Drink wine alone and look back on the art journey
When night falls, it's quiet outside the window. The 62-year-old Zheng Xiaoning sat alone at the wine table, his eyes slightly confused, as if he had traveled through the long river of time and traced back to the starting point of his artistic career.
He slowly raised his glass and poured the amber liquid between his lips and teeth, and in an instant, the bitter taste slowly bloomed on the tip of his tongue like a flower. Zheng Xiaoning did not rush to fill another cup, but slowed down his movements, and his mind swept over the hardships he had traveled all the way.
He was born into an artistic family and has been immersed in the atmosphere of art since he was a child. Both parents work in the Baotou Repertory Theatre, and the home is permeated with the unique charm of the stage all year round.
Perhaps because of this, he was full of enthusiasm for his acting career, and finally after graduating from high school, he was fortunate to step into the door of the repertory troupe, and since then he has embarked on his journey in the entertainment industry.
Looking back on the time when he first entered the repertory troupe, Zheng Xiaoning couldn't help but show a self-deprecating and relieved smile. Due to his short stature and substandard Mandarin, he was not confident that he would be able to pass the audition.
However, the gods of fate favored him, and he was successfully selected, and won the favor of his teachers, so that he was recommended to study at the art college.
There, he spent six years honing his skills and laying a solid foundation for the theatre that paved the way for his future development. In 1980, he made his debut on the screen as an actor, opening a new chapter in his film and television industry.
Since then, Zheng Xiaoning has always devoted himself to the profession of actor, which can be called a "drama idiot". In order to perform every role well, he studied tirelessly, even at the cost of his life.
Looking back on the past, he had mixed feelings in his heart, his eyes dimmed, and he took a sip of wine, as if to dispel the melancholy in his heart.
A preliminary exploration of the art road
An unexpected opportunity completely changed the trajectory of Zheng Xiaoning's life. When he graduated from high school, he planned to pursue a career in the military due to his poor academic performance, but was strongly opposed by his parents.
Seeing that the road ahead was blocked, it was at this moment that he inadvertently glimpsed the recruitment notice of the Inner Mongolia Repertory Theatre.
With the mentality of giving it a try, Zheng Xiaoning resolutely signed up for the exam. Despite his thin stature and his Mandarin skills, he did not have high expectations of whether he would pass the interview.
However, the wheel of fortune turned again, and when the final audition list was announced, his name was prominently listed.
During these passionate years, Zheng Xiaoning joined the repertory troupe full of vitality and vitality as he wished, and so far, he has set sail on the colorful and star-studded performing arts road! There, he has not only won high praise from his mentors, but also received sincere recommendation to conduct more in-depth study and training in an art academy that is well-known in the industry.
To this day, recalling that experience, Zheng Xiaoning is still full of excitement and emotion!
Career chapters
Zheng Xiaoning, an excellent actor with a resolute and upright appearance, has had a smooth journey in his career, and his masterpieces have been frequent. Because of his unique appearance and temperament, military-themed film and television works have thrown olive branches to him, and he has become a representative figure of this kind of theme.
Looking back on the past, popular masterpieces such as "Outstanding Encirclement" and "Snake Valley" are all Zheng Xiaoning's outstanding masterpieces in the field of military dramas. The images of those brave and fearless soldiers who fought bloody battles created by him are deeply imprinted in the hearts of the audience.
His superb acting skills and awe-inspiring temperament are unforgettable.
In recent years, Zheng Xiaoning has been involved in film and television dramas of various themes. Among them, the role of "Ah Weng" played in the TV series "East Palace" and the sinister and cunning villain "Wang Zheng" in "Sweeping the Black Storm" are the most eye-catching.
In "East Palace", he plays Ah Weng as a loyal, brave, upright and frank general, and every time he charges bravely and fearlessly, the audience's blood boils. However, in the drama "Sweeping the Black Storm", he successfully subverted his previous image and played a greedy and cunning gang leader, whose superb acting skills won warm applause from the audience.
No matter what role he plays, Zheng Xiaoning is always able to play with ease and show excellent acting skills. His handsome and chic appearance, deep and solid acting skills, and magnetic deep voice have made him widely loved among the actors of the "Uncle Circle".
The good reputation accumulated over the years has created his high reputation in the entertainment industry today.
Concentrate on research and pursue the ultimate
Zheng Xiaoning treats every role wholeheartedly, which can be called a "drama idiot". In order to interpret the role vividly, he never hesitates to pay hard sweat.
In the drama "Save Her", he played an arrogant and invincible gangster character. Although this is only a trivial supporting role, there is a scene where he needs to turn the cigarette in his mouth 360 degrees before spitting it out, as a way to highlight the character's personality traits.
This technique may seem mundane, but it is actually extremely challenging. Because during the operation of flipping a burning cigarette in the mouth, it is inevitable that the mouth will be accidentally burned.
The director at the time once advised him that if he really couldn't complete it, he didn't have to force it, but Zheng Xiaoning resolutely decided to present this action perfectly.
So, during that time, he practiced the flipping action repeatedly through the burning cigarette, so that his mouth was burned with countless blisters. After unremitting efforts, he finally mastered the art and displayed extremely stunning visuals on stage.
An even more thrilling scene took place on the shooting site, in order to explain the complex psychological state of a suicide before his death, he even almost paid the price of his life. According to the script, when the train approaches, he should immediately evacuate 100 meters away to ensure his own safety.
But who would have expected that at the moment when the train was about to crash into him, Zheng Xiaoning suddenly jumped up and successfully avoided it. If the response is half a minute slower, the consequences will be unimaginable. Although he ended up presenting a breathtaking effect, he was also severely criticized by the director for it.
This is his passionate and unwavering love and dedication to the theater career.
Emotional twists and turns
When it comes to love life, Zheng Xiaoning's life journey is like a tragicomedy full of sorrow. Among them, the most unforgettable thing for him may be the "first love" that he has been silently in love with for more than 20 years, but finally missed.
Zheng Xiaoning's parents and Sarina's family are both senior employees of the Baotou Repertory Theatre. The residences of both families are housed in the same apartment complex and are only a few flights of stairs away.
Since childhood, Zheng Xiaoning, Sarina and her sister have been inseparable and have nothing to say. After school, they always meet to play together, and whenever they encounter something new, they are always the first to share it with each other.
Even the homework was studied by the three of them until three o'clock in the evening.
The relationship between the two families is so close that it is as if they have become a family. Sarina and her sister regard Zheng Xiaoning as if they were brothers, but Zheng Xiaoning has a deep affection for this lively and lovely Sarina.
However, due to his young ignorance, he failed to realize that this emotion was actually "love".
By the time he gradually understood his intentions, Sarina had already made a marriage contract to her current husband, Pan Jun.
Since then, Zheng Xiaoning has been immersed in a fiery and deep crush, and his affection for Sarina has lasted for more than 20 years. The road of fate in life is always tortuous and bumpy, unpredictable and uncontrollable.
Although he was always by Sarina's side, he never confessed his deep feelings, and in the end he could only let this "first love" dissipate quietly, missing this precious emotion that he was not aware of at the time.
It wasn't until he was 39 years old that Zheng Xiaoning fell in love with an actress named Lin Haihai for the first time and got married. However, due to the long-term separation of the two, their married life was exhausted, and in more than 1,000 days, they spent less than 100 days together, and finally ended in divorce.
This setback on the road of love once again proves his serious mistakes in emotional management.
Both marriages ended in failure
Although the loss of the opportunity to spend the rest of his life with Sarina made Zheng Xiaoning regret it for life, fate did not completely close the door to him. In 2001, during the filming of a passionate military-themed TV series, he met actress Lin Haihai, who was 11 years younger than him.
The two performed many wonderful rivalry scenes in the play, and over time, a deep emotional bond gradually developed between them.
Zheng Xiaoning finally mustered up the courage and launched a passionate pursuit offensive against Lin Haihai. As a woman with a strong sense of tradition, Lin Haihai regards marriage as the ultimate destination in life.
At this time, Zheng Xiaoning had also entered the marriageable age, so the two naturally entered the sacred hall of marriage, however, when they hurriedly entered the palace of marriage, they did not fully foresee the challenges brought by some practical factors.
One of the most critical problems is that the two are in a different place. At that time, Zheng Xiaoning still adhered to the post of Guangxi Repertory Troupe, while Lin Haihai belonged to the Guangzhou Repertory Troupe.
Although the two cities are not far apart, frequent encounters have become a luxury, and after each brief reunion, they have to return to work, and the long-distance lifestyle of a long-distance relationship quickly puts their relationship to a severe test.
In addition, because both parties regard their careers as an important part of their lives, they are unable to devote themselves to family life. Zheng Xiaoning's long-term absence, as well as Lin Haihai's dissatisfaction with this kind of married life in two places, caused the marriage to break down in just three years, and finally ended in divorce.
Zheng Xiaoning's marriage story did not end there. Ten years have passed, and in 2011, he ushered in his "second spring". This time, the partner he chose was Huang Yuli, a woman who was 15 years younger than him.
Stepping into the palace of marriage again, Zheng Xiaoning is looking forward to getting rid of the regrets of the past and opening a new chapter of life full of happiness and beauty.
Unfortunately, this marriage inevitably came to an end. Although in the second year after marriage, Huang Yuli brought a lively and lovely son to Zheng Xiaoning, and together they formed a warm and happy family of three.
However, Zheng's dilemma has not been substantially improved – he is still overly immersed in the busyness of his career and finds it difficult to devote himself to family life.
In the end, Huang Yuli made a decision that shocked everyone - divorce! For Zheng Xiaoning, this is undoubtedly a heavy blow to the failure of his second marriage in his life.
The collapse of two marriages filled his heart with regret and pain again, and he hoped to find new happiness by marrying again, but he could not break free from the shackles of fate.
Facing the sunset red of life alone
Now, Zheng Xiaoning, who has reached the age of sixties, has to face the sunset red of life alone. Looking back on the long years he has passed, he can't help but feel emotional. Whether it is on the road of his career or in the ocean of emotions, he has experienced countless baptisms of wind and rain.
On the stage of his career, Zheng Xiaoning can be called an out-and-out winner. Influenced by a strong artistic atmosphere since childhood, he finally stepped into the dazzling entertainment industry with his unremitting efforts and a hint of luck, and became a well-known actor loved by the audience.
The many roles he created, such as "Ah Weng" in "East Palace" and "Wang Zheng" in "Sweeping the Black Storm", made his reputation spread throughout the entertainment industry, and the audience praised his superb acting skills and handsome and chic appearance, making him widely popular among the actors in the "Uncle Circle".
However, in the emotional world, Zheng Xiaoning has always endured endless torture. From the young and ignorant Sarina, to the gentle and virtuous Lin Haihai, to the tenacious and brave Huang Yuli, his road to love is full of endless regrets and losses.
More than 20 years ago, he fell in love with Sarina at first sight, but because of his dullness, he missed the opportunity to spend the rest of his life with her, and the subsequent two marriages also ended in failure.
Although he met Lin Haihai during the filming of the TV series and quickly entered the palace of marriage, due to long-term separation and career development contradictions, this marriage finally broke down.
In just three years, they chose to divorce.
Time flies, time flies, and 10 years have passed in a blink of an eye. Zheng Xiaoning once again mustered up the courage to step into the marriage hall, tied the knot with Huang Yuli, who was only 15 years old, and had a son.
However, due to long-term neglect of the family, Huang Yuli couldn't bear it after all, and resolutely filed for divorce.
Now, at the age of 62, Zheng Xiaoning has to face the sunset of life alone. Although he has made brilliant achievements in his acting career, the loneliness and regret in his heart have always lingered.
The Sarina who once made him fall in love is now someone else's wife, and the breakdown of two marriages has deprived him of the possibility of having a warm family.
However, Zheng Xiaoning was not depressed because of this. He remains positive and devotes himself to a new business – promoting his home-brewed food and wine through live webcasts.
At the same time, he also maintains close contact with his former best friends and shares the good times of his old age, although the company of his relatives is no longer there, Zheng Xiaoning strives to enrich his life in order to overcome the loneliness in his heart.
Even in the twilight of his life, Zheng Xiaoning still never gave up his persistent pursuit of happiness. He knows that balancing career and emotion is not an easy task, but he is still relentlessly exploring his own path in life.
Despite many regrets and losses, he always firmly believes that as long as he maintains an optimistic and enterprising attitude, one day he can find his own happiness.
Looking back on Zheng Xiaoning's life process, it is not difficult to see that his life can be described as ups and downs. On the one hand, he has made remarkable achievements in his acting career and has become a well-known actor in the hearts of the audience, however, in his love life, he has been repeatedly frustrated, experienced two marriage breakdowns, and even missed the opportunity to grow old together with his first love Sarina.
This dilemma of finding it difficult to balance career and relationship is actually a common problem faced by many people. Should we devote ourselves to our careers or should we devote more energy to building our families? This is undoubtedly a difficult choice.