I am a person who is not confused, I have worked in the system for most of my life, and I have not been promoted, but I live a very comfortable and nourishing life.
When I was young, I graduated from a domestic 211 college (however, at that time, there was no such thing as 985 and 211). After graduation, most of my classmates went to the railway bureau and the engineering bureau, and my employment was not smooth at that time, and I did not sign back to the provincial capital Taiyuan, so I listened to my parents' advice and returned to the small county town and entered the system.
At that time, civil servants and public service personnel were used and treated the same, and there was no clear distinction as it is now. When I was young, I wrote well, and I have been writing materials in the office for many years, but fate is always wrong, and I have not been promoted, so I have come all the way.
When I realized that my career status was obviously not as good as that of a civil servant, I was over 35 years old and had lost my qualification for the exam, so I had to "survive" without being salty. I have wanted to be promoted to a career associate countless times, and then transferred to become a civil servant, but the reality is that there are too few positions, and we don't have that strength or background, so we can't get our turn every time.
The first time was more than 10 years ago, the leader made a clear distinction between promotion and work, promotion is promotion, work is work, two different things, nothing to do with each other, later, the leader made 40 million, sentenced to 18 years, went to prison, and has not come out yet.
The second time is in recent years, and people's conditions stipulate that as long as the honors of recent years are not counted, the previous ones are not counted, and they have won so many honors, they are not counted, and they cannot be allocated.
Policies are in the hands of the people who formulate them, and it is difficult for outsiders to understand what conditions they have.
After living for a long time and staying for a long time, I understand that the allocation is all drawn in advance, and if you are not in that circle, you don't need to waste your energy.
Seeing that there is no hope for a future in this life, there is really no way to make progress, and the children of the poor family have no background, so they have to accumulate honestly, and too many ideas are a kind of blind toss. However, fortunately, I am still used to reading and writing, so I have been reading and writing all the way, and I have not stopped for a moment, and I have "survived" for so many years. In reading and writing, although there are no major achievements, it is more than enough to earn an amateur salary, so although there is no improvement in work, but the amateur life is impressive.
I read a lot of books, one by one, circle with a pen, are page by page, line by line carefully read, my favorite is "Mao Zedong Anthology", 5 volumes, read countless times, every time I encounter a problem in life that cannot be solved, I try to find the answer from it, let me benefit a lot.
Secondly, the four famous works are also read and studied repeatedly. Comparing the life and fate of Lin Chong and Wu Song, and constantly comparing life experiences, is it an active action or a passive behavior to force Liangshan? Yang Xiong and Shi Xiu were originally good citizens of society, how did they go to Liangshan because of a woman, Pan Qiaoyun? From their life and destiny, they worked hard to find the password to change their fate and strive to live their own lives.
Third, the Book of Changes and Lao Zhuang also read carefully, so that they can gradually become open-minded, generous, and look at their own life experiences and live a better life.
In addition, when I was in my thirties, I also picked up my English again, wanting to better connect with the world, and after so many years, I never let go, listened to a lot of American dramas, and felt European and American culture. In reading, in the precipitation, let yourself gradually thicken, enrich, and be able to look at life from multiple angles and dimensions. Life is multi-faceted, the scenery is infinite, and the people who sit on the rostrum may not live the most nourishing life, and ordinary people have their own connotation and fun of life.
In reading and writing, it is gradually easier for me to see through the essence and truth of the world, and gradually I can no longer be obsessed with the appearance of things, but can see the most core things.
Maybe I realized my fate very early, realized that my mission in this life is no longer on the career, and I will not do much, after liberalizing the family planning policy, I quickly asked for the second child, and brought him up with my own hands, and has been closely by his side. From my second son, I saw greater hope, a greater continuation of life, the vitality of life, and even a deeper meaning of seizing the opportunity beyond genes.
Before going to elementary school, his son had completely passed the literacy level, and he was already reading the pinyin versions of "Zizhi Tongjian" and "Twenty-four History", and he could even take the sixth-grade language book that his eldest son used to read, and read it without stumbling.
At the same time, since the day he was born, he has been immersed in the atmosphere of English, listening to pure English and American dramas, and to this day, he has been listening to English for five years. Sometimes, looking at my youngest son, I seem to see myself back then, tireless and never slacking off.
In fact, the eldest son is already in graduate school and preparing to apply for a doctorate, because when he was young, he didn't take much care of him, and when he was young, he had less company, but fortunately, he struggled all the way over, was admitted to university, went to graduate school, and applied for a doctorate. If there's one thing that has had the biggest impact on the two children, it's the thick books at home. They find their future in the book and chase it all the way.
Fate is a very magical thing, when you exhaust your efforts to get, fate will not let you get it, and when you don't want to get it, fate will come to you unexpectedly.
When I was young, I couldn't suffer more leaks, and I couldn't finish the Qingqiu, and my biggest hope was to make progress in my career, however, life always made fun of you, and it was twenty years, no matter how hard you worked, you just couldn't reach it, no matter what, there was really no way.
When I was very early, I got up at half past four every day, read books and write articles without moving, this habit has been eight or nine years, as long as I don't go on business, as long as I am at home, I never stop for a day, every day until half past four, I will naturally wake up, more than an alarm clock. Even with such efforts, we still can't move forward half a step in our career.
When your fate falls into a deep pit and falls into a big pit, the more you struggle, the faster you fall!
As the years go by, I have considered going to work in the company, with an annual salary of more than 200,000 yuan, I did not hesitate to refuse, now I am used to this not too busy work, spend my spare time on reading and writing, although there is not much to get the results of hand, but it can always ensure that I live freely and comfortably, can take care of my son and the whole family, for fate, at this age, I no longer expect too much, I know which ones I am good at, which ones I can't do, I don't beg for everything to go wellEverything is as you like, just want to be in peace of mind, let the days flow away in peace!
Some people say that fate is a mistake, that is, a lifelong hatred, attacking people hates the drama the most, but he just became the wife of the drama Jiang Yuhan, Xue Baochai is most eager to raise his eyebrows, but Jia Baoyu is a monk, Murong Fu is eager to restore the glory of his ancestors, but Duan Yu is the successor of the Duan Kingdom in Dali, Yunnan as soon as he appears, Duan Yu wants to chase the beauty queen Yuyan from beginning to end, but Murong Fu has Wang Yuyan's desperate love at the beginning.
In this world, there are many truths that can't be explained, can't be explained, it took nearly half a lifetime of time, and finally woke up, maybe I really didn't do anything in my career, but I was writing, teaching my children, and finding the meaning of life in my spare time!
Life has never been perfect, and half-heartedness should be sufficient!