Preamble:
In the entertainment industry, who doesn't dream of having a pair of smart eyes, thick hair, and an impeccable face?
Who doesn't want to have a much-anticipated title, a lot of fans, and a lot of money?
However, when all this really befalls an ordinary girl, what kind of fate will she get?
One
Idol dramas, how beautiful; When you put on a costume, put on makeup, put on a wig, and the audience burst into warm applause, at this moment, you are the heroine.
How many teenage girls fantasize countless times about standing on a bright stage and receiving flowers and applause.
In 2002, Zhu Rui, a girl from a small town, walked into the door of Beijing Film Academy.
Perhaps, she also fantasized that one day she would become a star on the screen.
At that time, her eyes were full of longing and fantasy for the future.
Zhu Rui, who wants to be a star, studied acting at the Beijing Film Major.
She is diligent and studious, often soaking in the theater to watch the performances of her predecessors, and has studied every performance move thoroughly.
In the dead of night, she would also rehearse herself in front of the mirror in the dormitory, hoping that one day these acting skills would come in handy.
Four years after graduation, Zhu Rui got his wish and entered the entertainment industry.
At the beginning, it was just a small supporting role, but she never cared, as long as she could act, she was happy.
"Wing Chun" and "The Legend of Sword and Fairy III", a small figure appeared in one TV series after another, and that was her, Zhu Rui.
For a newcomer, being able to stand next to a big star and play tricks has already made her ecstatic.
The acting skills are getting better and better, from the beginning of the tricks, to a few lines, and then to the gradual increase and seriousness of the scenes.
Zhu Rui was secretly happy, she just wanted to climb up step by step!
She would repeatedly figure out the acting skills of big stars in the corners of the set, and then practice in front of the mirror in private.
often acted late at night, and her body had reached its limit, but she still gritted her teeth and persisted.
This is Zhu Rui, a crazy woman who can sacrifice everything for acting.
Two
finally mixed in the circle for ten years, Zhu Rui finally ushered in the peak of his career - the role of "Lily" in "One Servant and Two Masters".
A material woman who will do whatever it takes to achieve her ends is exactly what she was doing at that time.
Incarnated as "Lily", Zhu Rui played this role to the fullest.
The audience also gradually remembered this charming and touching woman who committed murder.
Zhu Rui is obsessed with the role of "Lily" all day long, and she likes the feeling that she can squander her charm wantonly.
"I'm finally famous!" Zhu Rui thought to himself.
Years of struggle seem to be coming to fruition, and Zhu Rui sees the dawn of becoming a first-line actress.
Every time she thought about it, she was so excited that she couldn't sleep.
But when his career was on the rise, Zhu Rui's life was not satisfactory.
Over the years, she has borne most of the family's financial burden, and the living expenses of her parents and younger siblings have been borne by her.
Zhu Rui didn't dare to expect to make a lot of money, and all the income was used to fill the gap in his family.
She still lives in a rented house and lives in poverty.
Three
Fame and fortune, this is the power of traffic.
Zhu Rui seems to have seen the possibility of becoming a first-line actress.
In 2014, "Obstetrician" was on the air.
Zhu Rui played a supporting role again, and the single mother "Juliet" she played was sexy and hot, which was deeply loved by the audience.
This is her most successful change of personality over the years, from a beautiful and murderous enchantress to a sexy mommy.
"I have to be popular this time!" Zhu Rui secretly made up his mind.
All summer, she was looking forward to the ratings of "Obstetrician" and waiting for that opportunity of her own.
She even began to design what advertisements she would receive, what photos she would publish, and what magazine covers she would appear on after she became popular.
The beautiful imagination kept her awake all night.
However, the ratings were mediocre.
Zhu Rui was a little disappointed for a while, but she didn't give up.
She wanted to put more eyeballs on this role and increase her exposure.
So she took the initiative to find a magazine to make a few sexy photos and PO the photos online.
This attracted some fans, and some people began to pay attention to her as a second-tier actor.
Four
participated in the talent show "Actors Please Be in Place", Zhu Rui wanted to use this platform to create popularity.
She rehearses carefully and expects a blockbuster.
She knows this may be the last chance, so she must give it her all!
Zhu Rui found a teacher who had not been in contact for many years to ask for advice and practiced dance diligently.
She adjusts her diet and daily life to ensure that she is in the best possible condition.
She even inquired about possible topics and prepared in advance.
Who knows, the show actually showed only a very small number of shots of her.
All expectations were disappointed.
After months of preparation for only one minute of exposure, Zhu Rui felt unprecedented despair.
She suspected that the show team deliberately "coldly treated" her.
Obviously, she performed well, but she didn't get any chances.
Why did I suffer this? Zhu Rui's heart was full of resentment.
Five
Frustrated, Zhu Rui turned on the computer and decided to share his hardships on the road of acting for many years:
When she first joined the group, she was also sexually harassed by male actors...... Afraid of losing her job, she could only swallow her anger.
She still remembers this incident vividly: when the actor took advantage of the camera to focus on her frontal close-up, he actually openly pinched her buttocks!
She was ashamed and angry, but she didn't dare to tell this ugly thing, for fear that she would be seen as pretending to be flattering.
That night, she ran alone to the corner of the roof and whimpered for hours.
has been running around for many years, and the living expenses of the elderly at home and the tuition fees of younger brothers and sisters are all supported by her.
She often calls her family late at night to hear them complain about their physical or life problems.
It's a pity that the salary is limited, and Zhu Rui still lives in a rented house.
She lives in a remote old neighborhood, with crawlers everywhere.
Rushing home after the announcement during the day, she just wanted to get a good night's sleep.
Recently, the landlord suddenly increased the price by 5,000 yuan, citing the need for renovation and renovation of the house.
forced her to move outside the remote Sixth Ring Road.
This directly disrupted her life.
Outside the Sixth Ring Road, there is no way to get around, and it takes several hours to commute every day.
But she can only endure the cheap rent, after all, life is forced.
"What the hell have I been fighting for all these years!" Zhu Rui typed this line indignantly.
How much have I endured over the years, but in the end I have achieved nothing, what is the point of all this?
Six
The burden of life has not been lightened by complaining, and Zhu Rui still has to face reality.
The new drama is on again.
This time, she played a gentle and virtuous sister "Mu Di".
"No matter what, we still have to continue filming. Zhu Rui sorted out his mood and returned to work.
Although she has long lost her original ideals and passions, the pressure of life forces her to move on.
Even if it is windy and frosty all the way, she has to grit her teeth and go on.
There are several emotional scenes in this play that make Zhu Rui very uncomfortable.
Especially when playing against the male protagonist, every time I hug her, I feel sick to my stomach.
The actor stinks so much! But she still has to endure the filming to finish.
This is the professionalism of an actor.
After filming, Zhu Rui ran to the bathroom alone and retched for a long time.
She looked at herself in the mirror, her eyes full of despair.
Seven
After the new drama was broadcast, it gained a good reputation, and Zhu Rui also attracted attention again and was awarded the "Best Supporting Actress".
This can be said to be a major success in her acting career.
But there wasn't much joy in her heart, only dazed and powerless.
Over the years, she has long understood the cruelty of the entertainment industry, and she has also seen the emptiness and wrongfulness in this circle.
What does this small success mean? It's just a glimmer of light in the endless night, fleeting.
Beneath the glorious appearance of the stars, there is unspeakable sadness.
Those restless youthful times, those beautiful dreams, have been wiped out on this thorny road.
Including Zhu Rui himself.
She used to have infinite admiration and yearning for stars, but now she is only numb and decadent.
She could see all the squalor and cruelty in this circle.
It's a pity that I've fallen too deep to get out.
Eight
Today, Zhu Rui's appearance is not as good as before.
She is no longer the bright and moving beautiful girl, but instead of vicissitudes and exhaustion.
How many all-nighters have covered her face with wrinkles, and how many long nights of losing hope have made her accumulate shadows under her eyes.
She knew it was all the result of her own choices.
"Do I really want to keep going?" Zhu Rui asked himself.
She is destined not to become a first-line actress, what kind of torture awaits her ahead?
She looked up at the sky, and the weather was gloomy, as if to match her state of mind at the moment.
Perhaps, it is time for her to find a place where no one knows and live a peaceful life.
Stay away from this cruel circle and live a life without fighting.
This is the entertainment industry, there are too many unknown secrets hidden behind the glamorous.
Behind every star, he is burdened with a burden that tens of millions of fans can't imagine.
In order to survive, they all had to give up their hearts.
That's the cruelty of this circle.
Maybe Zhu Rui is destined to leave in disgrace and never look back.
She's tired, really tired.
Epilogue:
When this cruel circle drains one fresh life after another, who will review and who will be responsible?
Among those fans who admire stars in front of the screen, how many of them really care about their sadness hidden behind the halo?
When we chase stars and consume, have we also become part of this cruel system?
This question is worth pondering for every celebrity fan.