[The content of the article is purely fictional, it is written by the author personally, and any similarities are purely coincidental]
My mother took my hand before she died, saying that she was satisfied that she could train me so well in her life.
Her only regret is that she has not lived her life to herself.
I took my mother's hand and was speechless for a while.
In the midst of tears, I heard the ECG monitor beep.
With tears in my eyes, I did something for my mother.
On a normal night, I cried and fell asleep as usual.
But the moment I opened my eyes, I realized that something was wrong.
01
I became my grandmother, but what about my mother?
My mother's life was not easy, my grandfather passed away a long time ago, leaving my grandmother, mother and younger brother.
Although it was actually very difficult for my grandmother to pull the family alone, she had a very traditional mindset, she spoiled my uncle like a baby, and my mother was like a grass in that family.
In fact, my mother has been very eager to read since she was a child, but because my mother is a girl, my grandmother is unwilling to let her study, and her baby pimple-like son has this opportunity but does not learn anything.
Later, my uncle was getting married, but he didn't have enough money, so my grandmother married him to my father, Wei Zhenhai, saying that he was married, but in the final analysis, it was to sell my mother to the Wei family.
When I was growing up, my mom said to me, "I thought I was jumping out of one fire pit, but what I didn't expect was that I jumped from one fire pit to another, but Ru Ru, you will always be my proudest work." ”
That's right, my dad and my mom have long been separated, my dad's temper is not good, and he often drinks and plays cards, and when things don't go his way, he scolds my mom, and because I'm a girl, I've never been treated well by my dad.
Finally, my mother decided to divorce, she didn't want anything, as long as I was alone, things didn't go so smoothly, but because my mother hadn't been pregnant for many years, my dad decided to release her.
My father remarried, and this time he gave birth to a younger brother as he wished, but my father didn't want to let me and my mother go, and when he didn't have any money, he reached out and asked my mother directly.
Not only my father, but also my uncle, my mother had no choice but to take me to Tibet, under my mother's teaching, I grew up very well, but just when I wanted to repay my mother, my mother was admitted to the hospital.
I went to the doctor that day, and the doctor said that my mother had esophageal cancer that had metastasized to her lungs, and it was estimated that she would not live for more than three months.
I pushed open the door of the ward, and my mother was sitting in the sun, with a warm layer of sunshine on her body, and my mother heard the door ringing, turned her head and looked at me with a smile, and at that moment, my tears fell instantly.
My mother was obviously flustered: "What's the matter, Ruru, is someone bullying you?" Tell your mother, and your mother will fight with them. ”
"No, Mom, I'm just ......" I cried silently, but I had some remorse, how could I not hold it in front of my mother?
My mother was stunned for a moment, but then she understood a little, and then she said: "People actually have this step, and the task of my life has been completed, so don't be so sad when you leave!"
I cried after listening to my mother, and lo and behold, she knew everything!
Time passed day by day, and I began to become more and more anxious, and after working in the company every day, I would go directly to the hospital to accompany my mother, who may have seen my reluctance and always comforted me, and we both tacitly did not mention leaving.
But the day finally came, and over the course of a few months, my mother became thinner and thinner, and by the day she left, her body seemed to merge with the quilt.
Originally, the doctor was going to slit her throat, but my mother didn't want to do that, because then she wouldn't be able to talk to me, and when she was leaving, she was very reluctant to hold my hand, and I knew what she meant.
She said that I am her most satisfied work, and she has never regretted giving birth to me in her life, but she has a little regret because she has not lived for herself in a dignified manner.
I listened to my mother's words, and I couldn't cry for a while, if I really have the next life, Mom, I will take care of you, and you will live your own life.
After the ECG monitoring "drip-", my heart collapsed, my dearest relatives in the world were gone, and I didn't know how I lived those days.
In fact, on the day of my mother's burial, I didn't cry, but when I returned to our home, my mother was everywhere, I woke up in my sleep countless times, subconsciously called my mother, at that time, I clearly realized that my mother was no longer there.
While sleeping, as soon as I close my eyes, I can't help but think about my mom, and my tears drip down my cheeks and onto the pillow.
But this time is different......
02
"Mom!" I woke up from my sleep again, but the unfamiliar environment in front of me made me a little confused for a moment, the house looked very old, not like a house from this era.
I stretched out my hands and was about to pinch myself, but this moment I was momentarily stunned, because these rough hands were not my hands at all.
Although I usually do some housework, but the calluses on my hands are definitely not so thick, I still pinched myself, and I grinned in pain, it turned out that all this was true.
I hurried to find the mirror, the old mirror was already mottled, but I saw what I look like now, it was obviously what my grandmother looked like when she was young, so what about my mother?
I opened the closed door and wanted to go out for a walk, when I saw a little girl feeding the chickens in the yard, the little girl was very thin, and she looked like she had been malnourished for a long time.
The little girl should have heard the movement and came to me, although the little girl's appearance has shrunk countless times, but I still recognize it, that is my mother-Li Pandi.
The name followed my mom all her life, but it wasn't a glorious thing, and I reached out to touch my mom's head, but my mom shrunk a little.
My mother's instinctive reaction made me feel distressed, and then the little girl timidly said, "Mom, I have finished washing my clothes, and the domestic animals have been fed." ”
Looking at the tattered clothes on my mother's body, I couldn't help but feel distressed, it turned out that my mother had such a hard time when she was young, and at this time, my uncle Li Jianguo ran back from the door.
As soon as he came back, he shouted at me, "Mom, it's so hot outside, I'm dying of thirst, give me a bowl of water to drink." ”
I looked at Li Jianguo, who had obvious fat on his body and relatively new clothes, and fell into silence, Li Jianguo saw that his mother had not moved for a long time, and was a little impatient: "I said I was thirsty, can't you hear me?"
At this time, my mother held a bowl of water in her hand and brought it to Li Jianguo, and just when Li Jianguo was about to reach out and take the water, I directly grabbed the water: "Don't you have long hands? Why don't you take the water yourself?"
Li Jianguo's eyes widened, obviously incredulous, he didn't understand, why did his mother, who was responsive to him, yell at him, and his sister had already done too many things like this, this time as usual, why was his mother angry?
Ignoring Li Jianguo, I turned around and went back to the house directly, I want to take a good look at it, what happened here is really too unbelievable.
After a while, I accepted the fact that I became my grandmother, maybe God also thought that my mother was miserable, so he sent me so that my mother could live the life she wanted.
But the first thing to do now is how to make money, looking at the four walls of the family, I can't help but feel a little worried, just under these conditions, how can I let my mother live the life she wants?
After thinking about it for a while, I decided to give myself some time to plan, after all, I came from the future world, and I had some foreknowledge of what was going to happen.
There are no electronics in this day and age, and I wanted to know the exact time, and after looking at Hitachi on the wall, I was sure that I was in 1970.
Don't worry, these decades are decades of rapid development, many people will take advantage of the east wind of the times to soar into the sky, although I didn't pay much attention to things before, but compared to other people, I am simply lucky.
03
When I was almost done, it was time for dinner, and I was ready to get up and cook, but when I got to the kitchen, my mom had already finished the meal.
I didn't expect my mother to do so many things at such a young age, and after my mother and I put the food on the table, Li Jianguo sat swaggering at the dinner table.
When he saw that the table was basically full of vegetarian dishes, he muttered and complained: "It's like this every day, it's like this every day, without a little oil and water, I'm going to be hungry and thin!"
I looked at his fleshy hand, was silent for a moment, and then said mercilessly: "This is your sister's hard-working cooking, you love to eat, if you don't like to eat, get out!"
Li Jianjun suddenly stood up and slammed his chopsticks on the table: "I don't hesitate to eat this dish, hum, I'm going to my uncle's to eat it!"
I'm also angry, I really can't have a trace of kindness to this person who will be trying to help my mother in the future: "You go, as long as you step out of this door, don't come back." ”
Li Jianjun stepped out of the house without the slightest hesitation, but what he didn't know was that his uncle was not such a good person......
I was not surprised when Li Jianjun's uncle, Li Shengli, brought Li Jianjun to the house, because in this era, it is especially difficult for a woman to live alone with children without a man.
Whether Li Shengli is really angry for Li Jianjun is really unclear, as soon as he entered the door, Li Shengli's mung bean eyes began to turn:
"Second child, what's the matter with you, how did I hear Jianjun say that you were cold to him, I think Jianjun is usually quite obedient, what's going on with you today?"
Li Jianjun thought that everything would be fine if he invited his uncle? Also, as long as he was wronged, he would run to his uncle's house, and his uncle relied on himself to be the boss of the Li family, and every time he led Li Jianjun to the door to preach.
And my grandmother, "Wang Suqin", because she felt that there was no man at home, always felt that she was a dwarf, so she would talk to Li Shengli politely every time, and when Li Shengli left, she would give Li Shengli some good things at home.
But I'm not Wang Suqin, I replied directly: "Yo, what kind of wind is blowing you here, what does it matter to me to discipline the child?
Li Shengli blew his beard and glared angrily after hearing this: "I'm worried about the only seedling of the second family, he has suffered unfair treatment, shouldn't I, as his uncle, care about this matter?"
I also didn't care: "Since you have said it, you are his uncle, since you are so worried, then it is better to put Jianguo directly in your house, after all, he is not even close to me." ”
As soon as these words came out, Li Shengli was instantly dumbfounded, and he said with a promise: "This is your child, how can I raise it?"
I sneered: "Why can't you raise it, you are not his own uncle? Since he kisses you better than my biological mother, and you love to stand up for him so much, then you two are quite suitable for a family." ”
I didn't wait for them to pull the skin again, I directly pushed them out of the house, Li Shengli and Li Jianguo outside the door stared at each other, Li Shengli just wanted to take advantage of a little advantage, and then play the prestige of a man by the way, where did I expect that this time Wang Suqin would not play cards according to common sense.
Li Shengli, who had no choice but to take Li Jianguo back to his home, turned around and went to the house and took out the good things that my grandmother had secretly stored before.
04
I have to say that my grandmother's heart is indeed biased, and she only secretly stuffed it to her son, no wonder Li Jianguo is so mellow, my mother has never eaten these good things.
Coincidentally, my mother came back from outside, and I hurriedly beckoned to my mother: "Come on, Brother Pan." ”
Regardless of the fact that my mom is 10 years old, but because of chronic malnutrition, she looks much petite than her peers, and after my mom came over, I shoved the candy cubes that were on the table into my mom's mouth.
My mother was stunned, and she was at a loss for a while, so I hurriedly said, "It's okay, you can eat with confidence, it's enough." ”
Li Pandi didn't know why, he felt that his mother seemed to have changed sex, she was only good to her younger brother before, but she liked such a mother very much.
Immediately, Li Pandi was a little worried and said, "Mom, I just heard that you asked your younger brother to go to your uncle's house, should we pick up my younger brother." ”
"Don't pick up, what to pick up, since he wants to love your uncle's family, then let him go, we can't stop it, besides, it's enough for my mother to have you in the future, and there is one more thing I want to ask you." ”
Li Pandi blinked, "What's the matter?"
"Do you want to go to school?"
"Go to school?" Li Pandi covered her mouth, she hadn't mentioned it to her family before, but Wang Suqin denied it all, because she felt that the water spilled by her married daughter, and no matter how good her daughter was, it could only be someone else's.
But Li Pandi really wanted to study, so sometimes, she would sneak to the window of the classroom to eavesdrop, and now that there was such an opportunity, she naturally couldn't ask for it.
Li Pandi nodded again and again: "Mom, I am willing, I will study hard and Xi and not let you down!"
I was also very happy to be infected by my mother: "There is another thing, that is, my mother wants to change your name, how about calling you Zhaomin?
The name has a dazzling meaning, and my mother should be dazzling!
Li Pandi tied two whips, smiled and nodded: "Listen to Mom, Mom, you are so good to me." ”
Seeing my mother so happy, I am also very happy, next, it's time to make money, it's not the busy season for farming, you can do some small business, my first thought is to go to the now developed place to buy something, and then go to other places to sell, I know that this kind of money is actually fast.
But I quickly gave up on the idea because I didn't have enough capital, and besides, my mom was too young and I had to keep my mom.
After thinking about it, I decided on the simplest "business", which was to make a small stall selling food, and in those days, I went to the city with my mother to sell food.
My mother's hands are very diligent, and she is very enthusiastic when customers come, in fact, she was more subtle at first, but after a few days of exercise, my mother is "handy" with many things on the stall.
When a few days passed, I already had some money in my hand, I bought some meat, my mother was too thin, I had to make up for it, I just cooked dinner that day, and asked my mother to eat together, but Li Jianguo came......
05
Li Jianguo no longer has the arrogance of the past, and the clothes on his body have long been dirty, but in just a few days, his face seems to have lost a lot of weight, and it seems that he is not doing well.
When Li Jianguo saw me, tears rolled in his eyes: "Mom, my uncle and aunt are not good to me at all, they think I eat too much, and then they simply don't give me food!"
In fact, I also know that Li Jianguo is still young, but I have never been able to forget that he is like a bloodsucker, sucking my mother's hard-earned money, and I don't know what kind of mood to face him.
At this moment, my mother tugged at my sleeve and said, "Mom, you can forgive my brother! ”
I snorted coldly: "This time for your sister's sake, I will forgive you, but there is no next time, after all, people's patience is limited, okay, wash your hands and eat." ”
Li Jianguo happily responded, and after washing his hands, he subconsciously picked up the bowl on the table, and I slapped his hand: "This is my meal with your sister, if you want to eat it, you can serve it yourself." ”
Li Jianguo didn't refute this time, after this time, Li Jianguo seems to have gotten a lot better, and his relationship with my mother is also good, and then I sent my mother to school to study, as for Li Jianguo, I don't want to care about him, after all, he went to school in his previous life, but he made trouble at school every day.
After another two years, Li Jianguo seemed to be interested in studying Xi, and then he found me and said that he wanted to study, I asked him what the meaning of reading was, he couldn't answer, I said let him think about this question and come to me again.
I thought that Li Jianguo would give up the heart of learning Xi, but I didn't expect Li Jianguo to think about this issue really seriously, in this society, everyone is actually very busy, I am not used to Li Jianguo, some work at home, I will let Li Jianguo learn to do.
Finally, Li Jianguo found me again, he said that he knew the meaning of reading, I looked at him in silence, he swallowed his saliva and continued:
"I want to read, not because others want to read, I also want to read, I think, I love it, during this time my sister taught me to read, my sister read out the text, that world, is what I want, so, let me read!
I was silent and didn't speak, and at this time my mother was beside me to help: "Mom, you see that since my brother wants to study so much, you should give him a chance to study!"
I pondered: Can people really change their own character? Or can Li Jianguo really "reform his ways"? I think I should give him a chance, I can't deny everyone when everything hasn't happened, I can give him a chance, but only once, it depends on whether he can grasp it.
"Okay, then I'll give you a chance, but you only have one chance, if you don't see you studying hard, then don't go. ”
Li Jianguo nodded again and again, after that, my sister and brother went to school together, and I began to earn money, only if I have enough funds, can I be regarded as having enough confidence.
Li Jianguo did not Xi and cause trouble as I thought, but began to study hard, and in his class, his grades were also "outstanding".
My mother's school Xi grades are needless to say, it must be the best, in the busy, time passes year after year, my mother's college entrance examination results are very good, and she went to the highest university in the country.
As for Li Jianguo, he didn't go anywhere, he also went to a very good university, and the relationship between the two sisters and brothers was not like in the previous life, but very good.
After they graduated, they each had a good place to go and had their own families, and thankfully, my mom didn't marry my father, and she lived happily.
After working hard for half my life, I finally lay on the hospital bed, at this moment, I seem to understand a little, my mother's mood at that time, I did it, my mother, should be like this.
But who am I? Wang Suqin? No, I'm Ruru, so what is my name? I can't even remember......
My eyes gradually blurred, and my ears were the cries of my mother and Li Jianguo, and when I opened my eyes again, I looked at my immature little hands, a little incredulous.
At this time, a familiar voice came: "Ru Ru, Li Xinru, my daughter, do you like this name?"
It turns out that I am Li Xinru!