I like all kinds of interesting things, just today the sun is shining, sweeping away the haze for many days, thinking that I will not go to the antique market for many days, today is just the right time to see. Although it was early spring, the light outside was soft and cold, and the breeze was light, and the slightest coolness brushed my cheeks, which made people shiver.
There are not many pedestrians on the street, when I came to the market next to the park, I was still disappointed, although the whole economy is not very good now, unemployed, and the mortgage abounds, but I recall the bustling crowd on the road in the past, and the shopkeeper in the small shop in the building talked about it, and silently sighed the bleakness of the real economy. At this time, I found that in the middle of the two trees, there was a small stall with several small dusty Buddha statues on it. I thought, it's rare for someone to be here, let's talk about it and play with it.
Walking to the stall, I picked up a Medicine Buddha and asked, "Friend, what is the price of this?", the air was quiet, I followed my voice and looked over, only to see a weak man, wrapped in a crumpled coat, with his head down, slowly, he slowly raised his head, collapsed cheeks, bladed chin, empty eyes, and said listlessly: "You look at it." I was stunned, and I wanted to pull each other for a few rounds, but when I ran into this soft cotton, I didn't know what to say.
I followed his gaze again, and when the four eyes met, a familiar shadow flashed in front of me, "You, are you Lao Li?" I exclaimed in surprise, "What's the matter with you, why did you do this", I asked eagerly. "Hey, old Wu, life is unpredictable, I'm sick. He sighed weakly, the air was quieter, I didn't know how to comfort him for a while, and I couldn't answer, so I had to touch the dusty Medicine Buddha with my hand, and said softly: "I remember that you like this very much, and you said that you want to ask for good luck for yourself and your family, why don't you keep it!" He replied faintly: "In the past, I wanted to ask him to go back to bless myself and my family, and I wanted to get something, but now I want to exchange him for a little money, by the way, if you can get me some medicine, you can exchange it." I was about to ask him in detail what illness he had, when a woman came up to me and said, "Lao Li, go home and have lunch."
I looked at it and it turned out to be his wife Xiaohui. Xiaohui also recognized me and said, "It turned out to be Lao Wu, what a coincidence, I haven't seen each other for several years." The couple talked and cleaned up the stall, and I quickly returned the little Buddha and said, "Let's walk along the way for a while."
Lao Li sighed lightly again, slowly picked up the small package, and walked forward abruptly. I followed Xiaohui and the two to the back and asked her gently, "Lao Li, what's the disease?" Xiaohui sighed lightly and said: "Lung cancer", she paused, and continued: "The onset was very urgent, at first it was just a cough, I didn't care too much, it happened to be a new crown epidemic, I thought it was a viral infection, but it was getting worse and worse, and it didn't get better, and then I went to the hospital and was diagnosed with cancer." She paused again, and then said: "It's been almost two years, and I've tried everything, my daughter has sold the house in the city, and his small shop has also been sold out, but it still doesn't have much effect." ”
"In the end, it was transferred to the bone, and it hurt so much that I could only last for 2 hours with painkiller injections. It's endless pain, I took care of him for a few months, and I was only able to rest for an hour or two a day, because he was in pain, so he would scold, make all kinds of noises, and pick up things that could be picked up around him and smash them. The cups and bowls at home are almost all smashed, and they can scold my eighteenth generation ancestors. After she finished speaking, she took a deep breath, as if she had let go of the burden of a thousand catties, and grinned at me, I looked at her haggard face, pretending to be relaxed, and I didn't know how to answer for a while, and then looked forward at the strong man who was once one hundred and fifty or sixteen, and now the wind is blowing down, and paused and said: Hey, is that targeted drug useful?
"I tried it, and all the drugs I used were imported, and it had already cost more than one million, and I didn't give reimbursement, but what I could reimburse was some cheap domestic drugs. That's it, now it costs more than 10,000 a month." "I don't know how long it can last, now we also hired a nurse to take care of him, usually don't let him come out, today it's rare that he didn't scold, said to go out to the old place to sell a few things, see if you can meet someone who is destined", she swallowed the foam, and continued: "What a coincidence, I met an old acquaintance." ”。 She touched my arm lightly again and said, "I heard that you have a friend in Huaxi, can you get sleeping pills?"
"Why, for a patient like him, the hospital can prescribe painkillers to him normally. I replied.
Xiao Hui said in a hoarse voice: "I just want to get more for him, he is too painful, and he looks upset." As she spoke, she turned her head away and wiped her eyes with her hand.
I didn't say anything, I understand Xiaohui's pain. Because when my relatives are sick, the helplessness, the powerlessness, the heart-tearing, cure or not, life or death, Hamlet's questions, I will only ask myself more often than not.
She and I silently followed behind Lao Li like this, and no one spoke again.
When I was about to reach the intersection, I was just about to say goodbye to them, but Lao Li suddenly turned around and said to her daughter-in-law: "You take your things, go back first, I'll say a few words to Lao Wu, I have something to consult him." Xiaohui glanced at him, and then looked at him and said, she was a little uneasy, Lao Li saw it, and said extremely gently: "Don't worry, I definitely won't think about letting the car crash and die, Lao Wu is a miscellaneous scientist, I know a lot, I just have something I want to consult." Just wait for me across the road. Keiko nodded, and walked back to the other side. I smiled at her, trying to give the poor woman a sense of security.
Lao Li sighed again and said, "Brother, I'm very happy to see you today, it's still a bit fate." I know that you are studying physics, you know a little bit about everything in the world, and you know a little bit about my situation, I just want to ask you if there is such a thing as euthanasia?"
I gently shook his hand and replied with a pretended ease of relief, "I don't have this thing in our country." Dude, be optimistic, the bad will pass. If you need anything, see what I can do?"
"I just want a gift, a gift that will free me from the sea of suffering."
The air died again, I didn't know how to take it, so I reluctantly pretended to think for a while and said, "Lao Li, that Medicine Buddha has opened the light, make a wish, my Buddha may pity the people of the world!"
He smiled bitterly, looked away, and said to me gently: "I'm tired today, I'll talk later, by the way, if you like it, go to my place one day and invite that Bodhisattva away." ”
Well, I should be in harmony, wave my hand to him, and watch him slowly walk in front of Xiaohui, who is waiting for him, and the two of them silently walk into the distance with their own hearts.
I shivered slightly, looked up to see that the sun was just right, but I didn't know why a chill rose from my heart.
"Destiny is an endless river, and we are all lonely boats in it. "Every ordinary person is so small and powerless to struggle in this ocean of fate.
