I died in the year my brother was the richest.
Because of long-term overwork, I got seriously ill, and the doctor said that it was possible to be cured, but the medical expenses were estimated to be millions.
My younger brother, who is worth more than 100 million yuan, did not choose to treat me, but stood by the bedside and denounced me for interfering with his early love back then.
He didn't care about it at all, I gave up the opportunity to continue high school, went out to work to earn tuition for him, so that he could be admitted to Tsinghua University, all the way to a doctorate, and also started a company, and the future is limitless.
In the end, I couldn't stand the pain anymore and pulled out the tube myself.
In my first life, I did not give up the opportunity to study.
And when he was once again obsessed with the colonel's flower, I smiled, "It's good. 」
1
On the admission list of the high school entrance examination at the entrance of the city's No. 1 Middle School, my younger brother Xu Guang and I were on the list.
The difference is that he is second.
And I'm the 299th, just two short of falling off the list.
City No. 1 Middle School is the best middle school in the city.
As long as you enter a middle school and study high school, you are expected to win the college entrance examination in which thousands of troops have crossed the single-plank bridge, enter a better university, and have a bright life from now on.
The moment he saw the results, his younger brother was eager to try it with starlight in his eyes.
He looked at me for a moment, "What should I do? Who, continue to study?"
In my last life, my younger brother and I both applied for the first high school entrance examination.
We agreed that whoever was admitted to the first high school would go to high school.
The one who loses the list goes out to work to make money, and earns tuition for the one who studies.
My younger brother has always been better than me in his studies, and he is sure to be admitted.
I'm doing this discussion just to make myself die.
But I didn't expect the results to come out, and we were both admitted.
Out of the 300 places in the class, he was second-to-last, and I was second-to-last.
But the family is poor, and the money that can be raised is not enough for one person's tuition for one semester.
I still gave up my studies, sold the food left over from my family, and went to work in other places.
As a waitress in a restaurant, as a factory assembly line worker, as a cashier in a supermarket......
I did a lot of work and worked my brother all the way to my Ph.D.
He opened a company in the year he graduated, and his business was in the limelight and was chased by capital many times. Overnight, the net worth exceeded 100 million.
It was also that year that I became seriously ill due to overwork.
It's not that it can't be cured, but the medical expenses are estimated to cost millions.
Although this is a lot, it is nothing to my younger brother, who was already worth more than 100 million at the time.
I thought he would save me.
But when I finally waited for him to show up, he angrily accused me of interfering with his first love.
He said that he had not been in a relationship in years, not because he was too busy with his studies to think about personal problems.
It's because he never felt like a heart again.
It was I who made him lose the ability to love someone.
I never expected him to hate me so much, completely ignoring the relationship between me and his sister and brother who have been dependent on him for many years.
Until the end, he didn't even give out a penny.
In the end, it was I who couldn't stand the pain and took the initiative to pull out the oxygen tube.
Once again, we are standing in front of the admission list.
Xu Guang hasn't turned against me yet.
"Sister, what should I do, which of us is going to study?"
Although he asked, his expression was full of certainty.
He knew very well that I would let him go as I had since I was a child, and leave the opportunity to study for him.
I pursed my lips, "Since I was also admitted, it means that God also wants me to continue studying, and I don't want to give up." 」
He was stunned, "What about the tuition?"
"We all have hands and feet, so let's earn it for ourselves. 」
2
Xu Guang and I are orphans.
When I was five years old and he was three years old, my parents were in a car accident while they were working outside, and then my grandmother fell ill and died.
In just one year, we lost a loved one.
Distant relatives have since been our non-existent.
We ate only potatoes and greens, almost no meat.
The clothes on his body are patched and patched, the trouser cuffs are always short, and the ankles are open all year round.
In the mountains far away from the city, there are no conditions to pick up garbage and sell it for money.
When I was nine years old and Xu Guang was seven years old, a new volunteer teacher came to the village school, and when he saw Xu Guang and I hanging at the school gate, he immediately let us go to the school to study.
Therefore, Xu Guang and I are both sisters and brothers, and classmates.
All of a sudden, he showed a talent for reading.
He finished the same homework in half an hour, and he could go out to play with the village children. Exams always come first.
I have to keep my head until the chickens in the village are on the shelves and the dogs are back to the nest before I can finish it, and I can't guarantee that all of them are right.
Although he was smarter than me, he, like me, never took learning lightly.
We all know that there is only one way for a family like ours to change their fate, and that is to study.
We persevered all the way, from the village elementary school to the county junior high school, and did not hesitate to apply for the city No. 1 middle school with the best education quality during the high school entrance examination.
But high school is beyond the scope of compulsory education, and the tuition fee of 1,000 yuan has suddenly become an obstacle.
One thousand a semester is two thousand a year.
Two people are four thousand.
Plus tuition and fees, books, accommodation,
Two people at least six thousand a year.
For a family like ours, 6,000 has to sell potatoes for three years and don't eat meat at all to barely save it.
Not to mention the cost of going to college after three years.
I still remember my last life, it was under this admission list, within five minutes of seeing my name, I made a decision to leave the opportunity to study for my smarter brother, and I went out to work to earn money.
At that time, after I made my decision, although I felt a huge loss and regret in my heart, in order to avoid Xu Guang's psychological burden, I still asked him in a heroic manner, "Do you have the confidence to continue to be at the top of the No. 1 Middle School and be admitted to the best university?"
The cicadas chirp in summer, and the smiling faces passing by around are full of hope for the future.
In addition to tears in Xu Guang's eyes, there is also perseverance created by long-term poverty.
He wiped away his tears and nodded vigorously: "Sister, I must study hard, be admitted to a good university, have a good way out, and let you live the best life." 」
When he said this, his whole being glowed.
Probably even he himself did not expect that a few years later, in this oath-like sentence, all the parts about him were fulfilled, and all the things that were involved in me were disappointed.
Then he went to high school, and I became a waiter.
He sat in the brightly lit classroom and learned about the culture, and I washed the dishes, served the dishes, and cleaned the toilet in the restaurant.
He was praised and admired by his teachers and classmates for his studies, and I was embarrassed by difficult customers to hold my head up.
But every time I receive his excellent palmares, I feel that everything is worth it.
His grades dropped significantly, and it was the last semester of his sophomore year of high school.
The teacher called me and told me that it was his early love that affected his studies, and if he continued like this, it would be difficult to even take the second exam.
At that time, there was only one year left before the college entrance examination.
In a family like ours, there is only one success, and there is no second restart.
I quit my job and went back to my hometown, found the girl, intervened with them.
Xu Guang returned to being single, and the homework he had missed was also made up.
In the college entrance examination, he was admitted to Tsinghua University with the first place in the city and the third place in the province.
I have been immersed in great joy and feel that my hard work has been in vain. But I didn't realize that in fact, since he broke up with the girl, he has slowly reduced his contact with me.
He would only message me when he needed money.
I always thought it was because he was busy with his homework.
It went on for several years, until I became seriously ill, and I saw him in my hospital bed with an angry face on his face.
I realized that his hatred for me had been deeply rooted since the summer vacation at the end of my sophomore year of high school.
I couldn't figure out to death why I had been so devoted to him and yet had such a deep hatred from him.
After all, he also benefited from the termination of early love and had a bright future.
Since he ignores my efforts, then why should I be a good person for nothing.
It's time for me to taste the sweetness of reading.
3
It wasn't until I returned to my hometown and exchanged all the crops in the field for money, and handed over half of the five hundred yuan to Xu Guang so that he could make money, that he finally believed that what I said about "earning tuition fees on my own" was not to scare him.
He pinched the thin five tickets and coughed twice, "Sister, I seem to have a cold. 」
He has not been in good health since he was a child, and he will have a fever at the slightest breeze.
For countless dark nights, I carried half a basket of potatoes around my neck and carried him on my back to and from my home and the health center at the head of the village.
It took me more than ten minutes to wake up the sleeping doctor, look at the doctor's face, and beg him to save my brother.
Just an injection is fine.
If the doctor wanted to give Xu Guang an infusion, the potatoes he brought would not be enough to pay for the consultation, so I took the initiative to sweep the floor, plaster, and clean the health center, trying to get the doctor to delay for a few days, and wait for me to sell the potatoes and make up for the lack of money.
I'm worried that he's not in good health, and it's all my own farming.
I can't eat meat a few times a year, and I must have given it all to him.
I am only two years older than Xu Guang, but like a doting mother, I am reluctant to let him suffer a little.
I've always been worried that he's going to get sick easily.
But it turns out that in the last life, he lived longer than me.
……
At this time, his lips were indeed a little pale, and his spirit was not very good.
In the past, I would immediately let him lie down and rest, and I would not let him suffer anything for at least the next three days.
But now, I just said lightly, "It's just a cold, and it's not a big disease. It's good to spend ten dollars on medicine and eat it. 」
He had never been treated so slowly by me, and he was so angry that he was angry: "You just got into the first middle school, or the penultimate one, and you started to play the score, do you really think you are the golden phoenix that flew out of Shankaka?"
He turned his face so quickly that I was shocked and felt very reasonable.
In the previous life, I worried about everything, and bought him every thread, so that he took everything for granted.
In the middle, in order to make money for him to study, the two places were separated for a long time.
It wasn't until I was lying in a hospital bed that I had the opportunity to learn about his ruthlessness and selfishness.
How can a person suddenly become a stranger.
It must be because he was that kind of person, but I didn't know it before.
I didn't scold him.
To live a new life, I want to seize every opportunity to go my own way, and I can't waste time competing with him.
4
A month and a half later, when the No. 1 Middle School opened, when I went to the school to register, I met Xu Guang again.
I paid my tuition with the money I earned from the stall, but he stopped me on my way to the dormitory.
He was carrying a duffel bag and had a straight face, wanting to ask me to get a thousand yuan to sign up.
Even though he took the initiative to come to me, he didn't even look at me, and he still had a gift for me.
Later, I heard from people I knew that he was making money as a tutor, 60 an hour, and 12 in two hours a day, and at this rate, he could earn 3,000 a month.
The second place in the first middle school has the ability to make money with knowledge.
Unlike me, the penultimate one, I can only make some hard-earned money like in my previous life.
For a whole summer, I earned two thousand.
He just went to wash the dishes for people, and he wouldn't be short of a thousand registration fees.
But when I saw the brand-new sneakers on his feet and the dazzling white new shirt on his body, I seemed to understand again.
In just one and a half months, he looks a little less like a rural child from the outside.
And my hair is yellow, my face is scorched and red, and everyone looks like a migrant worker who has gone to the city to work.
The rubber shoes on my feet were the last pair left in the stall, two sizes larger than my actual size, and I had to put three layers of insoles and tie the laces to make sure I didn't fall off when I walked.
And if I didn't want to sign up today, I wouldn't be willing to take out such shoes and wear them.
I didn't give him any money, but just asked, "Why don't you apply for tuition and living expenses from students from poor families in the top 50 of the class?"
I only learned about such a policy in the city when I signed up today.
As long as you study well, there will be kind-hearted people who will contribute money to sponsor you, not only to help pay the tuition fees, but also to have living expenses every month. Students are only required to report regularly to their sponsors on their studies.
Only poor families in the top 50 in each grade are eligible for this.
I can't meet the conditions for a crane tail.
I don't know why he didn't apply for this money in the previous life, or if he applied for it and didn't tell me.
But if he applies and someone pays for his tuition, I only have to pay for my own tuition, and I have every hope of continuing to study.
It is impossible for him not to understand this truth.
But why did he do that?
In this life, I stubbornly waited for him to answer.
Standing in the sun, his face gradually turned red, and he stepped forward to question me, "Xu Yu, are you so willing to let others pity you and sympathize with you for a few stinky money? You are willing, but I am unwilling!"
5
I couldn't believe my ears.
It turned out that this is the reason why in the previous life he did not apply for this funding.
His fragile dignity made me miss the opportunity to continue high school and change my life.
Later, when I left the society, I looked at my own mediocrity, and then looked at Xu Guang's infinite scenery, I understood more and more how much the environment affects a person.
I spend all day with the stall owners and the female workers who are screwing the production line, and the best life we can imagine is to have our own storefront, a stable way to make money that can feed and clothe the whole family.
If you want to go further, you don't have the resources and connections at all.
And he's surrounded by professors or gifted students who talk about celestial bodies, art, and capital, and whose classmates are either executives or companies.
Every day, you only need to save a bureau for a meal, and it is a project with millions of funds at your fingertips.
One celebrity said that when he was at his poorest, Kari only had a million left.
When I was the richest, I only saved 100,000 yuan.
Later, Xu Guang was going abroad for exchange during his graduate studies, and I was worried that he would not have enough money, so I only left 1,000 yuan for myself, and took out all the rest and gave it to him.
After calling him the money, I also gave him a call.
He took the money as a matter of course, didn't ask me if I was enough to live, just hummed and hung up the phone.
In retrospect, it was not a matter of course for him to receive money.
When he did these things, he probably didn't remember the vow he made at the school gate to give me the best life possible.
At this time, looking at him with strange eyes, I almost got out of anger:
"Didn't you come to me for money, not to ask for my sympathy? Even if you don't, I see that you are seventeen years old, but you are still unable to take care of yourself, and you are only waiting for the handouts of others, and you want to get something for nothing. Xu Guang, I sympathize with you and pity you!"
My words made him lose face.
He stepped forward in a fit of rage and pushed me to the ground, spraining my foot.
Then he walked away amid the denunciations of many students around him, without looking back at me.
A few days later, the school announced the list of grantees, and Xu Guang's name was prominently listed.
I thought his backbone was so hard that he would rather work part-time outside of class, but he still couldn't let go of that "stinky money".
6
I started my high school career.
Xu Guang was in the second class, and I was in the sixth class.
The school flower who had a deep influence on Xu Guang has not yet appeared, and should appear as a transfer student in the later time.
Xu Guang still shows the demeanor of a top student, and he ranks in the top three in the whole class in the return exam. Teachers of various subjects couldn't help but be overjoyed, and said that as long as they maintained such a level, Tsinghua University and Peking University would not be a problem.
And because I was reborn with my memory, I had already forgotten about my middle school knowledge in the process of struggling to make ends meet in my previous life, and I even ranked first from the bottom of the whole level in the first mock test, which was ten points less than the total score of the penultimate one.
In the next few tests, although there will be improvement, it is not half a star away from Xu Guang.
I have limited qualifications, so I can only ask a stupid bird to fly first, memorize more, and memorize more.
In addition to this, I also got a work-study job where I was serving meals to students in the school cafeteria. I can have 300 yuan a month, and I also include two meals.
On weekends, I was out looking for other part-time jobs such as handing out flyers and playing dolls.
Xu Guang never spoke to me again.
One day he came to my window with a plate to cook, and I heard the person next to me ask him, "Is this your sister? 」
He only glanced at me, and said lightly, "It's just a distant relative. 」
I smiled in silence.
Distant relatives.
That's how he defined my relationship with him when I didn't give him money.
I wish him that without me, a distant relative, he can go further in this life.
……
At the end of the first semester of the first year of high school, among the 300 students, Xu Guang was the third in the whole grade, and I was the 220th in the whole grade.
By the end of the second semester of my freshman year of high school, he was the second in the class, and I was the one hundred and fiftyth in the class.
The teachers and students in the school only knew that there was a Xu Guang, but they didn't know that there was Xu Yu, and few people knew that he and I were sisters and brothers.
To be honest, I'm not jealous of his excellence.
In this life, I will no longer provide him with education, and it is his own ability to maintain his excellence.
However, just over the halfway point of the first semester of the sophomore year of high school, new transfer students came to the school.
Because of the appearance beyond ordinary people, the entire campus is boiling.
7
Yes, the school flower is coming.
In our small eighteenth-tier city surrounded by an agricultural population, Wu Qian, the school flower, descended on our school like a movie star who strayed into the countryside.
Just like a black-and-white landscape painting suddenly turned into a colorful oil painting, the boys in the whole school who were tired of taking the exam were throbbing because of such a girl.
She also carries a violin with her, and every dusk, she can be heard playing the melodious sound.
Countless times, when I finished dinner at the cafeteria window and walked to the teaching building, I could see Xu Guang standing at the sports equipment by the playground, looking at Wu Qian in a daze.
The last time he looked at something he longed for with such eyes was when the neighbor next door cooked a big pot of pig's trotters for the New Year, and the fragrance was overflowing. He drooled with hunger.
Later, I had the cheekiness to ask for a piece of meat for him, and he ate it so much that his face was covered with lard.
He now has a crush on a girl as unattainable as a movie star, but I can't fight for him.
In my last life, I didn't wait for Xu Guang to tell me the exam results until the end of my sophomore year of high school, but I received a call from his homeroom teacher first.
It was the head teacher who told me that Xu Guang's grades plummeted because he fell in love with Wu Qian, and if he continued like this, he couldn't even pass the second book.
The second book is also an excellent academic degree for me, but now there are so many college students, and the second book is no longer competitive in society.
I was working as a female worker in the production line at the time, and I had been promoted to team leader.
When I resigned, my boss retained me, saying that if I kept my status for another two years, the company would hire me exceptionally, and I would only admit workshop directors with at least a bachelor's degree.
I was in a hurry to return to my hometown, and I didn't accept it.
At that time, I was still very naïve, thinking that as long as I was a hard-working screw, I would definitely be rewarded by God.
My vision limits my imagination.
I don't know how many lifetimes the difference between the screws that are nailed to the shovel and the screws that are used in the rockets.
And this gap cannot be made up by hard work alone.
Later, I worked even harder, and the opportunity to break through the limit of my diploma was never encountered again.