Shallow response (referring to Tiger Search)
The night before I married Zhou Yinghuai, I saw his diary in his study.
I was with him for seven years, but in my diary there was a surging love for another girl.
On my birthday, he left me alone in the restaurant because of a phone call from my first love.
He was in a car accident and I took care of him for a few weeks, only to find out that the reason for his accident was that his first love was pregnant.
He adopted a stray dog with me, and I tried to overcome my fear of dogs when I was a child, and I loved the puppy in every way, but the diary said that the dog was abandoned by his first love, and he brought the dog back in order to keep his thoughts of his first love.
The next day was my wedding to him, and he was full of joy waiting to marry me, but I didn't want him anymore.
I have been with Zhou Yinghuai for seven years, divided and combined for seven years, and finally ended the long-distance love run recently, and the next day, it was my wedding to him.
He put a lot of thought into this wedding, his parents have been divorced for many years, and they have already formed a new family, and they have also been invited back by him.
In order to get married, I bought a wedding house with him, and the process of getting married was that they took me from the house I was renting now to the hotel and back to the wedding room.
Most of the things in this rented house have been moved to the bridal house.
But I was nostalgic, and the day before the wedding, I cleaned the house by myself.
When I went to the study, I found a box of old books, and when I opened it, there was a diary of Ying Huai for the week, which began when he was seventeen or eighteen years old and continued to record until he was twenty-three or fourteen years old.
And 90% of the pen and ink in the diary are describing his love for a girl named Zhang Wanning.
That afternoon, I sat on the wooden floor of my study, next to the Golden Retriever Coke that I had raised with Zhou Yinghuai for five years, and it accompanied me through the entire notebook.
After reading Zhou Yinghuai's surging love for Zhang Wanning since he was seventeen years old.
2
Zhou Yinghuai is my first love, I went to a bar with a friend for the first time when I was 20 years old, I was followed and harassed when I came home, it was he who suddenly appeared and saved me, I fought with those three people alone, and was scratched by a dagger carried by one of them.
That's how I got to know him.
He injured his arm and was hospitalized alone, and I, who was still in school, sneaked over, regardless of his refusal, and took care of him with a hot face and a cold ass.
He is very tall, with broad shoulders, narrow waist and long legs, and a figure of 185 with an inch head that tests the appearance of facial features, which fascinated me, who had never been in love at that time.
He seemed to be interested in me, sitting on the hospital bed and smiling at me, with a doting look in his eyes that I could see.
I fell in love with him at first sight, added contact information to each other, and I would find a topic to chat with him every day.
One day, half a month later, he called me out of the blue and said he was drunk.
When I arrived, he was sitting alone by the river, with empty bottles beside him.
I tried to help him home, but he suddenly held my face, looked at it for a long time, and suddenly lowered his head and kissed me.
It was my first kiss.
I sent him home and ran back to my dorm, and the next afternoon, he showed up downstairs in my dorm and said he was going to take me to dinner.
At the dinner table, I asked him with red ears, "So what is our relationship now?"
He looked up at me with a smile in his eyes.
"What do you say?"
3
That's how I was with him.
Vigorous and romantic, my whole person is full of happiness, I like to watch idol dramas, I feel that this is my true destiny.
But in his diary, he said this:
[Ning Ning, I was in a bar and met a girl who looked very similar to you.
[She seems to be coming to the bar for the first time, and she looks very nervous, like you who went to the bar with me for the first time.]
[I almost thought I was thinking about you and hallucinating, so when the girl walked out of the bar by herself, I followed.]
[I saw her being harassed by a few hooligans in the alley, and I knew she wasn't you.
[My Ning Ning, who is even more hooligan than a hooligan, how can he be bullied.
[I wanted to turn around and leave, but she was like you, so I relented, I helped her, but I didn't expect to be injured.
[She came to the hospital to take care of me, which is very caring, but my Ning Ning will not be like this.
[My Ning Ning will lean against the window, laugh at my poor skills, and then say very domineeringly: Wait for my sister to find you back next time.
[She is not you, and everyone will not be you.
[I have only one you in my life. 】
4
When I saw this page of the diary, I only felt my heart tremble, and for a moment I thought I was reading a joke on the Internet.
How could this person be Zhou Yinghuai, who is going to marry me tomorrow.
But look at it again, every word, it is written when I first met him.
It's just that I thought it was love at first sight, but from his point of view, I became someone else's stand-in.
My fingertips trembled slightly, and the Golden Retriever Coke sensed my mood change and rubbed its head against me before I was able to recover from the shock.
I exhaled heavily, reached out and touched Coke's little head, and at the same time reassured myself that it was all in 2017, and now it's been seven years.
It should be fine.
With a nervous mood and expectations for Zhou Yinghuai, I turned the next page.
Next, he said:
[She kept coming to the hospital to take care of me.
[She said that her name is An Qian, and she is a student at a nearby university, and her personality is completely different from you.
[I can tell that she likes me.]
[I don't like her, but she looks like you, and I am reluctant to drive her away.
[But the more she walked in front of me, the more I missed you, and I couldn't help but call you that night, only to find that I had already been blocked.
[I came out to get a phone card and called you again, but when you heard my voice, you said to me: Zhou Yinghuai, we are over.
[I drank a lot of wine alone by the river that night, and I suddenly remembered her, so I called her and said that I missed her.
[She really came, and she couldn't stop blushing when she saw me.]
[On the alcohol, I see that everyone is like you, so I held her face, and I kissed her.
[But her eyes are not like you, so I closed my eyes and thought she was you.
[Later, she came to me and asked me what my relationship was with her.
[I'll be with her.]
[Ning Ning, if you're not there, it's the same for everyone. 】
5
My body trembled uncontrollably, and I never had the courage to turn the next page.
I sat on the ground paralyzed, the diary in my hand slipped to the ground, I looked out the window in a daze, thinking about the bits and pieces of my relationship with Zhou Yinghuai in the past seven years.
When we first started together, Zhou Yinghuai really didn't care so much about me, he wouldn't take the initiative to come to my school to find me, wouldn't offer a date, and wouldn't give me flowers and gifts.
It's all me who is taking the initiative to advance our relationship.
But when I went to his school to look for him, he would look at me with a doting look on his face.
At first, I just thought that he was too busy, so he was relatively indifferent on the Internet, and he didn't have time to see me.
Now that the diary has been found, it turns out that everything is traceable.
He was indifferent to me online and just didn't love me.
When they met, they doted on me because he was looking at another girl through me.
6
I felt my face moist, and when I touched it, I realized that I had already burst into tears.
When Coke saw me crying, he was so anxious that he didn't know how to comfort me, but as he was tiptoeing around, he accidentally knocked over the diary, and a photo fell out of it.
I looked at it for a moment, hesitated, and picked up the photo.
It was a group photo, with a big cake in the middle, and the girl sitting in front of the cake I knew was Zhou Yinghuai's female hair Xiao Su Xi.
The other people in the photo, I also know seven, seven, eight, eight
In the second position on the left side of the photo, there is a girl sitting in a baseball uniform, with bangs and black straight lengths, which at first glance does look a little similar to me.
And behind her, there was Zhou Yinghuai, who was standing, different from the cold face when he was with me, he leaned forward, his head rested on the girl's shoulder, and he smiled with a pair of peach blossom eyes affectionate.
The photo has a date on April 1, 2017, Su Xi's birthday.
The day I first met Zhou Yinghuai was in September 2017.
I don't know when Zhou Yinghuai and Zhang Wanning broke up, but they still loved each other like that in April, and I met the lovelorn Zhou Yinghuai in September.
It's only been five months in between, no wonder Zhou Yinghuai took me to Su Xi and them later, and their eyes were so subtle when they looked at me.
It's a pity that I was in love at the beginning and didn't see the abnormality in it.
This was also the beginning of my tragedy.
Qi bangs are black and straight, I am so similar to Zhang Wanning, no wonder after I was with Zhou Yinghuai, once I had a whim, curled my hair, and changed a new hair color, Zhou Yinghuai was directly angry with me.
Sharply questioned why I had made my hair look like this.
Just when I was stunned when I looked at the photo, my phone suddenly rang, and Coke took my phone in my mouth, and I glanced at it.
It was Zhou Yinghuai who called.
……
7
Suddenly found this kind of thing, my brain was down, and I didn't know how to face Zhou Yinghuai for a while, so I didn't pick up his phone, but let him hang up by himself.
After a long time, I calmed myself down and sent him a message back.
[What's wrong?]
Zhou Yinghuai replied directly, the background sound was noisy, and it should be at the wedding banquet to confirm the final situation.
There was a smile in his voice: "You're done, you don't answer my phone, you're tired of getting married yet, right?"
Zhou Yinghuai has been with me for seven years, from the beginning of the cold and alienated, to the later more and more imageless, friends say that this is Zhou Yinghuai completely fell under my pomegranate skirt.
My fingertips were slightly cold, my palms were already sweaty, and I clenched my fist and let it go so that my fingers would no longer be stiff.
I typed back: [I was cleaning just now, what's wrong?]
Zhou Yinghuai sent me a video, which was at the wedding banquet.
"I'm here again, shallow, we'll get married tomorrow. 」
There was a slight tremor in his voice, and I could guess his expression at the moment through the phone.
The grand and gorgeous wedding banquet hall is full of my favorite roses, delicate and delicate, and the entire wedding banquet hall is very beautifully decorated, all of which are done by Zhou Yinghuai himself.
He planted the roses a year in advance, pruned them to look the best for the wedding indoors, and chose the day when the roses were in full bloom for our wedding.
Everyone said that Zhou Yinghuai loved me miserably.
He even signed a prenuptial agreement with me, as long as he cheated in marriage, he would leave the house, and he would not touch any of my property.
He relied on the company he had worked hard for, and he was willing to give it to me.
If I hadn't found this diary at this moment, I would have really thought that he really loved me.
8
Zhou Yinghuai didn't notice my abnormality, and was still talking about the situation at the scene.
"I asked a worker to move all the planted roses today, and the on-site layout is the same as what you described before, but just now a worker was careless when carrying roses, and one pot almost collapsed, I reached out to help, and the whole palm was injured by the thorns. 」
He sent a photograph of his palms scarred and his long, white and slender fingers stained with mud.
I held a photo of his first love in one hand, and my eyes sank.
I suddenly didn't know which one was the real Zhou Yinghuai.
It is Zhou Yinghuai, who records his surging love for Zhang Wanning in his diary.
Zhou Yinghuai, who still relies on his own hard work, is worth hundreds of millions, and is still willing to give up all his income as my dowry.
If his love for Zhang Wanning is true, then what are the seven years of me and him?
9
When I first got together with Zhou Yinghuai, he was not wealthy.
He and I were both juniors, but when my friends and I were struggling to study, he was hanging out at bars.
Several times when I was on my homework at school, I received a call from him, and his voice was mixed with the loud music of the bar.
He said, "Shallow, I miss you. 」
When I arrived, he was sitting in the booth, his eyes were very misty after being slightly drunk, looking at me through the crowd.
I tried to pull him up, but he pulled me into his arms.
"Do you drink?"
He asked.
I wanted to shake my head, but when I met his eyes, I nodded in bewilderment.
The corners of his mouth lifted slightly, he picked up the liquor next to him, took a sip of his own, and then pinched my chin and kissed me.
The liquor slid down the tip of his tongue into my throat, and I choked and blushed and coughed in his arms.
He patted me on the back and smiled heartily.
I love his unbridled youthfulness.
For me, a novice who has never been in love, it is easy to indulge in his doting and evil eyes.
10
I didn't like him to go to the bar, and after mentioning it a few times, he wouldn't listen, so I had a cold war with him for that.
I was busy with my homework, and after more than a week of not responding, he suddenly appeared downstairs in my dorm.
Again, "Shallow, I miss you." 」
From that point on, he stopped going to bars.
But my relationship with him has always been estranged.
I don't think I can get into his world.
He said to me, "That's how I am, I don't get close to anyone. 」
Until the summer of his senior year, he had a car accident, and he was fully responsible, although there were no casualties, but he also hit several cars on the side of the road, and he himself was injured.
Compensation and his own hospitalization, which required a large expense.
He didn't have a good relationship with his family, his parents divorced, and the family was reorganized, so even if he told his parents about it, his parents only sent a sum of money.
After he had a car accident, he didn't notify me, but after he was hospitalized, he called me and said that Zhou Yinghuai was alone in the hospital and had no one to take care of him.
At that time, I was still angry that he didn't reply to my messages for a day and a night.
When I came to the hospital, I saw him with a broken leg and a broken arm, and tears fell from my eyes.
I stood in the doorway and shed tears, and when he saw me, he beckoned me over.
The smell of disinfectant water in the nasal cavity and the sunlight poured in, and fine dust could be seen flying in the air.
I stood by his bedside and cried even more uncontrollably when I saw the wound on his face.
"I'm sorry......"
I took his other hand and buried my face in it.
His hand paused, and after a while, he asked, "Why do you say I'm sorry?"
I sobbed, "I didn't know you had a car accident, and I'm still blaming you for not replying to my messages, I'm sorry. 」
Seeing that I was crying uncontrollably, he seemed to want to comfort me, but his feet were hanging, his other arm was also in a cast, and the only remaining hand was still held by me.
He was silent for a long time, and could only sigh slowly.
「傻瓜。 」
11
I took care of him day and night, when graduation was approaching, everyone was busy looking for jobs and writing papers.
My school, interviews, and hospital are three points and one line, and I rotate every day, and even my papers are written in the ward of his hospital.
I stayed up so much that my eyes were red, and in the end, I didn't have enough rest, and when I was getting hot water for Zhou Yinghuai, I fainted in the corridor, and the boiling water in the thermos cup also spilled and splashed on my entire arm.
When I woke up, Zhou Yinghuai was watching me from the side in a wheelchair.
I saw a different look in his eyes, and his reddish eyes.
But he opened his mouth and said only one word to me.
"Fool, don't be so nice to me. 」
12
Later, I also slowly understood that when Zhou Yinghuai and I first started together, he didn't like me so much.
But I also think that he must have started to unguard me and reveal his true heart after that car accident.
In every way, that crash meant a lot to us.
But at this moment, I opened his diary.
In 2018, the date after his car accident, with his handwriting on it:
[I didn't expect to see you again after breaking up with me for more than a year, because I saw you being slapped by that man.
[Zhang Wanning, you'd rather be like this than be with me, right?
[I had a car accident in a trance after sending you away, and I wanted to send you a message, but I knew you wouldn't come.
[You have your dream of glory and wealth, I can't meet your requirements, you are ruthless, you won't come to see me.
[Someone takes care of me and is considerate, but I'm so cheap, I'm still thinking about you. 】
……
A few strokes, but in front of me, a truth that I can't accept.
I thought it was the change we opened up to, but it was actually him who saw his first love being humiliated by another man and broke down.
You see, I couldn't compare to it in the first place.
She is Zhang Wanning, and I am someone else.
In the days and nights when I took care of him with red eyes, the way he looked at me, he looked at others through me.
13
But all these years, I have been kept in the dark.
After I graduated, I got an offer from a company out of town, and it was a great opportunity.
When I hesitated, and even my parents thought that girls should not go so far, Zhou Yinghuai encouraged me.
"No matter what you do, I support you unconditionally. 」
Before I left, he dropped me off at the airport, he said.
"No matter how far you go, as long as you turn back, I will always stand behind you. 」
Because of his two words, I wandered alone in a strange city.
But during the two years I was away, his attitude towards me became more and more indifferent, even to the extent of coldly and violently forcing me to break up.
No matter how much I tried to keep him, no matter how much I begged, he was still that lukewarm.
Under the double pressure of relationship and work, my physical condition became worse and worse, and finally in the cold violence of Zhou Yinghuai who did not reply to messages for more than half a month, I acquiesced in the breakup.
But three months after the breakup, he suddenly appeared in my city.
Nearly two years of living alone, so that my stomach problem became more and more serious, that day I just finished working overtime in the company, covered my stomach and went downstairs to take a taxi, when I heard Zhou Yinghuai's voice appear behind me.
It was snowing that day, and when I turned around, he was standing in the snow, his eyes slightly red, and his eyes were still the same as before, with wet, hazy love.
He drove me back to my rental house, cooked for me every day for half a month, and picked me up downstairs from my company.
I tried to ask him why he had been cold and violent to me for the past two years, and why he had been indifferent to my retention.
But he avoided talking about it, and he took me into his arms, his eyes so gentle that he couldn't speak.
"Shallow, let's start over. 」
Later, I learned from his friend that he had a bad two years, and his father had cancer, and then I remembered that he had such a son, and I wanted him to go back to clean up the mess factory at home.
If he didn't comply, his father moved out his grandmother, who had been dependent on him since he was a child, to suppress him.
I loved him so much at the time that I naturally felt that he broke up with me because of too much pressure at home.
I love him, so even if he doesn't explain a word, I will make excuses for him.
14
But in his diary, he said that during that time, it was Zhang Wanning who wanted to turn back, so he alienated me.
When I thought he didn't reply to the message and worried about whether he had been in a car accident like before, he was arguing with Zhang Wanning.
When I was in the hospital with stomach pain and menstrual cramps working overtime, he took Zhang Wanning to a birthday party held by a friend.
On the night when I couldn't stand his cold violence and sent him a small essay crying, he was asked by Zhang Wanning to go to the hot spring.
Even when I finally mentioned breaking up, and he didn't reply after a whole day, he ran to the hospital to take care of Zhang Wanning, who was scratched by glass.
You see, people really don't need to be looked at.
15
I lay on the ground, crying uncontrollably.
What I thought was love now seems to be just a lie after a lie.
I've been raising Coke for three years, and it knows I'm sad, so it rubs over and asks me to hug it.
"Coke, Coke, what should I do?"
I hugged Coke and cried out all my grievances.
But girls often have a mentality, the more sad they are, the more they want to know the truth, even if they can't accept the truth.
So I held the Coke and continued to flip through the diary.
If the content of the diary was to reveal a bloody truth to me, then the content here is the final fatal blow.
With tears in my eyes, everything in front of me was blurred by tears, and I let go of Coke.
Crying and crying, I laughed out loud.
I clapped my hands like crazy: "Okay, okay, it's really good, Zhou Yinghuai, you are really willing to do anything for your Zhang Wanning, everyone, everyone is a tool on the road of love between the two of you." 」
This page of the diary is about Coke.
Coke was brought back by Zhou Yinghuai three years ago, I was bitten by a dog when I was a child, and I have a fear of dogs in my bones.
When you see a dog on the road, you have to walk around.
But Zhou Yinghuai said: "This golden retriever is really pitiful, let's adopt it, I'll buy you your favorite bag." 」
At that time, we were in the fourth year together, the relationship slowly stabilized, and the factory that his father transferred to him was also gradually on the right track with the efforts of him and me, and it hit tens of millions of profits in the first year, and is expected to exceed 30 million profits in the second year.
So compared to when I first met, he can now buy everything and give it to me because of my like.
It's not that I want that bag, it's just that I can see that Zhou Yinghuai likes that dog, and he wants to raise it.
So I tried to overcome my fear of dogs and try to accept the golden retriever.
In the fifth year we were together, Coke was accidentally caught by a dog dealer, and Zhou Yinghuai was talking about business in other places.
After informing my friend, I drove by myself and ended up colliding with the dog dealer's car, and there was a serious car accident, but Coke was rescued, and I was injured and in a coma for three days.
To this day, I can remember that when I woke up, I saw Zhou Yinghuai with a stubbled beard and bloodshot eyes.
16
But it was written in the diary.
The dog was raised by Zhang Wanning, and she was going to move to another city to live and say goodbye to Zhou Yinghuai, because she couldn't deal with that dog, so Zhou Yinghuai brought it back.
It turned out that Zhou Yinghuai's eyes when he looked at me by my bedside were not distressed, but guilty.
Just now, I could have hugged Coke and cried after I was sad, but now, I look at Coke in front of me and feel that everything is a lie.
I covered my mouth and looked at the Coke in front of me.
The hairy child is innocent, but I can't fully accept it.
17
The wedding went ahead the next day as usual, and I didn't say anything about it.
I didn't take anything, so I took my ID card and bank card, and bought a ticket to Shanghai that night.
That diary and coke, I left in that house.
I have lived with Zhou Yinghuai for many years, and I have long been indistinguishable from you and me, everything has memories of him, and I don't want anything.
The first people who noticed I was missing were my parents and the friends I had asked to be bridesmaids.
They tried to confirm what to do tomorrow, but found that my phone was no longer available.
I messaged both my parents and my friends about what had happened, and finally hoped that my parents wouldn't blame me for leaving the mess for them.
After landing at a friend's house in Shanghai, I turned off my phone.
Before I turned it off, I saw a message from my parents.
[Shallow, although we blame you for saying goodbye, but marriage is a lifelong thing after all, if it is true, your parents want you to fly farther. 】
I can't accept a love that is not pure from the beginning, and I don't want to be the love cannon fodder of Zhou Yinghuai and Zhang Wanning.
They love each other so much, so don't be involved with me in this wedding.
18
After I briefly told my friend in Shanghai, she didn't ask too much.
Just ask me, "Are you still sad?"
I looked up, and my eyes were still red and swollen.
Seven years of affection, it is false to say that it is not uncomfortable.
My friend's eyes were full of distress and he held me in his arms: "My baby is good, don't cry or cry, my sister will take you to Hipi." 」
When I was shopping with my girlfriend for afternoon tea, my girlfriend received a phone call.
She looked at me with a strange expression, and I only glanced at it.
"Zhou Yinghuai called. 」
My girlfriend hummed and asked me, "Do you want to take it?"
I took a sip of my coffee, "No, you can go back as you want." 」
My best friend is a Northeast girl, she turned her back to me, and then connected the phone, and scolded her head and face.
"It's all like this, why are you still calling, don't you love your first love, and you love inseparable, then you two are together, what kind of stand-in disgusting people, I tell you, An Qian is here now, but you don't want to see her again, you shameless thing, a man who doesn't abide by male morality will be punished by God......
The girlfriend scolded so heartily that even the people around her turned their heads to look, and when she scolded happily, she hung up the phone.
Regarding the wedding, I have asked my parents to return the bride price, and if Zhou Yinghuai still wants any compensation, it can also be negotiated.
I thought it would be nice to solve it this way.
But the next day, I received a call from those friends at home.
"Shallow, Zhou Yinghuai is like crazy, drunk every night, knocking on our door in turn, asking us where you are, no matter what we say, it's useless. 」
I have a headache, I don't want to hear Zhou Yinghuai's voice, I don't want to have anything to do with him, but I don't want my friends to be harassed.
I had to get a phone card and send him a message.
[I have already asked my parents to convey what I should say, if you are not satisfied, what compensation do you need, you can also tell my parents, but I don't want to support the love between you and Zhang Wanning, I don't want a love that is not pure from the beginning, we are all adults, and we have to bear the consequences for what we have done, so we don't want to bother each other anymore, and I don't want you to bother my friends again. 】
19
I originally wanted to turn off the phone after sending the message, but I didn't expect that as soon as the message was sent, Zhou Yinghuai's phone called.
I hesitated, but pressed the answer button.
Zhou Yinghuai's voice was drunk, but the surroundings were quiet, not like in a bar.
His voice trembled, different from the last call, when he had the joy of marrying me, this time with some fear in his trembling voice.
"Shallow, I can explain it, the diary thing, the Coke thing, I can explain anything you want to know, can you give me a chance?"
I was stunned for a moment, and then said, " Zhou Yinghuai, before leaving, I thought about it very seriously, I think we should be separated, at the beginning together, you didn't like me so much, but I liked you, so I can keep chasing you, this chase, is seven years, I thought I was going to marry my beloved, but I didn't know until I read the diary, these are all bubble lies, even if I really marry you on impulse now, but after that, these things will be like a knot in my heart, and will always be entrenched in my heart.
"I will be suspicious of you, I will quarrel with you, there are only trivial things left between us, and the feelings of mutual suspicion will not go far, but it is better to separate a little more decently now......
Zhou Yinghuai's voice rose a few degrees: "We are going to get married, there is your favorite rose at the wedding, how can we be separated like this......
Before Zhou Yinghuai's words fell, I spoke: "Many things in this world are related to cause and effect, from the first time we met in a bar, when you came to me because I looked like Zhang Wanning, I was destined to leave after I found out about it. 」
Zhou Yinghuai was stunned.
He may only remember now that he was driving everything.
I said, "Zhou Yinghuai, in fact, maybe we are not suitable, in the past seven years, we have been separated, and we have reunited, and I don't delve into many things, but now, I have also let go of my obsession, and we will disperse." 」
I wanted to hang up the phone after I finished speaking, but Zhou Yinghuai's voice almost collapsed from the other side of the phone.
He said, "Shallow, things are not what you think, let's meet and talk about it after we meet, is it okay?"
I held the passport in my hand, my girlfriend had already helped me get a visa, and I was going to fly abroad to relax.
I was stunned for a long time and then said, "Zhou Yinghuai, do you remember the two years when I went to work in other places after I graduated?"
Zhou Yinghuai snorted with a crying voice.
I continued, "You suddenly became indifferent to me, no matter how much I begged, how much I kept it, you were indifferent, and finally you relented, and I flew back to see you, and after you played with me for two days, and finally that night, you, who were having dinner with me, answered a phone call and left, and the next day I waited for you at the airport for five hours, and called you countless times, and you didn't reply.
"The call you received on the night of dinner was from Zhang Wanning, right?"
Zhou Yinghuai was stunned, I understood what he meant.
I sighed and replied with a smile, "I've done my best, so I don't have any regrets. 」
With that, I hung up my phone and turned it off.
In fact, I have never forgotten that Zhou Yinghuai treated me badly during the time of separation, but I loved him at that time, so I selectively ignored those bad things.
My love has hidden those things in the corner, but when my love for him is getting less and less, those hurts, those moments of indifference, those disappointments and loneliness, in order to cater to his principles that he has lowered again and again, all of them are like finding an outlet, all of them burst out.
I met him at the age of 20 and had been entangled for seven years, and I thought I would marry him on the day I turned 27.
But I didn't expect that I was a stand-in from beginning to end.
Later, I stood in the waiting room of the airport flying abroad, watching people come and go, from then on, there are still many stories in the world, but there will be no more stories of An Qian and Zhou Yinghuai.
Goodbye, twenty-seven-year-old Zhou Yinghuai.
Goodbye, the former Anshalla.