The last stubbornness of the post-70s: Even if you are unemployed, you must be arrogant and never bend your waist for five buckets of rice

The diary of an unemployed old driver: too much bitterness and helplessness, who to pay for?

The weather in April is often cloudy and rainy, which makes people feel very depressed. These days, I've been trying to adjust my mindset and try to climb out of the pain of being unemployed, but there's always a bad feeling that I can't live, can't die, and the worst thing I want. I'm afraid that I'm going to suffer from depression because of this, something that I shouldn't think about, and I try not to think about it, let alone regret anything.

However, I still want to objectively analyze the reasons why I am unemployed, because many friends, including my family, cannot understand why I have done a good job in that sanitation company, and I have never heard me complain about hardship, why did I suddenly stop working?

No matter what I do, I strive to do my best, and I never do it perfunctory. I remember when I was working in Zhuhai, a boss commented on me like this: I found that you are doing this kind of thing, either you don't do it, or you do it your best. This is an affirmation of my work attitude, and it can be regarded as meeting a confidant. I think this job loss has something to do with two women, both of whom are my partners, one more grumpy than the other, and both like to speak ill of others behind their backs.

The first woman in my car, surnamed Luo, was about the same age as me, she was taller and quicker to work. At that time, I was on the middle school shift, that is, I started work at 12 o'clock in the afternoon and worked until 9:30 in the evening. She lives in the countryside and told the newly appointed Captain Huang that she was a little scared on the way home alone at night, and asked me to drive her home, and she didn't take any detours anyway. Captain Huang acquiesced, and I didn't have anything to say.

In the days that followed, I drove a sanitation truck to Ms. Luo's door every day to pick her up and take her to and from work without complaint. The village road is narrow and crooked, and it is difficult to let cars come from the opposite side. We had to go home for dinner, and then we would go to collect the garbage, which meant that I had to run up to their village four times a day, and each time I was afraid that the car would be parked on the side of the road, lest I would not be able to get over.

After work, I sent Ms. Luo home first, and then drove to the company to unload the materials. I finished unloading, rinsed the car, and rode home on my electric bike. When I get home, it's often eleven o'clock at night. According to the company's regulations, the collector must go to the company with the driver to unload, and the washing of the car is completed by the collector. She didn't want to go, I didn't force it, and it didn't matter if I did more work.

However, I treated Ms. Luo like this, and she didn't seem satisfied. I thought, she met me, if she met other drivers, it would not be so good to her. She and I occasionally get into arguments, but it's all about anything else or something like work. The contradiction is mainly focused on the workload, if the company increases the number of outlets, she will be upset, saying that I should not accept it and should raise objections. I said that we still have to listen to what the leader says, no matter how many outlets he adds to us, even if he gives me half of the city, I will accept it, but we must also be able to accept it. If you refuse to do it before you do it, you can't say it. In a word: she hopes that there will be fewer outlets, more relaxed, I don't care, I am tired, and I have to do a good job.

Ms. Luo is a little like me, she will not be a leader, and she will argue with Captain Huang when she gets angry. I was afraid that there would be an accident when I often went to her door to pick her up, so I reported to Captain Huang that I didn't want to pick her up, but he didn't say anything. Later, Manager Zhu saw me several times, saw that I was going to the company to unload materials alone, and knew that I had to go into the village every day to pick her up, and ordered her to come to the company with the driver to unload the materials, and did not allow me to pick her up. So she got annoyed, resigned and left, and no one forced her to stay.

The area of the high-tech zone is so large, I have to drive more than 100 kilometers every day to collect materials, if there is no fast collection and transportation workers, I am afraid that I will not be able to collect. It doesn't matter if I'm tired, the daily work must be completed, just pick it up. Therefore, she really resigned, and I was still a little reluctant, so I pleaded with Manager Zhu and Captain Huang, hoping to keep her, and personally went to her door to call her and ask her not to leave. I said, it's still the same as before, you can go to the company with me occasionally to unload the material and make it for others to see. She agreed, but for other reasons, she didn't come.

The second collector with my car is surnamed Peng, who is a little smaller, in his early forties, and he is quite quick to work. said that Ms. Luo had a bad temper before, and this Ms. Peng had a bad temper, and suddenly she would kill you. Of course, it's all because of work.

In the past, Ms. Luo would not object to washing the buckets for that bullish company, and she cooperated well with me. Washing the buckets is not our job, but the company has to wash them every few days, and if they don't wash them, they won't let them enter the door to collect the water. I didn't start with the bucket, the driver in front of me did just that.

Ms. Peng, who had just arrived, listened to the encouragement of others and resolutely refused to wash the bucket with me, saying that this was not something we did. I said that if I don't wash it, I won't let people in, and she said that if I don't let it in, I won't let it in, that is, I won't wash it. I said, don't you wash it, you can sit in the car, I can wash it alone, and it won't take much time. As a result, I was washing the bucket, and she didn't leave, standing on the side and accusing me, calling me a fool. I didn't bother to pay attention to her and let her say a few words. In the end, she felt sorry for it, and washed a bucket or two. The next day, she was still angry and threw the bucket filled with water, but fortunately there was no complaint. On the third day, she still had gas in her stomach, so she deliberately stacked the buckets of water and pressed them down so hard that they couldn't pull them out. It's definitely not right to do this, and if you complain to the company, we can't explain it, but fortunately, people don't complain.

To be honest, I have read countless people, and it is really the first time I have seen a stinky person like Ms. Peng. However, after she lost her temper, she quickly acted like no one. She is younger than me, she turns her face like a book, and like Ms. Luo, she is not happy to increase her workload a little. Once, Captain Huang called me, and I drove her to answer, but she didn't speak. I said it must be a matter of work, and you ask the captain what is the matter. She is not like Ms. Luo, who just doesn't talk when she holds her mobile phone. As a result, Captain Huang called me to take a detour to help another driver collect an outlet, saying that the other party couldn't collect it. Captain Huang opened his mouth, how could I excuse myself, so I agreed. Unbeknownst to her, as soon as the phone hung up, she went crazy and scolded me for being a fool, and other people's outlets also promised to collect it. I said, the phone is in your hand, you can talk to Captain Huang if you don't agree, why don't you say it? She said that Captain Huang didn't call her again. In this regard, Ms. Peng is not as good as Ms. Luo. I couldn't answer the phone while driving, so I asked Ms. Luo to answer and she would answer, and I would argue with Captain Huang about things that were unreasonable. Ms. Peng didn't dare to offend the leader, she only dared to be angry with me.

Ms. Peng kept saying that her husband had bought a car and was running freight transportation, but in fact, I had known that her husband was working as a driver for us. She didn't want to say it, and I didn't poke it, so as not to embarrass her. She has such a bad temper and doesn't cooperate with my work, and her husband is still working in the company, and he is also a brother, so it is embarrassing to meet each other in case of a stiffen, so I told Captain Huang that it is better to change to a male delivery worker, and I don't want a woman, and I can't afford to serve it. You may know that my line is a bit long, and I have to wash the bucket, and no one wants to change it. Another problem is that her child, like my child, is only in the fourth grade of primary school, and it is definitely not possible to be alone at home at night, so she can only work the day shift (I have adjusted to the day shift, which used to be the middle class), and take care of the children at night. I told her that we get along well, we have children to take care of at home, and we can't go to the middle and evening shifts.

More than half a year passed, and there were several small quarrels, and the next day we were reconciled. I thought to myself, although Ms. Peng has a bad temper, she is also a bold person. She knows more about the company than I do, and I said you're a PHS who knows everything. Actually, I also know that she learned from her husband, who often eats supper with Captain Huang and has a good relationship. In addition, she and the other driver are quite compatible and often chat, so she knows a lot of things. Once, she suddenly said to me: Everyone says that you are a difficult person to get along with. I said, "I haven't been in contact with anyone, I've been in the high-tech zone, how do they know?" I said, "What is the point of belittling others and exalting oneself behind one's back?" Do you see whose bad words I have said behind my back?

From Ms. Peng's words, I could tell that she was very dissatisfied with my personality. She likes to talk about others behind her back, and she has a lot of mouths, which is quite annoying. In terms of speaking, I can drive my own car, and there is no need to argue with her. It's just that the two work together, and it's impossible not to talk and communicate. She said more than once that I was not as fast as other drivers, which meant that I was not good at driving. I was really annoyed when I heard it, the company repeatedly ordered me not to drive too fast, safety first, she even thought I was slow, it was really weird.

A few days ago, Captain Huang said to me that I have to go to the Xiacun Industrial Zone every day. I knew that the time would be very tight, and we might not be able to make it to lunch, but I still didn't raise any objections. Now, in order to cooperate with the work of the production department, I go back to the company at noon to unload, eat in the company, and set off to collect the materials immediately after eating. The materials collected in the afternoon are stored in the car and collected the next morning. The workload has increased again, and I am not afraid of being tired, but I am afraid that Ms. Peng will quarrel with me because of this.

That night, I sent Ms. Peng a WeChat message and told her about going to the village every day, but she didn't answer me. After a while, a new driver contacted me and said that he was going to follow my car tomorrow, and I sent her another WeChat message: You will be a master again tomorrow. When the new driver comes, he has to learn to hang the bucket, which is generally taught by the collector. I received a few messages from me, but she didn't reply to any of them, I know, I haven't started to do it yet, she already has an opinion.

The next morning at work, I felt that she was unhappy, and she stood up to me for whatever I said. I was really upset and didn't control my emotions. I said, I told you last night that I would go to the village every day, but I was afraid that you would be unhappy, so you didn't do anything. I don't want to go every day, what can I do? She felt very aggrieved and asked me: It was very late, what did you tell me to say? I said, as long as you don't object, don't quarrel with me like the woman before, increase the volume. She was even more aggrieved and asked me: What did I say today? I remembered that she scolded me several times because of work in the past, and this time she didn't shake her that her future work was not good, I became angry and said to her: I said that when I say east, you say west, often belittle me, I don't want you for a long time, my temper is so bad, see which driver will want you, no one will want you!

It's over, I'm so angry, I've stabbed a big basket now, and I can't end it!

At noon, when we went back to the company for dinner, she went to Captain Huang to sue me and insisted on changing the guard. She always wanted to go to the line of Fairy Lake, but Master Li, the collector, was unwilling to change with her. This time, Captain Huang gave a death order and must be replaced. Master Li didn't agree, only said to try it first, and if you don't adapt, you won't change.

It's the best, I've been working here for more than a year, and I'm fed up with the anger of two women, and they can't hold it anymore. It's a pity that Master Li felt that the high-tech zone was much more than the Fairy Lake outlets, and it was not easy to do, so he said he wouldn't change it after working with me for less than a morning. He called Ms. Peng and said that he would not change it, but he was murdered by her, saying that he would change it if he changed it, and he could not regret it. He was also very annoyed at the time, and at noon he took his things to the car on the line of Fairy Lake, but Ms. Peng resolutely refused to get off. I said to Captain Huang that if it was like this, I still called her over, and I didn't scold her, so I was angry like this.

In the evening, Captain Huang called me and said to me: You also have to reflect on yourself, the woman who didn't get along with you before, do you know what she said about you? Now this woman can't get along with you, saying that you drive slowly and speak ugly. Isn't this obviously biased in favor of the woman? Isn't it because of work, what do I have to quarrel with her? I had a little drink and a fire in my stomach, and I reasoned with him. He said I was too angry and too excited. I said in my heart, I tried my best to serve the company, I never stole a lazy, and I was not a person inside and out, which was too aggrieved, if you want to fry it, it was not a good job anyway, it stinked to death, I drove all day long, and my legs cramped at night.

At present, the most difficult thing to do is that Master Li is unwilling to be in the high-tech zone, Ms. Peng hates me and does not come, and the two collectors are very stiff, which affects the work. It's all about work, and it's really not good to be like this, so I decided to bow my head and apologize to Ms. Peng, hoping that she could get rid of the gas in her stomach and still come to follow my car. With my understanding of her temperament, she will not hold grudges, and as long as I take the initiative to apologize to her, she will definitely forgive me.

However, I was completely wrong, she was not the kind of woman I remembered at all, very stubborn, unforgiving, and it was useless for me to say anything. I said to her: I really didn't say that I was serious, I shouldn't have said that about you, and I apologized to you. If you want to go, it's okay to go, and it's not too late to wait until someone is willing to change with you, and don't make people laugh. She didn't listen at all.

On that day, we were going to have a meeting in the afternoon, and I specially asked her to eat in the cafeteria. She didn't answer me, but when I saw her coming, I stepped forward and called out to her: Why are you still angry? She scolded me in front of so many people: Don't call me, God is sick one by one! I laughed and said, "Oh, that's awesome."

Master Li followed me for a total of two days, and he resolutely stopped following me and must return to his original post. I persuaded him many times, but he just thought that my line was not good, and Captain Huang complained that I shouldn't tell him that my line would take longer and would be a little tired. Those who come to work on my line must declare in advance that if you can't endure this hardship, don't come, and when you come, you must be mentally prepared to endure hardship.

Now, Master Li has returned to his original post, and Ms. Peng is not cooperating with me in life and death, and she is very annoyed and can't continue her work. I said to Captain Huang: I'll ask a collector to come over, is it okay? He didn't agree, saying that Ms. Peng, the collector, had nowhere to arrange it.

Tomorrow there must be a collector, otherwise the task will not be completed. In the evening, Captain Huang called me and asked what to do, otherwise, let me and Ms. Peng take leave. I said I'll call her again, she answered my call, she just won't come. In the end, Captain Huang decided to change the driver and let me be the top driver. I can do any job, but I went to work, my daughter is too young, how can I rest assured that I am alone at home at night? I told the actual situation, and Captain Huang said that if I don't go to work, I will leave, there is no way. Before, there was a driver who had a temper, and Captain Huang also used this method to let him go by himself.

This time, Ms. Peng's attitude was so tough that the nine cows couldn't pull it back, and there was a deep-seated reason: the purpose was to get me away. She really succeeded, but it was not her ability, but the sophistication of people.

Looking back on the days when I worked with Ms. Luo and Ms. Peng for more than a year, I was afraid that they would be tired and rush to work, but I didn't expect the result to be like this, which is really embarrassing.

Finally, let me summarize. A dirty and tiring job is difficult to do for a long time, let alone a better job, so I advise those young people who are working or about to enter the society to understand a truth: even if you put your heart and soul into the company, you may not have good results. My rule of conduct is that no matter what you do with your conscience, if you are not satisfied with your best efforts, then leave. I believe that no one can starve to death wherever he goes now, and people still have to be a little arrogant, otherwise what is the point of living?