Five years ago, if I didn't believe I could save money, I guess I wouldn't have saved now, and I wouldn't be able to lie down after losing my job. At that time, I had to save more than 5,000 yuan a month, and I couldn't imagine it. Five thousand a month is not enough to spend, and it is ridiculous to have to save money, and it is still in Beijing, where consumption is so high. Not only did you not believe it, but my husband didn't believe it back then, but I was so determined to save money, just because I was too afraid of the days when I had no money.
It is only after being poor that one can truly appreciate how terrible the lack of money is, and can you imagine that five years ago I could not even afford to rent a house, even though my house was still relatively cheap, 1,100 a month. Don't say that it's impossible to rent a house in Beijing, if you want to save money, you will definitely rent it, but your house has to be far away from the city center, you have to move outside the Fifth Ring Road, and you have to live a long commute every day.
5,000 yuan a month, one-fifth of the rent will be spent, and the commuting fee is also a large expense every month, and it is more or less 300 per month. For 5,000 yuan, you don't dare to eat out at all, treat yourself, even a bowl of noodles will cost more than ten or twenty yuan, so you can only save money most of the time.
I tried my best to save, as much as possible to compress the monthly living expenses to 1,000 yuan, 1,000 yuan a month living expenses, to be honest, it is really very little, the money is very gross, and it may be a 100 yuan bill if I go to the supermarket and buy nothing. At the beginning of the month, you may spend more than half of it, and at the end of the month, you have to spend a hard life, but some money still has to be spent, so you can only take some more out of the piggy bank to spend. It's hard to save money in such a situation.
But my will is also strong enough, what if I don't save money, can I live a day when I can barely pay the rent? I don't want to live a day like that, and I just save 3,000 yuan a month for a fixed time, as if I didn't have that money. The rent and water bills are more than 1,200 a month, and the living expenses are 1,000 a month, including the bus and subway fees, which must be spent every month, 300 a month, so in fact, there are only 700 yuan per month to buy food, drink, and clothing. Life can't just be as simple as eating, drinking, and clothes, people eat grains, and they inevitably get sick, and when they don't have money, they get sick the most, I don't know if you're like this, anyway, when I'm the poorest, my husband and I are either sick or I'm sick, which may be related to mood, and the body will also be in a bad mood when it's not good. This is the most painful thing, I was already poor, and I had to pay a sum of money when I got sick to see a doctor.
When I was poor, I always wanted others to sympathize with me, and I was afraid that my relatives and friends would call me for a banquet, and I would feel very uncomfortable when I watched others live happily and happily, and dissatisfaction would give birth to jealousy, jealousy would lead to disgust, and I would think in my heart what kind of bullshit friends they were, bullshit relatives, and others were so bitter and sprinkled salt on other people's wounds. Poverty will make a person's heart become extremely distorted, and he can't see how happy he is in front of others, how much money his in-laws gave her, and how much his in-laws spent on buying a house for them before they got married...... To be honest, I really don't want to listen to those words, because I don't have them.
I don't know why they talk about their superiority in front of me, don't they know that I don't have superiority in this area? They know, and they will mention my situation when they talk about their superiority, pity and sympathize with me, and then conclude that when they get married, they have to ask their in-laws for a car, a house, and a bride price, otherwise they will end up like me. It's impossible not to make me uncomfortable, they seem to want me to be uncomfortable, to be honest, it makes me feel very inferior, I feel very bad, I hate them, and my inferiority makes me unable to open my mouth to refute them. Once I resisted, I asked them not to show their happiness in front of me, and not to compare me, and the result was that they thought I was sick and my words hurt them, but how could they know how deeply their words hurt me.
If your life is not so good, then stay away from those who show you happiness, they will not help you much, most of them just want to find superiority in you, make you feel inferior, inferior to the dust. Even if that person is your brother or sister, if their words can't help you, stay away, no one can empathize with your suffering, suffering can only be known by yourself, cross others first and cross yourself.
Back then, I hated those who looked for superiority in me, they didn't help others when they were in trouble, even if it was just words, but I'm sorry, there are many people in this world, and only a few people are in trouble. When I came out of the abyss step by step, I felt like a different person, I didn't want to judge others, the power of words is terrible, it can destroy a person, it can also save a person, the key depends on how the person who uses it uses it.
Now, I don't hate anyone, I find that I can look at others with a peaceful mind, a person who is willing to look for superiority in you, then let him live in his own superiority, because her superiority is still so cliché, how much her in-laws give, what does her sister-in-law buy her...... Her so-called superiority was obtained from others, as always, without his own efforts. I'm glad I don't have anything, and I'm glad that I work hard enough because I don't have anything.
I tried to save money, I learned how to save, I learned to organize my life reasonably, I became independent enough that I could do everything without the help of others. That makes me happier and more proud of myself than I am dependent on others, and I am proud of myself.
Five years is enough time for a person to grow, and in the midst of pain, I am transforming step by step, but looking back, those who once talked to me about their superiority began to complain. They complain that their in-laws don't take care of children, that their in-laws are sick and spend money, that their husbands are not motivated, and that their mothers are ...... It's as if they always have something to say, but I was forced to have nothing to say, and now I don't have much to say to them. What do you say? You should be self-reliant? They don't want to listen and don't want to listen, so they just shut up and smile.
Poverty has given me the opportunity to work hard, and I have to be grateful that I experienced poverty at the youngest age, youth is capital, it gives me the opportunity and courage to turn over. I often wonder why I didn't complain about my in-laws, complained that they didn't give you anything, that you couldn't get help not only financially, but also physically and even mentally when you were looked down upon by others. To be honest, I still have complaints in my heart until now, but that complaint has long faded a lot, and it is precisely because I know that I can't rely on myself that I want to rely on myself. My husband's silent efforts also gave me a lot of confidence and courage, one heating can still feel cold, but two huddles will also bring a trace of warmth.
When you are poor, don't think too much, focus on yourself, you are the most important. Some of the words of relatives, friends, and family members can be listened to, and those words that can only block you can be directly refused, and hearing them will only affect you to move forward. Since you have decided to move forward, you can just rush forward, and the gossip will naturally stop when you rush to the front.