01
As the sun set down, the golden afterglow sprinkled in the silent courtyard, I sat alone in the faded rocking chair, even if the sunset was good, I only felt desolate in front of me, because at this time, I was the only one in the house, and there was no one to talk to.
Ten years ago, I was a high-spirited man with a gentle and virtuous wife and a lively and lovely child, but a sudden extramarital affair brought it all to naught.
Now, in my old age, I have deeply realized what it means to be "old and helpless".
At that time, she and I met at a friend's party. She was young, beautiful, energetic, and very different from my wife.
We quickly fell in love, and I became so enchanted by her sweet words that I forgot about the responsibilities of the family and the dedication of my wife. In the end, I chose to divorce, abandon my wife and children, and start a new life with her.
However, the good times were short-lived. The novelty of an affair quickly wears off and is replaced by endless bickering and conflict.
That's when I realized that she wasn't as perfect as I thought, and it turned out that she also had her own temper and shortcomings. We began to point fingers at each other, and what was once sweet talk turned into sharp sarcasm.
It didn't take long for me to find out that she was with another man again.
I tried to salvage the relationship, but she said that only that man could give her happiness. Eventually, we broke up, and I lost her and my family.
02
In the days after the divorce, I lived a lonely and decadent life. I had no friends or relatives around me, only endless remorse and self-blame.
I used to think that an extramarital affair would bring me happiness, but I didn't expect it to be just a void. I began to reflect on my actions, but nothing could be done back.
The days passed quickly, and gradually, I am now entering my old age. My body was no longer as strong and energetic as it had been when I was younger, and I began to feel like I couldn't do a lot of things.
I used to think that even if I lost my family, at least I would have money to rely on. But over time, I discovered that money doesn't bring me real happiness and security. I began to feel empty and lost, not knowing where my future lies.
Whenever I see those happy families, they support each other and face the challenges of life together, I feel a deep envy and jealousy in my heart.
I used to have such a family, but I didn't cherish it. Now, I have to face the hardships and hardships of life alone.
03
I began to miss the old days, the home that used to be warm. I also miss my wife and children more and more, and I miss the warmth and love they once gave me.
I began to regret my decision and regret the mistake I had made.
However, regretting it is no longer helpful. Because, I can't go back in time, I can't have that home again. I could only face the reality alone, to face my loneliness and desolation.
The words "old and nowhere to go" are no longer an empty concept for me now. It's a true reflection of my life, a true feeling in my heart.
I used to think that I could pursue so-called happiness and freedom with the impulse and desire of the moment. But the reality tells me that true happiness and security still come from the warmth of family and the company of loved ones.
Nowadays, I no longer have the impulses and passions of my youth. I just wanted to find a sense of peace and belonging for the rest of my days, but I knew it was impossible.
04
This is a friend's real experience and feelings, and I don't want to comment too much on his experience, because in real life, there are really too many such examples.
I once read such a sentence, which is very useful:
"People have a long life, who can live better than whom? What you have done and who you have hurt will be confirmed by time in the end. ”
Yes, everything has its own cause and effect, life is fair for each of us, you gain something and you lose something.
Therefore, I hope you can cherish the original person who is willing to accompany you unconditionally, and don't abandon the original wife who is really willing to pay for you because of the novelty outside, and in the end end a wife is separated, the family is fragmented, and the end of loneliness in old age.