As soon as Jia Pingwa entered the hospital room, he was called by the nurses with a series of shouts, "235!Where is 235?" The unfamiliar string of numbers made him unable to adapt for a while.
In the past, he was a famous writer Jia Pingwa, with a distinct personality and status. Now in this new environment, he is just an anonymous "Sick Number 235".
Jia Pingwa frowned, and there was a little resistance in his heart. He believes that he is not a string of cold numbers, but a unique individual with style and characteristics. But when he thought about it, it suddenly dawned on him: after all, a name is just a symbol, representing identity.
In the past, his status symbol was "Jia Pingwa", but now it has become a string of numbers in the hospital. In this unfamiliar environment, he had to adapt to this change with a fresh mindset.
Jia Pingwa looked around and saw that the small courtyard surrounded by an iron fence was full of life. He was like a prisoner, confined to this small space, and even the pedestrians and birds outside seemed more free than he was.
When a curious little boy looked in, he was hurriedly pulled away by his mother, who explained, "This is where infectious disease patients are held!" Even under the shelter of hospitals, deep-seated prejudices cannot be eliminated.
Jia Pingwa couldn't help but ask himself, why did he bring himself into such a mysterious and discriminatory place? Since everyone discriminates against us patients, it is better to simply blend in with them and spit and yawn with them.
But even so, he was still trapped in this small courtyard for treatment.
At this moment, Jia Pingwa's fellow patients introduced to him the details of life in this small space with an extremely careful attitude. They asked about the physical condition of the newcomers with concern and encouraged them to get rid of their negative emotions.
In this context of social discrimination, they have succeeded in creating a pure relationship that transcends identity and dogma, creating inner peace for Jia Pingwa.
Looking at the appearance of these patients caring for each other and helping each other, Jia Pingwa felt extraordinary humanistic feelings. This kind of precious warmth is something he rarely sees in his daily life.
He began to reflect that perhaps he should be more open to this unfamiliar environment and learn to embrace the new world with a friendly and tolerant attitude.
Stripped social roles
In the hospital ward, Jia Pingwa temporarily freed himself from the shackles of society and redefined his role in it. He is no longer a famous writer, nor a wife or daughter, but just an ordinary "sick number 235".
When people are relieved of those heavy social responsibilities, they can understand and care for each other with a broad mind.
Jia Pingwa deeply understands that in this small space that is isolated, everyone is equal. They are all working towards the same goal: recovery. Whether it's a person with the hepatitis B virus or a family member who doesn't have the disease, their common enemy is the disease.
Everyone takes medicine on time, lives according to the doctor's instructions, and fulfills their duties, as if they have become an orderly "physical and mental machine". Jia Pingwa calls it "spiritual", and everyone here is normal, even if they have not been diagnosed with the disease.
This kind of environment that transcends identity and dogma makes Jia Pingwa feel a warmth close to human nature. The mutual help between the patients is as sincere as comrades-in-arms, and he feels that he has finally gotten rid of the cumbersome social ties and regained the purest interpersonal care.
This kind of rare humanistic feeling is exactly what is missing in life.
However, when Jia Pingwa recovered and was discharged from the hospital, he returned to his complex social role. In the past, he was a well-known writer.
Now, he has recovered from his illness, but his friends and acquaintances around him have subtly changed him.
Jia Pingwa lamented that in the hospital ward, he temporarily got rid of those burdensome social identities and was able to rediscover himself. Getting rid of the shackles of family and occupation, people can understand and accept each other with a broader perspective.
This rare insight into human nature is the most precious experience he has missed in his daily life.
Insights into human nature from illness
When Jia Pingwa first learned that he was suffering from liver disease, the first thing he felt was rejection and loneliness. As his condition worsened, he seemed to be on the verge of being forgotten by society.
Even if friends do come to visit, most of them are because they don't know that he is sick. When Jia Pingwa confessed, his friends showed a timid attitude, and the originally unrestrained party disappeared in an instant.
Even his old acquaintances, who had always warmly invited him to the banquet, showed deep concern after learning that Jia Pingwa was suffering from liver disease. At the dining table, Jia Pingwa carefully completed the eating process, but finally heard the sound of glass breaking behind him, and his cutlery was thrown into the trash.
Faced with the discrimination and neglect of his friends, Jia Pingwa felt unprecedented loneliness and loneliness. He began to reflect on the fact that the respect he had received when he was healthy was now obscured by his illness.
People are full of fear and prejudice against diseases, and they see patients as terrible beings, and they don't even have the courage to get close.
Although his friends avoided him, in the selfless care of his family, Jia Pingwa experienced sincere family affection. In stark contrast to the neglect of his friends, his family's love for him is not afraid of the invasion of illness.
In order to ensure the safety of his family, he even did not hesitate to ask his wife to take a tough attitude and not let himself have any contact with his daughter.
With the support of his family, Jia Pingwa finally realized that the true connotation of family affection not only includes daily interactions, but also lies in the reliance of being able to lend a helping hand at critical moments.
He realized that although he had been tempered in the past, many of his emotional experiences were utilitarian, and the boundaries between family and friendship were not clear. It is only when we are physically and mentally traumatized that we can truly perceive the difference between the two and feel the wonder of human connection.
All this experience has made Jia Pingwa have a deeper understanding and understanding of life. In the hospital ward, he found that the so-called "healthy people" were full of indifference and rejection, while the sick people were filled with warmth and mutual help.
This made him rethink the nature of life.
Redefining "health"
In the small courtyard of the hospital, when a curious little boy looked in, he was hurriedly pulled away by his mother, who explained: "This is the place where infectious disease patients are held!" Even under the shelter of hospitals, deep-seated prejudices cannot be eliminated.
This kind of discrimination and fear of patients made Jia Pingwa feel that the haze in his heart became more and more intense.
However, in the hospital ward, Jia Pingwa's fellow patients treated him with love and understanding. They carefully introduce the details of life to the newcomers, care about the health of others, and do not discriminate against each other.
When a patient is healed and leaves, everyone else celebrates. When a new patient joins, they welcome them with the utmost kindness.
In this environment that transcends identity and dogma, Jia Pingwa feels an extraordinary humanistic feeling. He realized that the so-called "healthy people" are also experiencing all kinds of unspeakable "diseases".
Sometimes, these invisible "diseases" are even more difficult to cure than physical ones.
When people are freed from their heavy social roles, they are able to care for each other with a broader mind. This long-suppressed inner warmth is the most precious element missing in life.
In contrast, those who are considered "healthy" are also filled with all kinds of stress and anxiety, and as Marx put it, they are also "a collection of social relations".
In the hospital ward, everyone is working towards the same goal: recovery. They care for each other regardless of each other and comfort each other with sincere feelings.
As a result, Jia Pingwa deeply realized that the so-called "health" does not only refer to good physical condition, but also should include inner peace and love for life.
Even Jia Pingwa himself, after experiencing the test of life and death, has a deeper understanding of life. He realized that the key to facing life's challenges is to be able to accept his fears and resolve them with love and mutual help.
This insight into the nature of life is the most valuable gain that illness has brought him.
Humanity that pushes the boundaries of the box
In the small courtyard of the hospital, Jia Pingwa deeply felt the pain of losing his freedom. He was like a prisoner, trapped in this small space, isolated from the outside world.
When a curious little boy looked inside, he was hurriedly pulled away by his mother, who explained, "This is where infectious disease patients are held!" Even under the protection of hospitals, deep-seated prejudices cannot be eliminated.
In this regard, Jia Pingwa couldn't help but ask himself: Why did you bring yourself into such a mysterious and discriminatory place? Since everyone discriminates against us patients, it is better to simply blend in with them and foam and yawn with them.
But even so, he was still trapped in this small courtyard for treatment.
At this moment, Jia Pingwa's fellow patients introduced to him the details of life in this small space with an extremely careful attitude. They asked about the physical condition of the newcomers with concern and encouraged them to get rid of their negative emotions.
In this context of social discrimination, they have succeeded in creating a pure relationship that transcends identity and dogma, creating inner peace for Jia Pingwa.
Looking at the appearance of these patients caring for each other and helping each other, Jia Pingwa felt extraordinary humanistic feelings. This kind of precious warmth is something he rarely sees in his daily life.
He began to reflect that perhaps he should be more open to this unfamiliar environment and learn to embrace the new world with a friendly and tolerant attitude.
In the hospital ward, Jia Pingwa deeply realized that in this small isolated space, everyone is equal. They are all working towards the same goal: recovery.
Whether it's a person with the hepatitis B virus or a family member who doesn't have the disease, their common enemy is the disease. Everyone takes medicine on time, lives according to the doctor's instructions, and fulfills their duties, as if they have become an orderly "physical and mental machine".
This kind of environment that transcends identity and dogma makes Jia Pingwa feel a warmth close to human nature.
The mutual help between the patients is as sincere as comrades-in-arms, and he feels that he has finally gotten rid of the cumbersome social ties and regained the purest interpersonal care.
This kind of rare humanistic feeling is exactly what is missing in life.
However, when Jia Pingwa recovered and was discharged from the hospital, he returned to his complex social role. In the past, he was a well-known writer.
Now, he has recovered from his illness, but his friends and acquaintances around him have subtly changed him.
When Jia Pingwa first learned that he was suffering from liver disease, the first thing he felt was rejection and loneliness. As his condition worsened, he seemed to be on the verge of being forgotten by society.
Even if friends do come to visit, most of them are because they don't know that he is sick. When Jia Pingwa confessed, his friends showed a timid attitude, and the originally unrestrained party disappeared in an instant.
Even his old acquaintances, who had always warmly invited him to the banquet, showed deep concern after learning that Jia Pingwa was suffering from liver disease. At the dining table, Jia Pingwa carefully completed the eating process, but finally heard the sound of glass breaking behind him, and his cutlery was thrown into the trash.
Faced with the discrimination and neglect of his friends, Jia Pingwa felt unprecedented loneliness and loneliness.
He began to reflect on the fact that the respect he had received when he was healthy was now obscured by his illness.
People are full of fear and prejudice against diseases, and they see patients as terrible beings, and they don't even have the courage to get close.