Preface
Many times we have a misconception about people with depression, thinking that most of them are moaning without illness, and they just have nothing to do. If you are really busy, you won't have time to be so pretentious.
In fact, often our thoughts will cause them a second harm, after all, depression is really a mental illness. If you don't know much, then listen to this girl's inner monologue!
The video originated from netizen @筱云Want to be happy!, invaded and deleted~
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This girl is 24 years old this year, and it is the year of her birth. She works in Shanghai and claims that "loneliness is my background, and low self-esteem is my cage".
Battling depression and anxiety for a long time, she released a video on the 27th of last month, which is an inner monologue about her depression, and many people have a more intuitive understanding of depression patients after watching it.
As a post-00s girl, she was originally an age of beauty and laughter, but she hadn't washed her hair for several days and appeared without makeup. She bluntly said that she used to have a habit of cleanliness, but now she has a clear sign of depression: getting lazier and lazier.
She didn't want to take a shower or wash her hair for many days, so it was difficult for her to face herself. And I obviously didn't do anything, but I felt very tired all day, my head was very heavy, my limbs were lazy and I didn't want to move, and I thought about it carefully, and I didn't have anything to be particularly sad about, just unhappy for no reason.
I always felt that my head was very heavy, and my head pressed against me and I had no strength. She told her friend about this performance, and her friend suggested that she see a psychiatrist, but she heard that she needed to be seen continuously for a long time, which would cost a lot of money, and she could not afford it, so she gave up.
She also heard people say that she was idle, and that finding a way to keep herself busy would improve the situation. Some people also told her: to go out more socialized and have more contact with people, she retorted that it was precisely because she didn't have the strength to do these things, she was also depressed, why things that are very common in the eyes of normal people, suddenly double the difficulty when you change to her.
She said that in fact, many people with depression are pretending to live like normal people, but in fact, only they know that they are forced to do all this, not their true appearance. She has even met a depressed teacher, and she is also working hard to live for the sake of students and education, which is really not easy!
What she is most confused about is what she is sad about, that is, the kind of sadness that has no reason is really very internal friction, she has also self-analyzed the sad points, she has tried to solve the causes of depression by herself, but it is useless, so she no longer thinks about these reasons now.
But I don't want to solve the problem at all, the problem still exists, tormenting myself. I often brainwash myself and say that I must go forward step by step, but in fact, I am living a numb life now, mental depression torments the body, and physical problems hurt the spirit, which is already a vicious circle.
She choked up and said that on the one hand, she felt that she was too weak, and on the other hand, she felt that it was really not easy for her to persevere all the way to the present, and finally she hoped that everyone could treat herself well.
I hope you can treat them well, friends, what do you think? Let's talk about it in the comment area~