On a lonely winter day, people can't help but think of a lot of things that they don't usually think about, so that some secret and gloomy thoughts are active, beating, and some bitter tastes hidden deep in the heart overflow into the heart, surging, but also suppressing...
"Is there such a song that will make you suddenly think of me, make you happy, and make you sad for such a me..."
The lights went out, and in the silent and dark night, lying on the bed of my mother's house, I suddenly remembered my lover who was drifting away, or now I can't even count my lover, because my lover is connected, my lover has nothing to talk about, and my lover is sweet...
I am still husband and wife, but we are no longer intimate, we have less contact, or even less contact, and the husband and wife have become speechless and cold...
Why is this happening?
Generally speaking, there must be problems on both sides, I agree that I have problems, the relationship between the two sides is getting worse and worse, and I am probably responsible for most of it, because I know my character shortcomings, but I don't want to bow my head easily...
When I was young and frivolous, I always thought that love could be eternal, love could withstand everything, and love could be used as bread...
No matter how beautiful love is, it can't withstand the invasion of firewood, rice, oil and salt after all.
So with the passage of time, the love that once felt moving the world, the love that once felt unswerving in this life, the love that once thought it could last a lifetime, will eventually be reconciled into family affection by firewood, rice, oil and salt, when you are intimate, you can drink a glass of water together, eat a bowl of rice together, and don't want to kiss together all the time, but now it has become unhappy to see that person...
Two years ago, when my debt crisis broke out, I filed for divorce, he didn't agree, his family didn't agree, and even his mother cried and made trouble and hanged herself to prevent us from divorcing.
It can be seen with the naked eye that he no longer calls me three meals a day, no longer sends me messages when he has nothing to do, no longer shares a little trivial thing with me, no longer has sweet words that once made me feel tired, no longer has a phone porridge that used to annoy me all the time...
I sent him WeChat, he no longer replied as soon as he was free, I called him, there was no longer nothing to talk about, but something to say, after saying something quickly hung up, he rested back, we don't seem to be able to stay in the same room, he will not be like before, I go back to the room he followed back to the room, I was in the living room, he rubbed next to him, even if he was playing a game, he had to take me to play together, once the old man and child were not at home, the family only had the two of us, he would hurry up and pull me around, and even sometimes he would deliberately support the rest of the family...
But now, as long as I am in the room, he will go out to the hall, and when I am in the hall, he will go back to the room, although he will also communicate about the children's learning problems and the health problems of the elderly, but the husband and wife are getting colder and colder...
I also thought about communicating with him well, I know that the communication between two people is emotion and content, if the communication emotion is not right, the content will be distorted, so before communicating the content, the emotional level must be sorted out, otherwise the misunderstanding will only get deeper and deeper.
But he never gave me a chance, he didn't reply to the message, although the phone would be answered, but there was something to say, and he hung up after speaking, and communicated less and less, I always felt as if something had changed, and I felt a little uncomfortable, but I still thought about it, or just forget it, and just live a life that is irrelevant...
But I still feel uncomfortable, after all, we have known each other for more than ten years, from 07 years to now, from getting along with colleagues to chatting more and more, and then to determine love, to get married and have children, to now more than ten years of ups and downs, the experience is not much, although the love of the year has become family affection under the tempering of time, but our relationship was still very good!
When we first met, I didn't think that I would have anything to do with him, because I was only 15 years old at that time, he was 23 years old, and he was a little fierce, although it wasn't me, but I saw his fierce appearance, I was a little bit of avoiding him, there were so many young people who were only three years older than me, how could I think of playing with a colleague who was 8 years older than me? Will I become a colleague, or because I use my sister's ID card, otherwise with my age, I can't find a job...
Slowly became familiar with it, because for a period of time he was in the same class with me, every day in the same class, slowly more contact, I feel that although he is sometimes very fierce, but not much to me, and take care of me, so I slowly have a topic to talk about, he will help me deal with some things, will also teach me some things at work, and will also make an appointment to take me to play games after work, but I still like to play more with that group of peers, until one time after work with colleagues supper together, a colleague borrowed alcohol to confess, I was scared away...
Really, I was still young at the time, I didn't want to or know what I liked or disliked, and my first reaction when I heard someone confess was not ecstatic, happy to explode, but I felt scared, and I was a good colleague who could play games together after work, why did I suddenly say what I liked or disliked? It's really annoying!
Since then, I really rarely play with colleagues of the same age, but with the colleague who is 8 years older than me, after slowly getting acquainted, he often takes me to play games together, knowing that I have just come to Foshan not long ago, I am not familiar with the surroundings, and I will often take me out to walk around during breaks, I have been to City Square, Qiandeng Lake, Leigang Park, Oriental Square, Popular Frontline, Zhongshan Park, Ancestral Temple...
It can be said that I have visited all the places that can be visited nearby, and even know that I am motion sickness, he will accompany me to walk to visit, the farthest one is from Zhongshan Park to the city square, yes, walked for almost two hours, but the whole process we have been talking and laughing and chatting all the way to the end, just so mixed, it has been more than half a year...
And then the group of colleagues who are about the same age as me, there is a colleague who asked me to go shopping, and explained that it is the kind of two people who go together, I was stunned for a round, I did not agree to only two people to go shopping, and finally a large group of people went, when crossing a certain traffic light, I was 8 years older than my colleague quietly held hands and walked for a while, and then that night he said on QQ that he liked me, and asked me if I could be his girlfriend, I didn't know what to think at the time, I actually agreed, and then I didn't sleep well all night, tossing and turning all night, nervous, thinking about how to face him tomorrowHow do you deal with other colleagues? Will it be embarrassing? Can you get along well?
I thought about it all night, and I don't know when I fell asleep...
Love is like a flower that blooms quietly in spring, and it is also like a sudden rain in summer, which brings surprises and accidents, as well as inner joy and apprehension.
The next day at work, I was a little embarrassed when I saw him, but he quietly held my hand, I didn't seem to be uncomfortable anymore, but everything was quiet, and other colleagues didn't know, because I was really embarrassed to let people know that we were patting, especially two colleagues in front of me had confessed to me, and I was only 16 years old, he was 24 years old, the age gap was really big, and I didn't dare to let my colleagues see that we were patting...
Now that I think about it, it's really stupid...
Then he quietly patted and dragged like that, he managed to adjust his schedule to the same as me, and then went shopping together after work every day, played games together, and sometimes he would take me to his place to cook for me, and the food he cooked was very delicious, which greatly satisfied my imagination of food, so I happily patted and dragged it...
It wasn't until a few months later that we were accidentally seen by our colleagues holding hands and shopping together, the relationship was exposed, and then my colleagues coaxed us to have a treat, and that night's supper, we all drank, and I didn't go back to the dormitory that night...
When you love each other affectionately, love cannot be restrained.
Because of love, you can't help but give everything you have. I want to give all the love and warmth to the other person, as long as she/he can be happy and happy, as long as I see her/his smile, everything is worth it.
Of course, when my family knew that I was delayed, they were against it, on the grounds that I was still young and wouldn't be able to protect myself well, and I was afraid that he was so much older than me, would it just be fun...
also strongly demanded that I resign, and even took me to Dongguan, packed it and sent it to my eldest sister, so that my eldest sister looked at me...
However, people who love each other are inseparable from each other! If you love someone affectionately, you can't help but miss her/him and want to see her/him. So he also went to Dongguan, and then moved my eldest sister and eldest brother-in-law, as well as my cousin, and then we returned to Foshan, and then he won the unanimous praise of my mother's family, because of my age, we were the first to do the wine before getting the certificate, the first few years were really easy and happy, my parents-in-law was very good to me, whether it was my colleagues or friends said that I married into a good family, old and good, my parents-in-law is good, my sister-in-law has been married, and I will not come back to stir up trouble, my brother-in-law is not married, and there is no problem of concubines。 I have children and daughters, my mother-in-law helps take care of the children, and my father-in-law gives me some financial support from time to time, so I can live a comfortable life!
I used to think that my life was really good and good, but now that it has become like this, I don't know what to say, in short, it is to go on step by step, the child is healthy, safe and happy, is the most important thing!!
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