Text丨 Weisheng Xiaoyun
Material丨Zhang Weimin
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【Preface】
I am the youngest son in the family, and there is an eldest brother above, and both of us were originally working in other places, but the old mother was hospitalized because of a fall while working, so we both rushed back.
Over the years, my mother has been asking me for money to subsidize my eldest brother, and my eldest brother got married and had children, and his family took hundreds of thousands, but he didn't have a penny when he came to me, so I still borrowed money to marry a wife.
Now that my mother is hospitalized because of wrestling, my eldest brother says that he can't take care of it, and seeing that his parents need to be taken care of, who will take care of it has become the biggest problem?
【1】
My mother has always been very partial to me, from childhood to adulthood, my eldest brother gave whatever he wanted, and hid whatever he had to eat for my eldest brother.
Later, the situation at home was not good, I dropped out of school to work, I ate with cheap goods from the stalls, and tightened my belt just to send money home, so that my parents could live a better life.
A few years later, the eldest brother married a wife and had children, and the parents took out all the money they had saved, saying that it was for the eldest brother to marry a wife.
And when I got married, my parents said that there was no money in the family, so I had to pull down my face and go around to borrow money.
I thought that life was getting better, but when I went home for the holidays, when my wife chatted with my sister-in-law, I learned that my eldest brother got married and bought a house, and my parents paid for it, and I myself was an "outsider" in this family.
Although I feel angry and uncomfortable, my parents raised me after all, and I can't ask for an explanation.
Therefore, after working outside for many years, I didn't pay much money to go back, but I just squeezed in time to go home more often, buy food for my parents, buy everything, and it is impossible for them not to use it.
In addition, they have been Xi to being thrifty all their lives, and they don't spend money on them, and finally save them for the eldest brother and their family.
I thought that life would go on like this, and after my eldest brother and I got married, my parents also retired and could enjoy happiness, but my parents couldn't stay idle.
Every time we persuaded them not to do anything, they said yes, but after two days they would sneak out to work, so something happened!
Maybe the parents still want to make some more money while they can do things, after all, there is always a time when the eldest brother needs money to do business, and they can still take a hand when the time comes.
However, the eldest brother is living so well now, they can all think about the eldest brother, I was so difficult at the time, when I whispered to ask others to borrow money, they just watched and said nothing.
These things are buried in my heart, and even my wife can feel that I sigh many times, but the partiality of my parents is a big mountain in my heart, and I really can't convince myself not to think about it.
My eldest brother is also busy in business, especially after he made some money, and my parents no longer think about making money from me to subsidize my eldest brother, and I am also relieved.
Until I received a call from a neighbor saying that my mother had fallen while working, I rushed to the hospital, this time the fall was a bit serious, and I might be paralyzed.
I was also very distressed in my heart, thinking that she was sixty or seventy years old, why did she still have to go out every day to find something to do, and there was no shortage of food and drink at home.
During this time, I stayed by my mother's side every day, washing her face and feeding her, and even the nurses praised me for my filial piety, but my mother never smiled, I knew that she was thinking about her eldest brother.
The eldest brother rarely came back to see his mother when he was working outside, and sometimes his mother looked at the photos of the eldest brother's family and was reluctant to make a phone call, saying that she was afraid that he would be busy and affect his work.
Even this illness, she stopped me from telling my eldest brother, saying that it was not easy for him to come back from other places, and it would affect his work when the time came.
At this time, I really want to ask my mother, I also have a job, I have a wife and children to support at home, I take care of her here every day, I am afraid that the company will fire me if I ask for leave again, why doesn't she want to think about me?
【2】
So I posted a circle of friends, deliberately forgetting to block my eldest brother, and took a picture of my mother hospitalized on it.
Sure enough, the eldest brother called after a while, saying that my sister-in-law swiped my circle of friends, did something happen at home?
The eldest brother immediately rushed home from out of town to visit his mother, who had been so good to him since he was a child, and he himself knew that if his mother really had any accidents, he couldn't let go of it.
As soon as the eldest brother arrived at the hospital, his mother's face, which had been depressed for many days, suddenly brightened, and she was talking about it.
"I said I wouldn't let the old man tell you, why are you still here, how busy you are with your work, mom is fine. ”
I watched their mother and son chatting, so I could only pick up the teapot and go outside to get hot water, and the relatives in the next bed asked me, are you a nurse or a son?
I smiled wryly and couldn't speak, but I was thinking in my heart, they were mother and son, and I was just a babysitter who was nothing, and suddenly for a moment, I wanted to put down the teapot in my hand and leave the hospital, but my conscience stopped me.
After that, the eldest brother stayed for a few days, and it was still my busy work, he just sat on the side and watched me busy, and one night the eldest brother suddenly pulled me out to talk.
"She still has to work at her age, and now that she has an accident, isn't it just adding chaos to the family? Let them stay at home and watch TV and bask in the sun, how can this happen?"
After his mother was hospitalized for wrestling, the eldest brother always went through old accounts when he was in the hospital, saying that his mother should not do things, and that now because she was hospitalized, he still has to ask the company for leave, which will affect his performance.
Naturally, the mother didn't want to drag the child down, so she kept asking the eldest brother to go back to work, saying that the hospital didn't need so many people, and repeatedly blamed me for not telling the eldest brother.
On the fourth day, my eldest brother was really leaving, and he said to me before leaving.
Little brother, mother, you watch more, I will pay some more money for medical expenses, you know that I still have two children and wives to support at home, and they can't leave me.
However, when the eldest brother left, my mother's face that was still smiling just now collapsed, and I didn't want to look at me, I was really aggrieved and aggrieved in my heart, why was my mother so partial to the eldest brother and only cared about the eldest brother?
【3】
At first, my wife thought that after all, it was my parents who didn't urge me, but after staying in the hospital for half a month, she felt that it was not a problem for me to spend in the hospital every day.
In the days when my eldest brother came, my mother ate well and slept soundly, but after leaving, she began to feel sad again, and she kept saying that the food I bought was not delicious, in short, everything was wrong.
I also have a lot of pressure in my heart, on one side is my own family, on the other hand is my mother, I have no one to talk to, I can only secretly cry at night, people are still so useless in middle age.
My wife also noticed that I was not in the right state, and finally found my sister-in-law without telling me about it, explaining the situation, saying that my mother could not be responsible for this matter alone, and we had to live.
My sister-in-law is not an unreasonable person, and finally she went to discuss with her eldest brother, and the next morning my eldest brother came from out of town, and he discussed with me whether to find a nurse, and when my mother was well, he asked her father at home to go to a nursing home with her.
When my mother was still in good health, she always took care of my father, and now my mother is hospitalized, and my father has always been taken care of by a nurse at home, and since we are all too busy, it seems that sending them to a nursing home is the best way.
At first, I was a little unbearable, thinking about having two sons of this age, and sending my mother to a nursing home, and my eldest brother also saw my thoughts.
Take the initiative to say, "I live in another place, my relatives are at home, they are not easy to take care of in the past, and they will not be willing to go, you yourself live in a two-bedroom apartment, who can you squeeze in?"
My eldest brother said the same, and finally I told my wife about it, and my wife breathed a sigh of relief, saying that it was no way, but I could feel that she was happy in her heart, so I didn't have to carry it alone.
This time, the eldest brother had to work before and after going to the nursing home, but the mother was dumbfounded, but the eldest brother opened his mouth, and she couldn't refuse.
"Mom, I'm really busy here, and I can't take you and my father to other places, we don't have anyone to take care of you, I found a good nursing home, someone to take care of, you can ......call me if you have something to do."
The eldest brother has said this, the mother can only open her mouth and can't speak, with an ugly smile on her face, this time I didn't catch up, after all, my mother only has the eldest brother in her heart.
I'm not stupid, and I have to continue to find guilt for myself, and what my wife said made me understand.
epilogue
After my parents went to a nursing home, I often went to see them, and the nursing home environment was actually good.
But my mother was still uncomfortable, and felt that she had been sent to a nursing home, and she cried a few times when I went to see her, and when the eldest brother came, she stopped crying again, and she was smiling.
Since then, I have also wanted to open, my mother is crying to me, but she wants me to take her out, but she doesn't want to trouble my eldest brother.
I've been sensible for so many years, I've suffered so much, I really don't want to eat anymore, and now the only thing I can do is to see her often, do my filial piety, and I can't do anything else.