.4.25
