A woman I know has maintained an illicit relationship with her lover for more than ten years, which is an inextricably linked relationship, tangled and complicated, but difficult to part.
Her name is Liu Yunxia, and she is a classical beauty, her eyebrows and eyes are like the sunshine of early spring, warm and bright. We met in college days, and by chance we met, I was attracted to her beauty and gentleness, and we quickly fell in love.
In desperation, we chose to have a secret relationship, but this improper relationship miraculously lasted for more than ten years.
It was a summer afternoon, and we met at a small restaurant. The first time I saw her, my heart rippled.
Sitting down, Liu Yunxia began to talk about the predicament she was about to face, her husband had discovered our relationship, the pressure on her family was getting heavier and heavier, and she could no longer endure the torment.
"Yunxia, we can't just give up. I persuaded her, "We can face all this together and walk out of our own path."
She shook her head, tears beginning to roll in her eyes, "I can't be sorry for my family, they have given me so much.
My heart was suddenly overwhelmed by a feeling of hopelessness. "Is there any other possibility between us?" I asked.
"I don't know, maybe that's the only option we have. She said with a slight tremble.
I looked at Liu Yunxia, and a resolute impulse surged in my heart. "Yunxia, I don't want to give up the relationship between us, we can't give up so easily.
Her eyes were misty and complicated, "You know, the relationship between us is real, but the problems we face in reality are also real.
"Yunxia, I can wait, I will wait for you. We can face difficulties together, and we can also find our own happiness in the future.
That day, our conversation didn't lead to anything. Liu Yunxia left with self-reproach, leaving me alone in the restaurant to meditate.
This tortuous relationship seems destined to be difficult to consummate, and there is nothing I can do.
That's when I got a phone call from my mother. Her voice was a little nervous, "Child, where are you?" Dad had an accident and is now in the hospital, come here."
My father was lying on the hospital bed, his face pale, and his eyes were full of helplessness when he saw me.
"Dad, what's wrong with you?!" I was anxious.
"Kid, I really can't do it this time, I have a lot to say to you. Father's voice was weak.
I shook his hand, tears blurring my eyes, "Dad, you're going to be fine." I said with tears in my eyes.
At this special moment, I suddenly realized how deep my affection for my family is, and the love of my parents cannot be replaced.
How do I choose?
Stroking Liu Yunxia's hand, my heart was like being cut by an invisible knife. For more than a decade, we have been like glue, but we also know that this improper relationship is a bottomless pit after all, and we have fallen into boundless pain.
As I tried to persuade her to discourage the idea of leaving, a message broke the conversation between us. Her husband was suddenly in a car accident and his life hung by a thread.
"He's dying, and I feel like I'm left with nothing... But I didn't dare to look at him, I never had the courage to face him, I was too timid.
I stood silently and didn't say anything. At that moment, her cell phone rang, and it was a friend of her husband's call.
Liu Yunxia stood up almost mechanically, and she glanced at me with endless confusion in her eyes. I know that the problem between us is not resolved, but the more important thing at the moment is her husband's health.
In the waiting room of the hospital, Liu Yunxia buried her head and tears kept flowing. I stood by helplessly, my heart filled with endless apologies for her pain.
I couldn't give her more comfort and help when she needed it most.
This despair and helplessness quickly invaded me, and I began to reflect on our relationship. Perhaps all this is predestined, and the illicit relationship between us will eventually lead to this irreparable result.
When I think about it, maybe she's right. Our relationship was so tiring and painful that I didn't want her to suffer for me anymore.
I was exhausted by a series of emotions. She and I walked out of the small restaurant in silence, each carrying heavy thoughts.
I looked at that picture and felt unspeakable pain in my heart.
I stayed up all night, and in the early morning, I decided to go to her and have a good talk. I rang the doorbell, and after a while, the door slowly opened, her eyes red and swollen, and she looked like she had not slept all night.
She was silent for a moment, tears streaming down her face. "I don't want to lose you, but this relationship is too painful for us to go on like this.
I took her hand, her eyes firm, "Yunxia, give us one last chance, let's try to face all this and find our own happiness."
Hesitation flashed in her eyes, and she finally nodded, "Okay, let's try." ”