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My name is Zhao Haocheng, and I was twenty-three years old in 1986.
At that time, I started as an ordinary worker in a national paper factory, and then I was transferred to a machine repair workshop, where I learned to repair machines from a master master, and after three years of study, I finally became a mechanic.
Being able to become a mechanic is not only an increase in salary, but also a higher respect in the factory.
I only felt that after my label was changed, the young girls in the factory looked at me differently.
My partner Ah Bing and I often walk around the workshops, and we are always approached when there is any machine failure and circuit failure.
Therefore, sometimes we also play the role of electricians, for example, if there is a light bulb in the office that is broken, we are also asked to replace it.
After all, the machines and circuits in the factory are fine, and we are on standby, and sometimes we can play poker for fun.
But once busy, for example, there are several points in the factory that fail, then a few of our mechanics, they are all too busy, sweating, and sometimes it is not a day and a half to solve the problem.
There is a big difference between me and my co-workers.
They are all passable people, and they don't have big ambitions, but I want to learn from a senior, because this senior used to be a mechanic, and then slowly became the director of the mechanic team, and then promoted to the administrative staff of the office, and then became the deputy factory director.
This senior's surname is Lu, so we all call him Luchang, but he is very modest, saying that he is the deputy director of the factory in vain, and still hopes that everyone will call him Uncle Lu.
My parents at home know some of Uncle Lu's relatives, so only I dare to call him that.
And from the discussion of some elders, I learned that Uncle Lu is now the deputy director of our paper mill, but it is not simple at all, because it may be promoted.
Of course, this is not very likely.
But I always take Uncle Lu as a role model for myself, thinking that if I can perform actively and work diligently in the factory, maybe one day I can really get ahead like Uncle Lu, so that my parents and the people in my family will be proud of me.
However, I know very well that although my parents and Uncle Lu's relatives know each other, they only know each other after all.
If you really want to have any deep relationship with Uncle Lu, it is basically impossible. Even if it is during the New Year's holidays, someone sends cigarettes and alcohol to his house, he will be kicked out, and he will never accept these cigarettes and alcohol.
I don't have anything to do with my family, so I can't find any backers in the factory, which makes me only think, maybe if this continues, I can only be a mechanic for the rest of my life, and it is difficult to get promoted in the position.
My parents and relatives would talk about me whenever they got together for dinner during the Chinese New Year, and they were proud of me, after all, I was quite lucky to be able to enter this state-owned factory, and ordinary people who wanted to enter to become a formal worker did not want to enter.
What my relatives hope most is that I can gain a firm foothold in the paper mill, preferably to get a position, so that I can bring the whole family and make it easier for my cousins to find jobs in the future.
They also suggested to me that if I want to be promoted, there is actually a shortcut, that is, to see which leaders in the factory have daughters who are not married and want to find a partner, then I must seize the opportunity to see if I can climb the high branches.
Therefore, they told me not to fall in love casually in the factory, let alone find a random woman and get married hastily, after all, if I marry a daughter-in-law casually, I will lose this opportunity to climb the high branches.
When I heard these words from my relatives, I laughed and said nothing, I only felt that their words only had a certain reference value, but I still had to make my own decisions.
I don't necessarily have the opportunity to climb the high branches myself, and I don't have many opportunities to meet the daughters of those high-ranking people in the factory.
However, my relatives told me that she knew Uncle Lu, who was also a cousin of Deputy Director Lu, and that Uncle Lu had a daughter who had just finished her secondary school and was going to work in a paper mill soon, so she could introduce her to me.
As soon as I heard this, I thought to myself that Uncle Lu's daughter finished her secondary school, that is, she was nineteen years old, and I was four years older than his daughter.
But my relatives told me that she knew that Uncle Lu's daughter Lu Wanmei was very obedient and well-behaved, and her personality was very similar to mine, and she was relatively gentle and elegant, so if she introduced and facilitated it, maybe this could be done.
When my parents heard this, they became interested and hoped that the relative would help as much as possible, after all, if I could climb this high branch, then even if I could not get promoted in the paper mill, the job would be much more stable.
But I always thought that this thing was very unreliable, and my relatives didn't know whether it was true or false, it was like a joke and wanted to coax me.
So it didn't take long for me to almost completely forget about the incident mentioned by my relatives, and I don't know if Uncle Lu really has a daughter, who has just graduated from secondary school and wants to enter our paper mill, I just feel that this matter has nothing to do with me anyway.
However, I wanted to meet a suitable partner in the factory and fall in love, which was really not easy.
Most of the female workers I can meet are married, and some are in a relationship.
So I started to get a little anxious, even though I was only twenty-three years old.
One day after that, because of work, I went to the main building of the factory with my partner A Bing, and went to the accounting department there to do the troubleshooting and rectification of circuit faults.
At that time, Ah Bing and I only thought that there were a few accountants here, all of whom were women, and maybe we mechanics would ignore them, because they were usually pursued by many male workers in the factory and were praised very arrogantly.
But what I didn't expect was that there was a leader of the accounting team, her name was Zhang Yun, and everyone called her Sister Yun, but she was quite good to us.
In fact, from the first time I saw her, I already had a deep impression of her, I only felt that her white face like snow was quite full and neat, and her facial features were very beautiful, so she was really a mature beauty sister.
But I also thought that she might have a partner, or even get married, so how could she get my turn? After all, she looked a little older than me.
Sister Yun poured me a cup of hot water after I did the troubleshooting work of those lines, and asked me if I was sweating a lot, and if I needed to wipe my sweat, she could get me a towel.
I only felt that her two words of concern made me quite warm, and also made me feel her humility and approachability.
After all, she is the team leader here, and she works in the factory department, and her level is much higher than mine.
However, she was so considerate and caring for me and Ah Bing, the two mechanics, and revealed that she did not ask for anything in return, without any purpose, and was completely from the heart.
In this short half hour, I only felt that she was a very caring eldest sister and was full of good feelings for her.
I said to her: "Sister Yun, if you encounter any wiring problems here, the lights are broken, or if you encounter any similar problems at home, you can find me, and I can help you solve them!"
Immediately after that, I tentatively asked her if her husband was also in the factory, and if she lived with him and his husband couldn't repair the electrical circuits, then I could help.
Zhang Yun lowered her head, smiled shyly, and said that she had no husband and no partner.
At this time, several female accountants seemed to see what it meant for me to talk to Zhang Yun like this, so they all jokingly said:
"It's hard for our team leader Zhang to chase, so she doesn't have a husband now, don't you want to chase our team leader?
At that moment, Zhang Yun and I both blushed, only feeling quite embarrassed and embarrassed, and Zhang Yun immediately told the female accountants to be serious and not to make such jokes.
When I left the accounting office with Ah Bing, Zhang Yun kept seeing us off from the back until we walked out the door.
I turned around and said goodbye to Zhang Yun, only to feel that her big eyes with tenderness were looking at me, which made my heart beat more than once, just thinking, as a beautiful team leader of the accounting team, did she have a good impression of me, a mechanic?
I don't think it's likely.
Although I can roughly guess that Zhang Yun is about the same age as me, and it is also the age of talking about marriage, but since she can become the leader of the accounting team of the factory, her mate selection conditions are too good, and there are many male employees in the factory who pursue her, and even some are managers, how can she take a fancy to me?
However, in the next few days, I was thinking about Zhang Yun and me all day long, and I only felt that I was thinking about her as if I had been in her ecstasy, thinking about her all the time, thinking if I should muster up the courage to go to the accounting department to give her a flower, so as to show my love in public?
The probability of such a failure is quite high and will be known to the whole plant.
How ashamed am I? It is estimated that after Zhang Yun rejected me, she would not let me get close to her again, and I would no longer want to be an ordinary friend with her.
But at noon the next day, when I had lunch in the big canteen of the factory and went to turn on the water, I unexpectedly saw a cello-like figure not far in front of me, squatting, waiting for the hot water to fill the entire kettle.
At this time, there was no one around, and the employees went to rest after eating, I slowly walked forward, and when I saw the side of this beautiful shadow, I couldn't help but feel a heartbeat.
Because I recognized that this was Zhang Yun.
I really didn't expect that at this time, even if she was wearing a factory uniform, she still had such a wonderful body line, which was simply a smooth arc from top to bottom.
At this moment, Zhang Yun seemed to feel that someone was looking at her from behind her, so she turned her head in surprise and found that it was me, and she laughed.
I immediately stepped forward and asked her, "Team Leader Zhang, are you fetching water?" Do you need me to help you carry it back?"
Zhang Yun heard that I was so enthusiastic to help her, she smiled, then shook her head, and said no, but she is now making hot water, in fact, she is helping an elderly female worker in the factory to do this, this grandmother, is over eighty years old, and has difficulty moving, so she has to help this grandmother often.
When I heard this, I thought to myself that Zhang Yun was an elderly person in the help factory, so I should go with her to see if I could help.
Eventually, Zhang Yun and I walked side by side to the old staff dormitory building in the factory, and came to one of the single dormitories.
There is a lonely grandmother who has not worked in the factory for many years, but she has still been resettled and lives here alone, but her son and a daughter are not with her, so her life is quite difficult.
But Zhang Yun often came here to help her, so she was very moved, and she no longer felt so lonely.
When I saw Zhang Yun pick up the broom and want to clean the old man's dormitory, I immediately stepped forward to help, and worked hand in hand with Zhang Yun, and the old man kept thanking me and Zhang Yun.
After a while, the old man fell asleep on the bed, and Zhang Yun and I smeared grease stains on her kitchen, and the two of us were very close, sometimes their heads touched their heads, and they immediately shrank away in embarrassment and shyness.
When Zhang Yun was sleeping soundly in the old man's house, she tiptoed and quietly stepped forward, came to the position next to the bed, helped the old man cover the quilt, and arranged the quilt quite neatly.
At that moment, I always looked at every detail, I only felt how much the love revealed by Zhang Yun's every action touched my inner soul, and I only felt that if I could have such a other half, then how happy I should be, even if I was old, I could get such a care.
In just one hour, I not only talked to Zhang Yun a lot, but also cleaned up together, and also did very charitable things, so I unconsciously fell in love with Zhang Yun.
In the process of sending her back to the main building of the factory, I couldn't help but ask her: "Team Leader Zhang, do you really have no object?"
When I asked Zhang Yun this question, Zhang Yun was also short of breath and nervous, she turned her head and looked at me with a smile, as if she wanted to know, did I ask her this question, was it interesting to her and wanted to pursue her?
She replied breathlessly: "Not really, how I wish there was a young male worker of my age in the factory, who would chase me, no matter what job he was in, I would like to associate with him and talk about it." ”
Then she stopped and faced me.
And she looked at me with expectant and somewhat shy eyes, as if she was eager for me to say something to her at this moment, so that my relationship with her could take a step forward, not just an ordinary co-worker relationship with the factory.
At that moment, I didn't know why, I wanted to stop talking, I had a thousand words in my heart, and I wanted to pour out all kinds of love and admiration for her in my heart, but I didn't dare to say it at all, and I was speechless for a while.
At this time, the afternoon work bell rang.
I glanced at the worn-out Seagull watch on my wrist, and Zhang Yun hurriedly told me that she had to rush back to the factory department, because she, as one of the team leaders of the accounting department, could not leave her job for too long and had to arrive at the post as soon as possible.
Then she turned around and waved goodbye to me as she ran, and I had to wave to her, regretting why I couldn't say those words in that crucial quarter of an hour, which might have taken only a few seconds.
In the end, because of my shyness and timidity, I couldn't express my love to her, so that my relationship with her could not go further.
After I went back, I thought hard for a few days, and decided to find another day to make it clear to Zhang Yun, even if she rejected me, I was willing.
However, at this time, something happened that surprised me quite a bit.
The relative who had said that she would help me make an introduction, she said that she had already agreed with Uncle Lu's relatives, and Uncle Lu also agreed to let her daughter come out to meet with me, so as to go on a blind date.
I was quite surprised by such a situation, because I always thought that the relative was just talking, but I didn't expect that she was telling the truth.
And my parents immediately told me what I need to pay attention to when I go to this blind date, and what to say and what not to say, after all, this blind date is too important to me.
I already have Zhang Yun in my heart, and there is only Zhang Yun, but I don't want to go on this blind date.
But since my relatives had already arranged it for me, and my parents had given her a benefit fee, I went.
At that time, when I met Uncle Lu's second daughter Lu Wanmei, I only thought that Lu Wanmei was not bad-looking, quite cute, but it just made me lack a little feeling.
But she seemed to like me very much, and only thought that I was very suitable for her eyes, and intended to keep dating me.
The next day, she passed a note to my machine shop through a female worker, saying that she wanted to ask me out for dinner.
I had no choice but to go, and after that dinner, she actually took me back to her house and asked me to meet her parents, and I really saw Uncle Lu, the deputy factory director, for the first time outside the factory, and I only felt that he was much more enthusiastic about me than usual, after all, I was talking to his second daughter.
And Uncle Lu thinks that as a mechanic, I am very similar to him back then, he only thinks that I also have the potential to be promoted all the time, so he is very optimistic about me.
That night, I came home with a really mixed feeling.
I have always regarded Uncle Lu as my idol and role model, and now I have the opportunity to fall in love with his second daughter, that is, I may be able to become his son-in-law, not only will I have a great future in the factory, but I will also get the guidance of his father-in-law, isn't this what I expected?
However, I know very well who the person I like in my heart is, and I have never had that heartfelt feeling for Lu Wanmei, and I only feel that her personality, as well as her inside, is not suitable for me.
I always think in my heart that the person who is really suitable for tying the knot with me is Zhang Yun.
However, I don't have confidence in myself, I just think that Zhang Yun will really look up to me and accept me as her object, so as to marry me?
I was thinking about this at work, and my partner, Ah Ping, seemed to see that I had something on my mind, so he asked me to share with him what I was thinking.
I talked to him about everything, and finally told all the emotional entanglements in my heart, hoping that he could give me a reference for me to make a decision.
After listening to my words, Ah Bing said to me with a smile that he actually felt that Zhang Yun had a good impression and intention towards me, so I might as well bravely confess to Zhang Yun to see if Zhang Yun, as an accounting team leader, would accept me as a mechanic, if Zhang Yun refused, then I would choose Lu Wanmei.
If Zhang Yun accepts, then I should be brave enough to love what I love, Lu Wanmei's conditions are so good, it is very simple for her to find another partner.
After listening to what Ah Bing said to me, I nodded, and I just felt that he made a lot of sense.
Finally, in the evening of the same day, the factory had already rang the bell for the end of work, and I hurried to the door of the main building of the factory department, where I stood and waited for Zhang Yun to get off work.
As a result, Zhang Yun appeared half an hour later.
When she saw me standing in front of the factory department, she was quite surprised, but her eyes were shining, and she seemed to have heard some rumors in the factory, knowing that I might be in love with Lu Wanmei now.
In the end, I told Zhang Yun that I had something to talk to her about, and I just wanted to find a secluded location and the two of us could talk clearly.
She and I came to some unoccupied lawn location, and the two of us were facing each other.
I noticed that the way she looked at me at this moment was different from the past, she seemed to feel a lot of emotion, and she also sighed and sighed in pain.
She actually spoke before me and said to me: "I heard some people in the factory say that you talked to the second daughter of Deputy Director Lu, is it true?"
After saying this, her eyes were full of light, and she seemed to be about to burst into tears.
I immediately shook my head and said to her, I haven't thought about it yet, because I have actually fallen in love with another person in my heart, if this person also loves me, then I will make it clear to Lu Wanmei, so that Lu Wanmei can find another partner to fall in love.
When Zhang Yun listened to my words, she was immediately nervous and cramped, her chest kept rising and falling, and she asked me, who is the person I fell in love with.
I stepped forward and plucked up the courage to tell her that I actually had very strong feelings for her, and if she had feelings for me, then I would deal with her, as long as she didn't dislike me as a mechanic.
Zhang Yun burst into tears after listening to my breathless words, and said to me that she had been waiting for me to say such a thing, and now that it was finally time, how could she dislike me as a mechanic, because she already knew me very well, knew that I was also a loving person, she loved my heart, and did not care about my position and other conditions.
Eventually, one day after me, I asked Lu Wanmei out and let her know that I was actually in love with a lesbian in another factory, a team leader in the accounting department, so I couldn't fall in love with her, I just hoped that she could find a better partner.
Lu Wanmei cried at that moment, turned around and ran.
By the next day, my parents, my relatives, and everyone in my family seemed to be puzzled and saddened by my decision, and only felt that I had a good opportunity to be the son-in-law of the deputy factory director, but now, I missed it in vain.
Ignoring the pressure they put on me, I have made up my mind to love what I love without regrets.
In the end, my parents couldn't help me and agreed to my marriage with Zhang Yun.
Zhang Yun and I have been husband and wife for decades, and I only feel that it was not wrong for each other to choose each other at the beginning, after all, she and I really love each other, not because of some external reasons, or for the sake of interests and job promotion.
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