I'm even pregnant!
Foreword: Sometimes, the physical and mental torture is far more painful than the physical one
Wei Shaolan has heard these words from his son's mouth countless times, from the initial surprise, stunned and helpless, to the current numbness and unmoved, this completely different psychological activity before and after seems to be more shocking than the documentary film "Thirty-two".
As a survivor of the "comfort women", Wei Shaolan also asked himself more than once:
Wei Shaolan, Luo Shanxue
Today, the eight words "remember history, don't forget the national shame" appear more and more frequently, and the resonance is getting stronger and stronger, and at the same time, it also constantly reminds us who enjoy the peaceful and prosperous era that the revolutionaries exchanged for their blood and lives should defend this prosperous China with the youth of our generation!
Therefore, today, we are more distressed for those who have had grief in the past, aside from pity......
But if we push back a few decades, in that era when old ideas were dominant, it seems that more people would only say that they were "bad at learning" and that they were "not clean", and few people would ever think about what kind of torture they suffered in the comfort stations? What kind of faith did they rely on to survive? Or, why were they wrong? Shouldn't it be the aggressors who are at fault?
In the dark winter of 1944, at the age of 24, she was captured and sent to the Japanese comfort station
In order to connect the lines of communication in Chinese mainland, the Japanese army immediately targeted Guilin and Liuzhou after the Battle of Changheng. In September 1944, the "Battle of Guiliu" began, and the Fourth Theater of our army tried its best to counterattack.
However, the Japanese army was outnumbered by more than 110,000 troops, and on November 11, "Guiliu" was lost one after another, causing Sichuan, Guiyang and Chongqing to also begin to fall into worry.
Now that we are standing in a place where we can look back at history, we can know that Japan was not far from "unconditional surrender" at this time. However, the Japanese army at that time did not think so, and continued to carry out "sweeps" against our army's base areas, wantonly slaughtering the people on the mainland, and setting up "comfort stations" almost everywhere they went.
It was in that winter that Wei Shaolan was forcibly captured by the Japanese army and tortured!
Wei Shaolan is a native of Xinping Town, Lipu County, Guilin, Guangxi, born in 1920, she was 24 years old at the time, married to a wife, and gave birth to a daughter. Her infant daughter was with her on the day she was taken away, and during the more than three months she spent in the comfort station, she also thought about "leaving" the ghost place by ending her life by "suicide" like other female compatriots. But when she thought of her daughter, she still gritted her teeth and survived.
One day, more than three months later, she took advantage of the fact that the Japanese troops guarding were a little lax, and she was ready to fight to the death. She held her daughter in her arms and ran out with all her might, without looking back.
Finally saw the home and saw her husband, at that moment she was so happy that she cried, but she cried so sadly. When recalling in her later years, Wei Shaolan said that she had never cried in the face of the Japanese army before, because her heart was occupied by fear during that time.
Her husband's sentence "It's bad to go outside to learn" has become a shadow that she can't erase for the rest of her life
His wife and daughter were captured by the Japanese army for more than three months and their lives were uncertain, and it should be a good thing that they finally came back safely today. But the man who is both a husband and a father did not show a happy look when he saw his wife and daughter returning, but said that Wei Shaolan "went outside to learn badly".
"What's wrong with her?" The mother-in-law and female neighbors, who are also women, understand her, and will also help Wei Shaolan reason with her husband and ask him not to blame her. But in that era of old thinking, her husband's heart could not overcome that hurdle, rarely spoke to her, and even avoided her.
Fortunately, she still has her daughter with her, and she can only rely on holding her daughter to resist the prejudice and disgust voices around her, just like in the comfort station.
But God did not show her any mercy, and the daughter in her arms gradually became cold after experiencing a high fever from her normal body temperature. With grief-stricken, the moment of burying her daughter seemed to bury the only consolation in Wei Shaolan's heart.
I'm even pregnant!
Seeing the slight bulge in her lower abdomen, Wei Shaolan realized that she might be pregnant. Her current life is miserable, and this is undoubtedly pushing her deeper into the abyss. So, Wei Shaolan, who didn't want to bear the fruit of this sin, chose to commit suicide by drinking pesticides.
"There is no one more bitter than me!" In the documentary "Thirty-Two", Wei Shaolan's words completely broke the audience's defense. She said that at that time, all her tears could only flow to her heart, and after a long time, she naturally thought of death.
We always say that there is no real empathy in the world, but when the audience looks at Wei Shaolan, with such a calm expression and such a calm tone to recall those sad pasts, it seems that it can pull people into that dark era more than those emotional melodramas.
Clip from the movie "Thirty-Two".
We also always say that the breakdown of adults is often only in a moment. And after Wei Shaolan escaped death and picked up his life and returned home, he suffered all prejudice, ridicule, and her husband's dislike and ignorance, which in itself overwhelmed Wei Shaolan. Then her daughter's departure directly made her inner pain unbearable. Therefore, the "evil fruit" in her abdomen was like the last straw that overwhelmed her, making her completely lose the courage to live.
So, she didn't have the slightest concern when she drank the pesticide...... However, she did not get her wish and was rescued by the neighbors.
"No matter whether the child in the womb is male or female, whose species it is, and what kind of hatred it has, but the child is your flesh and blood after all......" Under the relief of her mother-in-law, Wei Shaolan seemed to see the hope of living.
It's not good to marry someone, marry a Japanese!
A few months later, the child was born, a boy, and although her husband still did not want to see her, she still took the child's husband's surname and named Shanxue. She tried her best to raise this mixed-race child, and it became the only sustenance in her heart.
thought that she had tried very hard not to let herself pay attention to those malicious voices, but what happened to the child kept making her recall those tragic years.
Clip from the movie "Thirty-Two".
Other people's children have friends to play with, but Luo Shanxue didn't, but was abused by children of the same age, and even spat on him, saying that he was a kind of devil, and he shouldn't live in this world, he should die......
The ugly words made Luo Shanxue yell at his mother again and again: "Why did you give birth to me......!
Every time she heard her son's resentment, she could only fall into repeated thinking, but she could never give her son an answer.
What's more, Luo Shanxue can't feel the warmth from his father and younger brother at home. Although Luo Shanxue learned how to be obedient, her husband still did not treat him as his own child. In order to renew the incense, her husband gave birth to a son with Wei Shaolan. And this younger brother hated Luo Shanxue more and more after being ridiculed by his peers because of this special brother, and even thought of hiring someone to hack Luo Shanxue to death in order to "clean up the portal".
As the days passed, Luo Shanxue also reached the age when he should marry a wife. Wei Shaolan asked someone to tell his son, "Maybe this is not the way to let his son go to the sun, but at least it should allow him to find a way to live", Wei Shaolan thought.
"It's not good to marry someone, marry a Japanese!" As long as the other girl knows Luo Shanxue's identity, she will refuse in this way. After several times, Luo Shanxue no longer thought about getting married and having children, and Wei Shaolan had to give up. Because she knew that every failure was like a knife into her son's heart, making him resentful of himself and the Japanese blood in his body even more.
From "If I am alone in the future, I will drink pesticides and die!" to kneeling down to my mother
Later, her husband died, and her youngest son moved away, leaving only Wei Shaolan and Luo Shanxue at home. The house is getting quieter and quieter, and the mother and son seem to have no words except for necessary communication. It seems that this is the only way to avoid the two of them mentioning that sad history as much as possible, and to plunge this "person who should not have existed" in the eyes of others into deeper pain.
Luo Shanxue said to Wei Shaolan more than once: "If I am alone in the future, I will drink pesticides and die". He may have thought it was a way to give his elderly mother an explanation so that she didn't have to worry about how she would survive after she was gone. But as everyone knows, my mother was once in such despair and couldn't get out for a long time.
In 2007, Wei Shaolan disclosed his identity, and Luo Shanxue became the first person in history to admit that he was a "comfort woman" survivor and a child born to the Japanese army that invaded China, and the mother and son also became the most powerful witnesses to the Japanese army that invaded China.
Chinese know that Japan has always refused to admit some facts, such as the Nanjing Massacre, Unit 731, and the comfort women incident. But after having the ironclad evidence of Wei Shaolan and Luo Shanxue, they actually began to show acquiescence.
Because individuals could not sue the government, Wei Shaolan joined forces with more "victims" under international organizations to appeal. Despite this, these prosecutions have been postponed by Japan for various reasons. Because they know that these "victims" are old and will be buried with that period of history in a few years, and the ironclad evidence will become "slander" if it drags on.
On December 3, 2012, the 10th anniversary of the establishment of the "International War Crimes Tribunal for Women" was held in Tokyo, Japan.
"I'm going to Japan to find my father", before leaving for Japan, Luo Shanxue replied to the neighbor who asked him what he was going to Japan for. But that day, when it was his mother's turn to testify on the complaint, Luo Shanxue suddenly left his seat and walked to his mother sitting on the stage, kneeling for a long time......
Later, Luo Shanxue gradually changed, and he began to be willing to talk to the people who came to visit him, and the smiles on his face increased, and Wei Shaolan's heart relaxed a lot.
Director of the film "Thirty-Two" and Wei Shaolan
On May 5, 2019, Wei Shaolan passed away at the age of 99. Wei Shaolan did not wait for that apology, and perhaps it will be difficult for the future sons and daughters of China to hear that apology. But thinking that her son is gradually willing to go to the sun and live with a smile, it must have given her enough comfort.
Epilogue:
Wei Shaolan's life is far from being able to be described in words, but she showed strength in those dark days, cherished life for the rest of her life surrounded by ridicule and prejudice, and was willing to stand up and uncover her scars over and over again, so that more people can understand this history, how great she is!
The old man has never enjoyed happiness in this life, so only I hope that you can enjoy the best things in this world in the next life, there is no difficulty, only warmth and happiness accompany you!