Lin Sha:
It has been a few days since I received the letter, and I have no time to reply to it because it is a stressful time for the exam. I finished the modern literature exam yesterday morning, and I only picked up my pen today.
Because this modern literature is an oral exam, the review scope is wide, the burden is very heavy, and the accident is very large, you may review very well, but if you catch a question that you have prepared less than ideally, you may not answer well. There are forty general questions, and another ten "high-level" questions, which you can choose freely. I was lucky enough to draw one of the ten "high-end" questions, "Analyzing Tao Lan's Image", and I was very familiar with the novel "February", so I passed the exam very smoothly. In the last written exam of modern literature, the big question was "analyzing the multi-layered and complex character of Zhou Fuyuan", and I had already thoroughly understood "Thunderstorm", so this written exam was also very smooth. The dictionary you sent me at the beginning of the semester also played a big role in my study of modern literature, and I would like to thank you for my help in getting a "5 point" in this exam.
The score of political economy has not come down, there may be a question that is not answered very well, it is estimated that six or seven points will be deducted, and the day after tomorrow will have to be archaeological to replace Chinese, the result is uncertain, it depends on the foundation of ancient literature, and I am afraid that a day or two of assault will not be of much use.
You can't go back to Harbin during the summer vacation, and you can't see the "summer in Harbin" anymore, but in fact, there is really nothing in this "summer in Harbin," but the family is afraid that they will miss you! It doesn't matter whether we can meet face-to-face, we haven't seen each other for a long time, and it is beneficial to talk about what we have seen and heard, and to exchange some ideas, and there is no need to talk about the issues that have already been understood by both sides.
Although I am not afraid of others understanding me, I don't want to know anyone else, I have been in college for two years, I feel more and more that the ocean of knowledge is endless, I am interested in any subject I study, as long as I come into contact with it, I will quickly fall in love with it, I feel more and more that the search for knowledge, climbing the peak of literature, this is enough to make my life infinitely happy, why should I pursue those who should not belong to me?
The reason why I tell you all my thoughts is actually one purpose, that is, to tell you that I have long since stopped asking for troubles, and that your good wishes for me have actually become a reality: I am happy.
We will leave the school in a few days, if you need my help, please write to my home, if you have nothing to do, you don't have to waste time and ink, our school will start on August 27th, and we will talk about it then!
Have a great summer!
Ji Xiaodong
1981. 7. 14
Ji Xiaodong:
I received your letter two days before my departure, thank you for your holiday greetings.
I have been coming to the aviation pre-school to experience life for a week, and the three words "tight, tired, and bitter" can summarize the situation here, and I take classes with female flight students all day long, with the same amount of exercise. Not only is it a stress, but it is also a danger. I didn't dare to do it, and I was afraid that I would be too backward, so far my "hanging ladder" turn has not been able to pass, but fortunately, I finally persevered, even I couldn't believe it, because there were very few people who persevered. I can't even get into bed at night, and I can't cry when I want to. It's good in the next paragraph, it's time to visit, experience, and act in some small plays, and I'll go back to school on October 7th, it's really stupid! Helpless, I've just been transferred to the first class of 79., and I always have to show a little bit. I really hate "students", but I still have two years to graduate.
It seems like this was the same time last year, and I received your first letter. Wouldn't you be bored that we were still corresponding, a year later?—— could you tell me about your girlfriend, I can't imagine what she looks like and what's inside. By the way, I must state that I have no ill intentions, and I would love to know her when I have the chance, and I hope we all become friends. I beg you not to say what specific letter you have written to me, and I'm afraid you won't say it, anyway, I hope you remember my "request", which seems to appear for the first time in my letter, right?
To tell you the truth, I hope and believe that you will be happy! In the light of the established facts, I can tell you that you have taken the right step! I sincerely wish you well. As for your request for a photo in your diary, I think it's okay, I guess it's a burden for you now. Feelings, desires, are just momentary impulses, when the feelings are filled, you may feel that your past words and deeds are ridiculous, do you say yes? I think so, please don't think there is any blame in it, no. I only believe in people, everyone is like this, I don't believe that feelings can exist forever and passionately.
- I say again, your choice was right, it's not that I'm comforting you, I'm really not worthy of you, you're a good man among young people, and you'll be miserable with me, and I won't, it's impossible to grant your plea. "A person knows everything only herself" I seem to have said this, remember? "I don't want to know others, I don't want people to know me" and this sentence, you won't forget, but you don't necessarily understand its meaning at the time. My emotions, my mood is very bad (don't look at everything on the surface) you can't accept. At the same time, it does not meet my requirements. This is my last truth, and as such, you should celebrate who you are today.
Regardless of the facts, I have always had a lot of respect for you, respect for your personality, letters, everything, and hope that you, like me, would better burn this letter, okay?
Good luck with your studies
Hold your hand!
Lin sha
1981. 9. 23 晚