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My name is Lin Hai and I am 53 years old this year. has always been single, and has always lived a life of fighting for his career. I failed the college entrance examination that year and entered an ordinary university majoring in mechanical engineering. After graduating from university, I stayed in a small county near my school and got a technical job in a factory. The salary was not high, but I was diligent and studious, and I was slowly promoted to the position of workshop director. Ten years ago, I quit my job and started a machine shop, and business is booming.
One day at the end of last year, I drove home after visiting the factory as usual. When passing by a small foot washing shop, a woman stood at the door to solicit business, shouting loudly, "Wash comfortably, go happily". She looked a little funny in an old pink coat, with a big round belly, and a thick pile of liquid foundation and lipstick on her face. I thought to myself, this woman is good enough.
At this moment, she seemed to have discovered a new world, and beckoned to me excitedly: "Handsome guy, come in and try, I guarantee that you are satisfied!"
I rolled down the window and waved at her, "No, no, no, I have something to do." ”
She folded her hands together and looked pleading: "Handsome guy, please, business has been cold recently, can you give face?"
I looked at her exaggerated appearance and couldn't help but laugh: "Okay, okay, just once." ”
She clapped her hands happily and ran into the store. I parked the car and paced in.
The footwash shop is small, with five or six chairs taking up most of the space. On the walls are old calendars and yellowed posters of health check-ups. There is a TV set in the corner with a talk show, and several artists on the stage are talking to you.
I watched her hurry to pour boiling water, and couldn't help but ask, "Auntie, are you the boss here?"
"My surname is Zhang, and my name is Zhang Min. It's the boss, and he's also a foot washer!" She said with a smile.
"Oh~" I tilted my head to look at her, "Look at your spiritual leader, you are more desperate than me, the fifth elder!"
She came over with a teacup and sat down across from me: "I'm 47 years old, I'm in the prime of life! Besides, I'm a woman who is outcast, who will care about me? I can only carry it myself!"
I took the teacup and took a sip, the bitter taste spread in my mouth: "That Sister Zhang is not easy, it must be not simple." ”
She waved her hand: "What is not simple, desperate people will desperately survive." When I was a child, my family was not well-off, so I dropped out of junior high school and worked on my own. Later, I followed a man, gave birth to two children, and was dumped by the bastard. I had to live in the city with my children, starting as a dishwasher, and now I have my own small business, which can be regarded as self-supporting. ”
When I heard her talk about this experience, I couldn't help but applaud her: "Sister Zhang, you are really a strong woman!
She smiled knowingly and took out a plastic basin from under the table: "Okay, okay, it's time to get down to business." Put your feet in!"
Sister Zhang's ten fingers flexibly pressed the soles of my feet and ankles, and the force was moderate, making me feel so comfortable that I wanted to take a nap.
"It's not okay to fall asleep!" She pinched my foot so hard that I almost jumped up in pain, "Chat, chat!"
I resisted the urge to curse and forced a smile: "Then what are you talking about?"
"Let's talk about you!" She didn't raise her head, "Seeing that your car is not small, it should be a good mix, right?"
"It's okay, I opened a small factory in the local area. "I'm a little embarrassed.
"Yo, it's not easy!" She nodded approvingly, "That's sure to make a lot of money!
I shook my head: "I've been single, concentrating on my career." ”
"Also, how can a successful man have time to fall in love!" She pouted, seemingly disagreeing.
We chatted about my family background and career for a while, and Sister Zhang repeatedly praised me as a "real man" and "constantly fighting". I also asked her about the business of the foot shop, and it turned out that she had rented this small shop for three years, and the business was average, barely making ends meet. I can't help but feel sorry for her situation, after all, it is not easy for a woman to support herself on this meager income.
Before I knew it, Sister Zhang had already washed my two feet and skillfully massaged my whole body. I felt refreshed, as if the fatigue of work had disappeared.
"Sister Zhang, you are amazing! I haven't been so comfortable for many years!" I am truly amazed.
"That's nature!" She was triumphant, "Sister Ben's craftsmanship is first-class, I promise to make you immortal!"
I laughed and took out 200 yuan: "Thank you so much!
"What is done, take it quickly!" She shoved the money into my arms.
I waved my hand: "Sister Zhang has helped a lot today, and she deserves this tip!"
She pursed her lips and smiled: "Then I'm welcome! Actually, you're quite handsome, why don't we take a group photo to commemorate it?"
I laughed and said, "Okay, okay, I have to show off to my friends, and I have to be served by a beautiful woman to give birth to a lotus!"
So Sister Zhang washed her hands, stood side by side with me, and took a few photos with her mobile phone. Her face seemed to be painted with a layer of oil paint, which was bright and dazzling. I couldn't help but praise her: "Sister Zhang, your makeup is simply a living sign!"
She happily patted me: "Look at you, just come to a set of stinky mouths!"
I looked at my watch and said goodbye to her. Before leaving, she pulled me back again: "Give me your phone!"
Confused, I handed over my phone. She quickly pressed it a few times, and then returned it to me: "Remember, come more when you have time!
That's when I realized that she had saved her phone number for me.
Since then, I often go to Sister Zhang's small foot wash shop to chat, massage, drink tea, and sometimes even wait for her to get off work and take her home. We talked about my factory and her business like old friends, chatting and having fun. I found that Sister Zhang is a very real person, there is no frame at all, and I feel very relaxed with her. Maybe our experiences are similar, but I'm also self-made and understand the hardships she endured.
After another day of work, I drove to the door of Sister Zhang's store. As soon as her old customer left, as soon as she saw me, she immediately smiled: "Come to rub tea again? Recently, I have made a new good tea, which is guaranteed to be better than the wastewater from your factory!"
"Just come on!" I sat down with her, "I want to drink your tea every day, I don't know how high it is higher than my secretary's brew!"
"Then you recruit me to be a secretary in your company!" She giggled.
"This can be had!" I said in passing.
She was stunned: "Are you serious?"
I thought about it for a moment and nodded: "The factory is short of manpower, and it just so happens that you are fine." Why don't you try it at my company?"
Her eyes lit up, "Okay! I'm trying to change the environment!"
In this way, our relationship became closer and closer. Even though she's 6 years older than me, we always have a lot of things to talk about. She talked to me like a buddy, and I was willing to listen. Sometimes after the night shift, I would drive her home, and we would often sing and talk late into the night. I found that I had more affection for her than for my friends, and I seemed to be in love with her. One day, I finally mustered up the courage to confess to Sister Zhang.
After the night shift, I drove her home as usual. She lives in a dilapidated neighborhood on the outskirts of the city, living alone. I parked the car and drove her downstairs as usual. Suddenly, I held her hand and looked solemnly into her eyes: "Sister Zhang, I don't know if you will mind something." ”
She raised her eyebrows curiously: "You say, do you want to refund your salary?"
"No, no, no. I took a deep breath, "It's like, I like, like you." ”
Her eyes widened like a frightened fawn: "You, what did you say?"
I mustered up all my courage and said loudly: "Sister Zhang, I love you!" This time of getting along makes me feel that you are the most beautiful woman in the world. I'm truly in love with you. ”
She froze in place, her mouth wide open, and she couldn't recover for a while.
I carefully held her hand: "I know it might be a little sudden. You think clearly, don't force it. ”
She shook her head, as if still in a dream: "No, no, no, I'm pleasantly surprised." It's just so sudden that I need some time to think. ”
I breathed a sigh of relief and said softly, "Okay, you think slowly." No matter what the outcome is, we're still good friends. ”
I was so happy that without saying a word, I hugged her and spun around: "Great! I promise to be good to you!"
From that day on, we were officially together. I started to appear at Sister Zhang's house frequently, cooking with her, watching TV, walking, and visiting the supermarket. I found that she was living on a tight budget, and she often had to save money to survive. I feel sorry for her, so I often pay for her gifts. She refused at first, but then accepted it happily.
A few months later, my parents urged me to get married and have children. When I mentioned the news of my love to them, they firmly objected, thinking that Sister Zhang was too big with me and not decent enough. I had a big argument with my parents and said that I would definitely marry her.
Soon I proposed to Sister Zhang. She was overjoyed and speechless. I put an engagement ring on her and she hugged me with tears in her eyes, saying I was the savior of her life.
Seeing that her family was poor, I suggested that she move in with me. She shyly agreed. Soon she moved all the important items of the family into my villa and began a happy cohabitation.
At first, I did my best to take care of her life and make her carefree. I hired a servant, and she had plenty of food to eat every day; I buy her beautiful clothes, and she dresses them brightly; I gave her a credit card and told her to shop as she pleased. She was so happy, she was coquettish with me all day long, and we were very sweet.
However, the good times did not last long, and after a few months of living together, she began to have some abnormalities. I found that she was often alone and didn't want to tell me when asked. Once, I went to pick her up from work as usual, but she said that she would work overtime and asked me to go back first. It was late that day, and I waited until she came back without seeing anyone. In the days that followed, she worked more overtime and sometimes didn't come home late at night.
I became suspicious and anxious at home alone. After a few more days, I couldn't hold back and decided to follow her to see what she was doing.
I went to pick her up at the company as usual that day, and she said that she had something to do and worked overtime. I pretended to go, but quietly hid in a nearby grove. Later, I saw a tall and handsome man driving a motorcycle to the door of the company, and Sister Zhang ran down quickly to meet him. The two sweetly hooked their shoulders and got on the motorcycle, driving in opposite directions.
My heart was like a knife, and I was filled with grief and indignation. It turns out that she has a new love outside! I think of her abnormal behavior these days, they must have been secretly hooking up for a long time! Did I misread her? I was so good to her, how could she bear to steal people behind my back? I drove around for hours in distraught and didn't return home until late at night. Sister Zhang hadn't come back yet, and I was anxiously pacing around the living room, waiting for her explanation.
At two o'clock in the morning, the door finally opened. Sister Zhang slipped in with a smile and saw my face change greatly: "You, why don't you sleep yet?"
I sneered, "I'm guarding you!
Her face turned pale: "You, you know?"
"I don't know if it's reasonable?" I roared, "We have such a good relationship, how can you bear to make a small move behind my back? Who is that man? What does it have to do with you?"
She blushed and stammered.
I grabbed her shoulder and shook her violently: "Say, who is that man, how long have you been carrying me?"
She broke free from me in horror and shouted, "Let go of me!
"Friends go on a midnight date?" I gritted my teeth.
"Come on, I can see it clearly!" I was furious, "Isn't it just that you're tired of your own life and have no taste? Think I've raised you too well and want to find excitement? It's still too late to change your mind, and if you dare to meet the junior in private in the future, I will make you regret it immediately!"
"Shut up!" I slammed my fist against the wall, and she turned pale with fright, "I don't believe a word you say anymore!
I slammed the door in a frenzy and drove to a friend's house for the night. For three whole days, I refused to answer any phone calls from Sister Zhang, for fear that I would not be able to control my thunderous emotions as soon as I opened my mouth and quarrel with her.
She came to my office with red eyes, and I was about to speak, but she spoke first: "Lin Hai, let's break up." ”
I was surprised: "What did you say?"
"Let's break up. She choked up, tears welling up again, "During this time, I thought about it repeatedly and felt that our personalities were not suitable. You're too overbearing, you don't believe me, you don't give me space. I just can't take it anymore. ”
I hurriedly explained: "I was a little too excited at that time, and you know that men's tempers come and go quickly. I've already reflected on myself and I'll change it in the future. ”
She shook her head: "It's too late. Since we lived together, you have been too strict with me. I obviously have my own life and circle of friends, so you have to meddle in the management of the east and west. I really can't accept this life, let's break up. ”
She took two steps back: "There is no chance! We are two types of people by nature, and we can't get along." Break up, Lin Hai, you can live your own life in the future. ”
After saying that, she ran out without looking back, leaving me to sit in the office stupidly, with tears streaming down my face.
For the rest of the day, I was in a trance. I called Sister Zhang countless times to apologize and sent countless messages begging for reunion, but she didn't answer them all. I even went to her door to block her, and she went directly to the security guard to drive me away, and her attitude was so tough that I despaired.
My life fell apart in an instant, and I was in a trance in the company, and my productivity plummeted. My parents and friends urged me to forget her and start over, but I couldn't get her out of my mind, and I was sad all day long.
A month later, I heard that Sister Zhang left her job to open a new foot washing shop, and business was booming. I couldn't hold back any longer, so I drove straight away.
I finally blocked her at the door of her new store. Her figure was a little rounder, the look on her face was restored, and she was wearing beautiful new clothes to attract business. When she saw me, her face changed slightly, and she quickly closed the roller shutter door.
I grabbed her arm: "Can you listen to me?"
She glared at me with red eyes: "You are not welcome here!
"Please!" I burst into tears, "I've had a bad month, thinking about you every day. Please give me a chance, can we get back together?"
She shook my hand away: "No way! I've started a new life, don't bother me!"
"Tell me, then, what went wrong between us?" I clung to the door frame, "I'm willing to change myself completely!"
She glared at me coldly: "The problem is that your thinking is too old-fashioned! I have to let women be at your mercy and supervise endlessly." You can't fix this!"
I pleaded, "I can change it!" I promise you that I will never care about your life and your friends in the future!"
Looking at the back of Sister Zhang's departure, I only felt that the surrounding environment had lost its color and vitality, and everything had left me. Her back shrank infinitely, and finally disappeared at the end of the street, this woman, finally leaving my world.
I sat helplessly on the ground, in despair. January is gone, and she seems to be rejuvenated. And I, day by day, day by day, the whole person is haggard and emaciated, and I have lost motivation for work.
In the midst of the pain, I couldn't help but reflect on what was wrong with me that made her disgusted and choose to turn her back on me, the man who loved her deeply. I thought about it, maybe she was right, it was my unreasonable possessiveness and control that made her breathless. Even though she is 47 years old and has her own mature life, I want her to obey my command like a little girl who obeys patriarchy. This kind of life, no matter how much material I provide, it can't make up for the unhappiness in her heart.
Women, they are independent individuals, they also have their own personality charm, their own connections and life circles. If you have to discipline them well and control them, it will only make them feel embarrassed and break down. Zhang Min left me, not entirely because of that man, but because of me, a man with a strict style, who tried to elevate her freedom and dignity, which backfired.
After I figured it out, I regretted it infinitely. However, it was too late, and she would never give me any chance again. In this life, I have lost neither her love nor her precious friendship. Looking back, I feel nothing but guilt and pain.
I don't know how long I sat there until it got dark. Later, a passer-by passed by and helped me up and asked me what was wrong. I shook my head mechanically and didn't speak, and sat back down at the door of the community. All night, I sat like that, letting the wind and rain blow and lose all hope.
For the rest of the day, I lived like the walking dead. I couldn't lift my spirits at work anymore, and my subordinates faced chaos in their work. The factory's business began to plummet, and it suffered heavy losses. When my friends and family saw me like this, they were anxious and distressed. They encouraged me to come out of the shadows as soon as possible and get back to life. I always looked like a dead man, and I wasn't interested in anything.
I read this short sentence again and again, and I shuddered with excitement. She is still willing to meet me! This shows that she still cares about me and is willing to give me a chance! As long as I see her again, I will definitely make her understand my changes, accept me again, and rebuild her old friendship with me!
I began to look frantically forward to the day of the appointment. I even took half a day off to see her. I packed myself up, put on my most decent suit, put on her favorite tie, and came to our old place.
She showed up on time, looking radiant, in a pale yellow dress, and stepped in lightly. I excitedly stepped forward, and she smiled and made a gesture of please. I quickly pulled out a chair and asked her to sit down, and I sat down myself.
"Zhang, Zhang Min. I was a little incoherent, "Thank you for your willingness to see me." You, how are you doing?"
"I'm fine, the company is growing smoothly and my life is fulfilling. She said lightly, "What about you? I heard that you haven't been doing well lately?"
I took a deep breath and summoned all my courage: "Minmin, I have been thinking about it repeatedly during this time, and I know that I did it wrong. I shouldn't have been so brutal in controlling your life, and I shouldn't have lost my mind and raged like a thunderbolt. I figured it out, you have your own world, there are countless possibilities, and I shouldn't deprive you of space and dignity. I really knew I was wrong!"
Zhang Min listened quietly and did not speak.
At this point, I burst into tears.
She sighed, "It may be too late. We just don't have the right personalities, and we are destined to get together less and leave more. ”
I knelt at her feet and clasped her hand and begged for mercy: "Please, let's start over! I swear I will be a relaxed and easy-going boyfriend this time, and make you happy every day!
She frowned and stood up: "Lin Hai, for the sake of being a public place now, you can get up." It's really impossible between us. ”
I put my arms around her legs: "No! You have to promise me! I have to change my ways, can't you accept me if I am reformed?"
At this time, the other customers in the foot washing shop were looking at us, and someone suggested calling the police. Zhang Min reluctantly pulled me to the bathroom and lowered his voice: "You're crazy!
Seeing that I couldn't cry, she couldn't bear it, and her tone finally softened: "Okay, let's be ordinary friends first, and have time to come out for dinner and talk." But the likelihood of a lover is very small, you don't count on it. ”
I nodded excitedly, shook her hand and swore hard, "No problem, no problem! Friends are friends! I will cherish every opportunity to spend time with you!"
From that day on, I always restrained myself and appeared in front of Zhang Min as a friend. I learned to be tolerant, I learned to understand, and I no longer dictated her life. When I talk to her, I am no longer pretentious or controlling, but listen patiently, sometimes gags to amuse her.
Luckily, Zhang Min really gave me a chance. She would often ask me out for a walk in the park, a chat at a café, or a supermarket purchase, and I would try my best to show her gentle and funny side and make her get to know me again. Sometimes we cook and watch TV together, and I'm so glad I find her laughter coming back to life.
My friends say I've been feeling better lately and I'm back to normal. I regained my life because I had her again, even if only as a friend. I also learned to cherish and no longer have any extravagant expectations for her. As long as she's happy, I'm satisfied.
The next day, we had a chat at the café. She asked me mysteriously, "If, I mean if, if we were together, would you still be like you used to be?"
I immediately shook my head: "Absolutely not! I can't control my possessiveness at all, it's too much." Now that I'm grown up, you have your world and life, and I just need to walk with you for a while and I'll be satisfied!"
She smiled shyly: "Then I'll think about it and pick you up." "I was so excited that I almost jumped up and shouted on the spot. I tried to keep my composure: "I'm going to take it one step at a time and win your heart again." ”
From that day on, we quietly got back together. But I learned to be obedient and strictly restrain myself not to take a step beyond the thunder pool. I learned to be considerate of her thoughts and often took her to play and relax. She gradually let off her guard and became my cute and lively girlfriend again.
Now we're back in cohabitation, but I've given her more personal space and haven't interfered too much in her life. She will also take the initiative to share her circle of friends and observations with me, and our relationship is warming up day by day, and it is very sweet.
Life is a process of failure and starting anew. I've also come to understand that loving someone doesn't mean possessing someone. No matter what happens after that, I will never hold on to her like I used to. Heaven gave me this opportunity again, and I vowed to cherish it forever and make her happy and carefree.