A few years ago, my ex-wife and I were still a couple that everyone envied, and in those years, we worked together to weave a better future.
However, the trivialities and contradictions of life gradually eroded our relationship, until the day after my betrayal, my ex-wife released the cruel words when she divorced: "Without me, you are nothing." ”
At the time I was angry and dismissive, but now I have to admit that it has been fulfilled in me.
01
Thinking back to the time when we met, it seems like a beautiful dream. At that time, I was young and promising, with a successful career, and my ex-wife was a gentle, virtuous and understanding woman.
We admired each other, supported each other, and soon entered the palace of marriage. Although the life after marriage is ordinary, it is also full of warmth and sweetness. We plan the future together and look forward to the birth of our child, and everything seems to be beautiful.
However, as time goes on, the stresses of life begin to manifest themselves. I was busy with work and neglected to communicate with my ex-wife, which led to more and more misunderstandings and conflicts between us.
Gradually, I began to feel like our marriage was like a pool of stagnant water, without any waves. My feelings for my ex-wife have also slowly changed, from the initial enthusiasm to the later insipidity, and even began to get bored.
That's when I met a woman. She was young, pretty, and full of energy, very different from my ex-wife. We soon fell in love, and I was so enchanted by her tenderness that I couldn't help myself.
I thought I had found a new love and could start my life all over again. However, I didn't realize that this extramarital relationship was the trigger for the breakdown of my marriage.
02
My ex-wife soon found out about my betrayal, and she was angry and heartbroken and decided to divorce me. On the day of the divorce, she let out the cruel words: "Without me, you are nothing." "I just thought she was venting and didn't really understand what she meant.
After the divorce, I was immersed in the joy of love, thinking that leaving my ex-wife, I could start a new life with my new love, but the reality gave me a resounding slap in the face.
I found that after leaving my ex-wife, I became so busy dealing with the chores of life that I couldn't fit into one's life at all. At work, I also made frequent mistakes due to mood swings, and my career fell into a trough for a while.
At this time, I gradually saw the truth of that extramarital relationship. The woman I once thought could bring me happiness was actually just using me as a spare tire to resolve my loneliness, and she didn't really love me. When I was in trouble, she didn't hesitate to leave me and find a new home.
03
Shakespeare once said, "Love is not true love if it is mixed with calculations that have nothing to do with itself." ”
My lover's desperate departure also made me understand that that extramarital relationship was nothing more than a game of false affection, and it brought me only pain and remorse.
So, I began to miss the gentleness and thoughtfulness of my ex-wife, and the good times we used to spend together.
These memories made me regret deeply, and that regret came like a tidal wave that made me unable to breathe. I regret not cherishing the good times we had, regretting ignoring my ex-wife's feelings, and even more regretting betraying our marriage.
Whenever night falls, I sit alone in front of the window, reminiscing about all the good things about my ex-wife, and those warm images play back in my mind like a movie.
Later, I began to try to contact my ex-wife, hoping to ask for her forgiveness, but she coldly refused each time. I know that my mistakes have caused irreparable damage, and that I am to blame for all this.
Author's Note:
Men who fall into extramarital affairs often feel that their minds are clear at first, thinking that they have really found the true love of their lives. But in reality, they are nothing more than ghosts and confusions.
In fact, they overestimated themselves, and they didn't know whether the extramarital affair in front of them was passion or true love, and finally regretted taking the wrong path when they were embarrassed. But many times, it is useless to regret it.